I am holding your hand on my heart
it is a grip I can not let go of
because if I do
so will you
Time goes as went
communication will not mend
                                                   - Where are you?
                                            - When are coming home?
Days turn into weeks
kisses turn into bruises because
In love, all is fair
In love, you must beware
The butterflies begin to whine
as fear is digging into my spine

I gave to you my all away
All I ask is for you to stay...

We were meant to last.

Like a bubblegum sticker on a 5-year olds hand...

Reach for the sky
She did
Grab the starts
She did
Fly high
She did
Fall down?
She did.

Drunk words
Sober thoughts
I take one more
***** shot
Just to make sure
I will forget you

I lay down
I give in
I feel your touch
On my skin
I know
It is wrong
Cause you mean
Nothing to me

Sun rays dancing on her bronzed skin
Her, dancing through my mind
The smile that portray my summer
Her giggle, the music my ears crave
Her cherry flavored lips
The mystery hidden in her dimples
Wild child, wild, lost?

If I were a bird
I know where I would fly
I would fly away

His smile is made of
indie love songs and red Wine
He tast like one night

The
Aching
Breaking
And Mistaking
all the love I should have
That I want to give
But that I can’t seem to find
I’m lost...

three flowers in my vase
They all stand there in their place
One is white
One is red
And the last one is blue
When the sun touch my flowers
I see them dance
It’s from the sun they get their powers
But today I notice there’s a change
My blue flower seems sad
It has bent it’s back
The red one appears to be mad
it’s ready to attack
And my white flower is gone
I lost it yesterday by mistake
In the moment I lost it i thought it was fun
Oh dear lord what have I done


Two flowers in my vase
They both stand there in their place
One is red
And one is blue
When the sun touches my flowers
I see them dance
It’s from the sun they get their powers
But today I notice there’s a change
My blue flower has bloomed
Now it’s even more blue
My red flower is doomed
It’s color is gone, I swear it’s true
It is dead
It didn’t get a chance to live
I never had it with me in bed
Well they say love isn’t fun
But oh lord what have I done


One flower in my vase
It stands in it's place
One is blue
The sun can’t touch my flower
It’s the last one I’ve got
Without the two others it has all the power
This feeling isn’t what I thought
The blue flower is me
And I am the blue flower
But I let nobody see
Up I have build a tower
It has no door, window nor Stairs
I will never let you in
You killed my flowers
Now I’m blue

His smile is made of indie love songs and red Wine

It feels like you’re dead
But you’re still alive
And that makes it hurt even more

But now tell me love,
What happens when
the bottle is empty
And we go home?

She called him
Yellow but lately
She’s been blue and
He’s been nowhere
Near.

The fact
The we won’t
Ever get
Together again
Tears me
A
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I wanna cry in the safety of your arms
But when ever you’re around I’m suddenly fine

Until I’m alone again
And I need your arms to stop me from feeling this lonely

They water me
I get lots of water
Lots of love
But I’m placed in the shadow
The window is so far away
And I’m drained from energy
But they placed me in the dark
And so the dark is where I will stay
•
The dirt is so dry
So they keep watering me
•
I’m drowning

How she moved so carelessly
when touched by the evening breeze
she sparkled like the light ***** in the night sky
however, I heard the anguish in her laugh
she consistently kissed me like it was her last kiss
danced as if it was her last dace
lived as if it was her last night
fascinated by everything
but I was only fascinated by her
how tiny her fingers were around her cigarette
how her bones looked like
they were about to leave her body
I never understood
But as she took off
Her bones became stardust
longing to get home
now I understand
that she never was supposed to be here with me
god had other plans for my angel

It's cold.
Oh, so cold.
Not outside, not in my room.
In me.
“who are you?”
I only see
red, purple, blue and yellow
in the mirror
the seduction dripping from my lips
the sin between my thighs
safety is an illusion
you tore me in half
but not end me
I am your broken doll

I meet her an autumn evening
It was cold outside, but she didn’t care
She took my hand and dragged me away
from the party, the people, the noise
she said that it was a perfect night
a perfect night for us to meet
cause the sky was cloudless
and the moonlight wasn’t bright enough
to steal the beauty of her favorite thing
the lonely yet perfect stars
she said she was like the stars
easy to admire, beautiful and unique
but dangerous to come close to
that she could destroy everything
but I wouldn’t believe her words
it was like they became
a brisk breeze that cold night
her ocean blue eyes lit up in the moonlight
and her long blond hair
where full of crunchy leaf’s
her nails were long and painted
with dark brown nail polish
and her coat was nowhere near
she laughed at me
when I panicked and said a stupid joke
and she kissed me on the lips
when we saw a star shouting
glide effortlessly across the dark blue sky
I closed my eyes for second or two
And when I opened them again
she was gone

Rain drops on my window
Making a sound
A sound I love to hear
The calming and quiet sound

she was flying around on a cloud.
Living the good life, being happy as ****.
And then, she was hit by reality.
cold, hard reality.
she stopped and looked around.
she realized how bad, she had ****** her life up.
she felt the horrible feeling of not being wanted once again.
and she wondered if everybody else also feels like this way too often to?

I had to leave
I was tired of
Allowing you to
Make me feel
Anything less
Than hole

The anxiety is eaten me up!

What if I die before I even get a chance to live my life?

What if I could have stopped
You?
What if I told you that I loved
You?
What if it was my fault?
What if it was an accident?
What if you were so depressed
That even just Getting out of bed seemed too overwhelming?
What if it was something someone
Said?
What if I had picked up the
Phone?
What if it didn’t work?
What if I’m not the only one
Feeling this guilt?

Tell me love...

Why

Why did you **** your self?

My heart is pounding
It’s pounding so hard
Inside my chest
I’m afraid it’s gonna
Break up my chest

* message opened 3 minutes ago
I told him i loved him
And he left me unread
Maybe He is thinking
About how to say that
He loves me too or
Maybe it’s not true
Maybe he won’t even
Be friends anymore

message opened 43 minutes ago*

He’s not gonna answer
Me...

I'm anonymous
Anonymous is me

You don't know me
Nor do you know my face


I'm anonymous
Anonymous is me

I could be your sister
I could be your cousin

I'm anonymous
Anonymous is me

I can do whatever I want
Because it's not really me

I'm anonymous
Anonymous is me

You can't help me
Even though you really want to

I'm anonymous
Anonymous  is me

Nobody around me can help
They have no idea because...

I'm anonymous
Anonymous is me

If I tell who I am things will get real
And I will have to deal with them

So, therefore...

Am I anonymous
And anonymous is me

Imagen being the sun
Everyone admires you,
Loves you and want to see you

But when you shine you
Know you hurt people
You see people turn
Away in disgust

Even though you shine
Brighter than anyone else
You are all alone your
Hole day you try to please other

You work all day long
And all night long but
Have nothing to look
Forward to, depressing

you have only
seen yourself
tow times

takin a picture
and looking at the
image and staring
in the mirror and
looking at your
reflection

you don't get to see
the way your eyes
light up when you talk
about something
you love

and you can never
see how beautiful
you look when you
really smile

it's really is kinda
sad that never
actually seen yourself

but I can promise you
I will be here every day
to tell you what I see

-unknown

I have faked my smile for a very long time