Salpicar o teu rosto com farinha, enquanto preparassemos juntos o teu bolo favorito

Dar-te os beijos que me apetecesse, com os olhos, sempre que estivesses distraido a apreciar o "flowering tea", que te desse a escolher

Sentar-me no teu colo e ver-te desenhar

Fazer de ti a manta que me aconchega, entrelaçar os meus dedos nos teus e ver um filme até adormecer

Levar-te o pequeno almoço à cama e acordar-te com um beijo de bom dia.

Ser...
a única a conseguir te arrancar aquele sorriso nos piores momentos...
a bateria desenfreada a bater dentro do teu peito...
a tua melhor amiga...
quem faz valer cada acordar teu.

Que fosses a excepção que acreditei que eras, o porto seguro por quem vale a pena esperar para partilhar a vida.

Por ti... por nós... mudei, ignorei medos e arrisquei...
Não deste valor... desacreditei.

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Alguma vez entrelaçaste os teus dedos nos meus com orgulho?
O teu olhar... o teu sorriso... em mim alguma vez quiseram morar?
Nem Homem foste para me encarar!

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Dreams and Romance?
Only in poetry!
In real life?
My goodness!
What a joke
. . .

Thank you for inoculating me against this cancer that takes over the mind and heart.
No soul deserves such humiliation.

. . .

I saw perfection in your smile...
I believed in you as my safe harbour!  

Disarmed by your daring glance...
I neglected myself over you!

What a blind, ******* heart of mine!

Now that I am back to Earth…
I no longer recognize you!

Toxic love,
Why did you have to be so shallow?!

. . .

. . .

Was it some kind of vengeance from other bites?
Was it laziness or fear to be something special?!
Not good enough to embrace your squares?
I hope at least it fuelled your ego’s edges.

. . .

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Once upon a time…

There was a Chocolate bar...

Seeking for artistic inspiration…

Had the boldness to mess up my brain...

Designing me a heart infection.

Was it all fiction?

Maybe it was or maybe not…

Like my 1st addition...

The Winter is gone,

Shattered Storyboard.

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Devilish disease
Fake daydream
****** surgery

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How come your lips only had poison to offer??

It is such a cowardice to make someone to love blindly, without intending to stay and treasure…

**Why?
Well... devious heartless huntsman...
Congrats!

You have lost the love that cherished you the most.

GAME OVER

I learned the lesson in the hard way.

∞

I wish I could live within you...
I wish I could invade your mind...
I don't know how to make you love me...
I don't know how to earn your time...

∞

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A chess game and a slamming door?!

Really??

Such a heartless way to thrill!

Somehow

The world keeps spinning
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© Christina Philipe

∞
Flattered you should feel
If in the absence of a bond
Loyalty speaks louder
against a worthy heart
because of you
∞

© Christina Philipe

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I was secretly admiring what seemed unattainable...
For my surprise, your loving stare kissed my thoughts...
Even knowing that we have run over our story...
Since you are too busy or afraid to tame pristine flaws...
To the most exquisite Moonlight I make my wish...
So at least, I could see your smile once more...
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"It is a curse to wish for a romance in a hook up culture nowadays"
...
You were the first piece of art in my museum
so
no matter what
you will always be special

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In the lull of deserted beaches
I admire those towering waves
I dive into cherished reveries
unravelling unrequited shells
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I hate being no longer the owner of my own world...

It hurts that I had woken up for a colourless firework...

I hate having my heart aching for an empty half...

It hurts not to be able to see you, Northern Light...
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That devious stare of yours,

deeply drowned in reveries
. . .

Lickerish quicksand of yours,

craving for reddish stories
. . .

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© Christina Philipe

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Restless shield,
disassembled by the Serpentine's endearment...

Dormant Garden,
ambushed to bloom alluring hues...

Hummingbird,
flying overseas, painting a veiled sky...

Enigmatic rehearsal,
yearning for what? The sweetest ****?!

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© Christina Philipe

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Wondering around in these stirred dreams,
I sabotage endlessly the hourglass, spinning for a clue.
Every dawn, my attempts stumble in tangled battlefields,
Tenacious wish to ransack that hollow shell from you.
.
Unravelling every whisper from your ink,
My soul collides with such enigmatic tenderness.
The wondrous river from your alluring venom,
Infecting me with a mesmerising madness.
.
Your prickly ways smother me into a serpentine abyss...
A bitter-sweet curse tears relentlessly my soul...
Forced to smudge your tenebrous bliss...
The scent that deeply ingrained my skin after all...
.
An Urban Venom with a Pristine Orchid?
Reckless Heart!
.
Through the shooting star's lull... The bloodstream I will soothe with a wiser armour,
Healing labyrinth's cracks...
Being the master of a New Chapter.

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© Christina Philipe

My mind bursts in fear
Upcoming electrifying storm of needles and terrifying tools
... whatever that comes next...
I don't care if it will be fast and simple.
It's MY body, MY pain.
If I must sign for it, it should be my choice!
My cloudy eyes seek only one thing on the death's menu...
General anaesthesia please.
Hospitals... HELL in disguise.

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Dear Nest made by golden strings,
Remarkable Guardian, dazzling Thunder,
I don’t want you to watch me burn.
but, I do know, that one way or another...
It will be in your arms that I will overturn.

Glide through those adorable winds.
Embellish that Sky with your finest colour.
She wafts well your powerful wings,
With real echoes as a celestial lover.

Dear immortal and treasured Valentine,
Irreplaceable you were and always will be.
Blissful new edges frost our noble Storyline,
Royal Blessings to you, New Melody.

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© Christina Philipe

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Would it be to much if I...

Can we mend our hearts and entwine our veins stormily like we used to?

I am ready now!

Make me THE hostage of your thirst...

Relish our New Glory Days...

I will only accept Eternity if it will be shared with you.

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© Christina Philipe

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In the warmth of the danger threshold,
flaming lover’s ink only gets magnified...
I really tried to behave myself but it's so painful!
Every inch of me yearns for you ardently,
naked from unthinkable fears soon or later we will be...
so stop doing that silly camouflage thing,
it swirls down my skin’s sanity!

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© Christina Philipe

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Your essence is so embedded within my soul,
Thick bloodstream I tried to heal pushing you away.

Desperately my vicious heart I ripped out,
So I could tame my pain and set you free.

It didn’t turn out like I thought!
I became dormant… but only for a while.

My heart only got even louder screaming for your name,
Seeking memories of how it felt like to be yours,
Bleeding over your possible grave,
Regretting not being selfish for our love,
… for risking it all…

There is no safety in love.
Life is so short and fragile now so...
Craving for your life, craving for what we had,
I needed to know how deadly were the damages.

… Somehow…

Not too soon, but never too late…
The stars restored their lost constellations,
Nature guided you back home.

… Finally…

Gold and Silver might blend again…

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© Christina Philipe

Dear flaming and wild heart,
Flashes from our past, used to ease my pain.
Bitter sweet memories I treasured...
The privilege of being yours…
When in your arms I felt at home…
When our magic was so powerful…
Have we really lost it for eternity?
Your dried roses are bleeding.
You are here now but…
They still scream out for our story, for our flame.
Why do we have these vicious winds haunting us?
If you only knew how much I wish...
At least your heart is still beating...

© Christina Philipe

Masked glance, iced slaps...
Soul's music turned off by a thunderstorm...

She used to rock the world with such bliss...
But why, if no one seems to appreciate it for real?

She looks up to the sky and realises...
This world was never meant for her harp.

No one gets the shapes that her mind draws up in the clouds...
No one, not even them!

Betrayed by the rain of sharp broken mirrors...
she lost her wings and stopped flying high.

She finally learned...

It's not wise to smile with the heart...
at least not in this world!
Teeth only grow up twice and...
dancing flames will always get lost in the sea...

Cruel reality, bleeding heart.

© Christina Philipe

You are the only one to blame for all of this...
I am ****** because of you.
Death sings through my veins now.
You were supposed to take care of me
and look... what have you done...
Your eyes locked me in bitter sweet flames.
For what? Tell me? If we weren't meant to be anyway…
Your charming ability to disarm me even when I'm in a burst mode...
I don't know why you still have that power...
It is so unfair!
Why can't I set myself free from this cruel torment?
Make it easier and end all of this once and for all.
The right moment will never come anyway...
Didn't I suffer enough already?
What is holding you?
Sick devotion?
I don't love you. I don't hate you either, but I should…
I hate myself for not hating you!
Sometimes I wonder…
What would you do if the nightmare would kiss your loved ones...
Would you be capable to finish your original task looking into my eyes?
Your intentions are the only foggy lines in your mind that I can't reach.
I am a hopeless walking corpse spreading ashes where ever I go…
My Essence will always belong to you,
cause of the infection in my soul...
I am thirsty. I need electricity. You know that. What should I do?
Guide me. Do something right for once.
Your flesh should pay for the state that you left me in.
Empty and cursed.
Floating in a tasteless life, day by day,
knowing…
no one can bring me back to life, like you used to...
Why are you still here?
Go away.
Go while you can.
It will become very ugly soon or later.
No one, not even you will be able to make it stop.
Just go.


© Christina Philipe

Your amber eyes penetrate my soul,
naked I feel and gravity loses control.
All around you, for my balance I seek,
then I lose it, amazed by your heart beat.

Everything in you invites me in.
With strange feelings my body glows,
dazzled by your passionate glare,
I surrender in our daring stare.

My personal brand of sweet poison,
sublime desire in every edge of you,
in a million frenzy battles we sink,
breathless our flaming souls spin.

Eternal vows under the starry nights we share,
expelling unbearable thoughts of being apart.
Unconditional love, screams through our veins,
reflecting the sweet insanity of our hearts.

Interlaced in my arms, you dive in peaceful dreams,
my adorable new life, you sway our bodies heavenly.
I trace every line of you when you're sleeping...
and then I whisper...
I do love you sweetheart, for all Eternity.


© Christina Philipe

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Diary of my dreams
golden harp, treasured soul
thank you for drying my tears
when I am loosing control
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In our private cloud
devious secrets we share
with your lullaby, safer I feel
and all my shadows disappear
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Dear sis, wild velvet heart
I cherish every second, every word...
Your hilarious wind and wise glow
inspire me to fly high wherever I go
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In a quirky world we found each other
maybe it was meant to be...
You make me proud, you make it worth
moon and star forever we will be.


© Christina Philipe

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Eternal ****** rose
temple of joy and tears
I'll treasure all the love
for a thousand years.
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© Christina Philipe

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Every edge of you,
used to be mine.
Your heartbeat,
our flaming kiss...
Never lost in my mind.
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© Christina Philipe