And someone better always comes along every single time..

“He’s not mine,” she said. “And I don’t think he ever will be.”

“And maybe that’s a good thing because things are never how you imagine and having expectations only ever sets you up for disappointment.”

“But I can’t help but wonder what lying in his arms would be like,” she told the sky, “I can’t help but imagine being close enough to feel his breath on mine and his skin on my skin.”

She closed her eyes and felt the wind run it’s fingers through her hair, and imagined he was beside her.

“He’s going to **** me you know,” she whispered to the moon,“he’s going to commit ****** and the worst part is he won’t even know it.”

There is a place in this world where we all belong

Where we can be as free as the wind and as reckless as the waves

We could sleep on the sand and walk the shores

Where the water will love us and we will care for it

Where we can swim forever into the depths of the sea

And explore the places where people have never been

And share secrets with the coves and have a family of miles of seawater

See creatures of other worlds and beautiful kelp forests

That’s where I would be forever and ever

I wish I could be there, live there

Soon I will be at the sea and live with the
Creatures

Soon that will happen

Each Christmas I remember
The ones of long ago;
I see our mantelpiece adorned
With stockings in a row.

Each Christmas finds me dreaming
Of days that used to be,
When we hid presents here and there,
For all the family.

Each Christmas I remember
The fragrance in the air,
Of roasting turkey and mince pies
And cookies everywhere.

Each Christmas finds me longing
For Christmases now past,
And I am back in childhood
As long as memories last.

One of the cruelest things is false hope.

You fill the room with sweet sensation
distracting bits of information
crowd the space where logic dwells
distorting sights and sounds and smells
touching me with tactile pleasure
pushing me beyond a measure
of reasonable doubt that soon I sense
I'm nowhere in the present tense.

Everytime I say I love you...
I'm really trying to say so much more
than those three little words.
I'm trying to say you mean more to me
than anyone else in the world.
I'm trying to let you know that I adore you
and that I cherish the time we spend together.
I'm trying to explain that I want you and that I need you
and that I get lost in wonderful thoughts
every time I think about you.
And each time I whisper "I love you",
I'm trying to remind you that you're
the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I’ve tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

From the moment you entered the over-crowded room,
I knew that you were the one made for me.
Suddenly all the loud voices, laughter and shouts faded into oblivion, when our eyes met that auspicious day.
The only thing that kept me grounded to Earth was those beautiful black orbs,
Telling me, teasing me in their own words,
They had their own story to tell.
Those dark black pools captured me, entranced me, leading me in another place where there was only us.

When we first started to talk, the belief that we’re meant for each other kept on strengthening as we talked.
All your talks, beliefs, thoughts and wishes, even how much they were funny, weird and awkward and serious philosophy related kept on attracting me like bees around a honey jar,
I kept on returning back for more and more even some which hurt me, in which we didn’t share the same views  and also I thought it was total *******.

Your cute, lovable smile lit up my whole being; it’s like a blind man seeing the sun for the first time.

Being with you makes my whole world a lot more pleasing place to be. In you I’ve found a friend, a good listener, a lover, a caring husband and everything I’ve ever wanted. You respect me, love me, show me a  different facet of the world and protect me and encourage me in endeavors  which I thought it was impossible for me to do.

Everything about you, leads me on. It’s you have a strange gravitational field that forces me to move around you like the earth rotates around the earth. You, my love, are the one I was waiting for in my entire existence. I’m irrevocably in love with you my baby.

*Be my valentine forever?

He is the only cure to my insanity.

Heartbreak is not beautiful. It isn’t poetry or a song. It doesn’t say to stay up all night to listen to sad songs. It’s breaking down the middle of a busy street. It’s seeing his face in all the passerby’s. Its feeling okay for weeks and suddenly you hear his voice and then you’re choking on memories of his presence. It’s waking from dreams of him coming back and screaming in the middle of night because your heart aches like a dagger has been put in there. It’s crying so hard after laughing while you're watching a funny scene because all of a sudden you realize he isn’t coming back. Please stop, romanticizing over pain and using people as objects. A heart isn’t a cigarette that you can just light up and then stomp on it when you’re done. Don’t act like heartbreak is beautiful or even wonderful, because I even won’t wish that upon my worst enemies.

If you said you were cold
I would wrap my arms around you.
If you said you were thirsty I would give you the ocean blue.
I would give you anything: the moon, the stars, the sunset too.
This heart in my hands I hold out to you.

There was no world without him, at least not one worth living in.

I hope you smile and say ' I miss her' someday when someone mention my name to you.

I hope one day when someone asks me about you, I'll laugh instead of feeling this double edged dagger in my chest.

You aren’t physically here with me,
but I always see you.
I see you every morning,
because you’re my sunshine.
I see you every afternoon,
because you’re the dream during my nap.
I see you every evening,
because you’re my sunset.
And I see you every night,
because you’re my blanket of stars.

To my DAD,
I’m sorry for being born
I’m sorry for being a girl but you know all my life I’ve tried to be a boy to you, as you always wanted but God didn’t gave you one
I’m sorry for being such a failure in life
I’m sorry for being a burden to you and mom, especially to you when mom passed away 3 years back
I’m sorry for being angry whenever I see you drinking alcohol and in the end you’re unable to stand straight. You see I’m more concerned about your health because I know the disastrous effect alcohol have on you and also it is the reason that my concept of a perfect family is ebbing slowly.
I’m sorry for telling you NOT TO DRINK ALCOHOL TOO MUCH
I’m sorry for yelling at you when you start to drink as I know you’ll crave for more after one bottle
I’m sorry for being angry when you invite your friends and your family over to drink a lot of alcohol because I know they are just momentary friendship and familial bonds, when you’ll fall ill nobody of the group will come to your help
I’m sorry for being so brutally honest when I tell you what effect of this new behavior of yours is affecting our relationship and also those of my sisters
Moreover I’m sorry for all that happen yesterday night : for telling you to go to bed and scold you like a child because you can’t wake up enough to walk to the bedroom
I’m sorry for helping you to stand and take you to your bed
I’m sorry for removing the glass from your hands and suggesting to carry it for him to his bedroom because of his inebriated state
I’m sorry because of me you’ve gotten angry and broke the glass into millions of tiny crystals on the floor
I’m sorry for caring too much
I’m sorry for thinking life is like a bed of roses and as long as I have my parents love I can overcome anything
I’m sorry for hoping you loved me and still do despite all this
I’m sorry for being a hurdle in your path to live your life fully. Though I would never understand how a child can be a hurdle as I was lead to think that a child is the greatest gift that GOD can give
I’m sorry for being unwanted
I’m sorry for not having the courage to end my pathetic life and remove myself from your path
I’m sorry for constantly trying to gain your attention, you see I yearn normalcy in my life where everything is fine, I have a loving father, perfect life and all

EVERYTHING WAS MY FAULT, I’M REALLY SORRY DAD ……..

The rain taps on my window.

It asks me if it can sing in my ear.

Until I fell asleep.

­ I wish the rain, ­ was you

Everything gonna be okay in the end
If it is not okay then it is not the end.

“I want to be the friend you fall hopelessly in love with. The one you take into your arms and into your bed and into the private world you keep trapped in your head. I want to be that kind of friend. The one who will memorize the things you say as well as the shape of your lips when you say them. I want to know every curve, every freckle, every shiver of your body.
I want to know where to touch you, I want to know how to touch you. I want to know convince you to design a smile just for me. Yes, I do want to be your friend. I want to be your best friend in the entire world.”

I wish you knew,

how much you mean to me
how i want to start everyday with you at my side
how i want to end every night in you arms
how i can lose myself in your smile
how my heart skips a beat at the sight of you
how my heart races when you get close to me
the feeling in the pit of my stomach when i know we will be apart
how my heart pounds waiting for you to respond to my text messages
how i hang on every word you say to me
how excited i am when i get a text message
how disappointed i am when the text is not from you
how my passion for you overwhelms me
how i yearn to gaze into your eyes
how i crave running my hands through your hair
how my need to see you daily consumes me
how my every thought consists of you
how you exist in all i do
how captivated i am by you
how i know how much i need you
how i have found my one and only
how i want to spoon with you
how i want to sneak up behind you and cover your eyes
how i want to kiss the base of your neck
how i want to whisper "i love you" in your ear
how i need to feel your touch
how the scent of your skin is my nourishment
how i dream of you every night
how i daydream of you constantly
how i can never get enough of you
how i can't last a day without you
how i can just look at you for hours and never want to stop
how i can't wait to have you all to myself
how i have never loved anyone the way i love you
how i want to devote myself to your happiness
how i can't wait to give you all of me
how i can't wait to have all of you
how you are the only thing that matters to me
how i am like a ****** who needs you like a drug
how you have taken over my life
how i know you are mine and i am yours
how i pray for the day the you will be in my arms
how i will never let you go
how much i really truly love you alone

But, alas you will never understand the extent of my love for you neither what i think of you nor how much you mean to me.

I think i am a better ghost than a human being....

Stand up,
wipe your tears.
Stay strong and make them wonder how you are still smiling.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres

L, is for the Laughter I give to you every day
knowing you'll never go away

O, is for the Options we'll have when we're together
knowing our love couldn't get any better

V, is for the Visions I have of you
knowing I'll never find anyone quite like you

E, is for Everything that's true I've every said
especially when I said, "We'll be together till we're dead"

Memory is cruel
Queen of attention to details
Defending intentions, yet he failed
Until now, he told me her name
It sounded familiar in a way
I could have sworn I’d heard him
Say it ten-thousand times
Oh, if only I had been listening

A mother is a special gift of love that's deep and true.
You know she's always standing by to guide and comfort you.
A mother, with unfailing strength can keep you safe from harm
And yet you feel the softness of her gentle grace and charm
A mother gives encouragement
with wisdom and a smile
She understands your hopes and dreams
And makes them seem worthwhile
A mother always is in your heart wherever you may go
She's part of everything you do
That's why you love her so .

Your mother bore you for nine months,
she watched her feet swell,
she struggled to climb stairs,
she got breathless quick; she bore excruciating pain,
she suffered many sleepless nights; she became your nurse,
your chef,
your teacher,
your cleaner,
your laundrette,
your friend,
She struggled for you,
but not once did she see it as a struggle.
Not once did she develop regrets.
After all this,
how dare you say, 'uff' to her?

Your shoes unravel
From our travels,
From all our endless walking.
We spent days running away
From the shore until
You were safe with me.
We slept under stars that spelled our names
For all the world to see.
We avoided the coastline,
And your mariner kinsmen,
That would take you away from me.
I remember perfectly that night
You fell out of the sea.

When I got enough confidence
the stage was gone,
When I was sure of losing
I won,
When I needed people the most
They left me,
When I learn to dry my tears
I found a shoulder to cry on,
When I mastered the skill of hating,
someone started loving me from the core of one's heart.

THAT'S LIFE

U want to give me the world
But I don't want the world
What I want. ??
Is "you" to be
My world.

I promise to be there when you need me, I promise to hug you tight when you're lonely, I promise to wipe your tears when they fall and I promise to keep you, not for the rest of my life but for the rest of yours.

I thought i was moving on from you,

Until one day, someone asked me:
“If you had one wish, what would it be and for whom?”

And the first thing  I thought of was to waste that wish on you

No one worries about you like your mother, and when she is gone, the world seems unsafe, things that happen unwieldy. You cannot turn to her anymore, and it changes your life forever. There is no one on earth who knew you from the day you were born; who knew why you cried, or when you’d had enough food; who knew exactly what to say when you were hurting; and who encouraged you to grow a good heart. When that layer goes, whatever is left of your childhood goes with her.

And I understand. I understand why people hold hands: I’d always thought it was about possessiveness, saying ‘This is mine’. But it’s about maintaining contact. It is about speaking without words. It is about I want you with me and don’t go.

The older I get the more picky I become about people, that I allow to come close to me, and I get more greedy with my own time.

Once in a while, my wandering soul bumps into these beautiful, wonderful people, and all I can do is step back and collect myself.

All I can do is pause and try to fathom that what I’m seeing is real- that another soul could shine brightly enough to guide me home from these swallowing, violent seas.

And it’s in that moment that a light is planted in me, too. It may be dim, but there it rests- a gentle flame, my little beacon of hope, a precious gift from that brilliant, shining soul.

The most ironic thing about pain is that you expect it to lessen during time and think that this pain you're suffering is great and won't have worse than that but in reality the pain only grows and in the future there are more worse than that.

I can't imagine someone else making you laugh, taking you to places you love, texting you day and night, giving you flowers and chocolates you like. I can't imagine someone else filling my position, my love. Someone who is better than me. I can't imagine losing you. I can't stand it. I can't let you go now. Please, stay? I love you.

All are doomed to love.
All are doomed to die.
Tonight bring the black tomb.
For even the most high.
Even those in this room.
Cannot pretend to fly
And I know.
Even you.
Even I.
Must die.

You're my proton to my nucleus,
I'm your electron in your hydrogen molecule.
Orbiting around you in the hope to catch your eyes.

Be the rainbow in someone's life when dark clouds try to ****** all their happiness.

Everyone is good at something and I'm good at getting disappointed by people.

At the end of the day, all we have is who we are and what we have become. So, be your own hero because darling, in this cruel world, nobody can really understand you or stay with you. We only have  ourselves till the end of our existence, others are mere spectators of our life who renders our existence a bit more easy or difficult as the situation requires.

I remember the first time you talked to me,
I wasn't sure what to do.
No one ever talked to me.
This was something different,
But something good.

I remember the first note you gave me
That made my hands shake as I took it from you.
It made me realize someone cared,
That I wasn't completely alone,
And that if I left this world someone would know.

I remember our first dance together.
My mind was focused on the wrong guy.
I should have known it was you.
All along it was you,
And I'm glad you were the one to catch me.

I remember the first time you were sick.
I watched you carefully as you laid in my lap,
All along afraid you would go,
So small and warm it was then I knew I wanted to keep you.

I remember the first time I felt jealousy,
The feeling was foreign, something new,
A blinding anger that made no sense.
I wanted it gone and the other girl too.
All along I knew I was better for you.
I tried turning my anger by ridding myself of you.
The attempts were less than half hearted,
Even then you were the best thing I had.

The first humiliation and first time you held my hand
I was nervous, ashamed and wondering how much I really meant to you,
But then that simple gesture stopped my shaking, made me smile through fear.
You could make anything better.

I remember the first time I started to love you.
It was another new feeling, but it came so naturally.
You helped me through everything; you were always there.
I knew it was right, I knew you were mine.

I remember the first time I kissed you,
Sitting quietly at night on the porch.
The world seemed to stand still just for us.
I was nervous again, but in a much better way.
I had butterflies for days.

Remember the first time I started to trust you.
It was the strangest feeling you had yet to give.
I told you my secrets, my past and my fears.
You never left me like I thought you would.
You will stand by me through it all.

Do you remember the first time I listened to your heart?
I let my head lay on your chest, my hand lay gently on your face.
Time stood still above the world and we watched it all, just me and you.
Listening to yours set my own at ease.

I remember the first time I felt safe.
Curled up right in your lap
You promised to never hit me, to never try and hurt me.
You don't know what that meant to me,
It made me love you even more.
It is such a beautiful and amazing thing to know,
That you'll never hurt me.

Do you remember the first time I believed you?
You held me in your arms as we danced across the floor
You painted me a picture of forever,
I listened in astonishment because somehow, suddenly I knew it was true.

Remember all the firsts and the lasts.
I know we will have more if you spend forever with me.
I'll do anything to keep you, I'll never let you go.
You are the only one and you'll always be.
I will love you forever.