I heard it,
Could it be my spirits broke?
could it be my tender heart
whose true feelings will never be spoke.
I know you don't want to be that guy,
I know you don't want me to be that fool.
But the truth is i never heard such a piercing lie,
how could words be so purely intentioned,
You lie to protect me.
maybe that's just what i want to believe
my heart screams "it must be"
my head says don't be naive
I been trying to move forward believe me,
I've been trying for so long
but my hands wont grasp the pieces
cause maybe i just don't want to move on.
I just want
As you are
As you've always been.
I wish there were a simpler way,
I wish the stars were better aligned,
I wish i had the courage to say
that I love you too
and i always will
Even if you really meant it,
I will love you still.
A shadow of night
Hope festering among stars
My heart clutched in
The palms of my hand
As thoughts wield into luminous scars
A lost affection resurfaced by light
A habit, that is
Whispered as time etches Her might
And through the weight of Her fists
Need not to dwell for what is missed
So I collected the remnants of my heart
And began to ask from my very vain soul
What yet that is not the light?
I turned the coals from my eyes into rubies
And my heart opened to the entire world
I lost a part of myself
The day you walked away from me.
The part that loved,
The part that felt.
I used to love the bay where we watched the sunset,
now it's polluted with
sickly sweet people with their hands intertwined
with people they think they love.
We used to listen to John Mayer on the stereo
every night before we sleep,
I traced endless patterns on you bare chest,
your fingers tangled in my messy curls,
now I hate his songs because they remind of you,
so and so that they make me cry.
You used to take me to long drives
now you made me an insomniac who
wants nothing to do with the midnight
because it's when memories of you haunt me.
You took from me
A part I'm never getting a back,
A part that took more than half of my being.
Because now I realized,
once you were gone,
I was also gone.
a love that tried to love back
but failed, stepped on by experience
dragged away by abandoned words
taking their revenge
a love that began like the crash of drums
into a song that went on
with a bridge spanning miles
and a chorus just bright enough
to make me believe
this love could love us back, and stay
past the end of the show, through the slow shuffle
of a drunken crowd
and i'd take your hand
and lead you home
and show you my mind
but this love recoiled
and did not love again