I stare into obscenity,
Nothing can stop this,
It's taking over me.
I look into the mirror,
Despising what I see,
I realise that someone else is controlling me.
Im not alone in spirit,
I'm not alone in bone,
I'm looking for a way to descend into the unknown.
I hold a knife to my neck to see if it'll bleed,
I slice my jugular vein,
More blood I want to see.
It has become an addiction,
Unsettling to some,
To me it's the most beautiful thing that could ever have been done.
I watch myself bleed out and Incessantly laugh,
I stand naked, bleeding into the bath.
Maniac desires to kill and be killed,
Eyes turn yellow before the bath is is filled
With crimson blood,
My body will flood,
I dream to join a regime where it is normal to feel how I feel.
No one can know it,
No one can see,
What is this demon living inside of me?
Take it away,
Relieve the pain,
Before I bleed out,
Never to watch my blood again.
Heart beats and paper wings,
Tattered clothes and souls that sing.
Beauty that relies on grace,
Salty tears that run down the face.
Hopes that give a crown and throne,
Fears that wittle down to the bone.
Angels protecting with all their might,
Demons killing out of spite.
Making sure another dies,
She won't live to be a butterfly.
I'm not sure what exactly this is, other than a culmination of my mind.
Beaches are lots of fun,
Until you realize you cannot
Go because your body,
Mind, and soul have been
Cut a million times.
Salt water burns people like me.
I fucked up my body, mind, and emotional state again, and have to figure out a way to get out of going to the beach... I'll probably blame it on school
I like the colour purple,
as it blooms across my skin,
The delicate spread of lavender,
dappled with yellow and green.
I like the smell of iron,
of copper pennies and blood
As it oozes form a scab
or drips from a fresh cut.
I like the feel of my ribs,
the bones beneath my skin,
The curve of my skull under my cheek,
Or the joints of every knuckle.
(and yes Colour is spelt right, that's how we spell it in England.)
Heart in pieces, knife in deep.
The ache, the pain,
I start to weep.
Help me, save me,
Don't leave me here.
The pain has me crying,
Shaking in fear.
He got me, he lost me,
Now Im in tears.
As I go, I whisper, and say,
"Help me, save me,
My love got away."
Say your prayers,
Lay your head,
Cut your wrists and go to bed
Remember it's all in your head
Don't eat, enough said
Look in the mirror every minute
Your weight on the scale doesn't fit it
cuts on your wrists, ankles, thighs
Wear that smile, its your disguise,
Breaking down in all the lies
This is what happens when you really try