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"tumour" poems
You’re a poisoned rose in a wedding band, A glad eye with a stabbing hand, A tumour ,vicious rumour surrounds you, BP Exxon -death abounds you, I first found you amusing and witty, cutting remarks a stick with both ends ****** Gutter scumbag with a glaze of charm, Only interested in doing harm, A sociopath with a crocodile smile, always had the last laugh,- real fight? Run a mile, Backstabber Judas priest,but **** was I deceived, Each Lie you sold I truly believed. I stood by you ,defended you til the bitter end, Bitter irony I know,with you as a friend, Who the **** needs enemies, its all a front, An affront to my instincts,get out of my life you **** chorus "My toxic friend this is the end get out of my life for good, Every time you smile a child dies you’re up to no good, Don’t call me-text me unfriend me before you end me, You’re the epitome of the new word-Frenemy." Now I hear you’re spreading rumours behind my back, Bad move,wrong play better stand back, Your malicious manouevery no longer stands, I’m two steps ahead your end is planned. You better watch your back,you’ve got no back up and no spine, Juggling hedgehog maze lies through a field of land mines, I’ve got my eye on you ex pal,don’t worry your time’s come, we’ll see who can outrun the .45 from a gun, That you’ve been begging for for years no tears at your end, You’re a poxy oxymoron my toxic friend. So come out to play my way and see who draws first, I guarantee you a surprise not my blood burst, Flying in the air like a hose god only knows, You’re a fly in my eye a burr under my skin so out she goes, The left that hits your jaw will saw your head from your neck You talk a good fight,good night,I’ll leave ya wrecked. chorus "My toxic friend this is the end get out of my life for good, Every time you smile an angel loses wings you’re no good, Don’t call me-text me unfriend me before you end me, You’re the epitome of the new word-Frenemy."
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Mar 27, 2016
Mar 27, 2016 at 2:44 PM UTC
My Toxic Friend.
You’re a poisoned rose in a wedding band, A glad eye with a stabbing hand, A tumour ,vicious rumour surrounds you, BP Exxon -death abounds you, I first found you amusing and witty, cutting remarks a stick with both ends ****** Gutter scumbag with a glaze of charm, Only interested in doing harm, A sociopath with a crocodile smile, always had the last laugh,- real fight? Run a mile, Backstabber Judas priest,but **** was I deceived, Each Lie you sold I truly believed. I stood by you ,defended you til the bitter end, Bitter irony I know,with you as a friend, Who the **** needs enemies, its all a front, An affront to my instincts,get out of my life you **** chorus "My toxic friend this is the end get out of my life for good, Every time you smile a child dies you’re up to no good, Don’t call me-text me unfriend me before you end me, You’re the epitome of the new word-Frenemy." Now I hear you’re spreading rumours behind my back, Bad move,wrong play better stand back, Your malicious manouevery no longer stands, I’m two steps ahead your end is planned. You better watch your back,you’ve got no back up and no spine, Juggling hedgehog maze lies through a field of land mines, I’ve got my eye on you ex pal,don’t worry your time’s come, we’ll see who can outrun the .45 from a gun, That you’ve been begging for for years no tears at your end, You’re a poxy oxymoron my toxic friend. So come out to play my way and see who draws first, I guarantee you a surprise not my blood burst, Flying in the air like a hose god only knows, You’re a fly in my eye a burr under my skin so out she goes, The left that hits your jaw will saw your head from your neck You talk a good fight,good night,I’ll leave ya wrecked. chorus "My toxic friend this is the end get out of my life for good, Every time you smile an angel loses wings you’re no good, Don’t call me-text me unfriend me before you end me, You’re the epitome of the new word-Frenemy."
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Eyes like massive clanks- gazes morphed to lanced boils, lungs ache and the tumour of hopeless alien weird melts an old painting we used to call 'existence.' Ankles dry, calloused thoughts, skin peels to reveal oozing flesh. **** sinks in and swallows floating zinc; immune. Consuming ex-cadavers in mall parking lots and pushing the crippled in shopping carts, an ankle twisted, a mother swallowed monetary ***** the stock market became the shelf market, and creation wondered if we were okay with frozen pizza for dinner. Life dragged on and on, the world swirled on twitter feeds and Facebook statuses, the streets completed laps around our better judgements and our better lives, we sank to scheduled escapism and believed that one day we would find the light despite our never left-look. Massive intention swelled to disjointed shark search. A witch-hunt to burn unhappiness in it's own angry passion. Bones; cost efficient at the least and designed in the weirdness of erosion-return. Miniature intention swelled to grabs solidarity. A manhunt to freeze stillness in it's own endless silence. What complete? What shatter-tastic ****** Eyes like massive clanks- gazes morphed to lanced boils, lungs ache and the tumour of hopeless alien weird melts an old painting we used to call 'existence.'
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May 25, 2013
May 25, 2013 at 1:50 PM UTC
photography and morphed photography
I remember when I saw you for the first time years ago You brushed me off without a glance I thought "that's someone I should know" Time went by and walls came down I softened your demeanor It took some work, but I won out Because, hell...you couldn't get much meaner A first is always tougher No matter what it is you do But, each first is well worth living If I can have my first with you A few months in another first You met my folks and friends when I brought you to that birthday do The one I wished would never end You took your time and wore me down Another first came soon I remember how your body shone All sweaty 'neath the moon A first is always tougher No matter what it is you do But, each first is well worth living If I can have my first with you We married six months after that In a year our first was born I can't remember which one cried the most You, or our baby, just new born Our first house came, we bought a dog Things were off and at full speed But with all of our achievements You were the one thing I'd still need A first is always tougher No matter what it is you do But, each first is well worth living If I can have my first with you We opened up our business The first of many more to come It wasn't that successful but it was still our number one I remember that day's phone call The doctor said "I've bad news for you" He told me of the tumour I'd passed first and was stage two Through radiation and my chemo You were the one who was always there I remember when you came in And you had shaved off all your hair A first is always tougher No matter what it is you do But, each first is well worth living If I can have my first with you I've been gone now for a while I know it's tough, but I'm around I can see you and our child Even though I'm in the ground There'll be more firsts now together I know it just won't be the same But, still it's firsts and your'e together Like when we first played out this game A first is always tougher Even though it's not with me But, each first is well worth living Just make it the best that it can be
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Sep 26, 2012
Sep 26, 2012 at 7:25 PM UTC
Firsts are always tougher
I remember when I saw you for the first time years ago You brushed me off without a glance I thought "that's someone I should know" Time went by and walls came down I softened your demeanor It took some work, but I won out Because, hell...you couldn't get much meaner A first is always tougher No matter what it is you do But, each first is well worth living If I can have my first with you A few months in another first You met my folks and friends when I brought you to that birthday do The one I wished would never end You took your time and wore me down Another first came soon I remember how your body shone All sweaty 'neath the moon A first is always tougher No matter what it is you do But, each first is well worth living If I can have my first with you We married six months after that In a year our first was born I can't remember which one cried the most You, or our baby, just new born Our first house came, we bought a dog Things were off and at full speed But with all of our achievements You were the one thing I'd still need A first is always tougher No matter what it is you do But, each first is well worth living If I can have my first with you We opened up our business The first of many more to come It wasn't that successful but it was still our number one I remember that day's phone call The doctor said "I've bad news for you" He told me of the tumour I'd passed first and was stage two Through radiation and my chemo You were the one who was always there I remember when you came in And you had shaved off all your hair A first is always tougher No matter what it is you do But, each first is well worth living If I can have my first with you I've been gone now for a while I know it's tough, but I'm around I can see you and our child Even though I'm in the ground There'll be more firsts now together I know it just won't be the same But, still it's firsts and your'e together Like when we first played out this game A first is always tougher Even though it's not with me But, each first is well worth living Just make it the best that it can be
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Demented bandit Redundant pundit Fun time gambit Screaming "Bomb it!" Vicious ***** Cannot stand it Mend it, bend it Maybe tow it How it goes It goes all wrong It wrongs no more More than it should But more it could I guess it would But that would hurt Oh what a **** The world is burnt And I feel like a picture blurt You've censored too much Ventured too far Gotten all such Answers fewer Violent fever Violet furor Volatile gore Gory tumour
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Sep 9, 2019
Sep 9, 2019 at 11:37 AM UTC
freestyle blabber #10
Look at your spider legs clambering out like that as though your crab cage has stayed too still, sat too long as a street tumour spat up on the pavement. You must miss the frailness of the skin that sheltered your birth, the patterns strewn across the sheets in blurs of stripes and dots, colours and tones. But now it's a sickly sight, those ribs scuttle like limbs pushing through a shell that suited your broken spindles just fine. Maybe you need a fix of a skin to get you in shape, web the joints in the hope someone will hold you again, your handle gripped in hand.
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Dec 10, 2013
Dec 10, 2013 at 8:01 AM UTC
Umbrella Ribs
Why does it happen to me? Did the accident also give me a brain tumor? The most common symptoms of brain tumors include headaches; numbness or tingling in the arms or legs; seizures, memory problems; mood and personality changes; balance and walking problems; nausea and vomiting; changes in speech, vision, or hearing. I have all except seizures and nausea & vomiting. I am already on Sodium Valproate and Valproic Acid controlled release tablets which are given to brain tumour patients as well. My psychiatrist was so scared while asking my dad the last time we went for checkup, "Did he have seizures or vomiting?" But I am not scared, I know that stuff can only get better for me. I have had enough of misfortune.
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Mar 6, 2015
Mar 6, 2015 at 11:56 PM UTC
I Don't Know
It's time again for your inspection, Time to make some minor corrections; Squeezing out each new infection Eliminating imperfections. It's not cathartic -it's not bold To just sit back and lose your hold and let this lunacy unfold unendorsed but uncontrolled And still there's time to pretend This ritual's come to and end And soon you'll be on the mend And you won't need sympathy from friends But YES! You really had a go; the flakes of flesh did fall like snow, ten jagged daggers, dripping, soak In a red and ragged afterglow. And then just when you think you know it's over and you've stemmed the flow a tiny tumour starts to grow and it's time again to face your foe. the bell tolls and the round begins, this time it's not about who wins the wide mouthed open sore still grins forgiving you for all your sins. And when you stopped your childish games the mirror did burst into flames and burned, and now that remains are tatters, ashes and bloodstains.
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Oct 9, 2014
Oct 9, 2014 at 4:59 AM UTC
Ten Jagged Daggers
I stared at the big blue cloud, It was in my hands, It was so blue that it depressed me But it was only fluffy candy I picked a piece from the cloud I digested it with my eyes and soul, It was the brightness to a child's life It was my only happiness You look at candy, As sweetness to your life, but to me it was more, It was the only freedom I had in the world I bit into the blue sweetness As it dissolved in my mouth, It dissolved my pain, I was sure everything would be fine again Then, when the cotton got stuck between my teeth, So did my hopes and dreams. I felt like a fool for believing A fool for trying A tear slid down my cheek Making the candy bittersweet No Cotton Candy can make it go away Rewrite my story When they fought and screamed, I'd try find my happy place, Eat my sweet Blue Candy, And just pray it away I've tried everything Clovers to Rabbit's Feet, But this heavenly cloud was the only price to pay If my life was all drunk and dead Would it **** to find my demise-free zone And just eat some Cloudy Candy instead? If wishes came true, With every bite I took I would have father with me A Mother to love me I kept eating the candy though Even if it didn't taste heavenly anymore Tears kept streaming down with every bite I kept the harshness inside The faster I ate, the more it hurt, I couldn't swallow the lumps in my throat, The pain developed inside of me, Like a tumour, I was a waste, never needed. You eat all the Candyfloss in the world, it won't work. It just sweetens the pain, lessens the hurt.
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Sep 7, 2014
Sep 7, 2014 at 7:03 AM UTC
Candyfloss
I stared at the big blue cloud, It was in my hands, It was so blue that it depressed me But it was only fluffy candy I picked a piece from the cloud I digested it with my eyes and soul, It was the brightness to a child's life It was my only happiness You look at candy, As sweetness to your life, but to me it was more, It was the only freedom I had in the world I bit into the blue sweetness As it dissolved in my mouth, It dissolved my pain, I was sure everything would be fine again Then, when the cotton got stuck between my teeth, So did my hopes and dreams. I felt like a fool for believing A fool for trying A tear slid down my cheek Making the candy bittersweet No Cotton Candy can make it go away Rewrite my story When they fought and screamed, I'd try find my happy place, Eat my sweet Blue Candy, And just pray it away I've tried everything Clovers to Rabbit's Feet, But this heavenly cloud was the only price to pay If my life was all drunk and dead Would it **** to find my demise-free zone And just eat some Cloudy Candy instead? If wishes came true, With every bite I took I would have father with me A Mother to love me I kept eating the candy though Even if it didn't taste heavenly anymore Tears kept streaming down with every bite I kept the harshness inside The faster I ate, the more it hurt, I couldn't swallow the lumps in my throat, The pain developed inside of me, Like a tumour, I was a waste, never needed. You eat all the Candyfloss in the world, it won't work. It just sweetens the pain, lessens the hurt.
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It’s not about the money it’s not unusual it’s not over it’s not a tumour it’s not easy it’s not easy being green it’s not easy being me it’s not enough neverwinter never let me go never say never never back down fix dead pixel fix drywall fix design fix dripping faucet find me spot find me find me guilty find me love why are flamingos pink why are people gay why are flatworms flat why are we here why is the sky blue why stop now why am I so tired why do cats purr then I got high then I learned French then I saw her face then I got bronchitis what is quinoa what is love what is the fiscal cliff what is dubstep
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Apr 11, 2013
Apr 11, 2013 at 9:32 PM UTC
search engine: modern historical repository
Pathos puddles in young dimples when she raises the gun, a teardrop reflected in Grandfather’s blurry eye. She ***** the hammer, aligns the bullet on the stroke of sepia midnight. Misery, reflected in her tears when he  looks up, ears ringing before she squeezes the trigger; wags his tail to Grandfather’s rhythmic chime, licks his tumour-filled belly one more time. Like a bandit cloaked in purple and ochre camouflage, a stale breeze slips through the window and thieves; the last glimmer of hope kidnapped and forced into mushroom cloud getaway cars. Beyond empty stables, prairie grass whispers last rites, dry and silver solemn sympathy-words that fill the room, watercolours of life reflected in death, as it is, in bloom.
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May 1, 2012
May 1, 2012 at 12:58 AM UTC
Pathos, Reflected
Skin cancer isn't funny so cover up when it is sunny so slather on all sorts of ointment on your skin It might just be a rumour Every skin tag's not a tumour You don't want to think  of what just might have been If you find you have a pimple On your back or in your dimple Go and get it checked out all the same You don't want to die of cancer When you could have had the answer You have to know that cancer's not a game So, do not be indignant It might just be malignant check it out before the nightmare comes to pass See a doctor if you're worried Go real fast as if you're hurried You don't want your name read out in your church mass I hope you get my meaning And you know which way I'm leaning I don't want to hear you died when you should not Take care and do inspections Of all your parts and sections Remember, this is the only life that you have got.
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Jul 7, 2012
Jul 7, 2012 at 10:10 PM UTC
Warning from a friend
The darkest humour, A comedy I’m laughing although it is killing me You watch me bleed, yeah. Brains don’t feel pain… Especially daddy’s When he had a tumour growing in it Messed up his memory Also, his sanity Since then he cannot see He went completely blind Nerve cells rarely heal Especially the ones that run to the eyes Surprise For two weeks He felt it ill Slight fever with no heat He felt slightly weak Then he woke up blind Everything was dark His optic nerves his tumour did find He said everything was black He flew out of the country After a month, he came back He didn’t die, alive was my daddy Ten years, three months later I put my pen to paper I know I wouldn’t remember ‘Cause daddy and I don’t get better. The apple doesn’t fall far from the tree I am of my father Dementia: him, schizophrenia: me Isn’t it a laughter? That’s my happily ever after...
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Jan 31, 2020
Jan 31, 2020 at 7:43 AM UTC
Tragic Comedy: My Happily Ever After
Tinnitus is here since the first time, The first time you had ditched me... Oh yeah it had gotten okay temporarily, Because you patched up momentarily. Now I have an even stronger Vertigo, Ever after I am of some knowledge.. How did you put up such a good act, Why did you double cross me? He confirmed what your mom told me, That he had come down to your town.. Before I did, much before you knew me, Even earlier than you stepped in my life... I don't want to know who you cheated, He might as well feel double-crossed. You're right, that's your personal issue, I am nobody to make comments on it. Now I suspect that I have a Neuroma, They dub it as Acoustic Neuroma. You may ask me simply, "What sense is that self-diagnosis?" Well I just observed the symptoms, ***A persistent headache, Dizziness, Drowsiness, Vertigo, Tinnitus.*** The confirmatory test will be held soon, It is not often always a malignancy, And I will just hope for the best. I really hope that it is not cancerous, For that would bankrupt the family, Cancer - that too a brain tumour... As if I had gulped down barrels of wine, Vertigo is as though I'm inebriated, It is seriously very irritating. Irritating me for long is this tinnitus, Now vertigo has just added to them, My miserable mysterious miseries. But don't you worry and keep playing, You're an excellent playgirl, There're so many boys as toys for you.
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Oct 20, 2016
Oct 20, 2016 at 12:56 PM UTC
Miserable Mysterious Miseries
Into the long grass, the long, long ponder lost to breath and tears lost to wonder lost to the clear and present or the hereafter but there in the past a cancer tumour twisted all the slow growth til the now, this rotten gutted now
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Mar 22, 2022
Mar 22, 2022 at 4:02 PM UTC
Right honourable
When you live on the wrong side of sixty You flirt with cold death every day, You **** sweet air in like nectar And you hold your breath and you pray, For tomorrow may bring a black tumour Or a spasm, or seizure or more... Then whatever you do, whatever you say, You’ll end up prone on the floor. For our time on this planet is temporary, Our time of enjoyment is brief, Just pull out the stops and let loose man Live it up, kiss your girl, take relief. Tomorrow is lost in the dreamtime, Today is the essence of being, So kick up your heels and spin all your wheels and send all those worries a-fleeing. When you live on the wrong side of sixty Your skin has a penchant to sag And no matter how hard you diet Your gut gets as wide as a bag. Your whit was once so exciting Your repartee so sharp Now you mumble and wheeze And occasionally sneeze And frequently squeeze out a **** Oh life was once so enticing The sparkle and crackle was there When you danced on the floor The crowd yelled for more And you dazzled with lights in your hair. Now the dance floor is silent and empty The music has faded away Just to have it once more My poor heart does implore ? ... But the crimson has faded to grey. Now you’ll think I’m buried in sorrow, Enmeshed in self pity galore But the fact of the matter Is served on a platter … I really don’t care anymore. For you see I’ve learnt a great secret, Discovered a pearly white truth.... That life is as free As a bird in a tree... And remorse is really uncouth! So no more do I wallow in sadness, No more do I tear out my heart, Instead I rejoice in my gladness And retrace all the steps from the start. For living’s a sequence of pictures To give or take as you choose, If your selections awry Then you’re lost in the sky ...you pick the wrong one... You lose! The sun comes up in the morning, The light erupts in the sky And the beautiful song of the blackbird Brings a tear of joy to my eye. The golden greens of the shadows The crystal glint of dew Encapsulates the rapture I feel on seeing you. For a friend makes life worth living, A smile a golden door To the promise of tomorrow, Oh! The future’s good ..once more. When you live on the wrong side of sixty Life’s lessons treat you right, You separate the wheat from chaff And celebrate the fight. You make the most of good stuff And embrace all the fun, You interact with positives .. DO THIS, AND FRIEND ….YOU’VE WON! Marshalg Mangere Bridge 21st January 2007
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Dec 2, 2011
Dec 2, 2011 at 2:24 PM UTC
When You Live On the Wrong Side of Sixty
When you live on the wrong side of sixty You flirt with cold death every day, You **** sweet air in like nectar And you hold your breath and you pray, For tomorrow may bring a black tumour Or a spasm, or seizure or more... Then whatever you do, whatever you say, You’ll end up prone on the floor. For our time on this planet is temporary, Our time of enjoyment is brief, Just pull out the stops and let loose man Live it up, kiss your girl, take relief. Tomorrow is lost in the dreamtime, Today is the essence of being, So kick up your heels and spin all your wheels and send all those worries a-fleeing. When you live on the wrong side of sixty Your skin has a penchant to sag And no matter how hard you diet Your gut gets as wide as a bag. Your whit was once so exciting Your repartee so sharp Now you mumble and wheeze And occasionally sneeze And frequently squeeze out a **** Oh life was once so enticing The sparkle and crackle was there When you danced on the floor The crowd yelled for more And you dazzled with lights in your hair. Now the dance floor is silent and empty The music has faded away Just to have it once more My poor heart does implore ? ... But the crimson has faded to grey. Now you’ll think I’m buried in sorrow, Enmeshed in self pity galore But the fact of the matter Is served on a platter … I really don’t care anymore. For you see I’ve learnt a great secret, Discovered a pearly white truth.... That life is as free As a bird in a tree... And remorse is really uncouth! So no more do I wallow in sadness, No more do I tear out my heart, Instead I rejoice in my gladness And retrace all the steps from the start. For living’s a sequence of pictures To give or take as you choose, If your selections awry Then you’re lost in the sky ...you pick the wrong one... You lose! The sun comes up in the morning, The light erupts in the sky And the beautiful song of the blackbird Brings a tear of joy to my eye. The golden greens of the shadows The crystal glint of dew Encapsulates the rapture I feel on seeing you. For a friend makes life worth living, A smile a golden door To the promise of tomorrow, Oh! The future’s good ..once more. When you live on the wrong side of sixty Life’s lessons treat you right, You separate the wheat from chaff And celebrate the fight. You make the most of good stuff And embrace all the fun, You interact with positives .. DO THIS, AND FRIEND ….YOU’VE WON! Marshalg Mangere Bridge 21st January 2007
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She’s six, She wants to play and run and with her friends freely mix, She’s bright, She wants to reach out to the dimly glowing tunnel of light, She’s grateful, She wants to be brave in the face of all that is fearfully fateful, Imagine… Pain, pain, Pain that is so encrusted it eats into her tiny bones unseen, Pain so heated it needs to be cooled with the kiss of morphine, One lung sunken never again to flutter or rise, The other coughs along over craggy cancer heights, The luscious hair that was once her crown has been plucked away, All her hair falling into the jealous grip of the dead and dying day, There is a brain tumour that tick-tocks in the evening shadows, In her sleep she whispers, “Tell aunty to bring me eyeshadows.” A circle of spirals, a moonbeam, She is one of us, what is life but a brief dream?
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Jan 17, 2012
Jan 17, 2012 at 8:21 PM UTC
Hope Never Dies
You called me “Cochon” The night you told me So I hit you hard I hit you so hard The tumour felt it I woke up crying Face up in your lap Lapping up your tears Like a young swallow Swallows its mother’s Face-full of bile-worm And I said to you I don’t want to love A living headstone And you called me “Chatte” Practicing naked Downward-facing dog Before your pelvis With less fur, more ***** Regurgitating ***** of skin, of taint, Tainted skin, birthmark Marked malignant skin Like a mother bird For her naked chick Shed of its cancer By my grating tongue And I called you “Chien”   You called me for help Through your sealed eyelids Enveloping eyes You no longer own Only for a kiss And so I kiss you I kiss you so hard On your cataract It clears your socket Now bloodied, benign Like a cuckoo’s nest And I said to you I had hated it When you spoke in French
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Oct 12, 2014
Oct 12, 2014 at 10:41 AM UTC
ORALINGUS
You send me a song every Wednesday, a soul offering; a slice of the strange radioactive lunatic madness - love- growing inside your wonderland. (It is not a cancerous tumour, please stop calling it that.) You say it is dark, the Arctic's lover; I say it is dark, like velvet punk music and stained checked shirts and almost-blood wine (in shared glasses); like the colour of your skin. Come on. We've both been more fascinated by the depths of the ocean than the blue glass surfaces. Isn't that why we fell into bottomless black holes and called it love? Isn't that why we branded ourselves poets, seared the red hot poker labels onto our backs, so that we wouldn't have to say we're just sad...? Yes, we are carefully disintegrating; the world already gave us a head-start by curling our spines into the snakelike 'S' It was preparing us for our careful meandering into a river mess: living. No doubt, in the pool depths of African evenings, you drink, vodka-tinged cereal or tea,   the glass Roobios surface reflecting a lover's face and the boredom of sadness. No doubt, I drink to you, coffee or warm milk, to try and wake myself into dying without a purpose. No doubt, we both drink the night itself. And let it fester in our veins, to curdle our blood into that same wine-shade of darkness. We drink. Virginia Woolf had courage, Sylvia Plath had courage, Ernest Hemingway had courage, you and I don't. We are too fearless to live. So we drink and clutch at each other desperately without reaching out a single finger. We form shotguns with our hands, make pacts, go home again. And drink. We are helping each other to die and live at the same time. We are helping each other to try fit the day too into our arteries. You send me a song every Wednesday; this song will save our existence.
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Aug 20, 2015
Aug 20, 2015 at 6:22 AM UTC
Wednesdays
You send me a song every Wednesday, a soul offering; a slice of the strange radioactive lunatic madness - love- growing inside your wonderland. (It is not a cancerous tumour, please stop calling it that.) You say it is dark, the Arctic's lover; I say it is dark, like velvet punk music and stained checked shirts and almost-blood wine (in shared glasses); like the colour of your skin. Come on. We've both been more fascinated by the depths of the ocean than the blue glass surfaces. Isn't that why we fell into bottomless black holes and called it love? Isn't that why we branded ourselves poets, seared the red hot poker labels onto our backs, so that we wouldn't have to say we're just sad...? Yes, we are carefully disintegrating; the world already gave us a head-start by curling our spines into the snakelike 'S' It was preparing us for our careful meandering into a river mess: living. No doubt, in the pool depths of African evenings, you drink, vodka-tinged cereal or tea,   the glass Roobios surface reflecting a lover's face and the boredom of sadness. No doubt, I drink to you, coffee or warm milk, to try and wake myself into dying without a purpose. No doubt, we both drink the night itself. And let it fester in our veins, to curdle our blood into that same wine-shade of darkness. We drink. Virginia Woolf had courage, Sylvia Plath had courage, Ernest Hemingway had courage, you and I don't. We are too fearless to live. So we drink and clutch at each other desperately without reaching out a single finger. We form shotguns with our hands, make pacts, go home again. And drink. We are helping each other to die and live at the same time. We are helping each other to try fit the day too into our arteries. You send me a song every Wednesday; this song will save our existence.
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There is a tumour Inside of me. And what does it do? It grows and grows And keeps growing. This tumour Is loneliness. -- Eleanor
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Oct 10, 2015
Oct 10, 2015 at 9:21 AM UTC
Tumour
dusk settles over the hilltops and you find me back resting against a tree trunk wondering "whose spine is sturdier?" raising a cancer stick to my lips, refusing to inhale after ******* in the smoke, and i think "coward" and i know that i will never be rooted; i will never stay loyal to one patch of earth unlike this oak that supports me holding the smog between my lips is a little more dangerous than Augustus' metaphor but it's sure as hell less dangerous than letting it clog my lungs―unless storing it for a moment before exhaling is likely to give me mouth cancer instead of lung cancer well, i've never been one for commitment i think i'd rather spit and pretend that the tumour is being expelled than know there's something deep inside that grows every time i so much as breathe oh, love, what an illness you are both of you: the feeling, and the holder of that pet-name no chemotherapy is going to save me, not now i think i'll hand myself over to ignorance and wait for the problem to go away my immune system has always been impressive
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Aug 8, 2016
Aug 8, 2016 at 10:07 PM UTC
love is like cancer to me (potential trigger: cancer as a metaphor)
I am your nightmare, I am your fear. I am vile, I am a bat screeching in your ear. I am torture, with a capital T I am a noose that you cannot see. I am the part of your soul that is black. I am the treacherous thoughts you can't hold back. I am the devil's spawn, the seven deadly sins I am the sociopath acting out on a whim I am a corpse on All Hallows Eve I am the homeless, begging on my knees I am the **** of the Earth, the dust of the wealth I am an alcoholic in withdrawal, a person dying of bad health I am a tumour, gnawing away at your life I am a scar, being torn open by a knife I am the bad, the evil, the vile I am your paranoia, your reoccurring denial You created this monster, this omen of death And I will remind you until you take your last breath. -lf-
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Jun 4, 2013
Jun 4, 2013 at 11:53 AM UTC
self worth
**A painting of the future, a grandiose world of adventure Awaits us all beyond the call of the mid-morning Blackbird, filling with the sunlight of ages past, A dawn of a new era approaches. Her voice heard. The air, a scent, camp fires of the joyous years of our youth, Of when we all used to run and laugh, puffy clouds, skies blue, The sight of such clarity, yet to be mistaken for another Dream, it will light the path that we used to follow, in truth. Sky-full of color, drowned out this filth! This city curb with Alcohol and drugs and needles pouring down into the Hideous dredges below through a crack, it's disturbing, Like a tumour, a world of wicked witches, fear, and lack.** Let the scientists try to explain it away, the myriad of colorful Hues balancing and bouncing off each other in the skies... **Sterling silver the moon, her crescent to become Full-like a white-gold orb, the backdrop sparkles star dust, In the light there is a vibrant halo, delicate and full, Explain it away! The earth is waking up, eventually...** She will again be whole.
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Aug 26, 2015
Aug 26, 2015 at 1:02 AM UTC
Painted Apocalypse
On our quilted island I cling to you As the waves of change lap at our toes Before inevitability sweeps you away, Our soft skin no longer touching; An ill-fitting jigsaw with a missing piece. We’re broken. Our bodies leak Warm liquid from passion and Lack of self-control. And your hurting hurts me So I comfort my murderer, Cradling an angel in my arms Who will soon transcend Our transitory existence. Your smile kills me, As the lead in my chest slowly Poisons my soul. It’s no apparition, But a slow-burner, a malignant Tumour, biding its time while You wrench me to pieces. The clock ticks by. No man Should wait for time. I count your breaths And press myself ever closer To your retreating figure And beautiful imbalanced Mind. The ocean eyes close And angel curls fade Until I sit alone, a trembling Country mouse lusting after A cat who for a time put away His claws and played with his Dinner before devouring it Whole.
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Feb 20, 2013
Feb 20, 2013 at 7:06 PM UTC
The Mid-Zone
fill me with your **** until its running out of my pores **** I've always wondered what that smell was drown me in pity and kind verses until my countenance is beautiful to you because spaghetti knows! I can't be complete unless I'm beautiful to you and all this time I've been running broken pottery quotations up your shivering spine without thanks for the cold stares you pierce through my fingertips hold my hand and drag me through the cosmic playland you soar your broken hang glider without regard for the fact that we were always the center of the universe and globally has constantly been flatlands I want nothing less than the very cells composing each and every cancerous tumour exploding through your veins because Allah knows your breath freezes my neck solid when you lick down my.. OOH that tickles, you gotta avoid my funny bone or I'll squeal without worrying about your parents right outside my door much less the police stating overbearing bricks cemented around your walls break them down and expose your innards to the outwards and lie reposed in the vulnerability of your last breath.
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Nov 18, 2013
Nov 18, 2013 at 4:18 PM UTC
break my police state
Look at him A pile of limbs One hunk of flesh He pulsates with blood He's nowhere near human He's a beast Carrying burden The privileged burden Such is a privilege To be morphed Entangled Intertwined He's hideously deformed Carrying a part of her With him Everywhere She won't ever fall off She won't melt away She won't be cut off He doesn't want her to It makes him marked An Elephant Man Grotesque To those who can't understand Hundreds of us Walk the streets In plain sight Deformed When he's most alone He looks to a tumour He looks to a scar Knowing "That's where you are" When he's most at home She starts to sink Into his skin To be closer to him When he's said and done When he's ready to stop looking At his weaved flesh and bone He'll keep her inside Stowed her away To fester inside To let him walk Free of deform In the hopes that Someone else could be so lucky As to let themselves sink To mangle themselves upon him Let it be that he Deforms Just as he let himself be Let them mark one and other So that They won't ever fall off They won't ever melt away They won't ever be cut off Look at them A pile of limbs Two hunks sew flesh Their hearts pulsate together
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Apr 7, 2013
Apr 7, 2013 at 4:49 AM UTC
Deformed