I am that girl the girl that smiles even when hurting The one that will do anything to make others smile The one that goes through a lot but doesn’t show it The one that feels like she is a burden to people The one that feels like she is not loved The one that acts strong when she is not The one that cries herself to sleep The one that wishes that one day she will feel better The one that hides her problem from the world The one that says am Ok when she is not The one that her heart aches but no one cares The one that never says no to anyone The one that is kind but nobody cares
your love hurts but i cant help but need it i cant help but need you why do you love me why do you do these things to me you tell me you love me and i say it back but do you really? we haven't talked in months you talked **** to someone who tells me everything 'it was just because of my meds but im in love with her' you say to the girl who sleeps over my house for days and nights on end the girl who loves me too the girl who learned to hate you because you love me instead why do i cause problems. i fell in love with you day by day it slowly eats away at me not being able to see you why is it this way why am i in love with you i hate this feeling but...i love you
She feared so much Still she wanted to see, feel and be it all She was her own No one was like her And she was Like no one She was so talented Everyone was jealous But she couldn’t see it She had no idea She wanted to feel alive She went too close To the fire Too many times And ended up getting burned
Remember when we were younger Talking about our lives About how we'd be rich About who'd be our wives Fueling the fire Which was built up with lies
I thought I wanted tall, Blonde with blue eyes One I could protect Who needed to be held as she cries But I've seen this facade And how it's just lies Because I had feelings For someone with different ties
This kind is hard to find Makes you lose control of your mind So different from what you wanted But honestly, you don't mind And once she's found, She's hard to give up The pressure makes you slip up **** up Making her harder and harder to forget Making you do something you regret
Like thinking about love
If you still think this is about the girl And how "she's so pretty" And "I wish she felt the same" Then you are mistaken It's a completely different game It's the pain you give yourself When you don't know who to blame The frustration from wanting But not having Forever Exhausting Thinking all the same As people who have it worse All because a girl doesn't remember your name How can you be happy When your best quality is shame
So yeah you get upset Depressed Anxious too, but that you forget Until you meet another girl Who's into you Like the girl was who will never love you
"Why did she leave?" "What did I do wrong?" "How can I fix this?" Becomes your most common song So you forget about the new And you start to lose hope You abuse the new's trust Just so you can cope Till the horse from up high Brings the old down from the sky To you where your hearts start to fly And are strong together without having to try All the way Till the day you die
This is when You'll wake up from your dream And understand where you've been When you discover the culprit Of all the pain and everything that comes with it Was you all along Makes you wonder If life's worth all the ****?
The girl who would rather spend her Friday night at home organizing her room than at the parties. The girl who would rather curl up and read at lunch than sit and socialize over talk of nothing but "people". The girl who would rather drown out the world with music than sit in class and be involved. The girl who would rather work alone and finish her homework in class, than sit in the big social groups making weekend plans. The girl who would rather be independent and be judged as a loner than be friends with people who will secretly judge you. The girl who would rather collect books and records than makeup. The girl who would rather study astrology than watch every show on Netflix. The girl who would rather thrift shop and buy $3.99 boots than buy top of the line $80 boots. The girl who realizes that all of this does not make her any better than them. The girl that realizes she is only trying to impress herself; confidence is key.
I want to be written about is all. I want to be a mysterious cute girl who seems to be enjoying her book a little too much as her tea is getting cold. I want to be the bold girl, who isn't afraid to speak up and show you that she does not conform to society's wants of her. I want to be the self-sufficient girl who rides her bike to the grocery store and back, regardless of all the extra weight. I want to be the Eco-friendly girl who proclaims herself as an environmentalist and makes flyers to hang up around town: "save our planet!" I want to be the girl with good music taste, who even if you don't enjoy her music, you enjoy talking about it with her because of her passion for her genres. I want to be the intelligent girl, who has taken it upon herself to learn the alphabet in sign language for the fun of it, or strives to learn about the intelligence of ocean creatures. I want to be so packed full of a personality that I am practically overflowing. They say you can be anything you want to be - So why not be everything?