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Sergio Gonzalez Dec 2019
It feels like I’m lost at sea
A sea of insecurities
Fears, and disparities

I live in the past
To not look forward
I learn to love my comfort
They way I see the days go by
Complacent in time
I drown myself within my own sorrows

I wish I had the confidence to move forward
Baby steps never hurt anybody
Or so they say
When I’m reluctant to change
Even the smallest steps
Feel like Jupiter’s gravity has pulled me away

The high seas
Keep me from looking at my own potential
I can have a million fans
Guiding me towards the right direction
But in my state of mind
I’m so fragile, I’m so weak
I forget the resilience I’ve built from the past
It’s nothing more than a distant memory

But hold up
There’s no right if there’s no left
There’s no East if there’s no West
And there’s no We
If there’s never Me pushing against the tide
It’s hard work
But there’s no change
If you never give yourself the time
It’s a zero sum game
It’s just part of life
It’s just,
A part of life
Sergio Gonzalez Oct 2018
I could cry my eyes out
For a good lifetime
But what point
Would there be
To mope around the idea
That you never loved me

Today is a new day
Where I hope and pray
My memory of you will fade away
We’re the chasm of two lifestyles
Polar opposites
We were never compatible

I wish we shared the same hue
But I’m all by myself
Feeling blue
I’m a lone wolf

I could wish us together
But no wish of mine
Will have us
Running into each others arms
And loving us
Until death do us part

Life moves forward
And it’s better to wish
For a good morrow
So I’ll recollect myself
Shake the pain
And hope,
For a better tomorrow
3+5
Sergio Gonzalez Dec 2020
3+5
It’s getting kinda late
The sun is gone for the day
The tides grow fonder of the darkeness
Waiting for their Queen to rise

Send me to the moon
At least I’ll be happy there
I try to forget this growing worry
That the Earth will end soon
Should I panic or should I ride this storm  
No one ever told me
The world could be so cold

I wish I could turn time
And live the good days
Sunsets, Moonlights
Sunrise, it’s all fine
At least it was a good life

Can you return to me
Because I need your warmth
Please return to me
Because I miss your energy
You’re my beam of light
In this rather dull life
You’re what keeps me going
You’re what makes me feel right

Fill my heart with joy
Even if it’s just for a second
Stare into my eyes
And wipe away my tears
Look into my soul
And you’ll find me,
In the deepest part of space

I never felt like I belonged
I was always felt out of place
I entered the plane one day
But it feels like I never left
I never saw the change
But as time passes
So will I and so will you
It’s getting kinda late
But the Sun will return soon
Sergio Gonzalez Feb 2019
How can I ever forget you
You were the one that brought light
To this everlasting night
And even more
You brought peace to a broken heart

How can I ever regret you
Whether good or bad
Time slowed down
When you were by my side
Your smile turned my world
So warm inside
And with every story
I feared the change
Oh for heavens sake
I’ll never forget you
When our nighttime comes

But no matter what
You were always by my side
You were always
By my side
Sergio Gonzalez Jun 2020
I saw you through the looking glass
You’re always so beautiful
Even when the skies weep from above

You’re the spirit that roams my dreams
Only when I reach you
Do I become complete

Be yourself, never hide
Be brave,
Even when the world tears itself apart
I loved you then,
And I love you now
Til this heart runs its last beat
I’ll love you until the end of time
Sergio Gonzalez Oct 2018
A beautiful meadow
Lays dormant inside
I wished it blossom
But it’s not its time
It’s been neglected
For such a long time
But it needs attention
To bloom in time

I’ll take care of you
If you let me in
We all have our troubles
No one is immune to sin
I know you’re not perfect
But neither am I
We’re just mere mortals
On this garden of eden
We call life

My eyes run blood red
Like the moon at times
I’m always wishing
I could be by your side
But you’re so far away
You’re my Andromeda
You’re two seconds away
From fading away
But don’t worry
I’ve made it past the ISS
And my final destination
Is your constellation
I wouldn’t have it any other way
Sergio Gonzalez Apr 2020
Butterfly butterfly
You fly so high
You fly without hesitation
That’s at least what I see with my eyes

Animal animal
That’s the wish I had as a kid
To morph into anything
Whenever these toxic people
Came running
Only to put my happiness at risk

To the oceans I went
To swim with the otters
To the poles I went
To look fly like the penguins
To fields I disappeared
To run for excitement
To escape the bad memories

But for a moment
Just some small moments
Being me wasn’t always that bad

Animal animal
You were there at the low moments
And for that thank you,
You’ve been very kind
Sergio Gonzalez Jul 2020
If I could take your love
And hold it til we meet the sea
The horizon and the shores
Are more than a destiny

I dream of you
In multiple dimensions
You’re a world far away from here  
Even past all the stars and constellations
Sergio Gonzalez Mar 2021
I’m mesmerized,
By your scarlet hue
You stand so confident
Because you know you’ll bloom

Everything about you seems so perfect
Like you’re a living dream
It’s so alluring,
Your beauty is so simple, so elegant
No need for customizing

The world is so vivid when I’m with you
I’m more mesmerized for who you are
You’re so rare
You’re my shooting star

Pt.II
Oh shooting star
Where have you gone
I’ve been looking for you
For forty days and forty nights

My world has turned to gray
So colorless, so empty
This is what I feared of the most,
My biggest nightmare

Change is a part of life
I lost my heart
And I fear I may never get it back
The worst has come
And I now mourn the past
These happy moments,
They never last
Sergio Gonzalez Aug 2020
I look at the skies
As I think to myself
somber and lonely
Better days come
Even when the sun won’t shine

As I think of you
Bittersweet moments haunt my dreams
Beautiful scenes that will never be
I cross past the treacherous waters
But I’m far too calm
I’m far too stoic
It’s not the first storm I’ve ever seen

I’m not the one who you’re used to
The ghost of him travels with my shadows
It’s the past and so it seems
Time came and said hello
But now it’s time to go  

I’m over the moon that you’ve moved on
But take it day by day
You left in search for the new  
things may never be the same again

My mind plays tricks on my emotions
But as I go through the motions
I’m left with nothing but broken promises
Waiting for a sign if I’ll ever see you again
Sergio Gonzalez Oct 2019
A trillion stars
Glow the night sky  
A trillion grains of sand
Stand beneath my feet
A trillion thoughts can never define
What I am,
Or who I want to be

I flew to the sky
Looking for ecstasy
I traveled the world
Now would you travel with me?
Leave your problems for a moment
Let’s defy the laws of gravity  
For this life is only temporary

We are all strong
In our own way
And we are all weak
What’s the endgame?
Time is relative
So take your time,
It’s your life,
Go at your own pace

And when you’ll hold my hand
You’ll make my roses bloom
My heart will run on jet fuel
Zero to a million in twopointsix beats
Things will never be the same
But what’s life without a little change
Sergio Gonzalez Oct 2018
Long walks on the moon
The beach is made of cheese
Violets could be anything
As long as you’re with me
Sergio Gonzalez May 2020
I know you’ve been searching for something
A step forward with a million to go
But it’s alright
You’re closer than ever before

All my life,
All I wanted was attention
So much to be consumed by it
Let my ego soar
At the flow of the light of the uncertain
Towards the end of the universe

In my mind
That’s the only way to happiness
In your eyes
I’m delusional and disconnected
Far away from something genuine

But when I’m alone
I feel so far away
My thoughts become consumed
My heart becomes corrupted
If only you knew how to cure this vanity
I’d spent all my dimes
To be brought back to reality

I pull the tides closer to me
I’m more than a shining light
I play games with gravity

I know you’re sad when I’m completely gone
But just wait for the heavens
To run amok
Light always fades
But the darkness shows my true colors
Watch me go
As I overshadow the cosmos
Sergio Gonzalez Jul 2021
I know you’ve been struggling
To keep it together
Whenever the weather changes its mood
I know you’re out here wishing
You were on the moon
With no reaction to change
The wind blows with force
To move on to its next destination
And away it goes

I wish you could talk to me
The way you talk to your pillow
Always wondering why you’re so alone         When you don’t allow me in
When you hurt the most

So what’s holding you down?
You can blame the whole world
For the way you are
This and that
I’m so happy and now I’m sad
And my rain clouds form
When I see you like that
I wish I could do something
I wish I could take it all away
But my ship is sinking
And you’re the one to blame
Sergio Gonzalez May 2019
I try to be true to myself
I want to be free
But when I show my courage
It reminds me of who I turned out to be

I bleed the colors of my pride
But I hope I don’t lose to much
Or I may fear for my life

I want this simple life
I long for simple times
As you left this Earth
I wish I didn’t have to cry
But it was a shame to let you go

I did my best to make things right
I searched the havens and Earth for you
But I just needed to give your time

In the end
It was just the two of us
After I have exhausted all my foes
The pain I caused for satisfaction
Wasn’t worth adding to all your woes

I’ve only thought about myself
For my devotion has been fickle at times
Life is a long game of chess
But when I felt like it was time to be defeated
You helped me see past this test

Now I wait
And I don’t know
If I’ll ever see you again
You’ve touched my heart
And made it for the better
I just hope I don’t lose my way
Because if it’s too late
I’ll surely lose it all
But for now let’s enjoy
Right now, today
Sergio Gonzalez Apr 2019
Your worlds
Far from here
And close to anywhere
I’d hold my breath
In hopes to see you there  
From dawn to dusk
In hopes to catch a glimpse
Of you anywhere

You shine so bright
Brighter than a Quasar in celestial skies
I’m the darkness that fills the void
I feel so empty inside
But your light
Finds my line
You can’t escape my gravity
So hold my hand
And live this life with me in my proximity
Sergio Gonzalez Mar 2020
Rising star
You shine so bright
As I wake up from my long slumber
I can’t help to wonder
What’s the world been up to

The days go by and there’s no lapse in time
I’m closed off to the world
In fear that I won’t be accepted
For who I am

I rather blame everyone
Than confront my own demons
It’s easier that way
To live in denial
To live in delusion

I mourn the death of my old self
Living in the past is so exhausting
I try and I try to move on
But who the **** knows
When my time will arrive

I wish I had the ability to change
If I don’t love myself
I’ll just morph into the societal norm
I’ll just be somebody else

I’m cheated of happiness
I’m cheated by my own mind
And I always wonder
If someone out there
Will ever love me
Forever love me
But the night brings darkness
And it’s time to close my eyes
And wait,
If tomorrow will ever come
Sergio Gonzalez Jul 2020
It’s been a while since I’ve seen the rain
God, I hope the flowers aren’t in pain
I worry about my place in the cosmic sense
But it’s fine, soon enough
I’ll feel the rain again
Time Rain Pain Doubt
Sergio Gonzalez Nov 2018
You’re just like a dream
Always so close
Yet so far from me
And I wonder what it feels like
To revolve around your energy

I’ve been here for a while
I’m hanging on for you
But my dear I fear we’re too apart
I want to dive into your heart
And show you
What it feels to fall in love

I try to follow your protocol
But I curse to the wind  
When it all falls apart
Our love is fragile
But not impossible
You’re the cure
To my broken heart
And I’m the console
For your endless tears

I’m love ridden
But I’m far too timid
To let you know
That there’s a world
For you and me
I’ll never get close to your gravity
That’s just the way
It was meant to be
Sergio Gonzalez Apr 2020
Light years away
You can find what you’re looking for
You feel like you’re trapped
In the same routine, it’s monotonous
I know
But life has its responsibilities
And if it didn’t
How long can you hold for
Because it takes time to change things
It takes effort to do things
And it takes passion to be patient
For you’ll never know
What the future holds

Some look for happiness
Some look for love
And others wonder
What’s up there up above
The clouds hold the truth
As the sun spills its secrets
The Earth spins round and round
To keep you safe and sound
We are all walking paradoxes
Waiting for our turn to be relevant
Light years away
I hope you’ll find what you were looking for
Sergio Gonzalez Jul 2020
If it takes a lifetime
One day I’ll know I’ll reach my goal
To soar high in the sky
With no limits,
I hope I don’t reach the sun
When I glide above the ocean shore

If it takes a lifetime
My hopes and dreams
Will go from fantasies to realities
Like magic from the skies
On rainy days in the end of May
The heavens will glow soon after the storm

If it takes my whole life
One day I’ll love myself
As much I love you
But even if it takes a lifetime
At least one day I’ll learn to soar
Sergio Gonzalez Oct 2018
Her:
I’m falling deeper
Into the water
I’m being suspended
By the hope of tomorrow
But as I fall
I think of you
And I’ve sunk deeper
And no light can go through

Him:
I’ve been waiting for a lifetime
What’s another minute
I’m in my perfect world
But without you
I’d leave it all in a minute

You’re all I desire
I want to be consumed by your fire
Nothing can stop us
If we lie here together
On the brown grass
Our attraction never tires

Her:
Kiss me
Make me feel alive
Like the ocean and its waves
Love me
Like the sun shines throughout the day
Touch me
Before this world turns gray

Him:
I need you
Like the world needs the day
Let me kiss you
And show you I’m okay
The world revolves
Around the Sun
But my world revolves
Around your vitality
I hope our forever is enough
You’ll never stop loving me
I love you my sweet honey bee
Sergio Gonzalez Aug 2020
I want to know you
And I want you to know me
I want time to fly by
Like the birds migrating by the sea

Be the keeper of my secrets
As I guard your dreams
You make time the present
I’ve always wished for
We keep evolving
Moving away from misery

You roam in my most beautiful fantasies
But nothing’s better
Than when you roam within my reality
I’m endlessly falling for you
But I know the feeling is mutual
So let’s fall forever
Into our own endless melody
Sergio Gonzalez Oct 2018
We live and we learn
But we never conform
To the norms
That have been set forth
By others on this earth

I’d rather live in lies
Than waste my time
Waiting for someone else
To tell me how to live my life

I see something in you
Past the limits of dark and light
It’s your enigma
That fills me,
So full of energy and love

You’re a perfect spec of star dust
In the infinite galaxies
You make the universe yours
Like the nebulas that create
The most wonderful worlds

I want to travel with you
At 20 parsecs past the end of us
Never conforming
To even the laws of nature
That’s the wish that I have
for you and I

My beautiful
My Nebula
My sun and moon
And all the matter in between
My greatest achievement
Will be when you’ll finally
fall in love with me
Sergio Gonzalez Jan 2021
I’m in free fall
With my feelings
Letting my emotions run amok

When I think about you
I can’t help myself to wonder
If you’ll ever love me back

I tried so hard to open up to you
I know none of it was ever your fault
You assure me that you’ll be here for me
But the chaos inside my world
Won’t accept you,
Even from afar

This state of entropy
Is all I have at the moment
While my world has turned to blue
But please have faith in me
Because the tides will turn soon
Sergio Gonzalez Dec 2019
Put your faith in me
And so will I to you
Lean in my dear
For time and space is infinite
In our own world
The atoms will expand
And the stars will glow
But if we don’t make it
Past the first galaxy
Some things were never meant to be
But I’ll chase this feeling
Until I exhaust my options
And until then we will know
If Eternity is meant to be
Eye
Sergio Gonzalez May 2019
Eye
Oh ocean eyes
Where has the current taken you
Deep in the waters
You drift through the waves  
Relentless it seems
But hold your breath
For greener pastures lay ahead

Oh forest eyes
If I fall for you
From the tallest trees
It’s because I love the sight
Of the evergreens
And the soil from which they grow
I can feel it on my soles
There’s no better feeling in the world
  
Oh Earthen eyes
The steps you take
To make things better
The winds that change
And take you away
You roam free like never before
You are the one that cures
My soul from this misery

Oh my eyes that fill the void
Deep in space
Secluded from the universe
I think of you, when I’m alone
You remind me
Of how I use to see the world
But I’m here blindsided
By the vices of this world
But I can feel your energy
More than ever before

One day I’ll see your light
Where I can fill this empty heart
Time will come
And time will go
But I wait for the day,
Where I’ll see you
Past the realm of this world
Sergio Gonzalez Sep 2019
Oh falling star
How you fall without me
A perfect world among the many
Yet I still take you for granted
If tomorrow never rises
And we spin out of control
It’s all my fault,
For never understanding
The complex schemes
That complete your world

I live among my flaws
My greed
Won’t allow such luxury to love myself
Better you than me
To be consumed by this fallacy
I won’t allow the cracks on my walls
To show the mess behind me
But you can’t lay your righteousness
When I fall apart
When you hide behind your walls
Just like me

But nevermind the past
Just focus on the future,
Just focus on the now
Because the day we forgive ourselves
Is the day that we defy gravity
And all the anomalies within our world
Will make sense
Sergio Gonzalez Nov 2018
I don’t need another friend
I need my love with you
I want to spend my time
I want to give my life
In my quest
To make you mine

It takes two
To make one complete
The stars in the heavens shine
because they agree

Take my hand
And let us roam free
Próxima Centauri
Isn’t far
When you’re with me

You’re more than just a friend
I’m in love with you
Your eyes cut deep
Within my soul
I’ve never had to worry
I’ve never been a ghoul

You linger in my fantasies
You’re a no show
When it escalates
To more than just a fling
Let’s talk about us
Let’s see about us
Could you?

The skies cry
From up above
You’ve never knew
I’m torn apart
You chose what you wanted
And now you’re gone
The only option is to move
With my life
Sergio Gonzalez Dec 2018
Blue skies all around me
And these rainy days are behind me
Too bad I bought this umbrella
Its my insurance to cover my superstition
But I never truly had an issue

I thought I needed you
But in reality I don’t
Good evening
Beautiful planetarium
My dear
You look so lovely
Therefore I love the Earth
Treat me fairly
Your air tastes like honey
You’re like the Sun
Always treating me warmly

You’re all I desire
Your purity, I greatly admire
So don’t let tire
This lonely heart
That has traveled the 7 seas
In hope
One day you’ll be free

But lately I’ve been pensive
I’ve been lost at the moon before
And loneliness has been my tune so long ago
But I’ll spacewalk
Any galaxy
In order to find my true calling
Within this cosmic fallacy
So don’t worry
My life is in my hands
It’s really all up to me
Sergio Gonzalez Feb 2021
A silent sound
Travels past the edge of the universe
And I’m here
Wondering where you are

I’ve look from left to right
And to right to left
Hoping for your presence to step in
And save me from my own mess

I act like a childish man
Wishing for the world to fix
My every flaw and defect

But the world doesn’t work that way
And the sooner I realize that
Then my task will be set

The progress I one day want to see
Will depend on the work I put in
Sergio Gonzalez Jan 2021
I’ve been fighting, my whole life
As I see you enjoy your time
I can’t help to wonder
Of who you truly are

You know you’ve been playing life
On easy
While the rest of us try to fight our way
To the top
You’re out here looking to the bottom
As if you’re immune to the fall
Don’t worry it won’t hurt at all
The accuser works hard
But you need to work harder
And if you’re scared then remember
At least you won’t make it past the bottom  

“These days seem so dull”
Can’t say I can relate to your problem
Wondering of what you could be
I’m out here pinching pennies
Just to make it through the mourning

Let me hate you from afar
It’s what cowards do
Wishing you could join their misery
And marinate in hate
No one understands them
For only they have the right
To rule the world

Your struggles never mattered
It’s not what they focus on
They’ll keep on tossing and turning
Wishing they could be just you
But for now just enjoy your privilege
Before the tides turn
Life wasn’t always fair for them
But life wasn’t always fair to you too
Sergio Gonzalez Sep 2020
There’s something in your eyes
That yells out to my soul
I tried to reach perfection
Only to end up on the down low

I missed the point of living life
Living more than material things
More than the chase of hopeless love
Past all the little things

Past the bad moments in life
I tried to find an answer,
To the emptiness in my heart  
Sometimes I wish God could talk back to me
But in the good moments
I’d ignore every single advice given to me

We are all alone
But that’s not necessarily bad
It’s in these moments
Where we find the answer
To who we truly are

RunRunRun
To find your peace
Time is a blessing
So use it wisely
I hope you take these words with gravity
Sergio Gonzalez Feb 2021
All my cuts and scrapes
Have been exposed









Ouch,
So much this burns
Sergio Gonzalez Apr 2019
My life is on the line
I’ve been alone
This whole time
But for now I fear
These voices in my ear
And the worst I fear
The echoes from the great beyond

I’ve been running
All my life
Dark times run deep
I need you
Even if it hurts my pride

I’m tired, and I’m hopeless  
7 billion souls
And you’re nowhere to be found

I’m tired of projecting  
These complex web of lies
Hurt me deep
Like never before
If I love you when I heal
I will love you forevermore
Sing to me to soothe my soul
Your memory lives
Past all dimensions
Of space and time
I’m glad I knew you
But it’s time to say goodbye
Sergio Gonzalez Oct 2018
Nothing matters to me
I might as well be
In a different galaxy
I’m disconnected from reality
I sleep my nights dreaming
I could be someone else
And lose sight of me

I hate my anatomy
Chemical bonds gone wrong
And I choose to dissect
Each and every one
I never lose focus when I criticize
My imperfections
I intend to improve myself
But that won’t change my perception

And there you go
I figure you’re prefect
In every sense of the word
Nothing can stop you
Not even the cosmos themselves

But you’re just like me
A flawed human
In this world full of impurities
We bend like metal
And sway
Wherever the wind takes us

That’s the price we pay
Each and every day
Our insecurities
Hide the best of us
But we wake up in the morning
And continue life

But one thing for sure
We’ll keep fighting  
Until we perish
Life can be beautiful
Never forget it
Sergio Gonzalez May 2021
Oh hunny
We’re so different and yet the same
We move like the moon and sun
Everyone thinks we’re crazy
As we move 671 million miles per hour  
Some say we light up the world
While other want to see us burn

Oh huney
Nobody knows me like you do
You treat me as I’m the only one in the world
But you’ve been distant
Like you’re in another world  

Oh honey
You’re barking up the wrong tree
You left so long ago
All the wounds have sealed
And while you regret that day
There’s no turning back
We’re past the point of no return

Oh hny
You’re just a distant memory
I wish you the best
What we had was special
But my real love has arrived
And it’s time you let me go
Sergio Gonzalez Apr 2021
I’m scared of failure
As if my life would end if I met her
I face my problems head on
Because I can’t stand
To stab a ***** from behind

I’m the problem to my solutions
And when I let go of this toxic life
Then maybe I’ll see the light
Even though I’m right outside

I’ll fly to the moon to start a new life
I’ll run away from these judgmental eyes
That have been staring at me for too long
Too bad I can’t gouge my physical self
It’s a matter of perception,
These eyes only serve as tools
To allow the light inside

Our minds are so simple yet so complex
Reality is an illusion
But please,
Don’t throw that brick at my head

And when I reach my point of clarity
I’ll stop and reflect the struggle within
Life seemed so rough at that moment
But it’s what helped me love myself again
Sergio Gonzalez Mar 2019
I’d like to know
What is to be loved
I’d like to feel
What’s an affectionate hug

I never knew
But I’d like to know
It’s never too late
To mend a damaged heart
Sergio Gonzalez Mar 2019
Heaven up
And Heaven down
The moon rises
As the sun falls
Dark clouds fill the sky tonight
Let the rain pour
And let it seep deep into the ground

Give me life
Give me warmth
Give me a map,
To reach your world
I’m growing fast
And I’m growing old
The clock keeps on ticking
And the seasons come and go
Life is a trip
I don’t know who I am anymore
Sergio Gonzalez Apr 2021
I got a thing for you
And I’m pretty sure you know it
I regret yesterday
For I let my feelings show it

Ever wonder why
The skies weep from above?
It’s to hide the tears
Of the dejected from rejection
There’s no objection
To my explanation
Pardon my lack of discretion

We do it all for love
We do it all for hate
There’s no neutral territory
There no time for explanation
There’s no time to set my mind straight

If only you could fall in love with me
Then we do it all
For the possible chance
That our one true slice of heaven
Will be sweeter than,
All our past miscalculations
Sergio Gonzalez Oct 2018
I long for your love
The way I long for the change
Of the seasons
Our thoughts reshape
For no apparent reasons
And the axioms we’ve had
Have disappeared
Over the span of time

Stop looking for the aesthetic
She’s beautiful the way she is
God didn’t make any mistakes
It’s apparent
Put your eyes through the looking glass
Look towards the intellect
Not what you see through the internet
I miss you in the summertime
I miss you all the time

Take the time to know me
You’ll see me bloom through the clouds
And find a better side of me
One I can share with thee
My sweet honey bee
Write to me your feelings
I’ll treasure them
The way Mr. Krabs
Treasures his very first penny
You mean that much to me

I want to be with you
Past our Amazon primes
Let me hold your hand at night
And let a myriad of calendars pass by
That’s a future
I would really like
But for now
Lay your head
And dream,
my love
Sergio Gonzalez Nov 2020
Daydreams,
I’m dreaming my life away
While wishing there could be a change
Every feeling, every wish
It’s all in vain
For my past mistakes
Accuse me of who I use to be

Loneliness,
I feel you from time to time
You’re my only companion
Were you sent from up above?
You’re like a wave in the middle of the sea
I have nothing to grasp onto
And save me from your endless tyranny

I look to my surroundings
Who can save me
From my endless sorrows
Who can cure me
From my own self
I run away from my shadows
Do I dream my life away?
Or do I wake up from my comatose state
Take control of my own life
To never look back
To never fall back
To move forward letting go of the past
Sergio Gonzalez Oct 2018
Chocolate dreams
Never ending fantasies
I keep it going
So to not lose my sanity
I’m trapped in this box
That I’ve made to keep you away from me
How much longer
Before you give up on me
It’s the same story
Each and every year
And I wonder what’s wrong with me

I can’t contain myself
I can love you past the end of time
I’d make more dimensions
Just to prove my love
But it’s not enough
I know,
You want more
You’re no give and all the take
And if I do it
I know it’s a mistake
Self respect I cannot contain
The flowers bloom
At the expense of the rain
But it’s alright
I know,
That you’re worth it in the end
That’s why I’m happy when it rains
Sergio Gonzalez Nov 2020
Perfect body
Perfect mind
It’s all we strive for
A perfect life
The nights are slow
But the years go fast
We work hard to not show weakness
Appearances matter
When we want to show we’re doing just fine

I don’t want to live a life without regret
I just want to be like you
I find you special
For your own ways
I want to be on your wavelength
Never mind of who I am
My old self never stood a chance
I just want to be noticed
Even if it means I have to wear a mask

The sun will shine soon
And a new day will arise
I let go of my old self
It’s time to give up the past
But when you’re no longer my passion
Then who will succeed your place
I just want to be perfect
Even if it means
I’ll never be the same
Sergio Gonzalez Apr 2019
Sometimes,
I feel like life is unbearable
And other times
I feel like I’m on top of the world
Never mind the middle the ground
I seek for highs and lows

I numb my feelings
When you’re around
I let these faucets open  
When you leave this town
I wish I could tell you about my life
But I need to keep this secret
Like it will cost me my life

You run my mind
Faster than the speed of light
slow down
Maybe you can unlock my mind

I’ve been helpless, I’ve been lost
But follow me,
To my forgotten stars
You’re my binary moon
In my fantasies so far from this abuse
Let me love you
More than the Googolplexes of nebulae stars
Let me hold you in my arms  
Forevermore
Galaxies will rise and fall
But my affection towards you
Will never die
Inspiration: III. Urn : Childish Gambino
Sergio Gonzalez Nov 2020
The skies fell
And the ground stood still as I saw you
But the walls between us
Have me so far away from your heart

It could take a lifetime
To win your time
It can be a lifetime
To win your love

I hope you’ll have a good time
But we both know it’s right
So take a leap of faith
In search for the new
Watch the flowers bloom
And the endless moons
When we both knew,
It was always true
Sergio Gonzalez Sep 2021
Is it too late?
To return to a time with you around
Is it too late?
To mend what’s been broken before

If I could turn back time
I’d feel your soft skin against mine
And watch the stars shine
Under our favorite spot
Your attention was the best part
And now it’s gone
Like the Sun at night
You’re nowhere to be found
And there’s nothing I can do about that
To: MissSue
Sergio Gonzalez May 2021
I think about you
Even when I don’t want to
I don’t think you think about me
Otherwise you’ll call me
During the most ridiculous hours of the night
But I think about you day and night
I think about you
Even when I’m dead at night  
But you won’t think about me
And that’s completely fine
Or is it?
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