Those distant leaden cirrus clouds
Do not resemble your wild curls anymore
That midnight smell of vanilla and lavender in my backyard
Does not make me want to drive up to your house and nestle between the freshly showered perfumed folds of your skin like before
The ocean no longer reminds me of your eyes
And I've become careful enough to resist myself
From diving into a sparkling pool of lies
Your voice does not reside
in the cradle of my heart
like it used to
Wine and mushy cookies
no longer make me hungry
for you like before
What actually resembles us now
Are these ashes from my half finished cigarette
Slowly falling on the floor
It's smoke that I inhale
And this burn in my chest
Along with these memories
that I regret I made
With someone like you

Our hearts beat in perfect harmony
A beautifully orchestrated
Rhythmic melody
Of a love that never ceases
To grow
But glistens with time
Like the sparkling galaxies
So hold my hand
Sit by my side
Lets cherish this love
Our priceless gem
And sing a duet
Meant for you and me

A slight ache in my chest
Becomes clearer and stronger
Whenever I see that distant look
Slowly spread in your almond shaped hazel eyes
And those scarlet lips
Shiver tremulously
As if struggling to hold
Those last bits of resilience
Threatening to fade into an abyss of oblivion
At that moment
all I really wish
Is to traverse the distance of your gaze
Climb upon that nameless horizon
Dive into the infinite darkness
That has wrenched your source of happiness
Ruthlessly devoured a prominent piece of you
And return back with a speck of hope
Anything that stirs your anticipation
relinquish your source of misery
Revive your languished faith
Makes you gather your shattered pieces
And wrap you in one of those embrace
That turns you sanguine and buoyant again
Cause no matter what I say
Something inside me fails to believe
That you will ever return
To how you used to be
Before this calamity fractured your resolve
Beyond repair

Winter penetrated inside me
Turning my vision misty
My eyes became fixated
Upon the endless snow
That shrouded the lush greens
The frigid gales lacerated me
Carved wounds upon my pale skin
Crippled every inch of my body
And I cried for warmth
To melt this blood
that had condensed and congealed upon me
At last the tides of salubrity came
with the radiant waters of spring
And I watched them baffled
As they washed over me
The thorns of ice protruding from my skin
Trickled away without resisting a bit
Never could I fathom
How a ferocious ball of fire
Possessed an incredible ability to heal
With such a dexterity
I affiliated its searing flames with destruction
But it turned an arctic heart
About to succumb under talons of grief
Back Into a supple muscle
Rippling under a rhythmic beat
chiseled it further
So it remained insulated from future calamity
I just needed to wait and believe
Something better was meant for me

I can dream without you
And I do not wake up in the morning
Thinking about you
I do not wish anymore
How we could have been together
Just me and you
Our love is burned beyond repair
It's ashes have dissipated into the thin air
The reality is mine to endure
I no longer walk with eyes half closed
I have ceased to believe
That what i see is what it actually is
Nothing is as it appears to be
So tread carefully
Even if you are a seasoned warrior
Love can induce cracks
Even in a hardened skin
No, I still believe in wishing upon shooting stars
And swimming in constellations
In someone's eyes like before
As a glimmer of hope refuses to fade
It's undying and fathomless
As the forget me not skies above
Although it hurts a little bit
In the depths of my being
Where I welcomed you
With open arms
and took you in
But the pain is a lot less
And not how it used to be
My heart still beats perfectly
See I'm fine
I can survive
Its not as difficult
As I thought it would be

No one is chasing you
You're chasing that
Which is momentary
You're chasing those
Who aren't exceptional
Those that are mortals
Just like you
Does that which you chase
Follows you back
Or is it a one sided pursuit
That takes your energy time and again
A hunt which makes you believe
That maybe if you succeed
in catching that which you covet
Then something which you dream about
Will become a delightful reality
And you will be standing on the threshold
Of something new
A chase to find a new way
A race to discover a new place
A hunt to unearth a route
Which could erase the remains
Of that which is bound to stay
A pursuit for lasting bliss
Anything rather than nothing
Which will never chase you back
In this universe which is driven by
Utter changelessness

Is it too late
To run back into your arms
The sun hasn't dipped deep enough
The birds are still singing their love songs
Can I play with your hair
You can run your fingers along my neck
It isn't summer yet
But the cool breeze feels so refreshing
As it blows across our tousled hair
Will you whisper sweet nothings in my ears
I promise I won't shake if it tickles
But don't you pause
Let your breath caress every inch of my skin
Lets dance beneath the evergreen trees
The night is still young
And the sky is still blushing
Lace your fingers around mine
Lets see the flowers bloom again
And pluck away the weeds of melancholy
Is it too late
To gather the remnants of our love
Pile them up neatly
Smile once again together
At its abundance
Meant for you and me

If I could
I would swallow the tears of your past
Till they cease to stain your cheeks
The bitter taste won't hurt me as much
As seeing your swollen eyes
with hollows beneath
I would harness the heat of a million suns
And try to melt the frost
in which you're submerged neck deep
The fire won't burn me as much
As the ice that resists to be thawed
And the numbness that has besieged you
Refusing to recede
I would wear the darkness
as my favorite jeans
if it refuses to abound your world wherever you see
Won't worry if it makes me look like a creep
If only you believe
that theres hope ahead
Life isn't as bleak as it appears to be
I can do more
If only you speak
Won't care if it hurts me
All I care for is
Will it be enough for you
Will you become how you used to be

I either feel frozen
Frost bitten
Gelid
With lacerating wounds
The blood of which has long been congealed
Even the heat of a thousand suns cannot melt the ice that resides permanently deep within
Or boiling hot
Burning
With searing heat of leaping flames
Spreading tentacles  gliding swiftly
Ready to engulf me
torch my insides
Till I'm nothing but a ball of ash
Dispersed into the invisible wind
There's no in between
How could you hope
To be with me

I vanquished my feelings for you
Burned my love for you
The extent of which could never be traversed by you
And buried myself under oceans of tears
The day I realized
No matter how much I crave you
My love shall always dissipate
Into the  ashes of a great sorrow known by the name of Unrequited

You have a poetic soul
And I can't help
But fall in love with it
The way you string words
with your deft hands
so exquisitely in a breathtaking sequence
Just to say 'you're beautiful'
The way you sit by my side
And I rest my head upon your lap
Feeling your fingers twirling my hair
Listening to the stories that you've inked
With awe and wonder in my eyes
The way you look at me
with those dark brown  eyes
Like I'm your most guarded treasure
Your finest poem
The words with which you breathe
The sun of your life
Your most wonderful epiphany
The reason you choose to live
Forever for you
Is only me and you
And I can't help
But fall for for you
Every day
Every moment
Time and again

You went away
To an unknown place
And I awaited you
Seeking you in an unlimited space
My efforts to reach you
Went only in vain
For I could never fathom
Why you never wanted to see me again
We were so happy
Singing love songs dancing in the rain
Until you announced
That we should take a much needed break
A break which you never meant to renew
As it turns out you were just looking for an escape
Another adventure and another chase
And In her arms you were seeking solace
Forgotten in a breath
Turned to a haze
Oh how naive was i
Thinking I could never be replaced
Living in an illusion
That we could be soul mates
Like the petals of moon
Your love for me waxed and waned
As I walk this road
Where we first kissed and held hands
The memories come raining down
Stabbing me mercilessly as I wince in pain
With no one to hear my cries
and wipe these tears
Itching and burning my face

Remember that old uphill trail
We used to meander along
With matching footsteps
Under the sunlit canopy of leaves
Carving words for each other
On the bark of aged trees
Who may have known
what would become of us
But nevertheless smiled
acted as a blank canvas instead
And watched the moments
Filled with playful laughter
Peachy smiles
Lingering gaze
Warm caress
Unfold lazily between us
The winds of time
May have blown us miles apart
Our footprints may have long eroded
That sunlit canopy may have withered
And we may walk that trail
Only in our dreams
But those words are yet to fade
they were the voice of our soul
Etched into the lap of nature
And as I run my fingers along its rugged edges
I reminisce about you
And hope that wherever you are
You are thinking about me too

Sometimes I dream about you
And I can see your bright eyes
Twinkling and beckoning me to come home
The cool breeze playing with your hair
Wisps of caramel brown curls caressing your forehead
And the blazing sun beating down upon your tanned shoulders
As I steal multiple glances to admire
The outline of those round rippling muscles
But something doesn't feels real
And when i try to touch you
You disappear without a whisper
That's when I feel the sharp sun piercing my skin
The reality set in as Im forced to open up my eyes
How desperately I cling on to the hope of 'us' again
Under the same sky
Breathing the same air
Just to sooth the ceaseless ache in my chest
A neverending anticipation
Deliberately ignoring the fact that you're obscured under a new wind
And blissfully painted a place anew for yourself
In a horizon
Far away

I passed by the house
I once stayed
Amid tall trees and Verdant grass
Where I once played
Although Covered in dust and rust
It looked the same
And I felt the cool wind envelope me
Like a mother's embrace
As I stepped upon the soft ground
Where my youth was spent
An avalanche of memories
Came crashing down
Feeding my parched longing for yore
And all I did was let it pour

I spy the rising sun
How it peeks above the horizon
Pouring it's radiance all over our world
It's gentle warmth
Filling every jagged and rugged crevice of earth
I spy the soil beneath
How many civilizations
Have flourished upon it
Does it still carry the footprints
Of Adam and eve
Are the fragments of past
Still hiding beneath it
I spy the night sky
the profound infinity
In which it abounds
And wonder
If those blazing stars
Still carry those that are gone
Does that mean
Our hearts may stop beating one day
But our soul is eternal
Till infinity and beyond

Do you remember those days
When we ran upon
Verdant fertile soils
Our nimble feet
Sinking deep into the soft mud
With windswept hair
Brushing against
Our damp skin
Glistening with beads of sweat
The scent of an everlasting summer
Permeated the air
As we played hide and seek
Under a canopy of singing birds
And the sunlight scattered over us
In shimmering golden circles
The sound of our laughter
Pulsating with boundless vigor
Rippled through the radiant skies
Of the most beautiful sunsets
While the dark of the night
Couldn't touch us
We were busy
Swaying and spinning
Under the starlight
Did the sun changed its course
Or did we grew up too fast
That loamy earth is crumbling
It's vitality long gone
Barren and abandoned
It yearns to hear
The melody of beating hearts
The air is heavy
With the deathly weight
Of a silence never felt before
But once a while
The fading echoes of our voice
Can be heard
Barely breaking
The stillness that abounds here
That invigorating sonority
Of the whistling birds
Has been drowned in
A harsh cacophony
Desperately revolting
To breathe life back
In a land
That was painted with
The colors of kaleidoscopic souls
Long ago
This decaying land
Won't call for a second glance
But if you haven't forgotten your roots
Someday you will look back
retrace your steps
And stare wide eyed
At the Graveyard
Of our childhood

Growing up
I forgot
What I was passionate about
Caught up in a rat race
I struggled to find my way
I forgot
I had a  voice
It was always crushed under
The louder dominant expression
That violently subdued
Any other form of opinion
I forgot
I was beautiful too
Just because I couldn't match
The standards of beauty
decided our society
I forgot
I was worthy of love
Just because he was filled with lust
And said I was meant to be choked
And rubbed all over
I forgot
How my smile looked like
It was always hidden behind
A lovely mask
That was far from who I was
I forgot
What it felt like
To be part of a group
Always pushed around
like a victim
Of a terrible stampede
Growing up
I forgot what it was like
To be myself
I forgot
Who I was
Was i even worthy of being alive

We are sisters from another mother
Brothers from different places
With a soul that speaks
A heart that beats
With eyes that glitter
Like fairy lights
And a smile
That sparkles like a starry sky
Counting the colors of sunset
Watching the beauty of sunrise
Our Hopes desires and dreams
Held tightly within our hands
Swaying with the wind of life
Each having a different story to tell

She is the swiftly rising Aurora
Shining luminously
Her splendid beauty is magnetic
a sight to behold
Her brilliance illuminates the depths of stygian dark
Her eyes burn like blazing summer
Like the leaping flames of bonfire
Their radiance makes you tremble
As you involuntarily shiver
She is all pervading
The mighty sun finds shelter between her  brows
Shaped like sharp polished spears
The crescent moon is tangled in her sable flowing hair
She sleeps in a silken blanket stitched with the Stars
She is everywhere
Over the cerulean seas
Between the Opal skies
Upon the fertile valleys
Above the folded mountains
She has always been there
Always will be
She is the epitome of eternity
She is
The Goddess

You make promises of always and forever
With exquisite words
Adorned with priceless gems
Of 'love' and 'life'
And drape it around my neck
Fastening it with a rosy kiss
Filled with fervent longing and ardor
Then step back
And admire me
With round wide eyes
And for a fleeting moment
I believe that I see
A fiery truth within you
Its smouldering flames
Swiftly burning away
Those allegorical fable
That you keep buried beneath
My naive heart doesn't care about the fact
That those gems aren't priceless
And the necklace is second hand
Borrowed before being  scrubbed clean

In my dream
I'll be the one you'll be holding tonight
Slowly filling me with ecstasy
My eyes will be turning misty with joy
You'll see
How every tremble
every shiver
emanating from my body
Will sob your name
My sighs will turn to  moans
With every kiss that you'll planting
On the slopes of my skin
With our fingers intertwined
And your warm breath caressing my spine
You'll be making promises of forever
And I'll be smiling with delight
As the starlight envelopes us
I'll gather the courage to tell you
That which I could only write about
you'll pull me closer
And with the sunrise
I won't be leaving your side
As you'll be ready to tell the world
That I'm yours
And you are mine
In my dream tonight
Instead of her
Your lips would be pressed against mine

I've been sleep deprived for so long
But when I close my eyes
Not even an ounce of sleep touches me
I've been tired for so long
But when I lay down
My body compels me to get up
And keep searching for a nameless entity
I haven't eaten in days
But when I begin to eat
My hunger disappears
The sight of food repels me
I don't know if I'm breathing
But the movement of my chest
With every inhale and exhale
Evidently shows that I'm surviving

Let me slam the doors
And yell do not disturb me tonight
As I stumble back to my bed
And see my demons slither out of my mind
I promise I will smile tomorrow
But tonight these tears are stinging my eyes
Let them flow like a roaring rain
Let the constant drizzle
become a heavy downpour
Let my bruises bleed
I don't need bandages to bind my wounds so tight
I will revive by tomorrow
But tonight just let me struggle to survive
Let me toss and turn
And fall to splinters amid the dark night
You won't have to see this mess
I will be fixed and polished by the morning light
Let me pulverize
As I become powerless tonight

Early morning walk amid the
Lush greens
Beautifully gilded with dew drops glittering
A canopy of sunlit mottled green leaves sheltering me
The mighty waves of turquoise green sea sings a mellifluous melody
The sight of a metallic green plumage in the distance is breathtaking
I see wonder in your emerald green eyes
Sparkling with curiosity
Lets watch the world revive with beautiful shades of green

Your brazen silence became roaring
And my thunderous thoughts became silent
Quietly dripping upon a blank canvas

Your artistic soul is boundless
Speckled with a multitude of words sparkling like pearly dew drops
On  Verdant sunlit greens
Under a soft blue sky
Resonating with the jubilant chorus of a thousand cheerful birds
The air ripe with a citrus lemony scent
Your beautifully crafted words like vibrant sun-kissed flowers adorning the canvas of a rustic landscape in hues of scarlet salmon and lilac
The balmy breeze gently whispers your riveting love songs in my ears
Titillating me playfully
As the season beckons our love to unfurl
And my longing heart ardently beats your name
My spring love
Take me home

I'm the glittery golden cover of your favorite layered chocolate draped cake
Adorned and embellished
To astound and amaze
Just to be crumpled  disposed and tossed away
I am the silken silvery fabric of those scintillating dreams
That you aspire to fulfill
Only to be deffered and never accomplished
I'm a classic best seller
A captivating page Turner
Read twice by him and thrice by you
Now pushed to a corner
Enveloped in a blanket of dust
I'm your soft adorable blue eyed doll
With rosy cheeks and strawberry lips
Apple of your eyes
That fills your heart with joy
Only to be pushed aside
When you're bored
And grown up
To realize
That it could be exchanged for so much more
I'm a nostalgic memory
Now abandoned and forgotten
Scattered by the winds of time
Who could never find someone
Desperate enough to call mine

I was awestruck by the sublime heat of our love which filled every jagged and rugged crevice of my soul.
But it only took a lightening bolt and soon we were dusting its ashes from our clothes
It burned swiftly like the scorching indian summer when we first met
Your hazel eyes glued to mine
The sultry southern wind could do nothing to calm your untamed passion that i innately knew would perfectly rival mine
The swooping birds whistled your lovesong
Tickling me tainting my dreams with specs of reality
Everything felt so inevitable
Maybe i was naive or
Stupid enough
I coudnt smell any warning
Maybe i was inebriated by your smouldering scent
Or did i deliberately turned a blind eye
Or a deaf ear when the placid waters of the tranquil lake began to roar
Impelling me
Trying to save me from going astray
But my heart knew you would save me
If only i knew
That you never ever felt the same
Cause you were never the one to stay

The countless folds of thick dark curtains
Cogently conceals what's hidden beneath
A tempest of emotions wreaking havoc
Arousing chaotic commotion
Debilitating me
Some buried
Some hovering ominously
Raucous silence
Exhausting my insides
My resilience wavering
As I struggle to stay afloat
My numb fingers beckoning you
to save me
Before I become
A broken shard of memory

We walk towards a deserted cemetery
Between weather beaten tombs and spectral souls
You wrap your arms around my waist
Rousing a shiver as I lean against your chest
We dance between the depths of the dark
Under the pastel skies above
With Silver moonlight Caressing our skin
Wilted petals beneath our feet
The silence of the solitary night
Splintered by our sonorous heartbeats
When thick fog engulfs us
Your soft lips press against mine
I feel a chill as time stands still
Wishing this moment would never pass by
As the iridescent mist receeds
An icy wind ****** my skin
I ponder and wonder where you are
I see your waning silhouette against the pallid sky
Reality stabs me ruthlessly
I tremble and quiver convulsively
Upon seeing you beside the withered old tree
Resting beneath the earth heedlessly
Turned into Grey ashes
Just a fragment of lasting memory

My whole youth was spent
in exorcising myself from the bitter poison
that was force fed to me by devouring serpents
So much venom infiltrated inside my veins
that I became glacial to the core
dragged into anesthesia
rendered incapacitated to melt
even when the balmy breeze and beatific sun attempted to seep inside my cells
and combust the atropine wrecking havoc inside my blood

March gallops swiftly ahead
Ensnaring February's vital essence
As frigid gale and Grey skies
Make way for efflorescence
Languished lands begin to revive
Verdant abundance greets abound
Adorning world in assorted hues
Like a bejeweled bride
With sparkling eyes
United with her lover
After years of strife
Like a bereaved mother
Shedding tears of love
Jubilant when her barren womb
Begins to nurture a life anew

My days crawl in a vapid succession
My eyes fixated upon the inscrutable way
In which pastel days fade into pallid nights
Languid sunrise dwindles into dreary sunsets
As I wander in between listlessly
Gathering it's dusty remnants
And threading them together
In unembellished phrases
Hackneyed to death
As the first weary ray of dawn
Ruffles through my hair
I yawn, sigh
and repeat again

When you look into my eyes
Do you see a kaleidoscopic soul
colored in vibrant hues
It's pieces interlaced finely
with silken gossamer threads
Mirroring a million silver spiraling galaxies
speckled with countless flickering stars
burning like fireflies
Residing at the center of this galactic disk
An everlasting play of cosmic dance
Waiting to be discerned
in its fathomless depths
Or do you sight war torn lands
inhabited by vast swathes of emptiness