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"peppered" poems
Meticulous and true. They are so careful. So skilled. Deftly and with a swift and sure hand, the words,     Oh the words, they flow like a brooke. The one in the forest, you know the one. The one out there, out far. In the deep of the wood, over root, under canopy. Through the branches you have to look real hard. And the hard part is not knowing at all what youre looking for. And then there,     After an eternity and in an instant it is there infront of you. What you have been looking for. A vast clearing. Wide and open. The sun glints through the salt-and-peppered leaf roof. It crawls and stretches and lightly caresses everything you lay your eyes upon. Even matte mossy rocks, they seem to shine. You look down and it caresses you as well. Gentle and warm the embrace that you cant quite put your finger on. The location. The origin. It is everywhere, it surrounds you. Close your eyes. Embrace the sun back. But i digress my digression. The brook. It flows over, around, through. There is no stopping the water. It is relentless, it WILL get to its destination. You cannot change its mind. It is immovable. That is what it is. It is beauty. I know i should not compare. There is beauty in it all. But, goodness, the feelings invoked when reading others' poetry in admiration.
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Aug 16, 2018
Aug 16, 2018 at 1:22 AM UTC
in admiration.
Late August, given heavy rain and sun For a full week, the blackberries would ripen. At first, just one, a glossy purple clot Among others, red, green, hard as a knot. You ate that first one and its flesh was sweet Like thickened wine: summer's blood was in it Leaving stains upon the tongue and lust for Picking. Then red ones inked up and that hunger Sent us out with milk cans, pea tins, jam-pots Where briars scratched and wet grass bleached our boots. Round hayfields, cornfields and potato-drills We trekked and picked until the cans were full Until the tinkling bottom had been covered With green ones, and on top big dark blobs burned Like a plate of eyes. Our hands were peppered With thorn ****** our palms sticky as Bluebeard's. We hoarded the fresh berries in the byre. But when the bath was filled we found a fur, A rat-grey fungus, glutting on our cache. The juice was stinking too. Once off the bush The fruit fermented, the sweet flesh would turn sour. I always felt like crying. It wasn't fair That all the lovely canfuls smelt of rot. Each year I hoped they'd keep, knew they would not.
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Blackberry-Picking
I never did know when to shut my mouth, So I guess it’s no shock to feel it smarting against your back handed swing, But to be honest, I bet it hurt you more, does it sting? Can you feel it in your bones ? Copper taste against my tongue, I’m choking on my own blood, Does my manic laugh horrify you? This Cheshire smile plastered across my face, Do my cheekbones slice your knuckles? That’s going to leave a bruise, Not that you care, Twisted my head back by my hair, My body is peppered in greens, purples, blues, But with the way you turn your head down you’d think I was the one abusing you, When you wrap your meaty fingers around my windpipe does it give you pleasure? What goes through your mind while your holding my life in your hands, How many of my ribs have you cracked upon your feet, Only to lick my thighs later like a treat, One of these days it’ll be my fingers around your neck, And I won’t stop squeezing till your dead, Until then use my body to your hearts content, This dangerous dance, Like egg shells beneath my soles, I’m waiting for you to slip on the blood you painstakingly draw from me blow by blow, And in your own sick way you actually love me, Convinced the only way to save me is to hurt me, But I’m not that sick or twisted to believe the words you croke out, One day very soon it’ll be you who shouts, Ya I never did know when to shut my mouth, So I guess it’s no shock to feel it smarting against your back handed swing.
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Dec 14, 2018
Dec 14, 2018 at 9:57 AM UTC
Smart Mouth
They enter the café just as some sappy pop song is playing They order then immediately hug Embrace Swaying to one side, together, like the wind Encircling the leaning tower of Pisa Then teetering to the other solstice Foot to foot, smile to smile, hand round skirted waist Forearm resting on his tall  blazered shoulders This is forgivable in the young Those teeny-boppers with defiant hair-cuts and posters However, he has peppered hair She, though voluptuous and tanned, Must be in her 30s. “Affair.” My cynical devil snickers, between sips But I sit mesmerized, and for the first time ever Envious. The chairs and the tables somehow seem more distant The song  now sounds as if it’s funneled through some crackling phonograph The very light disentangles itself from stones It’s as if a sky has opened up in my chest Flying high overhead,  one lone raven, Its slow shadow Gliding across my heart Oh, how I miss you 5 states away I see your smile on magazine covers I vaguely sniff your scent on passing women Yet you remain elusive - immaterial, haunting,   While this visceral assault Leaves me bewildered - empty An echo in a chiaroscuro cavern   Fading for thee
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Jul 28, 2016
Jul 28, 2016 at 5:31 PM UTC
Letters from N.M.
EᔕᔕᕼI  ᑕOᑎT. ~ ⚪♫⚪ ~ Lyn sniffles as Ainhara gives her a handkerchief which she uses to wipe her tears. "Thank you, guys," Lyn whispers, giving them a weak smile. 'Well, at least she smiles,' Esshi thought. Ainhara has a bright smile. "My lady, your lady mother gave Bael orders to make this soup for you. She instructs that you eat this." ~ ⚪♫⚪ ~ When Esshi pushes the serving trolley to her Queen's side, she lifts the gold lid and Lyn looks at the soup; steaming kale in a beefy broth with chopped peppered sausages, lamb cubes, onions, garlic, mint chopped potatoes and carrots. ~ ⚪♫⚪ ~ "Kale, really? I hate kale," Lyn whines, gently pushing the bowl away. "I don't want it!" Esshi and Ainhara look at each other and smile. *'Still acts like a child when her lady mother commands she eats her vegetables!'* giggles Esshi. "Your mother says you must eat it, My Lady." Ainhara chuckles. "It will help with reduce your stress and help relax your body." ~ ⚪♫⚪ ~ Lyn sighs and mutters under her breath, "I hate it when she does this! She knows I hate the smell of kale! I swear, I'm going to outlaw the vegetable!" She held hers nose up and huffs at the end of her statement, making Ainhara and Esshi smile. 'At least she is in better spirits now.' thought Esshi.
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Sep 16, 2018
Sep 16, 2018 at 1:18 PM UTC
♪♫♛♕ тнє мαѕкє∂ вαя∂ VIII ♕♛♫♪
It's not cute, I don't find it funny. The lack of concern for education, And your glasses aren't cute either. I'm growing quite tired of the lame leaders. Expectation to teach the future generation. The warriors, in a future of unknowing, By the ignorant, traditionalist. And I could sit here all day, Catching glints of light off your hip glasses. Peppered with egocentric, infantile remarks. So cute The lack of education So cute The lack of nutrition So cute The false profits; the obtuse teachers So cute Your hip glasses.
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Sep 5, 2014
Sep 5, 2014 at 5:21 AM UTC
Blame Your Teachers (hip glasses)
There is something beautiful about two sad people who agree to hurt each other. Something comforting. It is a comfort only very damaged people understand- the tacit agreement to cause pain, and to receive it. Pleasure is for people who have what they want. But for those of us who are starving, ours is best peppered with suffering. Being with someone who understands that carries its own worth- I don't want you to make me feel good. I couldn't stand it if you did. I don't want you to touch me gently, or ask if I'm alright, or stop to look into my eyes. I am starving, and so are you: I want your teeth. I want you to make me hurt. And I want to hurt you. I want you to hurt me because I'm not him, and I want to hurt you because you're not her. We want to see each other suffer because we are starving and we need to feel that someone else is. Don't hold back. I want you to lower me because I'm too good for her. Don't love me, don't caress me. Dig your nails in. Drip candlewax on my stomach. One step down from torture is all I can stand in the way of human connection, when it isn't her. Punish me for looking at her like a baleful puppy tonight, even as you waited in my room with your soft skin and your sharp teeth. There is nothing you can do that will be too violent, too brutal, too sadistic. I don't want to be loved right now. I am too raw. I want to be touched. I want to be ruined. Leave marks. Smear lipstick. Lower me because I am Too **** Good for her. Let this heart know on no uncertain terms that its needs don't matter. Help me **** it. Help me pin my demons to the bed and make them writhe, and I will do the same for you. Let's exorcise our loves tonight and banish them to hell. Let's tell our skin that it is irrelevant. Let's say **** you" to the things that bind us. I will cut your heart out for him. I will kiss your scars, not to heal them but to remind you that when you put them there you fought for something, something we both fight for now. Hurt me. Fight her. Do it for her. Do it for her because I'm not good enough to hurt. Do it for her because I'm TOO good to hurt. Crush me. You could boil me alive and it wouldn't make up for her, so at least leave me bruised.   I will give you what you need, and you will give me what I need: not love, but contact. Please, Let my heart know on no uncertain terms that its needs Don't Matter. There is something beautiful about two sad people who agree to hurt each other.
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Jan 25, 2015
Jan 25, 2015 at 3:55 AM UTC
I HAVE NO DESIRE TO BE BEAUTIFUL, IF I AM TOO BEAUTIFUL TO TOUCH
There is something beautiful about two sad people who agree to hurt each other. Something comforting. It is a comfort only very damaged people understand- the tacit agreement to cause pain, and to receive it. Pleasure is for people who have what they want. But for those of us who are starving, ours is best peppered with suffering. Being with someone who understands that carries its own worth- I don't want you to make me feel good. I couldn't stand it if you did. I don't want you to touch me gently, or ask if I'm alright, or stop to look into my eyes. I am starving, and so are you: I want your teeth. I want you to make me hurt. And I want to hurt you. I want you to hurt me because I'm not him, and I want to hurt you because you're not her. We want to see each other suffer because we are starving and we need to feel that someone else is. Don't hold back. I want you to lower me because I'm too good for her. Don't love me, don't caress me. Dig your nails in. Drip candlewax on my stomach. One step down from torture is all I can stand in the way of human connection, when it isn't her. Punish me for looking at her like a baleful puppy tonight, even as you waited in my room with your soft skin and your sharp teeth. There is nothing you can do that will be too violent, too brutal, too sadistic. I don't want to be loved right now. I am too raw. I want to be touched. I want to be ruined. Leave marks. Smear lipstick. Lower me because I am Too **** Good for her. Let this heart know on no uncertain terms that its needs don't matter. Help me **** it. Help me pin my demons to the bed and make them writhe, and I will do the same for you. Let's exorcise our loves tonight and banish them to hell. Let's tell our skin that it is irrelevant. Let's say **** you" to the things that bind us. I will cut your heart out for him. I will kiss your scars, not to heal them but to remind you that when you put them there you fought for something, something we both fight for now. Hurt me. Fight her. Do it for her. Do it for her because I'm not good enough to hurt. Do it for her because I'm TOO good to hurt. Crush me. You could boil me alive and it wouldn't make up for her, so at least leave me bruised.   I will give you what you need, and you will give me what I need: not love, but contact. Please, Let my heart know on no uncertain terms that its needs Don't Matter. There is something beautiful about two sad people who agree to hurt each other.
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The Peppered Pickle Clown (Peppered Pickle Day) This is a story you may not know And it's banned in pickle town It's about a peppered pickle That became a circus clown He started out his short life Looking through a stained glass jar Watching his sweet pickled brother Become a kosher star Although his peppered pickled life was sweet This peppered pickle wanted more He would join the circus as a clown And be a smash that fans adored At first it started slowly No fans would call his name But a peppered pickle as a clown Well thats funny just the same As time went on he made them laugh They started yelling for him more Then a show was given just to him And a peppered pickle day was born All the fans they ordered pickles On peppered pickles they would gorge Then one day there came a time When peppered pickles they ran short The peppered pickle clown knew right then That it was time to make his mark So he made a deal with Vlasic corp. To put peppered pickles in their jars Well Vlasic corp. invited him To come take a private tour They said that he would relish it And be a cut up in the stores They put the peppered pickle clown In a clown chair and tied him down They said it was for safety As the belt showed him all around The belt went slow when starting out Picked up speed as it went along The peppered pickle clown was sliced and diced Vlasic didn't clown around So remember the peppered pickle clown When you shop at your home store He gave his life for stardom And thats why you now pay more Today is peppered pickle day And should be known the world around Made famous by a sweet delight The peppered pickle clown Carl J. Roberts
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Oct 7, 2013
Oct 7, 2013 at 7:14 AM UTC
Thank The Peppered Pickle Clown...... ( Peppered Pickle Day)
The Peppered Pickle Clown (Peppered Pickle Day) This is a story you may not know And it's banned in pickle town It's about a peppered pickle That became a circus clown He started out his short life Looking through a stained glass jar Watching his sweet pickled brother Become a kosher star Although his peppered pickled life was sweet This peppered pickle wanted more He would join the circus as a clown And be a smash that fans adored At first it started slowly No fans would call his name But a peppered pickle as a clown Well thats funny just the same As time went on he made them laugh They started yelling for him more Then a show was given just to him And a peppered pickle day was born All the fans they ordered pickles On peppered pickles they would gorge Then one day there came a time When peppered pickles they ran short The peppered pickle clown knew right then That it was time to make his mark So he made a deal with Vlasic corp. To put peppered pickles in their jars Well Vlasic corp. invited him To come take a private tour They said that he would relish it And be a cut up in the stores They put the peppered pickle clown In a clown chair and tied him down They said it was for safety As the belt showed him all around The belt went slow when starting out Picked up speed as it went along The peppered pickle clown was sliced and diced Vlasic didn't clown around So remember the peppered pickle clown When you shop at your home store He gave his life for stardom And thats why you now pay more Today is peppered pickle day And should be known the world around Made famous by a sweet delight The peppered pickle clown Carl J. Roberts
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When the baker bakes the baked bakery bakes, Do they also bake the recipe required? What's the recipe for a poem? Does the poet pen the poetical poem poetically to pen their pretty poems? What temperature do you bake ink- To make it a bestseller? How much baking powder do you bake into a page To perfect its pagey turny pageiness? What kinda poem crust does a poem become encrusted in? Should it crumble? Should it rhyme? Should it cry a melodrama so dramatic that drama llamas like “that too much drama!”? Wait, Where did drama llama come into this? Who else is in the kitchen cooking this poem pie? Is the poem pie perfectly pied in its drama crust? WAIT- we forgot about the filling… What do you put in a poetical poem pie? Should I peach the pied poem? The peaches plumpy peachy smile? (i’m not sure how the drama llama feels about that) Should I fill the peachy pied poem with orange and lemon citrus ? A little bit of snazz to the snazzy apple pie. Crap, I forgot the apples as well. Well now my peachy pied lemony apple-orange poem is too long! And i still don’t know what temperature to torch these thoughts at! Well the pied piper pipes in that maybe my peachy pied poem needs some pepper To pipe the spice to pied poem levels! But lemony apple-orange peachy pied poems with pepper seems a touch peppery for simple pied poems to be. But who ever said a poem pied can’t have spice and everything nice WITH lemon and apple and orange and peachy fuzzy smiles? So, My peachy peppered pied lemony appley orangy poemy is piping hot to boot. Now i just need to figure out whos gonna eat the **** thing.
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Dec 2, 2021
Dec 2, 2021 at 3:27 PM UTC
Peachy Poem Pie
When the baker bakes the baked bakery bakes, Do they also bake the recipe required? What's the recipe for a poem? Does the poet pen the poetical poem poetically to pen their pretty poems? What temperature do you bake ink- To make it a bestseller? How much baking powder do you bake into a page To perfect its pagey turny pageiness? What kinda poem crust does a poem become encrusted in? Should it crumble? Should it rhyme? Should it cry a melodrama so dramatic that drama llamas like “that too much drama!”? Wait, Where did drama llama come into this? Who else is in the kitchen cooking this poem pie? Is the poem pie perfectly pied in its drama crust? WAIT- we forgot about the filling… What do you put in a poetical poem pie? Should I peach the pied poem? The peaches plumpy peachy smile? (i’m not sure how the drama llama feels about that) Should I fill the peachy pied poem with orange and lemon citrus ? A little bit of snazz to the snazzy apple pie. Crap, I forgot the apples as well. Well now my peachy pied lemony apple-orange poem is too long! And i still don’t know what temperature to torch these thoughts at! Well the pied piper pipes in that maybe my peachy pied poem needs some pepper To pipe the spice to pied poem levels! But lemony apple-orange peachy pied poems with pepper seems a touch peppery for simple pied poems to be. But who ever said a poem pied can’t have spice and everything nice WITH lemon and apple and orange and peachy fuzzy smiles? So, My peachy peppered pied lemony appley orangy poemy is piping hot to boot. Now i just need to figure out whos gonna eat the **** thing.
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She steps out, Her pea coat peppered in cigarette ashes Her eyes contain a mystery concealed by her dark revlon lashes Her crimson heart shaped painted lips aren't enough to distract me from her blue sequin dress, Tightly draped to shape her perfect Pocahontas hips God bless her sole, It was too cold for peep toe pumps but venerating value was her goal I felt foolish handing her flowers, For when holding them next to her they lost all their vivid surrealism "They're wild flowers", I told her, "California Bluebells"
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Jul 18, 2013
Jul 18, 2013 at 2:21 PM UTC
California Bluebell
My room is quiet Blue curtains block out the world that lurks just outside Waiting to hurt me. 8 pm. I know that purple dusk is gathering outside my walls The same way the bruises in my heart threaten to eclipse the sun. I'm scared. I don't look at the veins showing under my skin because they Remind me too much of the indigo, under-oxygenated blood That spills too often from my arms, Reminds me of my father's face purple with rage When I told him I didn't think I was supposed to be In this body, wear these clothes, be this gender. 9pm. Navy skies peppered with stars I will not see again Purple pen writing apologies to my parents Heart pumping indigo, under-oxygenated blood too fast, Knows it doesn't have much time, Can't breathe, face purple, face blue, Can't breathe, dark vision, indigo stars, Can't breathe.
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Jul 10, 2014
Jul 10, 2014 at 11:04 PM UTC
Blue & Purple
next to my cup of hot bitter coffee my bowl has a cone an avalanche of heartache cereals that is about to fall... a plate of peppered uncertainties omelet beckons to be gulped and wiped out.... but, alas, i feel already stuffed i can no longer swallow... ----------- i decided to skip breakfast.... Sally Copyright 2013 Rosalia Rosario A. Bayan
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Oct 19, 2013
Oct 19, 2013 at 9:17 AM UTC
breakfast (1)
Well Done. She said, but don't ***** it up. Its a start. How could I? Your sauciness drove right thru my heart. Will you please be my bottom bun? Baby, you're my seed number one. Sesame wants Sesayou Tardy to your selfworth day party Salty, and peppered with hardy haught looks I've overcooked this simple match up Maybe baby I'm plain ketchup.
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Feb 23, 2018
Feb 23, 2018 at 4:48 PM UTC
Gluten Freedom
A nobler king had never breath-- I say it now, and said it then. Who weds with such is wed till death And wedded stays in Heaven. Amen. (And oh, the shirts of linen-lawn, And all the armor, tagged and tied, And church on Sundays, dusk and dawn. And bed a thing to kneel beside!) The bravest one stood tall above The rest, and watched me as a light. I heard and heard them talk of love; I'd naught to do but think, at night. The bravest man has littlest brains; That chalky fool from Astolat With all her dying and her pains!-- Thank God, I helped him over that. I found him not unfair to see-- I like a man with peppered hair! And thus it came about. Ah, me, Tristram was busied otherwhere.... A nobler king had never breath-- I say it now, and said it then. Who weds with such is wed till death And wedded stays in Heaven. Amen.
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Guinevere At Her Fireside
*Ever look to the night sky beyond tiring windscreen wipers? They screech, exasperated by an army of droplets hurtling downwards. Ever lean on the dashboard gazing upwards into the downpour? Constant and linear; like how stars zoom past spaceships in old movies. A whole universe of dazzling stars. That's how she lived; her aura a universe peppered with light. Light forever radiating towards captivated eyes. Oh, she loved with a love unparalleled.*
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Jul 20, 2015
Jul 20, 2015 at 7:50 AM UTC
-Cosmic-
Dean and I loitered on iron horseback Flaked with nuances and peppered with a keen stutter Our jokes had weight Weight creates a gravitational pull Our jokes had a gravitational pull My clone emerged in the rearview mirror with his girlfriend Dean and I thought that was funny They were attracted to us, for once We got a bite to eat, my head, like a gyroscope Universal karma Revolving, self-stabilization Into the palm of reconciliation Forced by nature With interdependence A means to measure And counter each sentence
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Jun 23, 2012
Jun 23, 2012 at 10:01 PM UTC
Galaxsea
The air is burly trees harvest soldiers on the line combines, threads, manure, life-- A whole world lost amidst the flats Saplings are the next season's Almonds, Apples, Dates, Waiting for food shelves and stockrooms packed in banana boxes and given a place They will find the plates of capitol city dwellers They will be engorged far away from their origins The Sierra-- oh the great plutonic mass They are grey from age, peppered with white whiskers of snow They are asking to be known as the interior Pilgrims who traveled over their spines, seeking these fertile swampland Now airstrips and dirigibles The edges of clouds on the valley, the deserts and the mountains like folds of a book they crackle in the sun and the skin of the earth shrinks in its gaze Migratory birds dance in the fields, the lowly clang of bell Bleached american flags tell us this is the land The land of things and endless breadth This is only California, but the majesty of it a gem valley encased by the rocks, in silicates A roaming place for cows, wanderers, farmers, dreams Where the only edge of things is the mountains, saying -Climb me, surmount me, lay me under your deeds-
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Dec 14, 2018
Dec 14, 2018 at 12:26 PM UTC
San Joaquins
Maybe it's just because the color of these hillsides is a shade or two darker than the sky, but I am unwittingly content with these fiddle strings, nodding on the porch, under Christmas lights on a rainy July evening, peppered with the scent of apple cake and something smoky while our bare feet are stomping to my grandfather's lullaby-- a familiar melody that I've never really known, plucked and bowed, more sentient that I'll ever be.
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Jul 21, 2014
Jul 21, 2014 at 5:51 PM UTC
Wise Appalachia
Treble, tunes and solemn symphonies. Trouble, wrecked and poignant stories. Classic harmonies and plastic picks, Picking on strings and drumming sticks. A tale as old as his peppered hair, Brooding lyrics of his dead girl, so fair.
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Jul 13, 2013
Jul 13, 2013 at 8:18 AM UTC
Guitarist
The sky resembles the robin's eggshells scattered across the ground, a blue so seemingly infinite yet fragile, cracks running between understanding and madness complementing each other as divine truths in their own right to conquer my mind, to unhinge the doors, making it unnecessary to pick rusted locks letting thoughts fly free, releasing love out into the horizon. If frozen within caged snapshots of mildewed expectations, it will surely die, but even so, I was willing to strangle it by holding on too tightly. Until I saw the sky and eggshells today Peppered clouds reflected on the water, paralleling speckles on the eggshells, remind me of the freckles on your face. We need to be wide-open-free, we need to fly, without focusing too hard on shells of yesterdays. We need to unclench our fists, unclench our tongues, explore the vast blue peppered sky on wings of letting go.... so that we can once again feel with purity, so that we can hold each other ever closer. 05.24.12
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May 24, 2012
May 24, 2012 at 3:02 PM UTC
Closer
Now, there is the contour of her upturned forehead nosetip kissed by the moonlight and shadows frame the shape of her eyes soft wrinkles at their tapered corners And my god, the color of them I stare, squint A misty night, but they are distinct even in the dark: bronze beads nestled into slight furrows gossamer, reflecting starlight. The sweep across the peppered sky that we stand beneath Chestnut disks floating in milky spheres unmistakably hers full and round, soaking in curiosity handsome mahogany irises bound by the gold tracing their edges. The way the light makes those disks look glassy Semitransparent in the moon’s glow How they shed their boundaries shifting, swimming layers on the eyelid horizon They shimmer, and stir. And now, they rest their gaze on me. I inhale dare to step closer The bustle in the back of my brain— A hum, and the purr of pleasure at her beatitude.
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Mar 7, 2023
Mar 7, 2023 at 10:16 AM UTC
She Was So Beautiful
How do you begin to talk about trust, when every thought that swirls around in your brain has additional questions attached to it: is it real?                  is it made up?            is it rational?                  is it an overreaction?          is it temporary?                          is it permanent? Tangled root systems of the same questions, for every thought. And I haven’t even started on Feelings, [that’s a different poem altogether]. - How do you begin to talk about trust when, for starters, you can’t trust yourself. Grow up, with silence and shrugged shoulders and the helpless statements of: I don’t know, I don’t know, I just don’t know, in response to all your scientific parents’ questions – questions peppered with “logical” and “rational” and *“you understand where we’re coming from …right?”* and eventually, every time you think or feel anything at all and have no explanation, you’re left with one question:                          how can you not know?                            how can you not know?                          how can you not know? - Say a word enough times and it starts to lose its meaning: trust trust trust trust Is it even a word, or just a lucky combination of letters? - How do you begin to talk about trust when you’ve been let down not once, not twice, not three times… well, what’s the point of trying to recall, when you’ve lost count of the times. It would be one thing, if you knew why you’ve been abandoned, or why people hurt you, or why everything gets to you so often,                            [is it you or is it them,                                 is it you or is it them,                         is it you or is it them?] but it’s the not knowing that makes you realize that people as a whole are: Unpredictable, Unreliable, Untrustworthy. You’re not usually too angry about it, this is just Reality. - This is just Reality, but it’s the not knowing that kills you, closes up your heart in a certain kind of way after a while. Oh, you’ll talk to people, if you must, say whatever seem to be the right things, be the listening ear they need, if that’s what’s required of you, be good, understanding, kind, empathetic, to the best of your ability, but you won’t Rely on them, won’t accept statements of I can help. That’s a different story. - If you can’t trust People. [Forget about your family, the ones who supposedly love you, with their helpful advice of “get a job, be useful, it’ll make you feel better.” Forget about the docs and therapists, the ones who supposedly make it better, with pills or overpriced talking sessions. Forget friends, the ones who supposedly are your support system, with “I’m here for you” and “I can help” that lead nowhere.] then what you are left with is trusting yourself out of necessity. And you’re back to where you started.
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Nov 17, 2014
Nov 17, 2014 at 9:43 PM UTC
On the Subject of Trust
How do you begin to talk about trust, when every thought that swirls around in your brain has additional questions attached to it: is it real?                  is it made up?            is it rational?                  is it an overreaction?          is it temporary?                          is it permanent? Tangled root systems of the same questions, for every thought. And I haven’t even started on Feelings, [that’s a different poem altogether]. - How do you begin to talk about trust when, for starters, you can’t trust yourself. Grow up, with silence and shrugged shoulders and the helpless statements of: I don’t know, I don’t know, I just don’t know, in response to all your scientific parents’ questions – questions peppered with “logical” and “rational” and *“you understand where we’re coming from …right?”* and eventually, every time you think or feel anything at all and have no explanation, you’re left with one question:                          how can you not know?                            how can you not know?                          how can you not know? - Say a word enough times and it starts to lose its meaning: trust trust trust trust Is it even a word, or just a lucky combination of letters? - How do you begin to talk about trust when you’ve been let down not once, not twice, not three times… well, what’s the point of trying to recall, when you’ve lost count of the times. It would be one thing, if you knew why you’ve been abandoned, or why people hurt you, or why everything gets to you so often,                            [is it you or is it them,                                 is it you or is it them,                         is it you or is it them?] but it’s the not knowing that makes you realize that people as a whole are: Unpredictable, Unreliable, Untrustworthy. You’re not usually too angry about it, this is just Reality. - This is just Reality, but it’s the not knowing that kills you, closes up your heart in a certain kind of way after a while. Oh, you’ll talk to people, if you must, say whatever seem to be the right things, be the listening ear they need, if that’s what’s required of you, be good, understanding, kind, empathetic, to the best of your ability, but you won’t Rely on them, won’t accept statements of I can help. That’s a different story. - If you can’t trust People. [Forget about your family, the ones who supposedly love you, with their helpful advice of “get a job, be useful, it’ll make you feel better.” Forget about the docs and therapists, the ones who supposedly make it better, with pills or overpriced talking sessions. Forget friends, the ones who supposedly are your support system, with “I’m here for you” and “I can help” that lead nowhere.] then what you are left with is trusting yourself out of necessity. And you’re back to where you started.
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It's in the morning, at the rise of the sun, when memories float back to you and the remnants of your smile from last night reappears in the soreness of your cheeks and the tightening of your jaw where beauty manifests itself throughout nature. From the distant tolling of church bells, tolling away in their perfect habitual melody, to the sounds of lovers silently waking one another and relishing at the sounds of their respected voices. Its in this moment that the dream and reality mesh with one another. Never truly revealing which is which leaving you in a blissful ignorance peppered with false hopes and beautiful truths. Its through the fog of your alcohol addled mind that a light appears and guides you to wonders untold, leading to a discovery of discoveries revealing a magic long lost to this universe. Down the neck of a dark blue bottle lined with platinum flows my intuition and aspiration. Its now that i drink and discover a new reality. Namaste.
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Dec 30, 2013
Dec 30, 2013 at 5:28 AM UTC
Namaste