I am maybe a bit too sweet. Some may say over compensating. Its a mistake really. Long pour a second too long.

I am meant to be bitter. I should be bitter. I am supposed to be.

And yet here i am.
Like a delightening tea wrapping my warmth around the inside of your throat.

And you love it.
And you cant get enough.
Sometimes im sorry that im so good.
But maybe most times i am not.

Humans are like plants. We need water and we need sun.

When all the right conditions are met, a plant will thrive

But if there is too much or too little of any one element, a plant will suffer ill consequence.

Balance.

I dont know why im like this. I talk in riddles and i move in puzzles. Sorry.

The cold seeps through you
Into you
You become
The cold
You are cold.
It is not your fault
Impossible.
How can you be to blame
For a world that was already
Way too cold
To begine with.

Are you on?
Are you there?
Am i staring into the abyss today?
Will it be staring back at me again?
Are you staring back at me today?

Eventually
The cold seeps through you
Into you
You become
The cold
You are cold.
It is not your fault
Impossible.
How can you be to blame
For a world that was already
Way too cold
To begine with.

At around exactly 3 in the afternoon. After my mom found my birth certificate, i grabbed it and now im holding onto it myself. Its hard to trust people who dont trust you. Family has always been hard for me. Ever since 'the incident'. I think thats what did it. Thats what threw me overboard. But to me, as a kid, i thought i was just swimming. I didnt realize that everyone was on a boat slowly drifting farther and farther away from me. Or was i the one drifting away from them. Well. Now i know. Im older. I know better. Not the best-- but better. I realize how hard it is to tread water so while trying to keep myself afloat, im also trying to build a boat in which to make my whole life so much easier. There are sharks in these waters. Its nothing personal. Sharks gotta eat. And im tasty if i do say so myself. Blood sweet and thick enough to be confused for syrup. So. I have to work fast. I started too late. Im always late. Not much time left, i have to put all of my effort into this device. Lest i drown and my story ends all too soon.