"Be ladies but we stay girls,
Hold on to our hearts,
Because we haven't lost,
The feelings to dream.
Stay girls forever,
Like the days we walked forth.
We wanna stay girls.
We're gonna stay girls"
-SNSD

After meeting you,
I wonder how much I've changed.

No matter how hard I try,
My heart just can't accept you anymore.

I'm an ordinary girl.
I have a good family,
I have friends.
I am fun and crazy.
I have a good life.
and...
I have secrets.
**I hate my family.
I have no friends.
I am fun, because my life isn't.
I am crazy because,
that's how people notice me.
I hate my life.

Since the day I was born,
the day I had my first walk,
the day I said my first word,
the day I first went to school,
you were there supporting me.
I was the happiest little girl,
because of the way you spoilt me.
You spoilt me with clothes,food,money,
and especially love.
Not once did you make me feel something,
I didn't want to  feel.
You made sure I felt especial.
You always protected me,
from my friends or family.
But that sad day came...
We were separated.
I still remember the time I cried,
because I could not let you go.
That time I had to leave you..
my best-friend,
the first man in my life.....
My Grandfather.
I love you.

You were my best-friend,
the love of my life,
my greatest frenemy.
Now, you can't even say "hi" to me.
Why?
because now,
you have a family.
And I know,
that you've forgotten about me...

Im done
BEGGING
for your love.

All the goods things life
are better,
when I'm with you.

Sometime,
crying is the only language,
a person that is hurt,
could understand....
when your mouth,
can't explain,
how broken you are.

You know my
NAME.
     Not my......
   STORY.

Sometimes,
all you can do
is lie in bed,
and hope to fall asleep,
before,
losing yourself again...
as you cry all night long.

How are you??
.
.
broken.sad.crying.givingup.
dying.miserable.lonely.w­ronged.broken.scared.
stressed.numb.empty.victimized.angry.worthl­ess.
misunderstood.ashamed.scared.depressed.
.
.
.
*I'm fine

Isn't it sad..
when one,
can say
"I'm used to it"
After being hurt so much..

You live in the same world as me.
Your eyes are the same as mine.
You're the only person I could find,
That I know for sure,
won't leave me behind.
You know why?
Because the way you think
and the way you cry....
resembles mine.

Though you are not my first,
I wish you are my last.

Not sure if you're being real,
or if I'm mistaken.
I don't know why it's me,
that you want.

Even if you're holding someone else's hand.
Even if you're somewhere I can't ever find.
Please don't forget me.
Always remember the two of us.

It's not easy being a
QUEEN,
but hey.......
If the crown fits.

Thank you for the broken heart.
Thank you for the permanent scar.
Because of you,
I was able to find someone better,
The love of my life.

"While only death do us part.
I pray to the very God,
who put us together,
That you and I,
Should never part.
In this lifetime .........
Or the next."

Maybe they were right,
I am not good enough for you.
But,
I am a stubborn woman.
Yes, they are right.
But I am not wrong either,
on choosing to stay with you,
forever.

Sorry for being broken.
Because.....
Now,you need to carry the burden
Of trying to fix me.

I loved the way you called me "baby".
I loved the way you made me happy.
I loved the way you looked at me.
.
.
.
but
where did that love go?

It's funny how you judged me on how I looked.
Yes, I am a woman.
But I am not your freaking toy.
I could dress the way I want.
And you can never change that.

Dear Mr.M,
we trusted you,
we loved you,
we cared for you,
we defended you,
but all you did,
was to break us.
She loved you,
but you left her alone,
just to be with the other.*
sincerely,
your ex-fans."

Sorry I changed..
I thought you would understand...
"I'll never leave you"??
You just did,
and you left me broken.

My mask didn't change...
**It fell.

I know you're a *****,
But please don't try to compare me with you.
You are nowhere near my level.

I put a mask on everyday,
For the people to not see the miserable me.
But why do you do keep trying?
You keep trying to reveal me.
I do not ask for help.*
.
.
.
Please don't leave me.....

I changed,
NOT because I wanted to,
But because I HAD to.
For me to withstand,
All the ****.......
you made me go through.

There's many girls,
That guys don't consider
beautiful
or
****.
But that does not give guys the right,
to hurt and cheat on them.

It hurts to know,
That you'll never remember,
The things that,
I will never forget.
I guess I really loved you...
And you really didn't.

Why do I stay calm,
When I know I have every right,
To break down.
From all the **** I went through.
Oh yeah.....
Because if I did.
I'm afraid...
Afraid,
That I won't be able to stop.
And be broken forever.

It hurts to realize,
That you were everything to me,
But.........
I was nothing to you.

The more you show your true feelings,
The more people find ways to hurt you.
You may find me cold,
But I was once a happy child.
But now......
I'm just trying to protect myself,
From feeling the same ways I felt,
When the people I trusted,
Abandoned me.

I knew I loved you,
When I started making excuses,
For the times you hurt me.
How stupid I was,
To let myself love you.....
Deeper than I loved myself.

I thought you should know,
I'm leaving,
Not because I hate you.
I'm leaving,
Because you never,
Asked me to stay.

Forgiving is a hard thing.
But it's easy when,
You're blinded by love.
You should forgive someone,
Because they deserve it.
Don't forgive someone,
Just Because you want to,
Keep them in your life.