Watching by the little window,
I see those kids, I  see those pups,
Playing ,joking, running around
Giggling ,laughing ,on a merry go round
So much!  i envy ,seeing them laugh as they play,
So much ! i hate, that i was once as happy as they,
So much ! i cry ,i cant go back to those happy days
So much!  i scream, i cant run ,i cant play,
So much !So much! Just So much!
I beg ,I shout ,I scream as I say,
Take me away !Take me away!
I miss those days ,i miss those nights,
I miss the sun with its morning light,
I miss the birds ,I miss the skies,
I miss those stars ,I miss the moon,
Humming and dancing with those lullaby tunes,
I miss so much! Just so much!
I beg ,I shout ,I scream as I say,
Take me away !Take me away!
OH! how i used to wish and pray,
I would Grow up and I would say,
The money ,The house ,The cars i want ,
Its all i want! Its all i want!
I pity those innocent prays,
I wish I would go back and say,
Do not say! Do not say!
As God hears only a Child's pray,
I beg so much !Just so much!
I beg ,I shout, I scream as I say,
Take me away !Take me away!
I still hear those laughters and sounds
The winds whispers the rain weeps
Remember those days! Remember those days!
I still wish, I still cry,
I still hope, I still pry,
Child O' Child where are you!
Child O' Child are you lost!
Child O' Child dont run away! dont run away!
I cry too much ,Just so much!
I beg, I shout ,I scream as I say,
Take me away !Take me away!
                       __tsuki no ume

Far,Far,Far away
I see a door,I see a frame
Whether its night ,whether its day
I see it there it never fades
Its in my eyes its on my mind
When im mad when im kind
Should i rather stay behind
Not to sleep but to grind
I see a door I see a frame
Whether its night Whether its day
Should i play should i stray
Should i just quit away
Its not a choice i could make
Its a road i must take
No delay No mistake
They say its good for your sake
I see a door i see a frame
Whether its night whether its day
I just cant run away
I can stay i can pray
But when i wait for that day
On that coffin i would lay
I Close my eyes while they pray
All my life i lived your way
Its you who took my life away
I couldnt laugh i couldnt smile
I thought i could run a thousand miles
I see a door i see a frame
Whether its night whether its day
I wanted to run so i could escape
From this mundane landscape
I wished i longed for so long
That i could sing a pretty song
Not for you but me alone
Im not a slave im not a prey
I would dare but i wont care
This time ill disobey
The shackles the chains
Would eventually break
At that time i would awake
From the horrors and terrors
Of this puppet play
I shall shine i shall rise
This time i wont compromise
I see a door I see a frame
Whether its night whether its day
                      __tsuki no ume~

Come, sit by my side,
tell me of the dreams this world has yet to break.
Honestly, tell me your fears,
and I will try to offer you my hope.

-Rhia Clay

The seats are empty;
The theatre is dark;
Why do you keep on acting?
There’s no one keeping mark.

Each step analyzed;
Each line rehearsed;
What tricks are you playing?
Trapped in an eternal curse.

These masks to hide fears;
These laughs to contain sadness;
Who are you when you’re not pretending?
Careful not to thread into madness.

Fighting Spirit

To fight—
You need balance.
To balance—
You require
a platform
to stand upon.

Pull out the floor beneath you,
You have nothing
when you're pushed down—
unable to get up,
Turning the ground beneath
Into seeping sand,
that keeps you on your knees
With nothing to stand on.

My fighting spirit
has vanished.
No longer
Can I pull the wool over my eyes,
pretend I have ground beneath me,
make the wind my friend,
pretend I can fly.

This foundation
that once held me up—
came from voices
that made me feel protected,
hands that held,
ones that made me feel included.
They were meant for me—
and only me.

Quietly,
the wind turned cold.
Hands turned pale,
afraid to touch.
Scared to let the bones bind
and the voices ring.

All that can be done now
Is finding new souls
That can push me
to build something
Thats built for growth
Shaped to show—
How far ive come.
Helping me evolve,
With every brick
That goes into place.

Maybe teach people who surround me
What it means to—
Fall and rise agian

Forge something impenetrable
Never lose that fire inside of you
To keep living
Keep failing,
But still be able to get up
Not a dent in your armor,
Proving you dont give up.

Restore a foundation thats a mine,
Brick by brick,
Making back what you lost,
Assemble what I lost
Only this time
Something only I can unravel.

Days melt into each other
Like wax figures under the sun
Monday was four days ago
I could swear it was Tuesday today
8:00AM was one hour ago,
It’s 8:00PM
What did I eat today?
The pain of tomorrow