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Dec 2016 · 615
A Secret Not Shared
Mica Kluge Dec 2016
A secret not shared never truly dies.
It just sits on the sidelines of your heart
And smolders
-Forgotten heat from a raging fire.
What a lonely way to burn.
A drabbling that may be added onto later.
Dec 2016 · 561
Scripturient
Mica Kluge Dec 2016
Scripturient means violently word obsessed.
How can someone obsessed with words
Not be violent, but not the way you think?
I am scripturient. The molecules that compose
My very blood are the same bits of iron from
A dynasty of stars that lived and died and
Shone their light and faded...some of them exploded.
Exploding stars-violence engineered in my DNA.
But that is everyone. Man. Woman. Whatever.
Violently word obsessed is in my mind.
In the (fictional?) rise and fall of universes.
All the ends and beginnings. Man vs. man.
Man vs. nature. Man vs. God. Man vs. self.
Make and unmake. Heal and then break.
History will dryly report the fall of the Roman Empire,
I will tell you of the last emperor who watched
The world he'd known crumble into ashes.
History will tell you of the Greek Fire used
In the defense of Constantinople.
I will tell you of the fire's reflection in the sea
And the distortions made in the reflection
As men dive into the salt water to escape the flame.
History will tell you what people have done;
I will tell you who they are. The truth is, if
I'm going to be honest, then my words will likely
Be violent. It's not just wars; it's the people who
Shatter each other every day, whether unintentionally
Or for sport. It is the little lie or the denied truth.
Our own minds often torture us. I am word obsessed.
I am scripturient. I came across the word as meaning
"Word obsessed," but then I learned that it meant
"Violently word obsessed." I denied it for a while,
But, if you want to tell the truth of humanity,
You must be violent. Bits of raging stardust
Who can never seem to be at peace. That's us.
Man vs man. Man vs. nature. Man vs. God. Man vs. self.
"Words have no power to impress the mind without the exquisite horror of their reality." -Edgar Allan Poe
Nov 2016 · 491
Status Quo
Mica Kluge Nov 2016
You took a red balloon by the string
And led it deep into the woods.
  You snipped the string from around your wrist
   With the switchblade I didn't know you had
    And let the balloon float away.
     You turned your back and didn't watch it fly away,
      So you wouldn't know that it didn't fly very far.
       The string tangled in the branches of an oak overhead.
        You didn't see it; you were already gone.
         I had once had a red balloon;
           I could have one again.

            I climbed into that oak tree after it.
             Wrapping my other three limbs around the branch,
              I reached my right hand for the string.
               It came undone easily beneath my inquisitive fingertips.
                I tied it to my own wrist.
                 It reached for heaven,
                  And carried me along with it.
Entry two in my "I Fall from Elegance and Land with a Thud" poem series.
Nov 2016 · 785
On Why I Trip over My Words
Mica Kluge Nov 2016
There are secrets that we never even give voice to,
Like squishing them inside ourselves will make them go away.
But, they don't need lyrics to have their own voice
-even instrumental pieces carry feeling-
And the music escapes when I open my mouth.
It tumbles out like a discordant symphony,
And I can't take it back.
I try, but I can't,
So, I stumble over the wreckage my silence has wrought,
Still denying the secret all the time.

*Maybe you know, now.
Regardless, consider this my confession.
Part 1 of the "I Fall from Elegance and Land with a Thud" series.
Oct 2016 · 530
Blue
Mica Kluge Oct 2016
It's the color of your eyes and the
cold shoulder you're givin' me.

It's the sun dancing on the surface
as you keep dragging me deeper.

It's the sky as I lie on my back,
breath frozen in my lungs.

It's the cool of your whisper in my ear
and the chill as I feel it haunting me.

It's my breath fogging up the bathroom mirror
when I realize you're no longer beside me.
This is another of my "describe something without actually using the name of that something" prompt responses. This is my response to the color blue. It was partially (and only partially) inspired by the song "Blue Lips" by Regina Spektor.
Sep 2016 · 328
Scratch That
Mica Kluge Sep 2016
My life is So full of
Half starts, incompletion,
Should've, could've, would've,

My regrets ride On my back
Like I'm the One they've saddled.

I have mastered
The very elegant
Art of inexistence.

I've become so
Totally lost In being afraid
Of my life That I've forgotten
To even live.

This isn't living.

Don't hate anyone.

Does that include myself?
Scratch that. Currently lacking a self.

I'll stumble into faith. Or life.
Or faith in life.

No more. Never. Can't live like this.
Scratch that. Not really living.

Caffeine may keep me awake, but
What can coffee do for an empty soul?

The answer is nothing.

I can mend an empty soul. My empty soul.
Even as I dream of paradise while stuck on the ground.

Time to live.
Time to wake up.

There can't be any incompletes this time.
Aug 2016 · 305
Illuminate
Mica Kluge Aug 2016
-It warms us-
-Illuminates us-
-Consumes us-
-Destroys us-
It unmakes everything
It ever touches,
But we need it to
remember we're awake.
Craving our destruction...
What a fickle race,
For the sake of a flame.
Jul 2016 · 341
A Letter to Him
Mica Kluge Jul 2016
Hey you,
We've got things to talk about.
I left, and you deserve a why.
I grabbed my bag, left you behind, and
I resolved not to cry.
It was mutual, I broke up with you, you with me.
I'm lost in the versions of the truth.
One of us had to be the adult,
We're both grown, toying with youth.
You were the chaos to my chaos
When my chaos needed calculations.
We were both hurricanes in anger
And too proud to make reparations.
We began as a whirlwind, all instinct,
Spinning too fast to make note of what passed.
You, in love with the idea of me, me loving the idea of you,
The thing about storms is that they don't ever last.
Of course there are questions now I'm gone:
Was it love? Was it real? Will we ever really know?
I couldn't answer them, and I still can't.
I wasn't sure, so I decided to pack and go.
Maybe I was a coward, but I left to save us both.
I broke my vow, I cried rivers of tears,
But I saved you from us, the volatile us,
The lovers who wouldn't have lasted another two years.
I don't regret a single moment and maybe,
Maybe it was just doomed from the start,
But I suppose I'm grateful that I learned a lot from you.
You, who, reminded me to think with my head, not my heart.

~ Sincerely,
A different me
Jul 2016 · 1.1k
Limbo
Mica Kluge Jul 2016
My heart cannot settle.
I don't belong here.
I'm "too young to leave,"
But I'm too old to stay.
I don't belong here.
Jun 2016 · 503
In Our Wake
Mica Kluge Jun 2016
You and I were a summer thunderstorm,
Tension building in the distance, then
Shattering in a crack of thunder.
Whirlwind of passion, we never could
Have lasted, but, like hell we tried. The
Storm lost its ferocity, and all that was left
Is the damage in its wake.
Jun 2016 · 295
Time Scraped Raw
Mica Kluge Jun 2016
There will be a day when time itself is
Split in two: before today and after today.
But, for right now, I'm still stuck in this moment
Caught between the pendulum and
The impact. That irreversible moment when time was rent.
May 2016 · 669
Chaos and Kairos
Mica Kluge May 2016
She stepped into the wall of steam,
Allowing the shower to unmake her
From her neck to her ankles.

Never her head, never her feet.

Her head was an exploding star
Full of simultaneous destruction and creation.
Constantly making, unmaking, and remaking.
Impossible to unmake something while it's being made and unmade and remade.

It's all chaos and kairos.

Her feet cannot be allowed to be unmade.
Even in the sanctuary of sweet oblivion,
There are miles to go yet.

Chaos and Kairos. That's all there is.
May 2016 · 765
The Tricksters
Mica Kluge May 2016
It was all over in a moment,
Everything you once hoped,
The second you saw the illusion
That the glistening mirage evoked.

Deep pools of green, chocolate, blue,
Each one a beautiful escape,
Each one designed as a cunning ruse,
The eyes meant to seal you in your fate.

Dew drops perfectly reflecting,
The geometric spiral awaits
Luring the innocent inside,
Then the guardian slams the gates.

The spider’s web and the eyes,
You go in when the trap is concealed.
Once the trap is sprung, the door is closed,
You gladly stay, the danger revealed.
An old poem from English class. It's basically a comparison between eyes and spiderwebs.
Apr 2016 · 1.2k
Voyaging
Mica Kluge Apr 2016
I feel like I'm just watching life,
Like an ocean trapped within a picture frame.
Then, there are those sometimes
When the sea breaks free of its frame
And swallows me whole.
Apr 2016 · 757
The Only One I Didn't Read
Mica Kluge Apr 2016
Instant messaging.
Instagram.
Facebook.
Twitter.
E-mail.
Texts.

Technology's heart
Has a billion beeps per minute.
Ding goes the notification.
Tap go the fingers, typing
Out the immediate response.
Can't seem to keep up,
Living life with my thumbs.
There is only one message
That I've never read.
I'll never read it.
It's the last one you sent,
And, there won't be a response.
Cell service doesn't work in heaven.
Mar 2016 · 255
Dedication
Mica Kluge Mar 2016
For you.
My dearest friend and my sweetest
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If I ever publish a book, this will be the dedication.
Mar 2016 · 377
Half-Remembered
Mica Kluge Mar 2016
It was during a spring rain that
I finally understood my desperate
Obsession with poetry.
With writing.
With why I write.
It was in the silence,
In the drawn breath between the
Impact of the first raindrop and
The shattering of the second
That I remembered something
I had always known, but never
Given voice to.
I write, not only to put a piece
Of myself on paper,
Immortalization, in a way,
But because I was searching
For something. Searching for some
Forgotten and lost part of myself.
Thinking, maybe in the words I say
And the words I don't,
And the reasons in between,
I would find my missing piece.
The other half of my soul.
Mar 2016 · 449
Spinning
Mica Kluge Mar 2016
Twirling around.
Heart thudding.
World spinning.
For a moment,
I'm so infinite.

I won't stop
Until my legs
Collapse from
Under me.

As I'm twirling
It doesn't have
To ever end.
The moment I
Stop, I'll crash
Into the ground.
My reality so
Off-kilter and
So distorted.

I'm dreaming?
What? You're not?
Why would you
Deny me my
Moment of joy.
Reality will strike
Soon enough.
Let me have my
Fantasy moment.  

You're still here?
Don't hold your breath.
I'll keep spinning until
Reality crashes in.
Mar 2016 · 458
Quotes
Mica Kluge Mar 2016
Some people speak
In riddles, but I
Speak in quotes.
One day, I will find
My own words to
Say what I'm thinking,
But, until then, these
Half applicable words that
Someone else wrote
Will have to be enough.
Maybe, one day, I'll
Have the courage to step
Out from behind someone
Else's florid prose.
But, until then,
Shakespeare and Dickinson
And Eliot and Twain and
Dr. Seuss and Homer and Dante
Will fall from my lips
As trees shed their leaves.
Mar 2016 · 384
Photograph
Mica Kluge Mar 2016
You'll never see me in any photo
But I'm always there.
I'm the one behind the camera;
I take the pictures.
You need a picture to
Remember people
When they're gone,
But I'll never forget.
I'm the funny face
Behind the smiling faces.
I'm the countdown
Behind the "cheese."
You are the spoken words,
And I am what you don't say.
You will fade away
and I, I will remain.
Photograph is derived from the Greek words meaning (light) and (to write or draw).
Light in this sense is the picture itself, and the people in it. Writing is the words and drawing that make the picture, both spoken and unspoken.
Mar 2016 · 362
Lost and Found
Mica Kluge Mar 2016
I sit here in the dark
Staring at the stars,
Halfway between lost and found.

Don't turn on the light,
It burns my heart.
I'd try to save it,
But there's no point in
Protecting something that's
already dead.

I'm not waiting.
My heart ain't breaking.

I'm halfway home
Half a world away from you.
Maybe that's as it should be.

But I always wondered
You, or home, which is
Lost and which is found?

I think I know now.
Mar 2016 · 407
Cracked Light
Mica Kluge Mar 2016
There are cracks
in everything.
They might not
be obvious,
But they're there.

Rocks and caves
have cracks,
And those cracks
admit light.

In the exact
same way,
People have cracks.

You won't always
see them,
But they're still
there, anyway.

Beautiful people have
their cracks,
because the cracks
let light
Into their souls.

The light shines
out again,
Broken souls illuminating
the world.
Mar 2016 · 346
Storm in the South
Mica Kluge Mar 2016
A storm is rising up
in the south,
and it is softly singing,
singing,
singing my name.

I can hear its voice
in the wind
that whips through my hair
as I'm standing on
this mountaintop.

I can feel it in
the raindrops that
hit my bare shoulders,
not hard enough
to sting,
gentle enough to caress.

The wind and the rain
and the storm are
singing my name.
The grass is bowing
before me, honoring
those who stand upon
the mountaintops
in full wrath of the storm.

And so, before the wrath
of the storm in the south,
I stand, the master
of my own soul first,
then the master of
everything around me.

If I am the master of myself,
then how can the wind and
the trees and the storm not
know my name?
Feb 2016 · 411
Black and Grey
Mica Kluge Feb 2016
"Here's a challenge for you,"
He told me one afternoon.
We were finished studying
And boredom wasn't an option.

"Fire away," I answered,
Mind and pen already craving the task.

"Describe the colors black
And grey without saying the words."

I had an answer ready.
"A perfect villain."

He smirked. "You're a poet.
I know you can better."

I had another answer.
"Let me tell you a story.
But, be warned,
It isn't a happy one."

He rocked his chair
Back on two legs and
Folded his ink stained
Hands behind his head, waiting.

"He'd never killed anyone before.
The occasional art forgery, sure.
Dabbling in counterfeiting, guilty.
But he had never hurt anyone.
Now, as he looked at the man lying
Lifeless at his feet,
A part of his heart joined
The victim in the grave.
His life was over.

Twenty years later.

He didn't really keep track of time.
What was the point?
After all, we were all destined for the grave.
Might as well not count down the days to it.
He and death were old friends,
Well acquainted from many meetings.
He was Charon,
He ferried the dead.
Neither good nor evil,
He just was.
One day,
He wouldn't be."

My friend gave me one
Of his favored smirks.
"See? I told you
That you cold do better."
Another of my writing exercises for descriptions.
Feb 2016 · 326
Racing a Hawk
Mica Kluge Feb 2016
I raced a hawk
On the way home.

I had the gearshift
Under my trembling knuckles
And a deserted highway
Waiting for the impact
Of my screaming tires.

The hawk was armed
With the open sky,
Three dimensions in which
He could escape gravity.
Unlike me, he came
With his own wings.

It was actually fair,
Or so I contend.
Both of us masters
Of our respective elements.
Both of us feeling
Absolute freedom, but in
Our totally different versions.

Neither he nor I
Will ever know who
Won and who lost.

The race itself is
The only thing that
Actually mattered to us.
Feb 2016 · 947
Magic in 10 Words
Mica Kluge Feb 2016
Those times when infinity is
measured by a single heartbeat.
Jan 2016 · 507
Fragility
Mica Kluge Jan 2016
If you're going to be immortal,
what point is there to anything?

If you're going to live forever,
then there is no beauty in experiences.
There is no need to do anything
or to not do anything.

You can do something ridiculously stupid,
can ***** up everything,
but it will never matter.
In the end you won't matter.

You will exist on,
long after the record of anything
you messed up has crumbled to dust.

So, what's the point of living forever?

Why be immortal?

There is such beauty in the fragility of mortality.

There is such beauty in how
those under the boot of mortality can be so fragile,
yet shine so bright.

They glow to light life itself,
and, yes, the do burn out,
but they lived.

You, on the other hand, will endure.

You will exist.

You will never truly live because you'll never die.
Jan 2016 · 945
The Psychic's Daughter
Mica Kluge Jan 2016
Shadows walk between earth and spirit,
Every black laced soul mourning that which is to come,
Whispering strange mysteries that kiss against my skin and soul
And fill me with foreboding.
Not for myself, but for all of those who wander in the darkness,
Fumbling around without a lightning bolt of truth to light their path.
I do not fear the shadows of those who once were,
Nor do I fear what is to come.
I am their voice.
What does a shadow have to fear from other shadows?
This is a story/poem I composed with a magnetic poetry kit.
Mica Kluge Jan 2016
I once wondered what drove
A man to pick up a brush
And apply water colors to
A white piece of paper.
This was before I wise;
I owned only my arrogance,
For all the facts in my head
Were first discovered elsewhere.

"Paint is wet, it will destroy
The flimsy paper," I thought.
The paper endured.

I went through my limited
Bits of logic before I resorted
To a sensory argument.
"It doesn't sound like writing."

Oh, how I loved the scratch
Of a pencil against a fresh sheet.
It exhilarated my senses like
Few other things could.

"Furthermore, what good does
Art do? The painter makes
Something and it goes to a
Museum for people to look at.
How can that possibly better
Any part of the world?"

An older artist listened to my
Ramblings with more patience
Than I would credit the human race.

He smiled knowingly, and said to me,
"I have never seen the point of
Writers. They merely shut themselves
Away from everyone else and put
Their opinions on a piece of paper.
How can they possibly benefit the
World? What can they do?"

As my anger rose from deep in
My throat, the artist merely said
To me, "Have you never realized
That art and words are both important?
That one is never better than the other?
Here, I have a challenge for you:
Try to paint. Paint, and then tell me
That art is useless. In the meantime,
I will attempt to write and tell you the same."

So convinced that I was right, I agreed
Without a second thought. I never noticed
The knowing gleam in the old man's eye.

The next morning, I borrowed some paints
And a canvas, intent on proving my point.

Before the first stroke stained the page,
My hand still in motion, I became a believer.
In the heartbeat that it took for my muscles,
Nerves, and synapses to carry out my mind's
Order, I became
The artist,
The canvas,
The brush,
And the space between,
Charged with potential and kinetic energies.

I understood the point of art, to be the art
And to make the art. The painter and the artist.
The painter paints for others. The artist paints
For the outpouring of his soul.

I called the artist to tell him this, and
Found that he had been about to call me.
"I do understand," we said together.

He told me how he had realized the difference
Between writer and storyteller. The storyteller
Wrote for the audience, to entertain them with
A new fable. The writer wrote for both himself
And the story. He told me that he became both.

I relayed my own revelation. He didn't seem
Surprised, but, looking back, I should have
Known that had been his intention all along.

I don't think, however, he had expected to
Discover what drove me as well.
We both became wiser that day.

I still know that I am not wise. I probably
Never will be, but I have tasted the fruits
Of my arrogance, and almost lost a
Beautiful experience because of it.

Arrogance is now ashes in my mouth,
But I have decided to turn it into ink on a page.
Or, perhaps, water colors on canvas.
They are both forms of magic.
Jan 2016 · 348
Moments
Mica Kluge Jan 2016
Each moment that we experience is a paradox.
It is both the greatest and worst of its kind.
It is the first breath of one, and the last of another.
It is itself and more than itself, but never beyond itself.
These moments, the love and hate that fills each,
Define human beings for the rest of their moments,
For every other moment, though none will be this one.
These moments, they will fade like a lie in the light,
But what they make us will remain as long as we do.

And beyond.
For Emily.
Jan 2016 · 303
Two Months On
Mica Kluge Jan 2016
You left two months ago.
There's no pretty way
There's no polite way
To say what you did.
With barely a word,
You
Packed
Your
Things
And
Left.
I healed. I recovered.
I moved on.
I haven't seen or heard
From you in two months.
I haven't really moved on.
Here I am, wide awake
At three in the morning.
Tell me this: if I've moved on,
Why are my lips begging to
Speak your name?
Jan 2016 · 862
My Fickle Muse
Mica Kluge Jan 2016
Dreams unknown murmur in the darkness of my imagination,
Whispering empty confusion that fills an unseen storm.
A hurricane lurks off the coast of my consciousness,
Waiting to be unleashed upon a blank page.
As I bandy around with my fickle muse.
Jan 2016 · 475
Status-Shattered
Mica Kluge Jan 2016
My best friend died today.
And it's the same as when
I lost other family members,
Why should it be any different?
She was family.
People line up. They ask me
How I'm doing. I answer
With the polite obligatory
"Okay," or "Not so well,"
But I never say what I'm
Really thinking.
I want to answer
"Hand me something
Flammable, please."
I can't possibly be okay,
And you're an idiot if
You believe me when I say otherwise.
Yes, my best friend actually died today.
Jan 2016 · 868
Please Don't Go
Mica Kluge Jan 2016
I got the call while I was at work.
Your mom found you lying in the floor,
You're still unconscious in the hospital,
I got here, doing the speed limit and a lot more.

They wouldn't let me see you, ICU is for family,
You're one of my best friends; they finally relented.
I finally see you and I honestly can't believe
The sight with which I'm presented.

I hold your hand and your hand is so cold,
Not like the lively girl I used to know,
I can't say the words I want to say,
But they all boil down to, "Please don't go."
Jan 2016 · 927
Circles
Mica Kluge Jan 2016
It is the shape that your life forms
When you're chasing him and he's chasing you,
But you never get anywhere.
A beautiful thing that was never meant to be.

It is the ring on your finger when you
Don't listen to yourself,
When you think with your heart,
When you assume that
Tomorrow will be kinder.

It is the hole in the wall you want
Your fist to make when you argue again.
It is the tears that stream down your face instead.

It is the way you turn as you look at the stars
And beg for answers, and none ever come.
Prompt: Describe a thing without actually saying the thing. I chose to describe a circle.
Jan 2016 · 640
Storm
Mica Kluge Jan 2016
She
Took a moment
To close
Her eyes.

In that moment
She
Heard the rolling
Of the thunder,
The pattering
As the raindrops
Flung themselves
Against the earth,
The creaking of
Trees bracing
Themselves
Against the raging
Onslaught of both
Wind and water,
The approaching
Symphony of a
Wall of rain.

She
Could smell the
Rain kissed earth,
The clean fresh air
That accompanied
The cleansing of
The world.

She
Could feel the wind
Howling across
Her rain streaked cheeks.

Breathe in.
Breathe out.

Heartbeat.
Heartbeat.

Wind and lighting.
Thunder and rain.

She
Opened
Her
Eyes.

The sky was clear.
No storm for a
Hundred miles.

Except
For
One.

She
Smiled to herself.
"I am the Storm."

Brace yourself.
Mica Kluge Jan 2016
I called her
At three am.
I asked her if
She was awake.
She lied and said
That she was.
I had woken her up.
"Take me somewhere,"
I asked her.

She had a car.
I didn't.

I didn't think
She would actually
Come because she
Hated mornings.

We were in college
Then, and I met her
In the parking lot.

She held a cup of
Coffee and was
Dressed in a hoodie
And sweatpants.

In the darkness,
I couldn't see
Her eyes.
I thought she was
Still asleep.
Was I ever wrong.

She opened the door
Of her car and
Slid in, lithe as
A cat.

I had never ridden
With her, so the
Moment I climbed
In the car was
The moment I learned
Something unusual
About her:
This girl I knew,
Or thought I did,
Drove a stick shift.
She was the only
Girl I knew who
Could drive a stick shift.

"Are you sure that you're
Awake enough to drive?"
I asked her.

She turned to me,
And, now, I could see
Her eyes in the light
Of the dash display.
I had never seen her,
This shy academic,
Look that wild.
She was alive,
More alive than
I had ever seen
Anyone.

She drove like
She had been born to,
Like it was her one purpose,
The one thing for which
She lived.

The empty three am interstate.
The space between three and four
Thousand rpms.
Incredibly loud music.
I could see the appeal.

This was life.
This was living.

We came back to reality,
Back to school,
As the dawn broke.
"Thank you," I told her,
But I didn't know what for.

I couldn't make a list of what
She had given me that
I was grateful for.
I didn't know if I was grateful.
Having lived in that high,
I couldn't go back to
My life, eking out my existence,
Without such intense torture,
Wanting that high again.

I had lived and
Now, I was addicted to life.
All because of a
Quietly wild girl
And her stick shift.
Jan 2016 · 562
Perception
Dec 2015 · 447
Hiding the Fall
Mica Kluge Dec 2015
You can hide the fall,
But
I am still silently broken.
I played around with a magnetic poetry kit.
Dec 2015 · 319
Always-Haiku
Mica Kluge Dec 2015
You are one half of
Always; I am the other,
Making forever.
Dec 2015 · 2.3k
Hero Complex
Mica Kluge Dec 2015
I don't want to be the one to lead the way,
But I still want to be the one to save the day.
I want to be a part of something bigger
I might not be a saint, but I admit I'm a sinner.
I smile like an angel, scheme like a demon,
And swear enough to embarrass a ******.
A hero doesn't want dark to shadow his light
I'll shake the world cause I'm not afraid of the night.
I was born in the dark, but I want what's right;
I've got a hero complex, and I'm not afraid to fight.
A friend of mine and I had a freestyle rap battle. This is what came out of it.
Dec 2015 · 514
Trapped
Mica Kluge Dec 2015
I feel trapped inside
My own
Existence,
Totally unable to escape it
Unless by doing the unthinkable.

I take a package of
Sticky notes to work
And steal a few precious
Heartbeats to commit my thoughts
To paper,
Forever immortalizing them.
These notes decorate my fridge,
Monuments that will long outlive me,
Reminders of those heartbeats
Where, during the pumping of my blood,
I was actually alive.

I clean up everyone
Else's messes
And thus I make my living,
But can it really be called that?
A living?

Day begins.
Breathe in.
I make the coffee, and attempt
To open my eyes.
Sometimes it works.
Sometimes it doesn't.
Off to work. To the broom
And the dustpan
And the beats of my heart
I will never get back.
Music helps, but it's not immortal.
Even the best of playlists gather dust.
My job is important, they say.
I don't believe them.
Maybe if I could just see what difference it makes,
Who my work impacts,
That there is proof that I am doing something right
Other than an empty pat on the back
And an obligatory paycheck,
Maybe then, it would be worth it.
Maybe it wouldn't **** away my soul
Like it does.
But maybes don't pay the rent,
And they certainly don't replenish my soul.

Only words make me alive.
But it is too late for that.
I was born with a gift
I'll never be able to use,
A sanity I'll never be able to reclaim.
I was born a few centuries too late.
Or maybe I was born with a soul
In a soulless world.
Where has life gone?
How can anyone live like this?
How can they exist
Rather than actually live?

Why am I here?
I can work such magic,
But there's never anyone to see.
So what does that
Leave me with?
A head and a heart full of
Words and a world that has
No place
For them.
There is an Oscar Wilde quote that I thought about while writing this, but I don't remember it at the moment.
Dec 2015 · 626
The Truth Will Set You Free
Mica Kluge Dec 2015
The fog hides the view
And lies hide the truth.
Trapped in both,
You flounder around,
Mirages cloaking you.
No matter how much you
Struggle,
You can't live if the
Veil remains.
Kick it, beat it,
Yell, scream.
It will still never be enough.
Once you have been
Free,
Mirages lose their enchantments.
Break out.
You can't see the world
Around you
If you're trapped
In a cloud.
If you know the truth,
The truth will set you
Free
Because you aren't forced
To rely on the perceptions
Of others.
They may be just as
Deceived and lost.
Dec 2015 · 234
Words on a Page
Mica Kluge Dec 2015
I write to make my voice heard
To put power behind every word.
Pen to page, things to say;
Change the world in a day.
I pick my fights with care
Jump walls like they aren't even there.
Pen to page, out of my way
Things to do, I cannot stay.

I write to run, I write to hide,
I write to fight the monsters inside.
Pen to page, I get away
But must again face the day.
Everyday a dangerous fight
Continues when I close my eyes at night.
Pen to page, my strength is new,
With just enough to get me through.

I write because it's what I'm told,
But words on a page is getting old.
Pen to page, what a chore!
Writing has always been a bore.
Words won't come; they never do.
This writer's block is nothing new.
Pen to page, just get it done,
A root canal would be more fun!

I write because I have to write,
An obsession with no end in sight.
Pen to page, words in my head
Remain unspoken, must be said.
A jumble of words begging to come out.
The power of some whisper, others shout.
Pen to page, words on a page
Stay strong and defy the age.
Which of the writers are you? Goal-oriented, tormented, bored, or obsessed?
Dec 2015 · 336
Swept off My Feet
Mica Kluge Dec 2015
Swept off my feet
At first sight,
I did everything
That you wanted.
We danced and
We played and
We frolicked around;
Then you got
Distant and cold.
Then you left,
And my heart,
My heart broke.
You came back
And my heart,
It became whole.
I was happy.
You left again,
And I was
Sad, not broken.
You didn’t return.
I moved on.
I later learned
That you were
Playing with me
And my heart.
You needed me
More than I
Really needed you.
You thought that
It was a game,
But that’s okay.
You can have
Your petty games;
I’m not playing anymore.
Dec 2015 · 1.3k
The Definition of Impossible
Mica Kluge Dec 2015
IMPOSSIBLE

I-Is
M-Mainly
P-People's
O-Obvious
S-Self-
S-Satisfyi­ng
I-Illogical
B-Belief in
L-Little
E-Effort
Dec 2015 · 298
Saudade
Mica Kluge Dec 2015
Lingering memories:
The phantom feelings
Of a time gone by.
Fingers struggling
To grasp what
No longer exists.
I can still feel
The same sensations
That I felt before,
But, when I
Open up my eyes,
It is gone.
And so my heart
Aches for what
Is no more.
How can I miss
Something so
Desperately
That I have
Never known?
Saudade is a Portuguese word for the feeling or longing for something that is absent.
Dec 2015 · 279
Lingering
Mica Kluge Dec 2015
Clouds and smoke
and jets and me.
Not really here
But not really gone either.

Clouds high and transient.
They waft above us
As we stare back.
Too high for mortal man.

Smoke, the smoldering
Remains of what one was,
But is no more.
Now, it stretches for the
Sky in one last attempt
At elegance, now gone.
But, it has all passed
Beyond the recollection
Of mortal men,
Only a heartbeat after fading.

Like clouds, the jets
Are transient, constantly
Moving, but never recognized
As anything apart from
The crystals and their
Evidences, the ribbons
Of vapor left on the
Sky's carpet.

I am neither here nor there.
An ancient soul in a modern body.
The remnant of
A forgotten age,
Yet I still exist in the present,
Caught between what the
World is and what it once was.
Dec 2015 · 319
Through The Mist
Mica Kluge Dec 2015
Through the mist
Are two points
Of red light.
I momentarily recoiled
Thinking a monster
Loomed before me.
As I drove
Closer, inching along,
I came to
The realization that
The red lights
Were a monster
Of another kind.
The lights turned
Green, allowing traffic
To continue along
The vacant highway.
This monster wouldn't
Eat my body,
But it would
Destroy my sanity.
A little something I came up with while stuck in traffic.
Dec 2015 · 432
Escape
Mica Kluge Dec 2015
"That's the right word,"
I say to myself,
Writing the next line.
Before I can finish,
My thoughts are interrupted
By my boss's yelling.
"Come on," he calls.
"You've gotten your fix.
Now back to work."
My head ****** up,
My scribbling hand stilled.
The boss's words smart,
But I must work
If I'm to eat.
Back to routine's kingdom
I voyage, utterly chagrined.
Memories of my escape
Join the mist's evanescence.
Like the treacherous ocean,
I am always running,
But forever fated to
Return to the shore.
The dictates of duty
Govern my restrained passion.
And thus, I yearn
For escaping through words.
To put it succinctly,
Mundane reality is terminal,
It will **** your soul.
Art is the soul's
First and best defense,
Whether words or pictures,
They represent your soul,
Fighting for its survival.
Survival in the escape.
Answer this for me:
Having just once escaped,
Why would you even
Want to come back?
Ray Bradbury — 'You must stay drunk on writing so reality cannot destroy you.'
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