Too young to make an important decision,
yet

Too old to *rely on your parents

The Earth does not rotate on it's straight axis, it has an angle where there will be areas that experience the dark and light, warm and cold, much longer than other areas

My life is the earth rotating on it's straight axis, and it's started to have an angle when I met you
There will be a part where I will try to follow the flow as it should be, a normal daily routine where the day and night are equal, but on another side of me, there will be unbalanced dark and light, mixed emotion, in a certain area

And it's all because of an angle

Nomatterhowbeautifultheletteris — you'll never be able to read or find the meaning of it without a space

You can move while there's a space
You can love each other if there's a space — love can fill in the blank space between two person and bring them closer, but it doesn't want to strangle them

So why wouldn't we take a break?

You found a Diamond, buried in mud
You took it, clean it, embrace it
It shine

You praise it, and it shine more brighter
yet you dazzled

You've grown tired of it sparkle
You left it
Though you left it, it keep shining
yet, it radiation grew cold
Colder by the second
Colder by the day you left it

And a real Diamond won't easily broke
because as it grew colder, it's also becomes harder
more harder than ever since the day you left it

And so does Her heart

Love is Square
it is equal in each corner

Jealously is Triangle
sharp in every edge

Longing is Round
endless

Have you decided it?
The name of your mascot?
The hair colour? The eyes?
The hair style? The skin tone?
The character race? Nationallity?
Have you?

"Just do it as you wish" — that's how you respond to my question
But no, I won't do that
Because for me — Original Character or Mascot is something that resembles you the most
Why do I bother myself to make one for you?
Because no, I'm not too good in writing, also in english — far below your ability, I often do some grammatical errors
But I'm quite good in expressing my feelings, memories, emotions on drawings — a picture that represent a thousand words

And for me who have been living a lie — hiding behind this fake smile, my world is an empty place
But you've seen the other side of me, and instead of leaving you nurture it
You give me strength with these memories, my feelings with you
That was the the realest side of me, where I finally can be honest to myself

So please, answer my question
And let me draw your mascot
Let me believe that it's true, our memories, our feelings, our emotion
Then carve these beautiful memories of us eternally, where I can find it really lively when I started to get drowned again in my living lie

Because without you that memory is nothing more than just an imagination

You said that I'm a loser
Who talks a lot about loving you without even try to approach you
Who keep silent when your past still haunting you
Who could not make you to be focused to look at me

Well, how should I put it?
It's no use to examine a specimen
When the coarse and fine focus were not rotated exactly the way it should be to look at the object

You will never see the object – nor  my venture

Nos docti, pensantes — Sed non semper veridici
Nos docti, Sed plus Scimus — Non spernentes

Quod dicunt alii

you came to me at 9 pm
with a heartbreak that driving you numb
turn a elegant independent woman that I know
into a classy ***** that drunk by her love for him

I left a bruise on your cheek
to bring you back to the reality

remember how did he dump you
he doesn't deserve your tears

held your head high Princess, it's almost New Year
don't let your sadness slip down your crown
have a break, take your time
let's have our afternoon tea and have some chit chat
think about how to make you worth to keep

don't look for love
love will find you eventually

and when the right person came, you both deserve for the best

You left me
I had to pinch myself to believe it
I don't know if I'm crying because it hurts or because I miss you
It was so hard holding back my tears

I never imagined myself without you
My everyday life became a challenge
I wasn't prepared at all
It took everything in me to not give up
Even if I'm with somebody
Even if I smile from time to time
I keep thinking of you

I can't hold back
Every night, I can't close my eyes not being able to see you
I'm going to just die
I'm going to die without you
I put these words in my lips

After a few days go by
I'm more scared that time will make me forget
It would be better for time to stop, and for me to be in pain forever

And I keep remaining in that spot
I call out knowing you can't come back

I'm staying here with our memories now
A sad memory of you and me
I'm sorry, I didn't love you more

If I can turn back the time
If I can go back to the time when you and I were one
I just want to go back then

Tears falling when I'm smiling
I'm really okay but I keep getting sad
You stir up my emotion again
My memories with you keep coming back
I promised myself I wouldn't cry
If I thought I had gotten over you
I guess I was wrong
I guess it's gotta be you
Please come back, I'll be here
Please

Stay with me