The closer I get,
the farther I'll go.
Your Brown eyes pull me in,
Your amazing scent lures me closer,
Your warm hands bring me to you.
The closer I get,
The farther I've gone

Hey,
Remember me?
We went to school together,
We were friends.
No?
You were so important to me,
I guess I didn't mean as much to as you did to me.
That's ok, I guess I'll go now.

You were a whole chapter in my book,
But I was merely a sentence in yours.

This feeling in my chest,
This pain,
It's only when I think about you it hurts.
The pain you hid,
It eats you alive,
I've only seen you cry twice,
But I know I'm my heart that's not all that happens behind those deep brown eyes,
This pain, I thinks it's called love.

You were the strong one,
You didn't cry or break,
You stood up to bullies,
And fought your own fights.
Until you stopped.
You cried alone but I saw.
I saw you cry.
I saw your mask slip.
I want to know what happened.
I want to help,
But I won't push.
Maybe you'll tell me next time.

At Youth camp service the pastor asked all the troubled to pray at the alter,
He called it the alter call.
Dozens of teens stepped forward to pray,
The tears were almost to much for me,
I comforted all who finished,and
whether I knew them or not.
The you walked forward, all eyes on you,
You were the strong one,
You never broke,
What hell has broken you?
You one else and after everyone left, you stayed still praying.
I stayed behind waiting.
when you finally lifted your head your teary eyes met mine.
We hugged for an eternity not speaking,
You left and smiled at your friends, messing around, a flawless mask,
And I believed that lie for the longest time, But now I know you truly.
Only I knew the unbreakable boy has snapped.
And I think I love him.

I had a crush on you before you broke,
Things happened,
You changed and so did I,
You were done with it,
But it was just the beginning,
Life threw hell your way,
And you endured.
I had a crush on you before you broke,
Now I think I'm in love with you and your beautifully broken self.

It doesn't have to rhyme
all the time,
You just start
And let it flow from your heart.

You are a risk I'm willing to take.
Let's see if I made a mistake.

I write away the pain,
I trap it in ink,
These pages hold more then words,
They hold me.

You don't get to pick and choose,
Cutting me apart to fit into your puzzle,
I am whole,
And if you want my body you have to take my heart.
Sorry, but it's a package deal.

They are all around us,
The ghost of the girl I was before I met you,
The ghost of your touch on my skin,
The ghost of your name on my tongue,
The ghost of our mistakes.
It's all the past.
None of its real anymore.
We are now.

The icy air surrounds us,
Your scent almost overwhelms,
I feel your heartbeat on my cheek,
Your warm hands on my back,
The whispers in my ear,
I breath it all in.
I inhale our beauty

No it never ends well,
We fight,
We fall apart in each other's arms,
We clean each other when we're a mess,
We catch all the tears,
But In the end we tear each other apart,
We are better off without eachother,
But that is a whole new agony,
so again and again we go through the motions of this toxic romance.

Blessed are those eyes,
One green, one hazel.
A shade for heaven,
And a shade for earth,
Balanced on a smile worth a million words.
Blessed are those eyes

Those Hypnotic hazel eyes hold a map for the lost,
An illusionist can't fathom their beauty,
These eyes make you go crazy,
Those Hypnotic Hazel Eyes

Those lovely green eyes hold all the innocence in the world,
The forest has less shades of green then those eyes,
Those green eyes show a brand new beginning.

Those icy blue eyes hold no warmth,
I shiver but we're on fire,
Those icy blues steal my heat,
So shallow but deadly,
But they hold a lives worth of secrets,
Those icy blue eyes might be my end.

Your darkness swallows all heat,
Yet its the only thing keeping me from freezing to death.
Its gotten so bad,
I try to fight it.
But I can't help
That smile when you pop in my mind,
The fleeting moments when our eyes meet,
The smell when you're near,
You make me the happiest,
You make my world go round,
But you're no good for me,
I Don't want to fight it anymore.
I give in to you
And your darkness.

It all begins with Those deep brown eyes,
Those deep brown eyes have no end,
They hold the world,
These fleeting moments when nothing exists at all,
It all ends with those deep brown eyes.

You never have to get over something,
You just have to get through it for now.

If you can't go on dates,
You aren't old enough to date.

Some people were born for greatness,
Some worked to achieve it,
Some stumbled upon it.

Some let it slip between their fingers,
Some deserve it,
But can't have it.

Shoot for the moon,
You'll at least land among the stars.

If you like her,
Please tell her.

Sincerely, All girls

I think about you,
before I fall asleep,
When I wake up,
You're always on my mind.
Am I on yours?
Do you think about me the way I think of you?
Do you look at me from across the room when I'm not looking?
I think I'm in love,
But afraid you aren't

Why do you blame the children?
Who raised them?

Not all depressed cut,
Not all sad shed tears,
Not all strong fight,
Not all monsters roar,
Not all young are innocent.
Some just work harder to maintain a mask.
We are here,
And you have reason to fear,
We are the best liars,
We can manipulate the greatest con artist without batting an eyelash.
Watch out we are coming.

Once it was jewels of love and affection,
But you twisted it,
Now its thorns of desire and obsession.

I am not afraid of the dark...








I am afraid of what waits in the dark.

They might not be real,
You tell me they are all in my mind,
But what you don't know is that my mind is dark.
It makes everything worse,
It creates the fears,
It warps my thoughts,
Turning them into a cage
What am I supposed to do if my worst fear is my mind itself?

I am a magician!
Just watch me go,
I can make the tears disappear when you open the door.
I can hide my feelings,
You'll never find them,
****!!
The frown turns upside down.
I am an illusionist,
Caught in my own snares,
Only seeing my own tricks.

I am weak,
I feel sad,
I feel tired,
I feel used,
But I look strong,
I look happy,
I look alert,
I seem helpful.
But only because that's what I want you to see,
My perfect mask.

They say you can't miss what you    
never had,
But I still miss you.

When their eyes met the world stopped,
They were alone in a crowd,
She was afraid to feel,
He was afraid to be vulnerable,
She might have loved him,
He might have loved her.
But they'll never know.

She fell to her knees,
In a open field all alone.
She prayed,
She cried,
She screamed.
Nobody answered,
She tried to end her life.
Life left her,
But Death loved the girl,
Death took her by the hand,
Rose her off her knees,
Breathed life back through her lips,
And he whispered
" Not Yet"

Her weakness wasn't her love,
Instead it was her greatest strength
It had driven her to win,
to be the best,
Too drive for excellence.
Here only weakness was her hate,
It burned through her,
Like a forest fire threatening to devour every thing inside her
Her heart constantly battling between  her greatest strength and her greatest weakness.

The feels of a poet are never easily explained,
A string of words,
Scratches of a pencil,
We pour our heart into the note book beneath our pillows.
Expressing our pain, sorrow and joy all in one place,
Our safe haven.
But if you ask how we are the answer never changes.
We are fine.

My idea of a perfect Heaven,
Consists of all of the things I would go to hell for.
So where do I go?

A war rages in my heart,
The only casualties are my feelings,
My tears threaten to spill when we speak,
How do I tell you that I love another,
You are my brother,
If not by blood then by bond,
I can't live without you,
But I can't live with you,
If I tell you how far will you go?
Could I still reach you?
Can we go back to friendship?

The storm will come.
Or maybe it has already.
Maybe it's raining on you now.

But know this,
Sometimes the storm comes to clear a path.

Have you ever met a flame?  
Someone so beautiful,
You don't notice when they burn the world around you?
Someone so gentle,
You don't feel the heat?
Someone so graceful,
You only see their dance?

And so you follow,
Blind to the destruction in their path,
Numb to the burn every time you get close.
Knowing the only cure to this madness is to extinguish the flame.
But you go on,
Burning in euphoria.

Darling,
It wasn't my mistake,
You trusted me.
I was your only friend in the dark,
Your little secret,
Your little demon,
You were so beautiful before you broke.
Nobody could ever love some one like you.
Now you're worthless.
Without your looks you're nothing,
Without my voice you're lost,
Can't you see darling,
Your mind is broken,
But I'll take care of you darling,
Just do what I say and you will be beautiful again.
I love you darling.

We almost made it.
It was almost enough.
I was almost enough.
She almost lived.
He almost woke up.
They almost did it.
But it wasn't enough,
Only almost.

You can't see me,
You can't hear me,
It's a shell of a happier person I used to be.

I am trapped in my own mind,
The walls are crumbling,
But I'm still chained,
The chains are weak,
But I'm still stuck,
because I am afraid.

The walls are collapsing,
The roof is caving in,
Under the crushing weight of anxiety and depression.
I am afraid I am going to be crushed,
But I won't leave,
I am even more afraid of the outside

I don't want to be seen or heard.
I don't want to trap you with me.
I am dying,
You don't know,
I am dying.
But you are happy.

So I can be
fine.

I am sinking,
In a ocean so big,
Nobody will find me,
An ocean so deep,
My only friend is the dark,
I can't tell you,
I know you love me enough to rescue me,
But you can't,
Without sinking like me.
I am fine,
Until the darkness swallows me whole.

I laugh,
I smile,
I play,
I don't feel it,
Any of it,
I am afraid I'm dying,
Slowly,
I am fading away,
Slowly,
I am numb to any joy,
I scream,
I cry,
I fall apart,
Slowly,
But you are numb when I do,
You don't see it,
You don't hear it,
I am dying,
Slowly,
And you won't remember me.

Not What I Meant
I told you to leave,
I said I was fine,
I laughed it off,
There was something in my eye,

But that's not what I meant.

I needed you to stay,
I was falling apart,
Later I cried,
I just wanted to die.

Night and Day
I laugh,
I joke,
But that only lasts the day.

Then at night,
The sun goes down,
Along with my walls,
I  break,
I cry.
And just a little bit,
I die.

Then when the sun comes up,
So do my walls,
My smiles fake,
My tears dry.

My emotions are night and day.

The Weapons You Wield
Though they never touched my body,
Broke my skin,
Slashed at my flesh.

They tore at my heart,
Ripped up my mind,
Spilt my tears.

The pain is real.
The weapons you used are not the kind of war,
but the unkind words tinting my soul.
I lost the battle.
I intend to win the war.
-Madison Smith