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Sep 2014 · 13.1k
Black and White
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Everyone looks better
Dressed up in black and white
Untouched by the colors
Of the lie they hide behind
You notice every inch of them
From the hue of their hair
To the color of their skin
You can truly see the way
Their eyes reflect the sun
And how they hold themselves up
Everyone looks better
Dressed up in black and white
Untouched by the colors
Of the lie they hide behind.
Sep 2014 · 507
untitled
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I don't want your money darling
I just want your attention
Sep 2014 · 400
Not my Cliche Boy
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
You couldn't be cliche to save your life
Your simply too stubborn for that
You see love as a pastime
Not something to seek out
Even when you're with me
I'm not really there
I can tell
You'll never kiss me in the rain
For fear of getting wet
You'll never talk to me about your day
Or ask me how I am
You could never write me love notes
Or give me a sweet nickname
Or even sing along
Because you'd hate for me to hear your voice
Because all of that
must seem so silly to you.
Sep 2014 · 327
Your Name Here
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I'd love to write your name here
So you would know
That all these love poems
Are for you

I'd love to write your name here
So maybe you would understand
Just how lonely
You make me feel

Being with you is like floating on air
Wonderful, with you, the clouds beside me
But I am not a part of you
I am simply there

I don't want to be some trophy girlfriend
Sitting, looking pretty
I want you to want me, need me, love me
The same way I do you

*Because you are my everything
But I feel like nothing to you
Sep 2014 · 1.6k
Absorb
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Give me rough ***
Give me hard times
Give me all the pain you can
Because I love to absorb it
Just like a sponge to water.
Sep 2014 · 1.3k
Painfully Beautiful
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
The rain is running down
My window pane
Like the tears that
Are falling down your cheeks
It's painfully beautiful.
Sep 2014 · 969
Passive Agressive
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I'm hoping you'll eventually
Understand my passive aggressive poetry
About how much I love you
And hate you all the same.
Sep 2014 · 988
growing older
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
What does it mean
To grow older
Are we gaining
Our best years
Or losing them?
Sep 2014 · 13.0k
Beautifully Ugly
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Once, someone was called beautiful
And from that, ugliness was born
With all its self conscious nature
Sep 2014 · 2.7k
Concert
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
The music itself thumps in my chest

My body moves all on its own

My hips sway against yours

we swing our heads in rhythm


For in the moment 

when a band takes the stage

we all become the same 

united under a song



I believe this would be

a perfect movie moment

with you and I as the stars

Our own little montage



Because in this moment

I can feel your heat

We are one in the same

Our souls entwined in the song



We have to shout into each others ears

to have a conversation

though many words aren't needed

Our bodies do the talking



I guess this is what it means

to feel accepted, in love, perfect

because I can't imagine myself

dancing to this song,
with anyone else


*but you
Sep 2014 · 4.9k
Flying High
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I don't believe in flying high
Wings weren't made for men.
Sep 2014 · 819
You are Someone Beautiful
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Your eyes remind remind me of glaciers
Not because they're cold
But because they are mysterious

Your hair reminds me of a lions mane
Because of it's dark ginger hue
And the softness of the strands.

Your words remind me of poetry
Each phrase flows perfectly
As if they were meant to be together

Your smile reminds me of lightning
So bright, though fleeting
Shocked is my heart to see it

Your skin is perfect ivory
Pale, delicate, and smooth
I crave the feeling of yours against mine

Your heart is made of gold
Generous and kind
I wish that your heart, would beat in tune with mine.

Ever since the first time I looked at you
Looked into you
I could see someone who was beautiful.
Sep 2014 · 1.3k
What a Fool I Was
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I was a disaster
Just waiting to happen
Self destructive
lacking morals
My poetry was an
Unwritten suicide
I held smoke in my lungs
And alcohol in my liver
16 and bullet proof
Me against the world

*what a fool I was
Sep 2014 · 858
You Make Me Feel Better
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I was born
Pen in hand
Mind torn
Between heaven and land

I wrote of the sky
But dreamed of the grass
Okay was a lie
Days would pass

Indifferent suffering
Words written in ink
Wrists would be bleeding
Alcohol to drink

I was born
Self destructive
Yet despite what I've sworn
I continue to live

Because you make
Me feel better
for loves sweet sake
I write poems like letters

All for you

Because I never knew
How beautiful a lake could be
Until I looked in eyes of blue
Then I knew, you were the key.
Sep 2014 · 1.2k
I'm Tired
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Im tired of lighting cigarettes
when I really just want to light my insides on fire.
Im tired of kissing boring boys and girls.
Because love is too much for me to handle
Im tired of drinking 20 cups of black coffee
hoping the caffeine will stop my heart.
Im tired of taking white and blue pills, white lines, shots of ***** and **** rips to hold me over for a couple hours.
Im really tired of shaking between highs, head between my knees, breaking into a cold sweat.
Truth is, Im tired of living
Because life just isn't worth it anymore.
Sep 2014 · 534
No Impact Like You
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Cigarettes will stain
but not as much
as the ones you left on me

Razor blades will cut
but not as deep
as the wounds you've given me

For no pain
or suffering
can have an impact like you
Sep 2014 · 846
Disgrace
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I could bend over backwards
to make you happy
and you'd still spit in my face

I could spend all my life
trying to please you
and still be standing in the same place

Nothing I've done
has ever made you love me
I'm sorry I'm such a disgrace
Sep 2014 · 529
Goodbye
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Look into my eyes
tell me its not real
I can't bear to cry
not in front of you
so please darling
won't you take me
in your arms
and kiss me
just one more time
so that I know
I'm still yours
and that this is not
*goodbye
Sep 2014 · 936
You Took My Breath Away
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I used to believe
you took my breath away
but now I've realized
all you did
was suffocate me
Sep 2014 · 334
Loving You Is Easy
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
You act like it's hard to love you
But darling it isn't true
Because loving you is child's play
And I do it myself every single day
Sep 2014 · 855
Why Do I Stay?
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Im trying to decide
what it is that
I see in you
what it is that
makes me love you
Because really
you just make me tired
all of the time
I'm stressed
depressed
and overall in pain
just being with you
yet I can't help but stay
because theres something
I love about you
Its not so much your eyes
or your voice
though both of those
are wonderful
its not quite your smile
or your laugh
yet both of those
are sweet
I think its something deeper
calling me to you
and it causes me to stay
even though its rough
I believe its love itself.
Sep 2014 · 1.3k
Late Night Confessions
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Please don't go to bed yet
I don't know what to do
I'm rolled up in these blankets
wishing that I could talk to you
because no one makes me feel better,
no one except for you
I'm just trying to find my feelings
and make my wish come true
but in order for that to happen
I'd have to admit I love you
Sep 2014 · 5.6k
Let me be your instrument
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Play me like a guitar baby
pull me by my strings
pull from me a melody
that makes other girls sing

Let me be the instrument
you use to win the fame
I don't care if you use me
Just let me be the flame

I want to be the microphone
that catches all your words
Let your breath flow through me
Like wind through wings of birds

I love your music baby
your lyrics are like poetry
Let me be your pen and paper
Because you've done enough for me.

Your kindness saved my life darling
if it was only once or twice
that was enough for me honey
my heart is your device.
Sep 2014 · 2.3k
I a Flower, You my Gardner
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I'm a little wilted orchid
poisonous and dead
if you aren't too careful love,
I might just lose my head.

Flowers aren't so pretty
when their colors aren't so bright
I haven't had colors in a long time love,
The sun has bleached me white.

Yet you still think I'm beautiful
Im grateful, darling its true
I am almost recovered love
and its all thanks to you.
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Kiss me to the sound of your favorite band
teach me what it is to feel alive
because I have been living so long
But it's been hard and troublesome
Until I met you

I can breath in the air
Taste the flavors on your tongue
I feel so free, and my heart won't stop pounding
I feel like an open vessel to the world
Oh, the way you make me feel

I've never felt this beautiful before
so emotional and human
So free from the numb
No longer hurting inside
I'm finally feeling, finally dreaming


I'm a born again sinner
except I seek no retribution
I want to delve into the world you occupy
with all its ***, drugs, and rock and roll
******* alive

Put your arms around me
Call me your girl
Kiss my lips, my neck, my hips
Because this is all so new
and I want it all

Call me baby
because I feel new
*All because of you
Sep 2014 · 1.5k
High
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
My head is heavy
My brain is foggy
only your face is clear
I kiss your cheeks, forehead, lips
I laugh so brightly
Nothing could bring me down in this moment
You are my pinnacle
My love of a lifetime
You bring me joy
but you also bring me pain
once you are gone I feel empty
I crave you again and again
You're addictive, my love
and that can't be healthy
but I couldn't care less
because when I'm with you
I feel high
and happy
and free
And I wouldn't give that up for anything
Because I love what you do to me.
Aug 2014 · 765
Isn't It fun.
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
For the longest time I was on my own
I had grown numb to the world around me
But then you took my hand
my whole world exploded
and suddenly all was bright
I could feel the wind tickling my hair
your hot breath whispering against my ear
The pure heat of our two bodies intwined
all in a single moment
Hips against hips
your hands in my hair
your lips pressed to mine
our two souls entwined, twirling
whirling through the air somewhere above us
We were like a force of nature
a hurricane or tornado
something destructive and wild

but it was so unhealthy
but I didn't care
I thought it was fun at the time
now here I am
stranded in the ruble
waiting for another storm to carry me along
I live off of them
drunk with the sheer emotion
then alone again I am
I feel no wind
no heat
no passion
nothing
I am empty
But **** was it fun for a while
Aug 2014 · 295
Ghost
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
I reach out to take your hand
but your fingers slip from mine

I kiss you in the hallway
but theres never one in return

I wrap my arms around you
but your hands never find my waist

I tell a joke to make you laugh
but no smile reaches your lips

I sit and pat the seat beside me
but you find somewhere else

I send you notes and messages
but there are never any in return

I run my fingers through your hair
but there is no such caress from you.

I still cling to you my love
but I am just a Ghost
Aug 2014 · 319
Untitled
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
My head is so full when alone.
my mind races wildly so far from you
I miss the blankness you bring.
Aug 2014 · 656
Think Of Me?
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
I wonder if you can find the time to think of me
thoughts crowded with everyone else, anything else
I understand how complicated that must be
yet still, if you could, would you think of me?
Aug 2014 · 7.6k
smile
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
distance
one ear to the other
Aug 2014 · 404
9-22 12:38
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
eyes so blue
hair of gold
her actions new
her sadness old

she tries so hard
her pain she hides well
never relaxing her guard
her happiness she sells

little miss perfect
thats what they all think
"my life isn't worth it"
she writes in dark ink

water filled tubs
perforated skin
men in scrubs
they load her in

her mother cries
she grasps her hand
her father tries
desperate to understand

but she was already dead
a second too late
wrists soaked red
9-22 12:38
This is dedicated to my friend Julia who killed herself back in 2012
Aug 2014 · 299
You vs Me
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
Can you find the oxygen to breathe
When your smothering yourself with everyone else
Do you understand the complications
The trepidations I have with just being near you.
I'm so easily stressed, depressed, and scared
and giving up my space isn't something I could do
everything is nice, simple an plain.
Being near you is like being part of a neon sign.
all the colors are too bright, the music too loud.
I'm too dull, too soft. I'm not like you.
I could never be a part of you.
It's not because I don't love you
believe me darling I do
But something about me
can't connect with someone like you
I like to pretend sometimes
that I am a part of that bright neon sign
with all the loud colors and bright sounds
but even then I'm still too pastel.
But a girl can dream, at least I think
But in all my confusion I do know
That if I were braver, I would love you.

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