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"charade" poems
There were dividing lines between Springfield and Mariners Gate soft, subtle lines that spoke of origin and code and biting union it was all the reason for being; alive and living dead or dying deep in a pack of pint size resistors hell bent on the marsh crow and cannabis tower jumping the rush with *** shots and anchors and tribunals camouflage creepers and transient floaters marked rebellion at the gates (skullduggery and taunt high on their favor list) jack straws and flat paddles for the evening charade beakers and flailing hands from the foot washing baptist (the Pleasant Street conservatives with their own something to say…“there’s gonna be hell to pay!”) there's a lingering effect to this sentiment (evident in the pump house stride) the river winds blow gently into the night as the huddling packers and **** backs chase the evening hours it’s a bitter sweet end of an era; those traction bars hood scoops and nickel bags will always be the rage
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Feb 21, 2017
Feb 21, 2017 at 11:13 PM UTC
Blood lines
Leg off the table you red face recruit! put on the offensive and break down the bolted door! you are the soul saver the peddle maker the calibrator with colored handbills and front line rhetoric join the masquerade in ivy league style! politicking with cunning guile invisalign smile blackened vile bleeding the funnel with gold plate omega and crocodile shoes get on stage and dance you fool! you are the headline maker the pantomime juggler the compromised closer pull out that 5 page review (bullet points only please) and polish those weathered lines! did you give it your all? the door tags and pleasantries the tidings and clippings the irrevocable claims and postured blames all those impressionable basics put to the test? you know the call (straight from those cold academics) the pie chart gurus and contract killers (complete with bone in finger) whipping their frenzied crew in an all night charade old yellar and the gatekeeper sure seem amused (sharpening their inquest behind closed doors) firing up the shiit storm with those hostile priicks and a slew of insatiable cures there’s laughter from the back room the dripping nose and wavering hand the cut white lines and checkpoint tales the pipeline romance and lacking form (of a basic essential character!) soundboard and narratives for logging time slouching on the steel case over moot points ready to play the 3 weight butter card (if need be) might I remind you it’s only an inquiry (with a slight hint of concern!) surely no malfeasance or deception intended so step back from the melt down and cut to the chase! headlines to breadlines penthouse to outhouse those immoral pursuits have taken their toll (haven’t they?) madman or rogue (you take your pick) for the scores and tabulations are final shame on you for the foul play the bold hypocrisy and order desk games the back stabbing blames and spurious names just sign on the dotted line ~ this banter is killing me
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Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 1:12 PM UTC
The Recruit
Leg off the table you red face recruit! put on the offensive and break down the bolted door! you are the soul saver the peddle maker the calibrator with colored handbills and front line rhetoric join the masquerade in ivy league style! politicking with cunning guile invisalign smile blackened vile bleeding the funnel with gold plate omega and crocodile shoes get on stage and dance you fool! you are the headline maker the pantomime juggler the compromised closer pull out that 5 page review (bullet points only please) and polish those weathered lines! did you give it your all? the door tags and pleasantries the tidings and clippings the irrevocable claims and postured blames all those impressionable basics put to the test? you know the call (straight from those cold academics) the pie chart gurus and contract killers (complete with bone in finger) whipping their frenzied crew in an all night charade old yellar and the gatekeeper sure seem amused (sharpening their inquest behind closed doors) firing up the shiit storm with those hostile priicks and a slew of insatiable cures there’s laughter from the back room the dripping nose and wavering hand the cut white lines and checkpoint tales the pipeline romance and lacking form (of a basic essential character!) soundboard and narratives for logging time slouching on the steel case over moot points ready to play the 3 weight butter card (if need be) might I remind you it’s only an inquiry (with a slight hint of concern!) surely no malfeasance or deception intended so step back from the melt down and cut to the chase! headlines to breadlines penthouse to outhouse those immoral pursuits have taken their toll (haven’t they?) madman or rogue (you take your pick) for the scores and tabulations are final shame on you for the foul play the bold hypocrisy and order desk games the back stabbing blames and spurious names just sign on the dotted line ~ this banter is killing me
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*I cry at night for a part of me that aches A dragonfly friend I once had A spirit none can break, Is surely gone by now.* *It was not a mistake When all alone we bend rules Though I still cry at night, That creature was a mystical sight.* That dragonfly and me were alright. *I used to believe in a bearded man A bunny bringing gifts at night I believed in something far away, Beyond my truth, a fake charade. And now I see The dragonfly wings beat on Alive in my memory, Hope for eternity.* Your truth will set you free.
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Apr 11, 2015
Apr 11, 2015 at 1:50 AM UTC
Dragonfly Wings
I put so much effort into random places, so much effort into random faces face it im faceless placeless drifting shifting thoughts towards destiny feeling empty, wondering whats left in me...? messages esoteric terrorize my rhetoric pedestrians staring glaring gazin gotta get a second look shook layers shed, fall from those ancient snakes left for dead suffocated, stranded damaged god ****** this sunless planet is madness immobilized try to find sense in a broke world what are hands without manipulation? and in life? death is a stipulation a fools gold is never within grasp so clasp delusions Grandiose with a toast to sham pain and champagne emptied grails course through mans veins oh to see what mirrors saw would reflections appear at all? peer into the endless ego see nothing but self libido we are all weary travelers, existences' eternal passengers remove masks, flasks, end the charade let serpents slither, and sun bath away from the shade embrace the end of nights push away the start of days just keep in mind which way             the pendulum sways
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May 15, 2014
May 15, 2014 at 10:29 PM UTC
ancient snakes (masquerade)
What if I had fallen to my knees On the cold parking lot concrete Tears washing over my cheeks And cries no one should ever have to hear Bellowing out from beneath my ribs Screaming at the sky Looking up at your face Forcing you (and everyone else) To see me in this godforsaken state Of absolute chaos Heartbreak In it's rawest form What if I had begged you to stay? What if I'd told you I can't do this without you? What if I'd told you how much I needed you What if I did anything other than fighting back the tears Maybe for myself, maybe for you, Mostly for the crowd of people gathering Saying their goodbyes Anxiously looking around to bear witness to everyone else's reactions And I didn't want to be that girl That girl who falls to the ground Kicking and screaming and crying and begging But what if I was? What if I was any girl other than the one I pretended to be that day The one that held her tongue and kept her mouth shut because she knew the second she opened it to speak she would sob The one that wrapped her arms around you for the last time, and the one that let go The one that couldn't bear to watch you walk away So she kissed you goodbye Got back in the car And drove home What if i wasn't that girl who didnt allow herself to completely fall apart until she was alone in the privacy of her own home? What if instead I'd made a scene, Doing what everything inside me so desperately wanted to Grabbing hold of your hand and refusing to let go Losing the facade of confidence The charade of strength But I'm not that girl And I never will be So each and every time you leave I kiss you goodbye I unclench my fists and retract my anchors I untether my heart from it's human home And I put on a brave face Maybe for myself, maybe for you, Or maybe For that girl.
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Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 12:19 PM UTC
That girl
What if I had fallen to my knees On the cold parking lot concrete Tears washing over my cheeks And cries no one should ever have to hear Bellowing out from beneath my ribs Screaming at the sky Looking up at your face Forcing you (and everyone else) To see me in this godforsaken state Of absolute chaos Heartbreak In it's rawest form What if I had begged you to stay? What if I'd told you I can't do this without you? What if I'd told you how much I needed you What if I did anything other than fighting back the tears Maybe for myself, maybe for you, Mostly for the crowd of people gathering Saying their goodbyes Anxiously looking around to bear witness to everyone else's reactions And I didn't want to be that girl That girl who falls to the ground Kicking and screaming and crying and begging But what if I was? What if I was any girl other than the one I pretended to be that day The one that held her tongue and kept her mouth shut because she knew the second she opened it to speak she would sob The one that wrapped her arms around you for the last time, and the one that let go The one that couldn't bear to watch you walk away So she kissed you goodbye Got back in the car And drove home What if i wasn't that girl who didnt allow herself to completely fall apart until she was alone in the privacy of her own home? What if instead I'd made a scene, Doing what everything inside me so desperately wanted to Grabbing hold of your hand and refusing to let go Losing the facade of confidence The charade of strength But I'm not that girl And I never will be So each and every time you leave I kiss you goodbye I unclench my fists and retract my anchors I untether my heart from it's human home And I put on a brave face Maybe for myself, maybe for you, Or maybe For that girl.
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This is not a love poem, my dear, no....this is a poem of defeat. To let you know you have won this war... I give up....you have me beat. I can no longer fight for your heart while scraping my own from the floor. I can't ask you to feel something you won't, and I can't handle hurting much more. Your will of disdain is so very strong, it's one I just can not break. I thought I was worthy, but I was wrong... was dreaming, but now I'm awake. I've been running a race I just can't win, chasing what will never be mine. And at some point I fell, head over heels... now I'm just running on borrowed time. I think I thought there was something more, a real connection between you and I. And I guess I thought you felt it too... I swore I saw that same spark in your eye. But I'm just a fool and you a joker, roles we both play well. So where does our charade go from here? My guess would be straight to Hell...
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May 10, 2018
May 10, 2018 at 10:49 AM UTC
Not a Love Poem
Hands Eyes Feet God Charade Pink King Dress Blessed Make up Pastels Ponies Hearts Carts Darts Future Born Torn Plain Wrapped Trapped Ice Wings Strings Scissors "Fallen angel" Silhouette Marionette
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Mar 19, 2015
Mar 19, 2015 at 9:44 PM UTC
Marionette, Part II
My hair comes out but I stay true It is unreliable, like you I can pull it, twist it, I feel no pain But I don't see what I then gain You moved me and shaped me like I was your clay I didn't complain, though my fabric would fray I was too scared of going astray The way you think makes me shrink And still, I sink So I'm falling But conversation is stalling Faraway voices calling I stumble away, crawling I look bad, but I don't feel so First time for that, I know Everything I say and do, I was kept in line by you And it's weird knowing someone so well But feeling like you're under their spell Yet nothing you do makes me afraid Even though I'm in your charade A masked ball, can I recall Your face without fear? When the fog becomes clear Will you stop being austere? Or return to your old ways, a smirk for your 'dear' Like my hair, you are there, But I can't make myself care.
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Apr 15, 2014
Apr 15, 2014 at 6:08 PM UTC
Hair
Can't put my mind to rest, it's another sleepless night. My eye's are wide open, and it seems a constant fight. I lay here in thought, about my long boring day. Daydreaming of tomorrow, and the bills I must pay. I toss and I turn, trying to find comfort in this bed. Punching my pillows, so I can have a place for my head. After a few minutes, the cycle must again repeat. Then there is an itching sensation, that begins in my feet. After laying here for an hour, and going through this charade. I get up and go to the refrigerator, for a midnight raid. Now that I have a full stomach, maybe I'll have better luck. But another hour passes, and this is really beginning to **** It's running close to two o'clock, and my eye's have yet to close. Then there is another itch, except this time it's my nose. My eyes begin to get heavy, and I'm hoping I will sleep. And then I hear my alarm clock, beep, beep, beep. By now it's four o'clock, and I still haven't slept a wink. My eyes hurt so much now, they hurt to even blink. I drag myself out of bed, so I can move forward with my day. And hope that I will sleep tonight, or there will be hell to pay.
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Nov 1, 2010
Nov 1, 2010 at 12:56 AM UTC
Another Sleepless Night
* Perhaps I am hard to like,      No one understand how I used my bike. Perhaps it was me,           who understood first                   of their perspective's meant to be. Perhaps that is why I stay away,                          always a step ahead in my foolish play. Perhaps you never notice my distance,                                 for I am alone in this charade of existence. *
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Jan 22, 2015
Jan 22, 2015 at 1:57 AM UTC
Perhaps
Be gentle with us. please. or not it's your call but keep in mind that we as poets we feel too strong which is not to say that that is wrong we don't ease into love, we quickly fall we love like we're dying we live like we're small but in our minds. in our minds we are flying we feel everything at once you wouldn't think it by looking looking at our normal fronts a disguise, a charade but prey don't believe a masquerade a poet can be but anyone existing silently a poet can be but everyone existing violently we all make up stories we're all acting to a degree so things aren't so different no not so different you and me we notice the quirks we notice the nothings if you meet a poet then you should believe you should know that we we love what we see and appreciate all forms of beauty for to us imperfect is lovely perfect doesn't exist we have those markings on our wrist of all the awful places we've been to we kissed we've kissed the devil when we went to hell and back again so now that you have been informed that a poets heart is easily scorned knowing we feel deeply knowing we feel more more than we really should I've warned we don't just love a person when we fall we love their whole world we love it all and when we're hurt it is hard to trust and thus please. Be gentle with us.
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May 23, 2018
May 23, 2018 at 12:33 PM UTC
be gentle with us
You were supposed to love me til death do us apart. But Then you let go and decided to trample my heart. You've turned love into a lie and made heartbreak a work of art. It was something I should have seen coming from the very start. I was so foolish. Choosing someone like you wasn't at all very smart. I fell in love with you because I knew your heart and knew who you were. Now everything good about you has been wiped away, now a blur. When I told you I loved you I meant it. I didn't stutter nor slur. Now, after all is said and done I wish this charade had never occurred. My heart, soul, time and tears were all taken advantage of. Oh, how you lied to me because what you offered was never love. In spite of the suffering I went through by you, I still considered you sent from above. You disregard the times I treated you like a queen, when you were my white dove. When my heart utterly melted for you. When your beauty was my treasure trove. Now that its all over, you've given love a bad name. Now that its over, I'll never look at it the same. Love is no longer beautiful. Its a disgrace, a pity, a game. Because of you Ill probably never find true love and that's a real shame. However, I do hope someday I can find another that'll light my heart aflame. But for now its a darkness a void. Because of you that's what love has became.
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Oct 21, 2020
Oct 21, 2020 at 9:02 AM UTC
A Loving Lie
She bares her soul to no one — a façade for each mood that infests her thoughts like the plague; reticence stalks her every now and then, as she tries shying away from her darkest secrets ripe as cherries hanging from the bough… a charade of whims planted mysteriously on her sealed lips.
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Feb 10, 2015
Feb 10, 2015 at 6:24 AM UTC
Masquerade
The mirror reveals a face naked and bleak, the sweatpants have holes and the T-shirt is frayed. It'll be over in a couple of weeks. The hours spent escaping to Twitter speak to the test on the floor with a failing grade. The mirror reveals a face naked and bleak. The tissue rips across my salty cheek while my transcript laughs at the mess that I've made. It'll be over in a couple of weeks. I'll go to class tired and return home weak; won't even bother with the "good girl" charade. The mirror reveals a face naked and bleak. "It's fine, Dad. My predicament's not unique. I'll get my diploma, and all this will fade. It'll be over in a couple of weeks." Yet perhaps this last piece of paper I seek will only frame the path from which I've strayed. The mirror reveals a face naked and bleak; It'll be over in a couple of weeks.
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May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 2:39 PM UTC
The -Itis
I started on the rooftop The empty sky above was all I had And all I needed It was pure Like a blank page Waiting for a story to be written But at the first sight of clouds I fled to the top floor There were fun and simple things on the top floor Like Pokémon games I got red, white, and blue The monsters seemed so banal and repetitive But nobody else would acknowledge it Sending me into a dragon's rage I tried using flamethrower on Charmander Ending in futility as I ran out of burn heals I looked out the window in frustration Rain was falling outside Inside Patriotism was buffeted by the hail So I devolved into a lower level Going further down this building For ***** and giggles I found more **** Less giggles On a floor with a TV displaying the news I was eager to learn about the world Only to learn everybody hates each other And nobody talks Or cares And the smartest person in the room Is the one I agree with the most Unable to view the tokens in my mind As anything less than treasure And those who try to persuade me otherwise Are thieves My spite steals tranquility Like the persistent storm outside My solution is shelter in lower levels My experimentation on communication With the general population Had rained on my playful parade But I felt very comfortable on a floor with friends Until they saw through my charade Discovering my emotions in disarray As the people who made me love this building Made me curse it's walls the more I loved them I searched for the peaceful embrace of solitude Once the storm outside transformed into a typhoon I found that solitude In a tiny bare room With a syringe and spoon I was unaware That room was an elevator That lowered me down the concrete void As the hurricane outside rattled me violently inside my box Trapped and lacking all agency I resigned myself to wherever the elevator chose to take me After the elevator finished pulling me into the basement The tsunami seemed to cease But I was buried under debris I had to burrow out of my tomb The dig was tedious and ***** My perseverance was heroic But triumph was thwarted When I reached the surface To discover only wreckage remained And when I looked up I saw the building I inhabited It's damaged facade Made it clear I would never visit those floors I missed on the elevator Above my building Hangs an empty sky It's purity is a lie The page was never blank Just constantly written on and erased To lure innocent readers into a tome
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Jul 24, 2017
Jul 24, 2017 at 11:48 PM UTC
Building
I started on the rooftop The empty sky above was all I had And all I needed It was pure Like a blank page Waiting for a story to be written But at the first sight of clouds I fled to the top floor There were fun and simple things on the top floor Like Pokémon games I got red, white, and blue The monsters seemed so banal and repetitive But nobody else would acknowledge it Sending me into a dragon's rage I tried using flamethrower on Charmander Ending in futility as I ran out of burn heals I looked out the window in frustration Rain was falling outside Inside Patriotism was buffeted by the hail So I devolved into a lower level Going further down this building For ***** and giggles I found more **** Less giggles On a floor with a TV displaying the news I was eager to learn about the world Only to learn everybody hates each other And nobody talks Or cares And the smartest person in the room Is the one I agree with the most Unable to view the tokens in my mind As anything less than treasure And those who try to persuade me otherwise Are thieves My spite steals tranquility Like the persistent storm outside My solution is shelter in lower levels My experimentation on communication With the general population Had rained on my playful parade But I felt very comfortable on a floor with friends Until they saw through my charade Discovering my emotions in disarray As the people who made me love this building Made me curse it's walls the more I loved them I searched for the peaceful embrace of solitude Once the storm outside transformed into a typhoon I found that solitude In a tiny bare room With a syringe and spoon I was unaware That room was an elevator That lowered me down the concrete void As the hurricane outside rattled me violently inside my box Trapped and lacking all agency I resigned myself to wherever the elevator chose to take me After the elevator finished pulling me into the basement The tsunami seemed to cease But I was buried under debris I had to burrow out of my tomb The dig was tedious and ***** My perseverance was heroic But triumph was thwarted When I reached the surface To discover only wreckage remained And when I looked up I saw the building I inhabited It's damaged facade Made it clear I would never visit those floors I missed on the elevator Above my building Hangs an empty sky It's purity is a lie The page was never blank Just constantly written on and erased To lure innocent readers into a tome
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Oh, how disgusting. All this disguising... To become somebody that’s worth existing. Oh, it's repulsing. Fully engulfing... Every truth, that ever found itself hiding. So join me... Hey let's play a lying game! And ***** ourselves, with something exciting! Deceiving, and heartless thieving... After all life is so dull without some bleeding. Such is life for a boring... Existence... Cause I’m a... Liar, liar! And only that is true! After all fire, fire... Is something I pursue! Just call out liar, liar! And I’ll infect you too... With the addictive taboo... Of bidding the truth adieu. Trust me! That’s a lie, such a lie, for a lie! You see, I can’t pry my own dyed scheming eyes. So please, forgive my falsified truthful lies. ...Truly... Lying! ‘Cause I’m a liar. Oh, how appalling. The lies are crawling... And covering every single little bit. Oh, how revolting. And full of loathing. It’s nauseating! Exhilarating, Isn’t it? Manipulating. Hardly pulsating... A heart like that, is the only one that’s free. Without emotion, Without devotion... It’s much easier to fake something happy. Much easier to fake yourself being happy... So, join me! Hey, let's play a lying game! And cover ourselves, with something inviting! Rewriting, and truly lying... Finally a story that wasn’t meant to end with painful feelings! Put on the masks, and let's have us a masquerade! Dancing senselessly, on the shadows of the betrayed! A smiling, and crying, and lying charade... Such is life for a boring... Existence. 'Cause I’m a liar, liar, And only that is true! After all fire, fire, Is something I pursue! Just call out liar, liar! And I’ll infect you too... With the addictive taboo... Of bidding the truth adieu. 'Cause I’m a liar. Peek-a-peek-a-boo! Ha, ha, I found you! Hiding from the truth... Well it’s nothing new. Peek-a-peek-a-boo! I can see right through! Liars know liars... Like you know the back of your own hand. It’s bland. Such an existence... Where everything goes as planned. Wasteland... Is much more fun to navigate and understand. That’s why... I left it behind, my world is covered in lies. That’s why... It seems there’s no longer blue in my sky... So... Put on the masks, and let's have us one last masquerade! Dancing senselessly, on the shadows of the betrayed! A smiling, and crying, and lying charade! Such is life for the boring existence... Of a liar. Am I a... liar? Liar? Does it seem that way to you? After all fire, fire... Is burning through the roof... 'Cause you’re all... liars, liars! And I don’t know what’s true! After all fire, fire... Has ravaged all I knew... I call out liar, liar! I cannot trust you! But the world has gone askew... And there’s nothing else to do... Except bid the truth adieu... Leave this, leave it behind, hide it in the back of your head! I’ve given up on all I knew, There is nothing, that is truly true. I’ve given up on all I knew, Because after they betrayed me, they’ve gone askew. I’ve given up on all I knew, Because life, people are so boring and dull, There is nothing for me here. I don’t see a point in living... That’s a lie..? Trust me! What’s a lie? Is it lies? Only lies! I can’t pry my blind eyes, while I cry... Please, forgive my blackened sky full of lies! Truly... Lying! Truly... Dying...
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Aug 12, 2018
Aug 12, 2018 at 5:28 AM UTC
Help me.
Oh, how disgusting. All this disguising... To become somebody that’s worth existing. Oh, it's repulsing. Fully engulfing... Every truth, that ever found itself hiding. So join me... Hey let's play a lying game! And ***** ourselves, with something exciting! Deceiving, and heartless thieving... After all life is so dull without some bleeding. Such is life for a boring... Existence... Cause I’m a... Liar, liar! And only that is true! After all fire, fire... Is something I pursue! Just call out liar, liar! And I’ll infect you too... With the addictive taboo... Of bidding the truth adieu. Trust me! That’s a lie, such a lie, for a lie! You see, I can’t pry my own dyed scheming eyes. So please, forgive my falsified truthful lies. ...Truly... Lying! ‘Cause I’m a liar. Oh, how appalling. The lies are crawling... And covering every single little bit. Oh, how revolting. And full of loathing. It’s nauseating! Exhilarating, Isn’t it? Manipulating. Hardly pulsating... A heart like that, is the only one that’s free. Without emotion, Without devotion... It’s much easier to fake something happy. Much easier to fake yourself being happy... So, join me! Hey, let's play a lying game! And cover ourselves, with something inviting! Rewriting, and truly lying... Finally a story that wasn’t meant to end with painful feelings! Put on the masks, and let's have us a masquerade! Dancing senselessly, on the shadows of the betrayed! A smiling, and crying, and lying charade... Such is life for a boring... Existence. 'Cause I’m a liar, liar, And only that is true! After all fire, fire, Is something I pursue! Just call out liar, liar! And I’ll infect you too... With the addictive taboo... Of bidding the truth adieu. 'Cause I’m a liar. Peek-a-peek-a-boo! Ha, ha, I found you! Hiding from the truth... Well it’s nothing new. Peek-a-peek-a-boo! I can see right through! Liars know liars... Like you know the back of your own hand. It’s bland. Such an existence... Where everything goes as planned. Wasteland... Is much more fun to navigate and understand. That’s why... I left it behind, my world is covered in lies. That’s why... It seems there’s no longer blue in my sky... So... Put on the masks, and let's have us one last masquerade! Dancing senselessly, on the shadows of the betrayed! A smiling, and crying, and lying charade! Such is life for the boring existence... Of a liar. Am I a... liar? Liar? Does it seem that way to you? After all fire, fire... Is burning through the roof... 'Cause you’re all... liars, liars! And I don’t know what’s true! After all fire, fire... Has ravaged all I knew... I call out liar, liar! I cannot trust you! But the world has gone askew... And there’s nothing else to do... Except bid the truth adieu... Leave this, leave it behind, hide it in the back of your head! I’ve given up on all I knew, There is nothing, that is truly true. I’ve given up on all I knew, Because after they betrayed me, they’ve gone askew. I’ve given up on all I knew, Because life, people are so boring and dull, There is nothing for me here. I don’t see a point in living... That’s a lie..? Trust me! What’s a lie? Is it lies? Only lies! I can’t pry my blind eyes, while I cry... Please, forgive my blackened sky full of lies! Truly... Lying! Truly... Dying...
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soiled. here there everywhere. regular like. verb and noun, he, both. soiled, soiled. verb, noun. ***** a stupid~sounding word. say ***** ***** ***** three times fast. what is a sound of ***** intimate. what is the color of ***** every color that leaves you, or even begins you, soiled, sullied, tainted. sweaty. the intimate man did not intimate. his stains were visible. no need for polite, needless the charade, of legitimizing intimacy, there for all to see. they were no longer intimate. he did not know why, after awhile, he didn't care. pretended intimacy, which was a ***** thing, a stainless steel cutlery kind of ***** a reflection visible only to the eye of the beholder. cutlery was never clean, soiled, after but one use, think. in the mouth, with the hands. such intimacy, that, they still shared. an easy pretense. terror. terror is intimate and ***** lived in terror. not constant which implies periodic spaces. no breaks. the terror soiled him, you did not need even be intimate with me. sweaty, see, smell it. taste it, even better! though the terror was deeply intimate, in the skin embedded, I told ya, easy visible. easy to avoid the intimacy of terror. clean, silky clean intimates, changed regular, changed nothing. intimacy was a Cain mark. his private, public. his public, privy. more? more. shame. shame is intimate. there are so many kinds too. the shame of soiled. the shame of disrespect, the shame behind closed doors. the shame of public humiliation. the shame, the stink, of failure. the shame we share in ways we wish not speak of. the shame of bad grammar, shame leaves you soiled, ***** terrified. shame on you for having read so far. but you can boast you knew me when, you knew me intimately, bad and well. you knew that you did not know anything about me, even though, we had been at least this one time, intimate. who is soiled now?
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Nov 9, 2014
Nov 9, 2014 at 4:04 AM UTC
The Intimate MaN
soiled. here there everywhere. regular like. verb and noun, he, both. soiled, soiled. verb, noun. ***** a stupid~sounding word. say ***** ***** ***** three times fast. what is a sound of ***** intimate. what is the color of ***** every color that leaves you, or even begins you, soiled, sullied, tainted. sweaty. the intimate man did not intimate. his stains were visible. no need for polite, needless the charade, of legitimizing intimacy, there for all to see. they were no longer intimate. he did not know why, after awhile, he didn't care. pretended intimacy, which was a ***** thing, a stainless steel cutlery kind of ***** a reflection visible only to the eye of the beholder. cutlery was never clean, soiled, after but one use, think. in the mouth, with the hands. such intimacy, that, they still shared. an easy pretense. terror. terror is intimate and ***** lived in terror. not constant which implies periodic spaces. no breaks. the terror soiled him, you did not need even be intimate with me. sweaty, see, smell it. taste it, even better! though the terror was deeply intimate, in the skin embedded, I told ya, easy visible. easy to avoid the intimacy of terror. clean, silky clean intimates, changed regular, changed nothing. intimacy was a Cain mark. his private, public. his public, privy. more? more. shame. shame is intimate. there are so many kinds too. the shame of soiled. the shame of disrespect, the shame behind closed doors. the shame of public humiliation. the shame, the stink, of failure. the shame we share in ways we wish not speak of. the shame of bad grammar, shame leaves you soiled, ***** terrified. shame on you for having read so far. but you can boast you knew me when, you knew me intimately, bad and well. you knew that you did not know anything about me, even though, we had been at least this one time, intimate. who is soiled now?
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bad boy, i got a weakness i like the taste of blood licked from my own hands from being reckless tearing hearts out their intended cavities and im afraid my mouth is cold from being exposed i guess i keep the charade of getting mad at you for not buying me cigarettes or not telling me to quit them depending if im interested in you i go to the gym to heal all of my mistakes instead of church and its cuffing season want you to tie me to your mast and leave me there all season then afterwards we'll never text each other again because you're a bad boy and you are no good for me
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Nov 6, 2017
Nov 6, 2017 at 3:10 PM UTC
you're a bad boy
Is there anything more depressing than visiting a forum that hasn’t been active for a decade? Perhaps visiting said forum on a Saturday evening, reading every thread and replying to at least five comments before realising that the site hasn’t been active for a decade. The saddest part would be to continue replying to each thread before creating new usernames and replying to your own replies. I guess the next logical step would be to continue the charade for ten years before dying a solemn death atop your festering keyboard and not being discovered until seven years later. The forum continues to stand as a testament to your solitude as nobody has replied to your last post about the perfect way to make a ham sandwich.
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Mar 8, 2013
Mar 8, 2013 at 4:39 PM UTC
Two Slightly Toasted Slices of Wholemeal Bread, Moderately Buttered with Several Slices of Ham, Lettuce and Mayonnaise
Honesty is a luxury... but not many people would buy it. The view of the end of your own nose costs more than most know. Up in the air or down at your toes, your soul see's something you do not. Honesty is a luxury... but not many people would buy it. Throwing lies into a game of heads or tails, setting your values so low. Naivety and cynicism is the road sought. Honesty is a luxury, but its not something you willing bought. Stop the charade, just own your facade, those people you fooled, in your lies they did the rot. Festering and lingering, your words of false they did hear...forget the person you did once appear. honesty is a luxury that many people would not buy. that's why you're still here, because most believe the lie.
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Jan 4, 2014
Jan 4, 2014 at 4:16 PM UTC
Honesty is Luxury
I’m looking in a mirror, and this face I see, Tall with dark features, at the age of sixteen. At the age of sixteen, I have seen the world. The people, the faces, the boys and girls. At the age of sixteen, I haven’t been far from home. But I’ve made some friends, and I’m not alone. At the age of sixteen, I’m aware what’s right. What’s wrong in this world, the hate and the strife. But at the age of sixteen, what confuses me still. Is how you have children, on your own free will. But don’t care for them, and spread your charade to we. But I see behind the curtains, And I’m only sixteen. I’m only sixteen, and I see what you do. I’m behind the acts, I’m standing beside you. I’m screaming in your ears, “Oh, don’t you see?! The mess you’ve made?” And I’m only sixteen. I’m only sixteen, I manage a life. I have two jobs, I am not a wife. But I am sixteen, and for a while back there. I saw your kids more, and gave them more care. I am only sixteen, I will be seventeen soon. But I’m not stupid, and I see what you do.
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Jul 12, 2011
Jul 12, 2011 at 7:52 PM UTC
Only Sixteen
Your soul is a choice, bucolic scene With charming travellers in a masquerade Playing the lute and dancing, yet seem Sad beneath their fanciful charade. All carouse in a minor key Of victorious love and opportunity, They seem not to believe in their delight And their song mingles with the moonlight, In the still moonlight, beautiful and blue, Birds in the trees dream and sigh by Elegant fountains among marble statues, And the cascades in their ecstasy cry.
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Apr 28, 2015
Apr 28, 2015 at 9:36 AM UTC
Translation: Clair de Lune (Verlaine)
True Stories #1 This is the first of what will be a series of little vignettes. When I was fourteen, I was the alienate hipster rebel In a private school hellhole. Hair long, tie knot never pushed up, Unbuttoned button-down shirts, Camus lover, Siddhartha disciple, Small acts of disdain, Expressions of teenage hell-pain. One day, the principal Threw me out to get a haircut. Went to the nearby barbershop, Which was in the underground, Subway stop. Returned to school where It was Pronounced unacceptable. Twice more this charade-escapade, Went on, till the barber cried and would not Charge me anymore. Shorn like a lamb, My mother roared like a lion. The next day, the man in charge, Who would marry my second son, Three decades later, Called me in and sort-of-apologized. From that day, I never respected authority, Only learned to fear tyranny. See photo of my latest protest!
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Oct 5, 2013
Oct 5, 2013 at 7:40 AM UTC
True Stories #1
Oh Brexit! Where is the Exit? You can’t make your money You Tory Grandees, Nor can you Remainer MPs. We’re running right into a very hard cliff; Before we get out we’ll all be so stiff. There’s no majority for any option And Theresa May’s deal is but a concoction. Vote after vote and endless debate. March twenty ninth is the Closing Date. Can we escape? I really don’t know. The media are loving this pantomime show. This sorry charade is filling the news, We’re all sick of hearing everyone’s views. Please get me out of here I hear you say Surely, surely there must be some way! So come on politicians Get your fingers out And show these Europeans We still have some clout. If we can’t do that then just pack it in And throw the whole thing right into the bin. Whatever we do I’m just past caring But I hope you’ll tell me thanks for sharing. Get on with it! That’s the yell. For until we resolve this We are in Hell. Paul Butters © 30\1\2019 (Written in the early hours!).
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Jan 30, 2019
Jan 30, 2019 at 5:05 AM UTC
Oh Brexit!
”How To Not Be A People Pleaser” below are listed 10 bullet points on how to toughen up, on how to avoid the blow of others wiping their ***** feet across your ‘welcome mat’ heart. Surely I have the look down, right? Skinny jeans fit for skinny girls (who I am not), tucked into loosened combat boots that have never seen a good shoe shine. Black eyeshadow smeared in the form of war paint, "Today is a good day to die" But the fact that this is all a charade, that ‘looking tough’ does not mean you automatically become some brazened ******* who does not let anyone inside of your crazy head or heart, loosens the grip you try so desperately to hold on to. If you look the part, surely you feel it in your bones. You feel the anger and the need to not be so polite all of the time. Yet you still hold doors open, say please and thank you, smile at strangers on the street, your mouth cannot form the simple word ‘no’ in fear of hurting another person. So how can you not be a people pleaser? You can’t. No matter how grungy you look, no matter how loud you listen to rock ‘n roll no matter how dark and damaged you let your soul appear maybe you can allow yourself to become something you are not, but you can not bury something you are.
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Jul 28, 2014
Jul 28, 2014 at 12:59 AM UTC
People Pleaser