The
flowers
meet
as the  
words of
thought,
the
leaves
touch
in the
wind,
here,
you
share
the little
poems
of the
earth
with
me,
I hold
you
close
under
the
sun,
in each
other
arms
as a
blanket,
a place
where
we will
both feel
safe,
untorn
in the
warm
amber
glow,
healing
our
sore
souls
in our
gentle
sleep,
I will
say to
you, in
silence,
“the
answer
of your
existence
is my
home”.

Each cuts
Every deserved,
Some hurt
Others no feel,
Unconcerned
The bleeding won't stop
It is getting cold.

It is my emotional state
physically nothing has changed
No one can see
No need to hide behind the full sleeves.

There are no stains
I am in trauma
I look at smiles on the face
I try to mirror them
Half success attempt
They won't ask
No one can tell.

Hush hush feeling
I am thinking of leaving
From the backdoor.

Hush hush,
It hurts more
As I think about it,
Ouch, I can't scream it out loud.

This is how it goes,
I keep tears at bay
I feel the thousand cuts explode
How do I keep them at bay
I feel pressure on eyes.

I reach the bed I sleep on
Find as many blankets I can
Bury myself inside
Till the morning
I fell asleep
With the ache in my heart.

Every night
When I get into bed
It’s cold

But I no longer care
Because I can crawl into my bed
And hide under the covers

But every morning when I get up
It’s still cold
And this time I care

Because now I have to get out of bed
Out of my sanctuary of warmth
And face the cold, cruel, world

You're the first person I've met
Who doesn't move their arm at night
You pulled me in and closed your eyes
Straight away fell asleep
There are no terrors in your nights
As certain as night brings slumber
The sun will rise again for you

If I could  have a thread of that security
It would be warmer than any blanket
I've wrapped my lonely self in

Sometimes I can’t find the words
but I lay with you and rest
and find I don’t need them

It’s all said
in the slow breath and small touch of knees beneath the blanket.