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Quin Rosenheart Dec 2018
"Go away"
I beg you to stay.

"It's your fault!"
I'm the one to blame.

"I'll replace you!"
I can't go on without you.

"I hate you!"
I love you.
Thom Jamieson Dec 2018
I will never trust again
Because trust inevitably leads to pain,
Which leads to tears,
Which leads to mistakes,
Which leads to hurt
Better to live a life devoid of love
Than to hurt this deeply again.
so sorry
Gillian Godwin Nov 2018
It has been a while
Since that time.
You know.
That night.
My first date
And that carnival ride.

Yeah,
I'm terrified.

Tell me how you managed it,
How you remember it.

Because young sir,
I highly doubt it is the same as I.
Or do you wake up screaming too?

Because I do.
Never forgetting
Always blaming myself
For something I had no control over.

Did you enjoy my innocence?
Because I wish I could have it back.
That you hadn't done what you had
That I didn't have to see your heart of black.

It still hurts down there.
That place.
You were inside of me before I could say a single thing.
Before I could even say "No"

You make me sick.
So sick that I wanna bleed.
But everyone knows now
And trying to keep me sane.

I had told you that I was saving myself
But all you could say,
"Please Baby, Please!
I love you so much!
Just give me this much!"

Didn't know what to do,
I just freeze.
What am I suppose to say
What do I do now?
Do I talk to my mother and father
Face that judgement
Or do I block it all away with a smile

What do I do
What do I do
What do I do now?!

What the **** am I suppose to do now?!
You hurt me!
You broke me!
I'll never forget!
Pray to a God I no longer trust?!
You both were suppose to protect me and look at me NOW!

I'm ******* bleeding from my wrists!
I have no remorse.
I can't ******* sleep no more
Can't even hug my father.
What am I gonna do now...?!
yellow soul Jul 2018
What if I could have stopped
You?
What if I told you that I loved
You?
What if it was my fault?
What if it was an accident?
What if you were so depressed
That even just Getting out of bed seemed too overwhelming?
What if it was something someone
Said?
What if I had picked up the
Phone?
What if it didn’t work?
What if I’m not the only one
Feeling this guilt?

Tell me love...

Why

Why did you **** your self?
Scarlett Jul 2018
You broke me down
And tore me apart
But you couldn’t see it
You couldn’t see that it hurt
So, I blamed myself
For being too weak
I shut myself down
And hated me for it
But its ok,
It was my fault anyways.
Pastelblitz Feb 2018
I want to pretend I’m something better than this broken soul
Pretend that I’m not these shards that I am
Because no one wants to look at me
And I don’t want to look at it

No one really knows, you know?
I’ve learned to brace for impact without a threat

I’ve learned to hide from people I know
And hide feelings and open skin
And to cry silently

Was it all my fault?
All the abuse
From them?
Someone that I love
And someone that I used to love

Your unwanted hands in my shirt and pants?
Was it my fault?

Did I cause this?

I’m scared
I truly am
Scared to love myself
Scared to trust myself

Scared of what his friends think of me
Did he lie?

Oh my god

Please
Please help me
I hate this
I hate all of this

I wish I never trusted him
Or off myself instead
And wish I was never born
Why? Why did you do this? You never helped..
Michelle Yao Dec 2017
Nung ika'y aking nakita,
pakiramdam para sayo ay wala,
Ngunit di nagtagal,
Naglaro si kupido at tadhana.

Pinana ng pana ni kupido
at binaluktot ni tadhana
landas nating dalawa

Isang araw, nakita kita sa isang tabi,
ika'y nilapitan at pinangiti,
Hnaggang isang gabi,
Puso'y di mapigilan, sinigaw sayo
Mahal kita, aking sinta!

Nung naging tayo.
Walang umangal ng kung ano,
Hanggang sa dumating ang araw na
tayo'y pinaglayo.

Hindi kinaya ang pagkukulang,
kaya winakasan,
sapagkat sandata ng kalawakan,
oras at distansiya ating kinakalaban.

Bakit kailangan ganito?
Pero anu pa bang magagawa ko?
Huli na lahat, para ipaglaban ko,
pag-ibig na binalewala ko.

Kasalanan ko,
Pagdurusang dinaranas ko.
Erin Nicole Jan 2017
Write 10 negative things about myself. Here they are:
1. I am fat.
2. I self-harm.
3.******.
4.never learn.
5.everything is always my fault.
6.I am a bad person.
7.I am worthless.
8. I am a *****.
9. I'm a *****.
10. No one will ever love me.
That is me. Always the disappointment.
Erin Nicole Jan 2017
...
Me:
Is it all my fault?
The way I feel?


Monsters:
Of course, you are sensitive, ******, and naive.
You are making it worse and worse.
It's all your fault. Every last bit.
Erin Nicole Jan 2017
Life doesn't hurt until you think about how things have changed, people you've lost, and how much of it was
.....Your fault....
Me all the time now.
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