the night was quiet.
cold but sweet
rippled pools in a forest of pine.
i lounged on the couch
as you threaded round' and round' the trees
pinpricks of lights dripping from your arms.
as you carried christmas in your palms
and i watched
your grace unfolded
like a tear stained love letter
"desperate hearts belong together"
and it's true i could never find another angle like you
to perch at the top of my tree
and your eggnog lips move gently
over my mouth
brushing window panes
like fragile falling
that you don't always need a lover by your side
to keep you truly happy
and fully satisfied.
it'd sure be nice for once if I had your hand to hold
when the embers in my heart die
and the blood in me grows cold.
would seem warmer and the frost would melt away
the ice in the pipes that are my veins
would surely cease to stay.
a strength I never dreamed I'd ever feel again
a herculean kind of forte
my broken heart it would mend.
when I'll cross your path on that dark and rainy day
you'd be the ray of sunshine
to illuminate my way.
would be like my favorite book with so many things to love
I'd discover more about you each day
see, you fit me like a glove.
would beat in time with mine and bring life back into my chest
a day like this one would be dreary
but with you, it'd be my best.
Heinous, immoral, sinful swine!
To what I am demanded to oblige,
This unravelled given flesh, falsely acclaimed.
By who, are we to bestow such honorarium upon specimens?
We, this, it... YES it! For no other alias be deft to pure scum!
If it be for me, I'd not be so haste to shift to utter, cosmic vile!
And alas tis that which I am, and as all my fellow ethological, fleshy hominids.
I do not care for it.
And seek the purity of it, but such use may be eternally latent.
I put a cigarette between my teeth
While Hundreds of bats soared
Through the Brick wall corridors
Through the strobe of flashing signs
And so I cupped my hands
Before my puckered lips
Shielding the dancing flame
As though it were an infant
Shivering in the wind
I am nocturnal as well
But I do not fly
Nor do I screech through the restless night
I watch, oh I watch
And I write
you are the pillow i hug
when I sleep at night.
you are the thought that keeps coming on my mind.
you are the music that I used to sing.
you are the best ever among all of these things.
you are the tears that I cry when I am hurt.
Hurt by jealousy, it may sounds absurd.
you are the smile that is painted on my lips.
you are the one who make me dance and move my hips.
you are my sunshine that lights up my life.
my rain that washed away the pain in my life.
i tried to ran away from you.not only once, but more than two
and yet here i am, still stay where I am
I love you babe, with all I am
I smile through the blood
And laugh with every hit
Smell the booze on his breath
Won't be the last time yet
Got scabs on his forearms
And anger in his eyes
Throws me around and
My cracked lips smeared
With his hate coming down in
Ruby red droplets
He grabs me and hates me
But I already forgave him
For tomorrows bruises
Long as I don't lose him
Big as a rock
Only thing that anchors me
But he is lost in his own sea
I see him drowning in his eyes
Confusion sweeping over him
Lays himself down on the couch
And I flee to our room
And land on the bed
Feeling skin puff up
Here and and there
Feelings forgotten with each
Will I ever be loved?
I wipe the blood from my mouth an spit it out, grinning
Big and laughing,
No, no one could ever love
A bloody skinny fool