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Apr 2020 · 196
Taylor Apr 2020
i lost 5 pounds,  am i skinny enough yet?
i used that lipstick you told me to use, does it look good?

i bought those new clothes everyone wears,  do i look cool enough?
i join the cheer team to fit in more, do they like me yet?

i had *** with that popular guy, am i breaching my adolescence
i started smoking ***, am i a cool enough stoner yet?

i started wear a full-face of makeup, am i attractive enough yet?
i shrunk my waist 5 inches, am i more desired now?

i started skipping school, am i fitting in with the status quo?
i started sneaking out, am i risky enough?

i got my nose pierced , is it edgy enough?
i dyed my hair to the blonde white you have it. so we can match?

i keyed that girls car who's such a freak, is that more acceptable
i bullied that girl and she killed herself, wasn't she such a freak?

im in the hospital now i lost too much weight
i ended up failing school for so much
im in debt for all the clothes i bought

the popular guy ended up getting me pregnant
i got arrested for keying her car and threatening her
my hair ended up falling out from all the bleach

my organs are shutting down from all the weight loss
i ended up addicted to drugs
my face now breakouts from all the products i used

i ruined my parents marriage by sneaking out and lying
i joined the cheer team and ended up trying to fit in
im currently dying ,  do i fit in enough yet?
this is about what we struggle with in our teens years
Apr 2020 · 322
Taylor Apr 2020
moral of the story
is in the end
what destroys me ?
destroy me
and enjoy
watching me burn
as you throw
more propane
on the fire
and laugh
as you walk
destroy me slowly and you seem to savor every piece
Mar 2020 · 59
Adolescent Mistakes
Taylor Mar 2020
Pain form you
Is a memory
That is real as the day
And cold as the night
The pain you give
reminds me constantly
of things at night that shouldn't have happened
yet your laughing
the pain reminds me of things
that make me cry myself to sleep
nightmares brewing throughout my sleep
selecting crying through my teeth
Reminding me of who I used to be
Reminding me of who I was
once again i am awakened
from my terrible sleep
Mar 2020 · 326
your toxicity
Taylor Mar 2020
your every word
reeked of toxicity
but i ignored it
and continued to love you
which is my biggest regret
went through a toxic breakup and im trying to relearn what love it
Mar 2020 · 575
Taylor Mar 2020
we are expected to be held
to a certain standard of living
in which we maintain our facades
and navigate the web of lies
the society has trained us to say
in certain situations that call for them
at what point did we decide
to care about what society thinks
who decided that skinny was good?
and blond hair and blue eyes was perfect
and a dark tan meant good health
that certain brands meant you were a high-roller
at what point did we start giving a ****
about what the worlds standards were
at what point did we lose ourselves
and become tiny pieces of each other
at what point did we become pieces of everybody else
its sad to see we are made of pieces of others
at what point did we lose ourselves
and forget who we really are
i forgot who i was finally
staring into the glare
of a fiery future of people
who are mindless drones
of society
lately I've been noticing everyone is losing themselves and becoming what society wants
Mar 2020 · 330
beautiful royalty
Taylor Mar 2020
beautiful darling i know its hard
to have your scattered dreams and hopes thrown around
but tomorrow you need to get up
and fix your crown
don't let him have that power over you
because that my dear
is letting him win
so get up beautiful
and stand tall and smile
because today is your day
with your crown
here beautiful you dropped your crown <3
Mar 2020 · 474
Taylor Mar 2020
one word brings everything to a verge
of a million setting suns
setting fire to the sunset
of the oblivion of time
the galaxy awaits
for a million more
a million settings suns is a fiery awakening
Mar 2020 · 141
the end
Taylor Mar 2020
the boy
the girls
and they
died in
he refused
give it
odd poem i thought of
Mar 2020 · 389
Taylor Mar 2020
i close my eyes
because my heart seems to ache
with a feeling i cannot place
just a little poem for your evening reading
Mar 2020 · 184
Taylor Mar 2020
Stop waiting for him to come back
The idealism only makes it harder to get over him sweetheart
something that i know many of us will relate to in ways we hope for things that are already gone
Mar 2020 · 439
Haiku #5
Taylor Mar 2020
a wandering soul
among the shattered bones of dreams
picking through the piles
just another thought while we are all in covid19 isolation
Mar 2020 · 307
the edge of us
Taylor Mar 2020
I've reached the edge and now it's time to say goodbye
but it's not really goodbye forever just for now
I love you my darling
i wrote this poem years ago but I've been adding onto it and taking away it the poem is just its been in my head so enjoy seeing in my head even for a brief moment and maybe it will help you understand more. xoxoxo
inspired from this "Never say goodbye, because saying goodbye means going away. And going away means forgetting. -J.M Barrie
Feb 2020 · 72
Taylor Feb 2020
im so tired of always being hurt
i met this girl and i was falling in love with her
it was right after i brokeup with my boyfriend about a month ago
and i was falling for her in every single way she was beautiful
she called me her angel her beautiful angel
and she was my queen i was her king


he was the love of my life
we dreamed of moving to cali together
getting married
having we finally agreed on one kid
he was my everything my world
i loved all his flaws and
he loved all of mine
i was his baby
and he was mine
we talked for hours about our future
where we would go
what after high school
our struggles
our hopes
our dreams
our fears
all of us
then one day

he didn't love me anymore
even though two days earlier
we were deciding on what part of cali
to move to
and he wanted to give me a promise ring

i think what breaks you is
when i asked "when did you stop loving me"
he replied "now"
that broke me
into a million
brokeup withh the love of my life a month ago and then i found this girl i had a crush on for a year and she felt the same way and we were falling for each other and then last night she said she loves me but not in that way
Jan 2020 · 309
Haiku #4
Taylor Jan 2020
i open my eyes
hopefully to see the moon
all i see is dark
just another comparison
Jan 2020 · 579
Haiku #3
Taylor Jan 2020
uprising swell of
sea foam bubbling over
once again is calm
just a little odd number i came with in my odd spare amounts of time
Jan 2020 · 264
my heart
Taylor Jan 2020
you knew my biggest insecurity
and you used it against me
i was like the pawn
in your little game
just got out of a toxic relationship and writing about it seems to help ease some of the pain.
Taylor Jan 2020
you knew how much i was hurt in my past
you told me you wouldn't hurt me like they did
you told me you loved me
that i was pretty
that i was kind
that i was  everything
everything to you
i gave you my soul
i opened up to you
i trusted you
i loved you
i fell for you
i laughed with you
i cried with you
i comforted you
i gave you everything
and one day
i ask why are you being so cold?
i ask when did you stop loving me
your reply "now"...i think that truly broke me
just went through a breakup but the relationship was toxic yet i hurt more than he does
Oct 2019 · 267
Haiku #2
Taylor Oct 2019
you do this everytime
with tears, collecting my things for good
you are my past now
about how well we finally have to leave
Oct 2019 · 121
Taylor Oct 2019
i keep
getting dragged
back out to sea
by the restless waves
that he created
so i can't escape
its his sick games
to keep me coming back to him
I hate him
Apr 2019 · 54
Taylor Apr 2019
This girl is empty
A once full glass
Shattered across the floor
Delicate little pieces
Littering the floor
This girl is once again
Another little one I thought up
Apr 2019 · 173
Am I?
Taylor Apr 2019
Am I enough
Surely I ponder
It doesn't seem to be
Another layer of makeup applied
Another drink from the bottle
Different relationship this week
Drowning my troubles in things
All of this I ponder down to the depths
Am I enough?
I don't rightly know
I look up at the woman
Ma'am I don't know
Been thinking this is a quick write sorry if it's bad enjoy!
Mar 2019 · 257
My colors have thoughts
Taylor Mar 2019
my thoughts are endless
but quick clear
but sometimes my dear
I think in color
vivid blues and greens and blinding yellows you see
but lately all I've come to know
is the darkness of black and blue
and all it holds
but the beautiful golds and pinks
that streak the sky
that is the sight worth
Just been feeling down lately and wanted to get ot off my chest :-_
Feb 2019 · 462
Haiku #1
Taylor Feb 2019
I feel like the sky
I want to see the sunrise
Yet I fall everytime
Just a little haiku
Feb 2019 · 108
Taylor Feb 2019
All I see is blue
Through my eyes
Tears clouding my vision
I miss seeing the sunrise
Do you remember what it looks like ?
I certainly dont
Do you mind describing it to me
So I can know once again
I cant see anything through my eyes
They are clouded with tears and ugly little lies
Society has placed on ME
Without even ASKING
My vision is fading
Along with the sunrise
I know this is true
But I cant see you
I wish I could more than anything else
But here I am
Blind to everything else
This is another poem for mental health awareness I've realized there needs to be more out there for people to realize depression is real anxiety is real suicide is real. I want to be the part of society to help open the eyes so others too can experience the beautiful sunrise
Feb 2019 · 2.4k
No You Don't Belong With Us
Taylor Feb 2019
Are you okay?
I reply No
Oh well society says
You don't belong to us
With smooth pale faces
Secrets are hidden among us
Besides you aren't
Enough for our Standards
Sorry you didn't make the cut
You can always apply next year
This is full of metaphors and things representing what society is doing to people. That is something society needs to wake up and realize we are all alike but seperated by our flaws but our flaws shouldn't make us outcasts.
Feb 2019 · 301
Sky Rise
Taylor Feb 2019
I desperately wish
I could open my eyes
And once again see the sunrise
Against the pale blue sky
Just a little poem I thought up!
Feb 2019 · 711
The Edge
Taylor Feb 2019
I've reached the edge and now it's time to say goodbye
but it's not really goodbye it's just another start
another reality in time
I love you darling
something i came up with a while ago

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