Brick by brick
I'm building a new foundation
In weakness and strength
I hide in fear of some of God's creation
but there are just somethings
That need to be admired
The tree's, The rivers and open oceans
The mountains that stand tall over us
But most of all I admire you

I'm hanging on every word you say
(ooh) Speechless
Hopelessly lost within your words
(So) breathless
I can't even say a word
She's everything a man dreams of
Her voice is sweet, honest and true
Oh, girl, I'm amazed by you

Struck with a new sensation
Brick by brick
I'm completing a new foundation
I'm starting to learn
She can be my medication
She makes everything better
With her dedication
Her kiss, Kiss
Has got me (Blushing)
It starts my blood (rushing)
Her sweet, Sweet taste
Has created a new flavour
She's making me feel
A little bit braver
I can try, But I know I can't win
She already has my heart
Caught in a string

I'm hanging on every word you say
(ooh) Speechless
Hopelessly lost within your words
(So) breathless
I can't even say a word
She's everything a man dreams of
Her voice is sweet, honest and true
Oh, girl, I'm amazed by you

If I could give you the stars (I would)
It's heaven on earth
When I'm with you
I feel there's nothing that I can not do.
You're so amazing, girl.
I can feel my heart racing,
the fires of love are blazing
She's a princess
that leaves me speechless
Caught up
And hung up on you
I'm trapped, in a web,
I can't break loose

I'm hanging on every word you say
(ooh) Speechless
Hopelessly lost within your words
(So) breathless
I can't even say a word
She's everything a man dreams of
Her voice is sweet, honest and true
Oh, girl, I'm amazed by you

©2017 Written By Benji James

What happens when you've made,
All the mistakes you can make?
What happens when that part of you
That holds you up breaks?
What does it take
to make that part of you,
that you hate,
how do you make that fade?

Bless your soul
Your a rolling stone
Travelling down this,
long hard road
You use your inner strength
Yeah we got faith
We all know our
Trust in love
Is never misplaced

I've been killing off the demons
in my dreams
But they somehow come back
And grab a hold on me
How can I erase that pain?
How can I escape that fate?
When it's so deeply encrypted, into my brain?
Have you seen the strain I face?
Have you been to this place?
You know the part of you,
that you can't escape
There must be a way to clean the slate
Grab yourself an empty plate
So that you can start again
Or at least that's something I can dream

Bless your soul
Your a rolling stone
Travelling down this,
long hard road
You use your inner strength
Yeah we got faith
We all know our
Trust in love
Is never misplaced

I've seen the dark
Where red eyes linger
I've seen the fire
That burns away
the core of your soul
How can you come back from that all
We've all been low and knee deep
In the quicksand of life, it seems
But this is what happens
when you're buried six feet deep
And you're trying to get out
But you can't breathe
You've tried to use others
To get you out
But there only seems,
to be one way now
You need to dig your way out
Of this underground

Bless your soul
Your a rolling stone
Travelling down this,
long hard road
You use your inner strength
Yeah we got faith
We all know our
Trust in love
Is never misplaced

©2017 Written By Benji James

She loves like she hasn't loved before
And it leaves you hanging wanting more
The serenity is intensely seen, in your eyes
As the moon revolves around the world
At the speed of light, while we take a
Trip through the starry skies
And our seas of love will rise
While something in our stomach ignites
A fire burning so bright so bright
You can feel it in the air,
Something that was never there
It's tumbling, crumbling away
The walls that you built to stay
Just fell now you float away

So take my hand (You can trust me)
So take my hand (You gotta believe in me)
Babe, you gotta know I would never hurt you
(I'll be there to catch you when you fall)
And you've never felt like this before
So take my hand (You can trust me)
So take my hand (You gotta believe in me)
You've made me a better man
So come on, And be my girlfriend
Baby just take me by the hand

You're the brightest of all the colours
The chemistry we are sending one another
Oh, baby, I'll be your shelter and protection
The hard times are gone, I'll wipe away those tears
You are cute as can be
And you've never taken the time to see
What is inside of you and me
Thousands of fireflies will light our skies
While I hold you in my warm embrace
And the butterflies will never cease to fade
Oh baby take a little time, We can make this right
Whatever it takes
Babe, tell me if you need a little space
Because there's no room for mistakes
When your so perfect, And that's not a hint
I just want life to be bliss
Together forever, Life won't be better
Without you, Without you

So take my hand (You can trust me)
So take my hand (You gotta believe in me)
Babe, you gotta know I would never hurt you
(I'll be there to catch you when you fall)
And you've never felt like this before
So take my hand (You can trust me)
So take my hand (You gotta believe in me)
You've made me a better man
So come on, And be my girlfriend
Baby just take me by the hand

And I say that you're amazing
In how you've created a sea of love
In which we can drown
Oh tell me where does the part end
and how, we're getting deeper than
I've ever been, and I think that you're showing
Me places I've never seen
And it's crazy, How much I couldn't see
That you were in love with me
Where, When did I go blind
I threw my heart out on the line for all this time
You were there, and I just didn't understand
How you pictured me as your boyfriend.
So let the sunshine through
It will guide me back to you
Every single time your my raise of light
So let the sunshine
With my rainbow in the sky
You're my rainbow in the sky

So take my hand (You can trust me)
So take my hand (You gotta believe in me)
Babe you gotta know I would never hurt you
(I'll be there to catch you when you fall)
And you've never felt like this before
So take my hand (You can trust me)
So take my hand (You gotta believe in me)
You've made me a better man
So come on, And be my princess
Baby just take me by the hand
You can trust in me.
So so take my hand
You gotta believe in me
Believe in me.

©2017 Written By Benji James

I wanna use your heart
Like an acoustic guitar
Let all the emotion pour out
And turn it into sound
Tell me all about
The troubles in your head
That keep you awake so late
While lying in your bed
Tell me about
The nightmares you dread
Tell me what hurts
That has been said
I'm here to serve and protect
And there is one thing
I must confess
I cleaned you up
When you were a mess
I've seen you at your worst
And at your best.

I love you
I love you
I love you
I wanna take you away
Let's get out of this place
Take my hand, pack your things
And will run away
Will go somewhere
Where we can be together forever

I can see your soul
Behind your eyes
I can see the truth
Behind your lies
I can feel the hurt
Behind your smile
I know you want me to stay
Longer than a while
I know you want me
to hold you tight for the whole night
I can see the tears you want to cry
Go ahead let it out,
I'm here with you right now
I can see you want me in your eyes
I can feel the love you hold inside
(YEAH)

I love you
I love you
I love you
I wanna take you away
Let's get out of this place
Take my hand, pack your things
And will run away
Will go somewhere
Where we can be together forever

Don't pull away
Find your way in to me
Just take a look and you will see
How much you really mean
I've been your strength
Through the fall
The demons
We fought them all
I've been there
Every time you called
Now take a chance
Let's make this change
It a decision we both have to make
Don't let me fade
Don't let me down
Because I always want you around
I need you here
You need me to
Don't let these thoughts
Escape from you
Cuz I can see
that you love me
And you know
that I will always be
The one for you

I love you
I love you
I love you
I wanna take you away
Let's get out of this place
Take my hand, pack your things
And will run away
Will go somewhere
Where we can be together forever

©2017 Written By Benji James

I'm a write this one in blood
Straight from the arteries
Of my heart, I'm stuck
In situation overload
Currents on overflow
And I can't fight this feeling
Killing me slowly
(On the inside)
There's something deep in my soul
I'm losing, being taken over
I've lost all function in my body
Guess I'll just lay here on the floor
Can't find the will
To keep on walking anymore
Maybe I should just crawl
Nah leave me here
In this dark room
With just these memories of you

Crown me the King of failure
I failed myself
For believing your lies
I failed myself for thinking
There could have ever been a us
Crown me the King of failure
For failing myself
For not listening to what was being, said in my head

I'm crushed
Crashing my dreams
Wanted so bad to believe
You were the one
I got crushed
Betrayed by emotions
All over again
I've been, crushed.
Yeah crushed
Crushed, by love

Oh, girl, I'm not even
The slightest bit mad
I'm just really sad
That you would lie like this to me
You said that you trusted me
You said there was no boundary between us
Remember when you said that
How could you let those words come out?
When none of this was true
I won't suffer in your silence
I won't let that hurt form into violence
And in your ignorance
Maybe I hurt
Maybe I fall
But I won't let this destroy my soul

Crown me the King of failure
I failed myself
For believing your lies
I failed myself for thinking
There could have ever been a us
Crown me the King of failure
For failing myself
For not listening to what was being, said in my head

I'm crushed
Crashing my dreams
Wanted so bad to believe
You were the one
I got crushed
Betrayed by emotions
All over again
I've been, crushed
Yeah crushed
Crushed, by love.

Oh gotta stay strong
Keep holding on
Find a way to move on
Yeah gotta keep moving forward
Keep looking straight
And don't lose focus
Come on I know you know this
Never wanted to give up
Never wanted to give in
Thought we could have worked out everything
But your choice has been made
You never wanted me to stay
Why could you never just say that to me
Why couldn't you just be completely honest with me

Crown me the King of failure
I failed myself
For believing your lies
I failed myself for thinking
There could have ever been a us
Crown me the King of failure
For failing myself
For not listening to what was being, said in my head

I'm crushed
Crashing my dreams
Wanted so bad to believe
You were the one
I got crushed
Betrayed by emotions
All over again
I've been, crushed
Yeah crushed
Crushed, by love.

It's time to let go
Shut the door
You left me all alone
To work this out on my own
Typing lines on my phone
At least you were kind enough
To leave me new material
Got so much I could write an album
You'll never see me drowning
These emotions that you left,
were only a challenge.
Just a test
You didn't want me at my worst
You'll never get me at my best
All right, oh yes
I'm getting over it
Yeah I'm moving past this

Crown me the King of failure
I failed myself
For believing your lies
I failed myself for thinking
There could have ever been a us
Crown me the King of failure
For failing myself
For not listening to what was being, said in my head

I'm crushed
Crashing my dreams
Wanted so bad to believe
You were the one
I got crushed
Betrayed by emotions
All over again
I've been, crushed
Yeah crushed
Crushed, by love.

©2017 Written By Benji James

She's sitting alone in the dark tonight
You haven't seen all the tears she cried
You haven't seen all the wounds she hides
She keeps her deepest feelings inside

And she'd stand for him in the pouring rain

Just so, she could be in his arms again

If he left she'd never feel the same

He's the blood that flows through her veins

In her heart is the place he'll always remain

The girls trying to keep her, head held high
She's trying to hide her tears behind a smile
And every time he looks her way
She hangs on every breath he takes
She takes in every word he says
She tries so hard not to break away

She tries so hard to shelter her heart
The girls loved him from the start
She's afraid to let him see her flaws
She's not brave enough
To let him through her walls
The broken hearted girl stands tall
While she anticipates her next fall

This girl could cave in anytime
This girl feels invisible all the time
She's trying so hard to show him the sign
That she wants him by her side
And it's only a matter of time
Before she decides
Whether she'll stay his prisoner tonight
She'd give everything to break out of the chains
But she's still burning in the flames
And she still feels the shame
She feels part of the blame.

The girls trying to keep her, head held high
She's trying to hide her tears behind a smile
And every time he looks her way
She hangs on every breath he takes
She takes in every word he says
She tries so hard not to break away

She tries so hard to shelter her heart
The girls loved him from the start
She's afraid to let him see her flaws
She's not brave enough
To let him through her walls
The broken hearted girl stands tall
While she anticipates her next fall

Regrets we've all had a few
But the girl doesn't realise
The boy is hiding things from her to
She wants to make a change
He secretly calls out her name
The mascaras running beneath her eyes
She's wiped those tears a million times
But it's alright to cry
Over the boy too shy to give her his time
Over the boy who misses all the signs
Over the boy who can't see her dying inside

The girls trying to keep her, head held high
She's trying to hide her tears behind a smile
And every time he looks her way
She hangs on every breath he takes
She takes in every word he says
She tries so hard not to break away

She tries so hard to shelter her heart
The girls loved him from the start
She's afraid to let him see her flaws
She's not brave enough
To let him through her walls
The broken hearted girl stands tall
While she anticipates her next fall

©2017 Written By Benji James

You were taken way to soon
I guess God has big plans for you
How can I deal with these feelings
How can I concentrate
When I don't understand
Why you, were taken away
I'd come and join you tonight
Up in that starry sky
But I know you'd want me
To keep on living my life
So I promise you I'll fulfil my dreams
Just like I told you
There's still so much I haven't given
So tonight this one is for you

You're still here within my heart
You're in my thoughts
(I know you can hear me)
You're in my dreams
(I still see you)
Oh I hope you hear my prayers
Because every word I say to you
You know it's true

I still feel you
All around me
The warmth you gave
Still, surrounds me
The light you gave
Can still be found in me
Just gotta look deep down
To see you're still here with me

Sometimes I cry myself to sleep
Sometimes it's hard
Just to make it through the week
Nothing has ever cut this deep
Why did you leave us
Why did God take you away
Why couldn't he have just let you stay
I question that every day
I know you'll still guide me,
I know if I'm lost.
You will find me
I feel your presence inside me
You'll always be here to stay
Nobody can ever take that away

You're still here within my heart
You're in my thoughts
(I know you can hear me)
You're in my dreams
(I still see you)
Oh I hope you hear my prayers
Because every word I say to you
You know it's true

I still feel you
All around me
The warmth you gave
Still, surrounds me
The light you gave
Can still be found in me
Just gotta look deep down
To see you're still here with me

The memories never fade
I can still clearly see your face
And the way you assured me
Everything's gonna be okay
I remember your embrace
The smiles you always gave
All the laughs and tears we made
I remember all your advice
Didn't even have to think twice
You pick me up
When I need you the most
You may have been, taken away
But I know you're here in me

You're still here within my heart
You're in my thoughts
(I know you can hear me)
You're in my dreams
(I still see you)
Oh I hope you hear my prayers
Because every word I say to you
You know it's true

I still feel you
All around me
The warmth you gave
Still, surrounds me
The light you gave
Can still be found in me
Just gotta look deep down
To see you're still here with me

I'm still torn,
That you're gone
But I know
you're always gonna be
Right here with me
I look to the sky
When I need some advice
Because I can still hear your voice
It speaks from deep inside
Telling me everything's
gonna be alright
I know you're out there
I know you care
Oh this one is written for you
I dedicate this song to you

You're still here within my heart
You're in my thoughts
(I know you can hear me)
You're in my dreams
(I still see you)
Oh I hope you hear my prayers
Because every word I say to you
You know it's true

I still feel you
All around me
The warmth you gave
Still, surrounds me
The light you gave
Can still be found in me
Just gotta look deep down
To see you're still here with me

I miss you
You'll always be in my heart
Hope you're feeling all my love
I never have to say goodbye
Because I'll see you on the other side
Up in that starry sky
In the starry sky
In the starry sky

©2017 Written By Benji James

She feels like her world, is broken
She's always felt she's been, outspoken
She's trying to send the signs
To say she's not alright
No one can see her pain
(Behind mascara eyes)
No one knows the battle she fights inside
(Behind mascara eyes)
And no one looks beyond her smile
They would see she is crying on the inside
(Behind mascara eyes)
Can you feel the hurt deep down?
You're trying to keep strong.
You're trying to hold the faith
But with every hit
Another part of you breaks.

Yeah you feel like fading
Skies are turning grey
And the sun has been blocked out
by the cold hard rain
But after the darkness
There is a new dawn
There are bluer skies,
On the other side of this storm
Come on your gonna get through it
You know that you can do it
We are gonna get through it.

Situations arise,
and you feel like your life
is like a runaway train.
And you're never gonna catch up
with yourself again.
You've felt the doubt,
Like you're trapped in a hole,
And you can't get out.
You thought you were grown up,
but you haven't done that much.
And sometimes it feels like
you're not good enough,
so you feel like giving up.

Yeah you feel like fading
Skies are turning grey
And the sun has been blocked out
by the cold hard rain
But after the darkness
There is a new dawn
There are bluer skies,
On the other side of this storm
Come on your gonna get through it
You know that you can do it
We are gonna get through it.

You've been cut down to size,
way too many times.
You've thrown your heart out on the line,
only to get rejected or denied.
They say it's all a part of life.
You wish upon stars every night,
holding on to hope,
that it can only get better
You're looking for that smile
you haven't felt in a while
that one true happiness
you felt as a child.

Yeah you feel like fading
Skies are turning grey
And the sun has been blocked out
by the cold hard rain
But after the darkness
There is a new dawn
There are bluer skies,
On the other side of this storm
Come on your gonna get through it
You know that you can do it
We are gonna get through it.

©2017 Written By Benji James

She's in love with him
While I'm in love with her
Through my eyes, I can see
Now that we are both cursed
That's when the feelings hurt
Somehow we don't think it can get
Any worse, and now I know why
She couldn't put me first.
When she loved him for so long
And it's not weakness for trying to be strong
I know for a while, I was gone
Couldn't stand the fact you loved him
Over me but now I can see
Why you picked him over me
Us together may feel so wrong
But how does this feel so right?
Hunni just speak to me just tell me why
Should we do this on our own?
We don't need to be forever alone.

My minds in space
But I'm stuck on this earth
It spins, and it turns
Just can't seem to find the words
Can't you hear the hummingbirds
Speaking tongue in cheek
Came to find, the colour that we seek
Just don't leave me weak
Because I'm just not at my peak
Together we can breathe
If you just speak to me.

Just couldn't reach those heights
Fell back out from the skies
Black mascara smudged under her eyes
We are each other's angels in disguise
How can I prove I'm here to provide?
Take some words from the wise.
Sticks and stones are ******* bones
Aimed with angry art
Words can sting like anything
But silence breaks the heart
on this, I promise I'll play my part
Let's not leave each other lonely in the dark

You and I are one in the same
I'd rather live with the pain
Then live without you and go insane
Don't need to get caught in the rain
Suddenly it hits you like a train
Then every step you take
Starts to hurt your brain
We got each other tied into a chain
I lost control of this plane
I can be your superman
If you would be my Louise Lane

My minds in space
But I'm stuck on this earth
It spins, and it turns
Just can't seem to find the words
Can't you hear the hummingbirds
Speaking tongue in cheek
Came to find, the colour that we seek
Just don't leave me weak
Because I'm just not at my peak
Together we can breathe
If you just speak to me.

Just couldn't reach those heights
Fell back out from the skies
Black mascara smudged under her eyes
We are each other's angels in disguise
How can I prove I'm here to provide?
Take some words from the wise.
Sticks and stones are ******* bones
Aimed with angry art
Words can sting like anything
But silence breaks the heart
on this, I promise I'll play my part
Let's not leave each other lonely in the dark

Just couldn't find each other's, love
Can feel your heartbeat
Pumping through my blood
Just to have you back would be enough
To kickstart this sugar rush
Although I didn't win the race
I still need you in this place
Thought this was just a phase
Couldn't overcome this craze
Somehow I'm still amazed
By everything that you gave
How do I put that into a phrase?
Because I just can't find a way
To tell you the things I want to say

My minds in space
But I'm stuck on this earth
It spins, and it turns
Just can't seem to find the words
Can't you hear the hummingbirds
Speaking tongue in cheek
Came to find, the colour that we seek
Just don't leave me weak
Because I'm just not at my peak
Together we can breathe
If you just speak to me.

Just couldn't reach those heights
Fell back out from the skies
Black mascara smudged under her eyes
We are each other's angels in disguise
How can I prove I'm here to provide?
Take some words from the wise.
Sticks and stones are ******* bones
Aimed with angry art
Words can sting like anything
But silence breaks the heart
on this, I promise I'll play my part
Let's not leave each other lonely in the dark

©2017 Written By Benji James

Since when did life become this hard?
When did this battle start?
It felt like I had come so far,
When did this hurt become a scar?

Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then I think.
Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then just a bit.
So damaged, (damaged, damaged)

I can hear echoes in my head,
Screams from the darkness underneath my bed.
I'm trapped in chains, caged in my brain.
A fire of rage, a storm of rain.
A soul to claim, can't escape.

Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then I think.
Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then just a bit.
So damaged, (damaged, damaged)

This river of blood,
is like a raging flood,
tearing apart the arteries,
In my heart.
All this pain, is like a train,
crashing through my veins.

Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then I think.
Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then just a bit.
So damaged, (damaged, damaged)

The suffering, is suffocating my soul
I'm shaking, breaking
Think this is the breakdown,
They were talking about.
And now I can't get out,
Of this room full of doubt.

Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then I think.
Maybe I'm damaged, (damaged)
More then just a bit.
So damaged, (damaged, damaged)

©2017 Written By Benji James

Another mistake, I made you cry,
I can't believe I told a lie.
I told you I never cheated,
and to my luck, you believed it.
In the end, you found out,
But now I realise I ****** up.
Won't let this love go to waste
You could never be replaced.

Stay beautiful I need you,
Don't leave, I want to be with you.
Don't say no, I can never let this go.
Don't throw my heart away,
please don't leave me this way.
I will make it up to you,
I truly do love you.

Here comes an argument again,
and I can't pretend.
I know I have your heart to mend,
give me a second chance.
I promise I won't let it go to waste,
I will make it up to you,
and prove I truly love you too.

Stay beautiful I need you,
Don't leave, I want to be with you.
Don't say no, I can never let this go.
Don't throw my heart away,
please don't leave me this way.
I will make it up to you,
I truly do love you.

I know this is not easy,
just breathe in deeply, let it out.
I'll dry your eyes,
I'll hold you tight.
I will never leave you again,
because you are a true friend.

Stay beautiful I need you,
Don't leave, I want to be with you.
Don't say no, I can never let this go.
Don't throw my heart away,
please don't leave me this way.
I will make it up to you,
I truly do love you.

Love can be hard sometimes,
but never cease to reach for the skies.
You know you are my love, my life.
I will never let you down,
give me this one last chance.
You will never regret this move,
because I will always comfort you.
Trust me this one last time,
show me you can still be mine.

Stay beautiful I need you,
Don't leave, I want to be with you.
Don't say no, I can never let this go.
Don't throw my heart away,
please don't leave me this way.
I will make it up to you,
I truly do love you.

Stay beautiful.
(Don't let go.)
Don't leave.
(I need you now.)
This isn't the end.
(I know somehow.)
Just show me that you love me still.
(Because I know I always will.)
Love you.

©2017 Written By Benji James

I can feel the ****** tension
I've always said leave
an everlasting first impression
She said I'm taking a step in the right direction
We have such a magnetic connection
You're like my chocolate selection
When you're with me it's perfection
Can you feel the sugar rush darling?
We go together like
lightning and thunder
I love the enchantment we are under

You can smell her perfume scent
in the air
I can taste the salt in her skin  
Feel the passion in her kiss
You're sweet like honey baby
When she puts her hand in mine
It's like will be together
till the end of time

We are star-crossed lovers
In the heat of the night
Encrypted in the stars
In the dark of the night
We wish we may,
we wish with all our might
That we'll spend together forever
As angels in the sky

It's in every breath she makes
It's in every step she takes
That the love we share is made
It's in the way she looks at me
Her bright blue eyes
staring back it seems
Every moment we create
We are just getting deeper & deeper
I know she's a keeper
I trust and adore her
The butterflies grow larger
My heart rate gets faster and faster
The closer she is
The better it is
Because no other girl
Can make me feel like this.

You can smell her perfume scent
in the air
I can taste the salt in her skin  
Feel the passion in her kiss
You're sweet like honey baby
When she puts her hand in mine
It's like will be together
till the end of time

We are star-crossed lovers
In the heat of the night
Encrypted in the stars
In the dark of the night
We wish we may,
we wish with all our might
That we'll spend together forever
As angels in the sky

This is a story of love, passion and lust
You want more,
Can never get enough
She's my addiction, my drug
Eyes as bright as the bluest ocean
She's got my heart exploding
Totally devoted loves overflowing
Blushing cheeks are glowing
Feelings and connections are growing
see the public affection she's showing
I'm her Romeo and she's my Juliet
She's my one and only even in death

You can smell her perfume scent
in the air
I can taste the salt in her skin  
Feel the passion in her kiss
You're sweet like honey baby
When she puts her hand in mine
It's like will be together
till the end of time

We are star-crossed lovers
In the heat of the night
Encrypted in the stars
In the dark of the night
We wish we may,
we wish with all our might
That we'll spend together forever
As angels in the sky

©2017 Written By Benji James

VERSE ONE
Can’t seem to forget,
everywhere that I went wrong
Trying to keep all these emotions pushed down.
It seems I’m reminiscing of you now
Try to stay strong every day
Try not to let these thoughts
get the better of me
These days, All I can do
is look at you from a distance
and I feel the hurt in you
Every time you look my way
There is so much I want to say
Just wish I could find the courage to speak
All of these words, held here in my mind

PRE CHORUS
Hands are shaking
All these doubtful thoughts
build up within me
Can’t even look you in the eyes
without pain growing more inside
Every mistake that I made
Is something I wish I could change
Night after night, day after day,
I wish things hadn’t of ended this way

CHORUS
You’re my biggest regret
There’s a whole lot of things
I wish I never did,
There’s a whole lot of words
I wish I never said
You’re my biggest regret
All of this I’ll never forget
Tried to forgive me
for all that I did
but it’s just something
I’ll never be able to live with
You’re my biggest regret
I’ll never forget, No I’ll never forget

VERSE TWO
I’ve always had a gift
for making a mess
And after I was done
that’s all that was left.
I’m trying to make amends
Always try to be
The best person I can be
Always try to see
the brighter side of life
Can’t seem to find
A way out this time
Consumed by late night thoughts of you
Reminding myself, Everywhere I went wrong
What could have been
Guess we’ll never know
Now we’ll never see
Just what we could have been

PRE CHORUS
Hands are shaking
All these doubtful thoughts
build up within me
Can’t even look you in the eyes
without pain growing more inside
Every mistake that I made
Is something I wish I could change
Night after night, day after day,
I wish things hadn’t of ended this way

CHORUS
You’re my biggest regret
There’s a whole lot of things
I wish I never did,
There’s a whole lot of words
I wish I never said
You’re my biggest regret
All of this I’ll never forget
Tried to forgive me
for all that I did
but it’s just something
I’ll never be able to live with
You’re my biggest regret
I’ll never forget, No I’ll never forget

VERSE THREE
One day, I hope you’ll see
just what you meant to me
maybe next time around
I might just get it right
Still looking for answers in the stars above
still trying to understand this love
Still stuck on you girl
Always running through my mind
Maybe I can find that inner peace
Deep inside of me
Maybe one day, I’ll heal all this hurt
Until then I'm trapped within conscience lines
Reminding myself of all the times
I failed you, yeah let you down
never let that rest,
Of all the mistakes I’ve made
Yours were the best
I’ll never let that rest

PRE CHORUS
Hands are shaking
All these doubtful thoughts
build up within me
Can’t even look you in the eyes
without pain growing more inside
Every mistake that I made
Is something I wish I could change
Night after night, day after day,
I wish things hadn’t of ended this way

You’re my biggest regret
There’s a whole lot of things
I wish I never did,
There’s a whole lot of words
I wish I never said
You’re my biggest regret
All of this I’ll never forget
Tried to forgive me
for all that I did
but it’s just something
I’ll never be able to live with
You’re my biggest regret
I’ll never forget, No I’ll never forget

©2017 Written By Benji James

If this is ain't love,
then what is it?
Just another obsession to reacquaint with?
In the memories of a story long foretold,
in the midst of this dusty storm
,
the sensual feelings I've applied to life

have left me in the blistering cold outside.

Each time we try to comprehend ourselves
,
The constant reminder, of our dark paths,

Become one with the start of our lies and deceit.

Something long forgotten now stands before you
,
as clear as day
,
As clear as the scars revealed upon your face.

In between the lines, you don't choose to read, 

There is something hidden you didn't see.

As you're standing trial for past mistakes,

The sincerity seen, in each look you take.
We know another part of your heart breaks.

At least that's what I think, 

In this twisted mind of mine.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Yeah,
Twenty Seventeen,
Yeah,
You are feeling me.

Hey let me set the scene
It's night, and stars are shining bright
Parked car by the ocean side
She's sitting front seat
Right next to me
Can't help but look into your eyes
And that's when I decide
To turn the music up high
climb out the door
Opened up yours
Grabbed your hand
Yeah helped you out the car
Picked you up
Placed you on the Bonet
I climbed up on it
grabbed your hand
Helped you up again
Climbed to the roof
Helped you up to

I just want to ***** dance
With you (with you)
On this car roof
Let the playlist play
Yeah pull you close to me
I just wanna dance with you
All night, all right
Till the sun comes up
All I want to do
Is ***** dance with you
On the roof

You're looking mighty fine
In your dress, oh yeah
I like the way you're grinding
Upon me, I like to see
You smiling, laughing
Having a good time
Keep rocking out
Till the sun comes out
Yeah I like your moves,
Yeah, they're so smooth.
I like what you do.
You know what I want
Show me all you've got

I just want to ***** dance
With you (with you)
On this car roof
Let the playlist play
Yeah pull you close to me
I just wanna dance with you
All night, all right
Till the sun comes up
All I want to do
Is ***** dance with you
On the roof

Yeah, this has been perfect,
Yeah this was worth it
Don't know how this moment
Could get any better
And that's when a slow song
Just magically came on
And that's when the vocals
Came clearly through the speakers
And said all the things
I want to say to you
Like how I'm falling
more in love with you
Alright okay let's just dance real slowly
Spin you around
bring you back
Pull you as close as I can
That's when you rested your head
on my shoulder and you said

I just want to ***** dance
With you (with you)
On this car roof
Let the playlist play
Yeah pull you close to me
I just wanna dance with you
All night, all right
Till the sun comes up
All I want to do
Is ***** dance with you
On the roof

Oh what a night
And as the sun
Starts to rise
I'm sitting next to you
That is when you move in
Closer to my face
You look at me and smile
And that is when it hit
I had to kiss those lips
So I did, and that taste
Oh this moment
I don't want to let go of it
I love you. You know that I do
And that's when I heard
those magical words from you
I love you,
I want to do this all again
Do you think we can?
Well alright, hold tight
Because you know that

I just want to ***** dance
With you (with you)
On this car roof
Let the playlist play
Yeah pull you close to me
I just wanna dance with you
All night, all right
Till the sun comes up
All I want to do
Is ***** dance with you
On the roof

©2017 Written By Benji James

You wouldn't know,
what it feels like,
Tearing apart your heart,
You haven't seen the darkness
my future hides.
You haven't seen,
passed all the lies,
I have a much darker side.

You look into my eyes,

trying to figure out what pain, 

lays tormenting me inside
.
You're still blind,

to the things, I have done.

They don't see the tears,

behind the laughter
,
the hurt I feel it's like no other,

It can't be fixed, by another.

All the secrets of my past,

just another memory 
in the shattered glass.

They don't see the reflection, 

That I've seen, 
I despise every part of me. 

It's hard to see
, maybe hard to believe
.
Right now I just want to feel numb,

Don't want to taste any more blood.

No more hurt, I've had enough.

Don't give me love. 

Just lay me down to rest in peace,

that is all I need,

I've seen all I need to see,

I've been all I need to be,

I'm ready now take me, please.

Let me lay down to rest at ease.

©2017 Written By Benji James

V1
Can't eat
Can’t breathe
Broke into a million pieces
Not good enough
You never cared
Gave you everything
I had
Gave you chances
Gave you choices
You chose wrong
Lost me
Let me fall
Watched me walk
You called my name
Never fought
Or gave a ****
Now I’m alone
Feelin’ cold
Left me screaming
Someone help me.

CHORUS
She thought she was in L.O.V.E love
Just to figure out,
She's lost, open, vulnerable and exposed
Truth is nobody knows
He dealt the final blow
Never thought he could sink this low
She can't take this anymore
Lying, Shouting, Tears start falling
down her cheek then her knees get weak
until she falls off her feet
time's ticking melting away
there is nothing left she can say

V2
Missed calls
Messy floors
Shards of glass on the floor
Outcast
Stereotype
Does it end?
Losin’ time
You crossed the line
Rainy days cloudy nights
You were almost Mr right
Broken hearts, wounds and scars
Lose my breath, in your arms
Dreams become nightmares
Loves a farce
A light shines slightly in the dark
The girl is, broken behind this mask
She was shattered, broken,
without words to be spoken
He left her used without a bruise
She felt like there was nothing left to lose

CHORUS
She's lost open vulnerable and exposed
Truth is nobody knows
He dealt the final blow
Never thought he could sink this low
She can't take this anymore
Lying, Shouting, Tears start falling
down her cheek then her knees get weak
until she falls off her feet
time's ticking melting away
there is nothing left she can say

V3
He missed me, kissed me
Held me, felt me
Kept my heart beating
‘till he left me
We cried, tried
And denied ourselves
Never thought, losing you
would hurt this bad
Our bond broke, relationship failed
Towards the sun I’ll set sail
Hoist those masts of hope high
we’re moving towards the sky

CHORUS
She's lost open vulnerable and exposed
Truth is nobody knows
He dealt the final blow
Never thought he could sink this low
She can't take this anymore
Lying, Shouting, Tears start falling
down her cheek then her knees start
getting weak until she falls off her feet
time's ticking melting away
there is nothing left she can say

©2017 Written By Benji James and Amanda Styles

Tonight I want to be a star in the sky
Because at least I'll be embraced
At least then you might notice me

And you pass by me in the hallway
Day after day,
and every time you look into my eyes
You can tell I'm lost inside
And I'm so jaded.
But you can see I'm fading
Baby, baby there's nothing so sweet.
Left inside of me
When your not
Even paying attention to me
And I can't figure out what you want
And I can't figure out what we've got
So, baby, baby watch me fall
Fall so far that I can't breathe
And you didn't see
All of this pain in me
It's taken its toll, and it's toll on me

I want to be a star tonight
Give me the wings
To set my heart in flight
Embrace me in your arms
And I'll share my raise of light
So, baby, baby make a wish on me
Before I shoot across the sky
I'm your shooting star
And I'm falling for you
I've fallen for you

Set me alight
With you passion in the night
Make me shine a little brighter
Make the sky a little lighter
Set my heart on fire
Every time I look in your eyes
They look like diamond skies
Yeah your love is like a choir
When the vocals getting higher
You make me shiver
Butterflies appear in my stomach
I can't take another breath
I can't say another word
Without saying your name
You always make me feel this great

I want to be a star tonight
Give me the wings
To set my heart in flight
Embrace me in your arms
And I'll share my raise of light
So, baby, baby make a wish on me
Before I shoot across the sky
I'm your shooting star
And I'm falling for you
I've fallen for you

©2017 Written By Benji James

Rainy nights, cloudy skies,
chasing me all through my life,
This time I've just had enough.
People always said, 

“When you get older, It'll get rough.”
But I didn't realise just how much.
When childhood memories are all you've got,
every day you're telling yourself, you can't give up.
You live each day, the way you've been, taught.
And you placed your trust, in the ones you love.
They don’t seem to be receiving your call,
this time nobody's here to break your fall.
It just tears you apart.
Every time you play this part.
You’ll never be a work of art,
nobody will ever see, 

what lays inside of your heart.
Oh, sweetheart, you'll never top this chart.
Give me the morphine,
so I can't feel a thing.
Take some more sleeping pills,
to get me through this.
Just let me overdose,
I've never been this close.
Put me to sleep, sleeping beauty,
I've taken my vows,
it's time to make these lights go out.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Have you ever met someone,
that made you reevaluate your life.
It's there spirit,
it breathes in new life.
You're like that breath of fresh air
,
That I really needed
You've got that, love of my life,

Kind of vibe,

and nothing's gonna kick us down.

I'm ready to take that ride,

by your side, love is blind, 

but not in these eyes,

I can see it in your face,

In the way that you speak,

you're that girl for me.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Crushed to the core,
sinking like an anchor,
To the floor.
Pull me from the depths,
drowning in the wreckage,
of a wounded heart.
Feel the blood from a punctured lung,
tears, screams all around,
drifting in the water below.
Breathing in water through your nose,
but when you rise,
you rose to fill every expectation.
Everybody has an expiration date,
this time I’m not gunna fight,
to find a way out,
cuz I’m tired of being a fighter,
Yeah hold up a lighter.
In loving memory,
of everything we shared,
they gave me more, than I could bare.
And now there is no flare,
to light the skies.
God gave me hope, gave me strength, to carry on.
But you can only keep going, on for so long.
It was in the way she talked,
and in the way she walked,
that the poisonous fumes,
from the scent of her perfume,
Stunned and trapped me in your love.
Got tricked, into a trap,
I’ll never escape from.
Take a flying leap of faith,
Into the ocean and rocks below,
See if I can overcome the pain,
The pain of the day, she walked away.
Swallow all my pride,
learned everything from a beating heart,
that shined so brightly in the dark.
Nobody likes to be alone and apart,
yeah lock my love in your mind,
know that what was mine,
you’ve inherited all of the stars tonight.
Because without you, they just won’t shine.
That means I’ll be walking blind,
so light up everything we have inside,
I’ll be your angel wings in flight,
I’ll take you flying through the skies,
yeah baby blue eyes,
I called her baby blue eyes.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Musics my art,
It's like a sketch,
Sculpting a verse,
Made out of words.
The music it's the painting
,
The colours, the tones, the shades.

When the image is complete

It's a beautiful picture, expressing emotion. 

Feeling, seeing, hearing, 

It's perfection, in the motion,

It's the creation,

It's the notion,

It's your blood,
sweat tears and devotion
,
That makes it worth it in the end
.
It's the message you send

to change lives again and again.

©2017 Written By Benji James

It's perfection when I kiss your lips,
This is a desire I just can't fix,
Oh somethings just aren't meant to be,
Now I see you were never really in love with me.
I was just somebody to get you through,

until you move onto the next dude. 

I just can't find any reason why,

I should give you anymore of my time
,
you’re draining the essence of my soul.

You may have been my perfect fantasy,

but now I see, that it was all just a dream.

Now it's never gonna happen, 
no not with me.

Because I'm sick of you walking out on me,

leaving me to question everything I feel deep down inside,

and I'm so clueless as to why, 

you couldn't even give me an explanation.

Maybe I just had to much expectation, 

of trying to feel all of your sensations.

And my spirit just keeps dying,
every time you steal my breaths,

turn around and tell me to stop there.

I thought this was passion, not just lust.

Seems this whole time I thought this was love,

Oh wrong again, looks like you’re gonna reject me all over again.

And why should I be surprised?

I believed in every one of your lies.

And out of all the memories, 
you were the best of them.

There you go turning my life upside down again.

Seems nothing is making much sense, anymore.

Girl I know I'm done playing these games.

Should of seen it coming from the start,

should of known you would break my heart.

I should of known, you wouldn't play your part,

I should of known, that this would fall apart.

©2017 Written By Benji James

They say bring him back
Where's he gone?
Where's he been?
She said.
"Whats this,
what's this, State you're in,
Can you, Can you answer this?"

They say he's gone crazy, baby,
from all the heart ache.
Blurry, Blustery, Bright eyes open wide,
this darkness that grows inside,
is closing in for the ****.
Fallen angels won't fly tonight,
Broken, Beaten and Bruised.
Fallen angels won't fly tonight
My souls tearing up on the inside.

Finally learning how to stand
on my own two feet.
No ones perfect,
there is a life to live,
take chances, love, hope, give,
You want me?
Come find me.
You need me?
Don't keep on crying, I'm not hiding
Faced my fears,
Though the road is rough and hard.
I still keep on fighting, keep on fighting

Keep On Fighting,  
until the end,
live life with no regret.
Keep On Fighting,
until The end,
Though the road is rough, and hard.
Just keep on fighting.

This angel has fallen from the sky,
Innocence was lost, never found.
Down, Down, Down, He fell,
crashing into the ground.
He used to stand tall and proud,
But his wings were taken,
Its blasphemy, to envy thee,
But I fear my wings won't return to me.

Could he fly, Could he fly again?
Pretend you could go back to then,
Change, Rearrange everything that's happened.
Would you go back,
Would you change your life?
Keep on fighting, instead of fearing,
what you have done, take the pain,
face the consequence,
or live with regret in your banishment.

Am I, Am I to blame?
That this fallen angels,
Never gunna fly again.

©2017 Written By Benji James

You killed me with your silence
The hurts become more violent
I took the fall harder than I thought
I'm not the same person I was before
You took the best part of me

And broke it down

Scattered it into a million pieces now

I'm soulless, crazy, lost and confused 

I don't know where, or who to turn too

Oh when did I lose track?

Why the hell didn't you come back?

This torture has gone on long enough

Without you the seas became rough

I've never been that tough 

When you were gone
I thought It was just your bluff

I can't take no more, that's enough 

I'm better off dead

Blood stains in red 

Of all the lies I've been fed 

Yours were the best

When It hit, it hit hard like cement

That your never coming back again

I'm better off dead

In blood stains of red

All the tears we've shed 

Secrets and regrets I've kept

Is nothing compared to what she did

I'm better off dead 

In blood stains of red

©2017 Written By Benji James

Do you think about the times?
We used to have each others backs
Do you remember the times?
We used to tell each other our deepest secrets
No matter how big the scars
What happened to us?
The one I could trust, What happened
To the love, The one I could count on
Where have you been, Where have you gone
Thought you were here to catch me, when I fall
I'm so close to being torn,
I need you back inside these walls.

©2017 Written By Benji James

What is a life?

Is it a breeze gently brushing against your face?

Is it a heart in which you feel pain,

Just what is a life?

These memories of my past, feel distant, faint

in this moment, a sudden feeling overtakes

Your questions, processing inside of your brain.

Just what is a life?

Tell me will I ever know the feeling of fate, faith?

What answers lay beyond the stars, 

What answers lay dormant
Inside of this tormented mind

Just what is a life?

Is it a spray from the sea
hitting your skin

These drops upon my skin, glisten in the sun

Just what is a life?
Is it a happy moment in which, I can’t help but smile,

Haven’t felt that kind of emotion in a while.

Is this life the laughter of a child,

What kind of wonder and bewilderment
Does this life hold in store?

Keep thinking all these thoughts

And you’ll want to know more.

Just what is a life?

©2017 Written By Benji James

Should have known it would come to this,
plagued by all these thoughts,
how did I miss all the signs,
tried to give you my all,
Handed you my heart on a plate,
Only for you to drop it on the cold hard floor.
I’m in pieces, scattered, shattered,
baby I can’t do this anymore.
Had to go, this time baby,
I had to walk out the door.
Can’t keep letting you hurt me, like this.
can’t say I didn’t try,
can’t say I didn’t try to fight,
had to do this, had to say goodbye.

I’m looking up, looking forward
Where to next, I’m not sure
Not sure, what the future has in store.
Guess I better take a few steps
See where this road leads
Where will I go,
what new faces will I see
Keep telling myself.

Come on just breathe in deep,
you can do this
Done this a hundred times before
Pick your heart back from the floor
Roll up your sleeves,
gotta breathe, lift your head high.
You know what you gotta do next right,
just breathe in deep,
You can do this, Take a few steps,
then take your next breath.
Don’t look back, keep moving, keep breathing.

People say sometimes,
you just need to write a new chapter,
I say why not throw away the whole book,
yeah start fresh all over again.
Because this story doesn’t seem to be going my way.
Sometimes you gotta make a big change,
So things don’t feel the same
Need to set a course in a new direction,
Take elements of this life that I like,
and apply it to a new life,
I can be proud to call mine.
All these thoughts are coming from deep within,
My mind feels clearer then it has ever been.
Only question left, Is where and what do I do next?
Sometimes it’s just best to keep walking until you find,
the next mountain you need to climb,
so you can feel on top of the world again.

I’m looking up, looking forward
Where to next, I’m not sure
Not sure, what the future has in store.
Guess I better take a few steps
See where this road leads
Where will I go,
what new faces will I see
Keep telling myself.

Come on just breathe in deep,
you can do this
Done this a hundred times before
Pick your heart back from the floor
Roll up your sleeves,
gotta breathe, lift your head high.
You know what you gotta do next right,
just breathe in deep,
You can do this, Take a few steps,
then take your next breath.
Don’t look back, keep moving, keep breathing.

©2017 Written by Benji James