Laughter resonating through the night
In the darkest your lips searching finding mine
Time is slipping as we spend another night

You look at me as the water begins to wash me of your skin
Tear filled eyes as you look away
And we both know that what you feel for me just isn’t right within

One word will forever resonate within my mind
As you walked out the door, I know that it was not a lie
This time you truly meant it when you said “Goodbye”.

Succumbing to ghosts of lustful past
Knowing that my soul will be the price
Falling further into beauty of our chaos

Baby, I love the way you take it slow
You are the angel at my door and
The devil within me, taking all control

We both know how this will end
Yet, we push on; falling victim to our past
Lonely ghosts reappearing on algid night.

The game you play is so **** sweet
Telling me you miss when you see me
The way you get on top and kiss me
Oh my god the way you lick and bite
The way you moan when I grab your thighs
Flip you over and kiss your lips
The lips between your hips
Flip and roll my tongue across your body
Lick your perfect ******* and kiss your neck
Work my way to nibble on your earlobe
Whisper that “I need you”
This is heaven, surrounded by the flames of hell
Only we know that it’s the sweetest place to be
This night is young
Gonna take my time and do it right
Rediscover your entire body
Burning into memory every moment of tonight
I can do it slow or I can do it fast
Close your eyes and let your body speak
Tell me if you want it soft or do you want it hard
Here, right here my dear
I’m gonna make you fall in love
Just remember that it’s our last time.

All I wanted was a drink
Caught in circumstances of today
Trying to drink away tomorrow
Yet, still living in yesterday

Never saw you come
Barely heard you speak
Your lips and eyes
So red - so blue

Three shots deep and
Now we’re reminiscing over
Things we’ve long forgot
Drawing closer through the thoughts of lust

In the ocean of your blue eyes
I see us swimming through the night
Burning at the thoughts of
Your red lips, kiss and press to mine....

Devil in a mirror imposing voices in your head, causing harm.
Seeds of painful past take root within your dying heart.
Every step you take had lead you closer to the edge - edge of self inflicted doubts.
Insecurities like knifes cutting deeper causing scars.
All alone, walls are closing in as you collapse fighting fear.
Light of truth fading faster as you fall into darkness of your mind.
Chaos building, twisting every memory and thought.
Falling into rabbit’s hole, deeper faster with no way out.
Psychosis taking over, soul is dying losing hope.
Thoughts of red lines up and down your inner thighs relieving pain.
Causing you to contemplate red lines across your wrist to **** it all.
One loud scream as you face yourself.
Devil in a mirror disappears as you close your eyes.
Mind is blank as you take a breath.
Smile across your face as you silence painful thoughts.
Strength is rising, realizing warmth of light is always creeping in through the cracks.

You shouldn’t be alone
I know your mind is racing as you’re pacing
To my will you’ll surrender all control
Forget the future and the past
Love couldn’t and it wouldn’t last
So take another shot and fall away into
Someone else’s bed and break their soul
Play the game of stupid love
Better them than you cause nothing lasts
Take another puff and lose your mind as
You disappear into nights of lust
Frozen to another’s touch
Cause darling you don’t want to hurt
Trust me take another pill and close your eyes
Life only lasts a moment and it’s worth loosing time playing games of causing scars.

From a dream I wake
Where in I dreamt of you
Even thought we probably never meet
And we will never truly speak
              Know
                      That
I already miss you.

Moment of this night,
         Succumbing to your touch.
The timing of the kiss,
         Consumed by wild thoughts.

As flames of love begin to fade
I realize you mimic someone that I used to know...
        
              Whom now, I don’t remember.

You came and went like a shooting star, leaving no trail
      except a scar.

Staring at you through a glass of
My self-inflicted barrier of thought
No matter what I say or do the
Message isn’t getting through

“Darling can’t you sense the pain of
  cuts upon your blood-soaked hands as
  you’re trying to assemble the pieces of
                            my shattered heart....”

Lips upon my tear-soaked eyes
As we spend our final night
Knowing that your tenet won’t come true
As I watch you struggle through affliction

“How can you try to mend it in the dark,
         specially when someone else has        
                     stolen some of it’s parts...”

I will always remember
The night
When I reached out to
Kiss You
And
With that kiss
I
   made
              you
                      mine....

A nurse so sweet
A skin of fair delight
With eyes so dark
You seemed a heaven sent;
An angel from the sky above.

The way you spoke
So timid; yet so nice
Your voice a gentle hum.

You led me to a patient’s room
Where in, as if I froze in time,
I dreamed of you.

Your eyes, your lips
Your ever ****** physic
I wanted you so free
On top and kissing me.

So tired of this game we play
This chase of stop and go
Near every time I see you
You tend to be around your friends and
We have to play it cool
I know you want me darling
But around them we can never show
It's in the way you touch and kiss me
When we steal the time to get away
The way you lean against me
And whisper in my ear
That “This is wrong and we mustn't”
Cause it's hurting the one you left at home
I would love to say that I could be
Your one and only lover
But we both know that could never be
The ever changing circumstances of our lives
Could never let it happen
No matter how hard we want it darling
Even though the short time we spent together
I know I mustn't push it
But I just can't help it
As our time is spent in ecstasy of fear
Looking into your eyes
As you lean in to kiss me
It's worth the pain of sadness
As you push away to say goodbye

Burning through my life
Like a never ending match
Not wanting or caring for love.

Ending up in a shadow of a rotten hill
That was built of my own
Ever growing sadness and fear.

You appeared like shooting star
In a dark and moonless sky
To guide me with your blinding light.

The way you talk to me
The way you walk with me
Brightens every aspect of my life.

You are the friend I never had
Cause you take it all in stride
Even when I act a selfish fool.

I can write all day about you
And all the wonderful things you do
But the honest truth....

    Life is empty without a friend like you.

Into a pool of ecstasy we both fall
A moment of honesty as we both lose control
Souls intertwine morphing into one
Hallelujah on my lips and
No regrets as
We both fall victim to exuberant romance...

I can see that look in your eyes
Bitting your lips
Confusing passion for lust.
Surrounded by havoc,
In a storm of
Secrets and lies.

I’ll keep all of your secrets,
You know all of my lies.
Caught in a storm
Havoc of
Secrets and lies.

I love the way you lie
Saying you’d kiss and lick
All of my scars
The ones underneath my skin
Across my heart.
Surrounded by
Havoc of
Secrets and lies.

Consuming your body,
In flickering light.
Succumbing to passion,
Falling in love.
Stuck with no answer
In a ghostly goodbye.
Surrounded by havoc
In a storm of
Secrets and lies.

I can feel your heart bleeding,
Through our one connected soul.
I can feel the hurt I caused it,
Through the nights we spend alone.
I can feel the love you’re hiding,
Through the truth I feel from you.  
I can sense the pain can be subsided,
Through the love I feel for you.

I love the way the night conceals
My lonely silent heart
I love the way you touch me
In the coldest moments of the night
I love the way you kiss me
When I’m longing for her love
And
I know
You love the way I hold you
As the sun blinds your tear filled eyes.

I realize that I miss your friendship on
A level of which I never knew before.
In the way we spent all day just talking
About things that mean something to only me and you.
As you worked all night, so you texted till I passed out.
As I woke, I’d texted you till you passed out too.
You were a true friend who didn’t need me to always reach out first cause you were true.
And I know why we had to say goodbye
Cause we were morphing into tragic story
Of wanting something we couldn’t have.
I know you’ll see this, know that what I feel is love; on a level of true friendship.
Never wanted to end like this, and I don’t want you reach out to say you miss me too, cause I know you do.
Just to say goodbye again.
In a world full of fake, know you were true and I love your spirit and miss your soul.

Every cut,
     every fall,
          has lead me to this moment.

And I think...
        I’m ready to finally meet you.

Oh what a man to do,
When his lost in a thought of you?
Heart is loaning for an answer,
Yet, the mind knows it will never come.
With every breath my chest is caving,
Cause for you my heart is aching.
Oh what a man to do,
When all he wants to do
      is heal the pain he caused you...

Time had passed, you started to realize that
We can’t change the past
Present moment **** the future we could have had
You say you’re happy with another
Acting like I’m the one who pushed you out the door
Like I’m the one who killed our present by stepping on your soul
Justifying that I’m the reason that you are gone
Yet, miss me when you are home alone

Baby we both know that I lacked the
words to make you stay
Cause you are the one who chose to go
If my action did not show you how I felt
My words could never change your mind
I care too much to make you stay in a place that might have caused you pain
So I release your love and promises you made.

Isn’t it lovely
Pieces of my shattered heart
Like petals of a rose
Spread
Across our bedroom floor
Oh
     Hello
You’re never coming home

I couldn’t see the end, yet
We STILL tried like we were true
In unfinished LOVE you let me go
Cause within your heart, YOU felt that I would cheat on you.

A glass of wine.
           A kiss.
                
                And then it’s time to go.

I don’t want to lose myself...
                              
                                 ­      loving you.

You offered me your heart
Long before I even realized it
Light years before I understood
What that even meant

I was blind to it’s beauty
Blind to it’s heat
You carried it so open
Yet I didn’t hear it’s beat

Bare, you laid it on my bed
Where in I laid with you
I felt it beat between us
Yet I didn’t see the truth

I fought against your passion
I was hiding from your love
And
Then
I watched you sleeping

      I knew I was in love with you...

Love is like a ****** - it hurts at first
Like a shooting pain from a needle that
****** the skin in a middle of your arm
Like a fire, floating through your veins as it
Burns it's way to a middle of your heart
Before it clouds your mind
You feel your body float as
Free as one will ever be
Unknowingly your mind slows and races
To unimagined peak of ecstasy.

Know you are worth everything you need.
You are, and always will be loved,
Specially when no one is around.
Love is internal.
         Never ending.
                    You are Love Itself.

Lay beside me darling and grab my hand
Close your eyes and try to visualize
Us rising, flying over the mountains and the clouds
Still rising higher, as we fly towards the galaxy above
Hold me tight as we dance across star filled skies
Still rising higher and higher past the darkness of your past
Towards broken sphere and frozen dust
Bringing fire to its soul
As it spins, burning, melting into solid core
Hold me tightly as my love brings to life this world within your broken heart

Never thought I’d see you
Never thought I would like this
You bared your body by
Sending me your naked pics

You showed your soul to total stranger
And covered me in bliss
It’s a shame I never got to touch you
I never got that kiss

I know I come across as crazy
It’s funny, so do you
With plans that we make often
Will never be the truth

Never thought I’d meet you
Never really did
But seeing you so naked
It really got me shook

I hope you one day know this
To me you meant much more
Your body I’ve always wanted second
Your soul was always first.

Little after 2am, I was texting driving home
Time was slipping into mounds of sand
You were joking, playing games
Texting me that it was early and
You haven’t got your kiss
Texted you that anything was possible if
You came and brought Champagne
Mind fuzzy, lost in thought
Seemed my drive it took forever cause
Your reply, it never came
Parked my car and thought to call you
Just to see if you’re awake
Never got the chance to do it cause
I saw you at my door
Flames of red and curly hair
Freckles on your cheeks, smile on your lips
And in your hand a bottle of Champagne

Holding you tight in our final embrace

Kissing your forehead in silent goodbye

Searching for tears but feeling no pain

Leaving our home in a shattered dismay

Our love is easy...
          Like kisses over scars.