oh you flew by
before i could say hi
you existed
only for a fleeting moment
what if i had stopped time
and made you mine

she grew up in a cab in new york city
always wishing for a home
we made plans to meet in kansas
as i landed, she’d already gone

she’s been somewhere ‘round the bend
somewhere only god knows when
i made this bed i’m laying in
she falls in and out of love
i was born to chase the sun
i guess i'll burn myself again

the fire roars
the flames rise
you set my heart alight
and watched me burn

driving too fast through the countryside with the windows down
that's how it is talking to you
absolute freedom
completely filled with a sense of belonging
you are home

you always believed in the thought of tomorrow
trusting the hope of somebody
who never cared
love became twisted and dark
a blur of thoughts with no resolution
after all this time you are still so afraid
of being without him

smile
through your pain
be glad the sun is still shining
the birds are still whistling
you are still going
you will prosper

i used to see in color
life used to be bright
now
everything is black and white
the colors have seeped out
everything is bland
it all looks the same to me

a storm is brewing
i hear the thunder rumbling
it's been drizzling all day
wet and damp
cold outside
the fire's on in the living room
it's warm and cosy
oh how i love rainy nights

people that have their lives planned out scare me

please remember
what you are going through right now
will not last forever
one day this moment in your life will be a memory
an experience that made you stronger and wiser
right now your demons are dragging you down
but just you wait
it won't be long until you can smile at them
because you have achieved the impossible
and you have conquered your fears
and you have inspired others
and you have grown as an individual
and beautiful things have come your way
for now you will get through each day
until you will wake up to a new chapter
a new beginning
hold tight beautiful human

why can't you just come back
say you miss me
and really mean it
why can't you love me again
make me smile
and stay forever

okay okay okay
i am not who you wanted me to be
let's face it
i never will be
but i made a promise
to start being true to myself
and if you can't respect that
i don't need you around

grab your guitar
play me a song
pour out your heart's delicate feelings
melt me with your warm lyric
spark the fire within my wearied soul
enchant me
with your love song

i haven't written in so long
i have had so much going on, things have been tough
lots of time spent alone and in silence
i didn't feel like spilling out my emotions i guess
but i'm back now & look forward to sharing my words with this community again
<3

sipping my coffee
listening to my favorite songs
wishing my afternoon away
drifting off to a place far from here
full of freedom and loving
i don't want to leave

imagine our engagement
our wedding
so perfect
our home
decorated with our old records
starting a family
watching our children grow
growing old with you
til death do us part

i don't take any of it back
it's all part of the being i am
why should i apologise
this is me

the rain is pouring tonight
it's clearing my mind
calming me
soothing me
it's cold so i wear a blanket
so cosy
so content

what about them
the ones over there
the unwelcome
the unheard
maybe we should
start welcoming
start hearing
a little love can go a long way

there's something about a good country song
that makes you want to get up and dance
let loose
forget your worries
it makes me want to move to nashville
write music
play guitar
fall in love
i can't get enough of it

shut up
i don't want to hear it
i don't care what you have to say
you don't know me
you don't want to know me
i'm better off without you

we had a spark
i swear it
how
how come these days
we are as strangers
never once sharing secrets
doing things that lovers do
truth is
we will continue to drift
apart
you may forget me
completely
but i will always think of you
always

i want a long night
spent with the moon
maybe he'll listen
to my twisted thoughts
give me kind words
to carry with me
'til the morning breaks
and for the days to come

falling into a heap
i close my eyes
damp walls surround me
world
let me be

cold nights
hot tea
sad thoughts
happy dreams
quiet chatter
loud laughter
small steps
huge leaps

don't you forget me
no matter how far life takes you
whatever you become
whoever you love
don't you forget me

one of these days you'll realize
what you mean to me
every now and then
i see a part of you
i've never seen

search yourself
dig deep into your heart
know yourself
love your soul entirely

just let yourself go
fall right into freedom
do the things that make you feel
invincible
beautiful
unapologetically you

hey
if you want to be in my life
because you connect with me
my thoughts
emotions
interests
values
just let me know
i don't want fake friends
i want connections that set my soul on fire
thank you

but you're stronger than that
you just can't see
the beauty you hold
the love you carry
please listen to me
you are worth it
you are beautiful
you will get through this

she's so pretty
she's so gorgeous
look at how skinny she is
oh my god can i be her
no fair how does she look that good
i don't look like that
why can't i look like that
i will skip my lunch to look like her
i will spew my food to look like her
i will exercise all ******* day just to look like her
****
i will **** myself because i don't look like her

i guess i will just sit here
in silence
it's safer than opening up
to someone as cold as you

don't you get sick of it all
all the disapproving gazes
all the awkward conversations
all the sad news on t.v
all the tears shed over ex lovers
all the pain in your stupid mind
i am so sick of it all

the last ten texts were with your ex
and all of them were sent by you
but you keep staring at your phone like something's coming through

there's nothing more beautiful than your smile
the way you say my name
the way you hold me and whisper in my ear "i love you"
my handsome man
i see you only in my dreams

see that boy over there
he could be yours
what is are you waiting for?
go get him

waiting
waiting for that new beginning
when everything comes together
and i feel alive again
and my worries have drifted away
i feel free and i'm truly my best self

there's calm in the storm
safety in its thunder
assurance in its lightening
it does not put asunder

his strength is his virtue
he carries the world on his shoulders
still his eyes are filled with light
he is at ease
in control of his weighted life
he does not collapse
ever
he prospers

i hope you smile
when you think of me
you remember my laugh
our jokes and secrets and travels
you will always be a part of me
please don't forget me

i am the lonely one
not entirely alone
just lonely

wandering through the misty fog
in a forest so vast
deep into it's heart
seeing it's beauty
stepping over fallen branches
gazing at the strong trunks
so much green
the fresh air clears my lungs
i don't want to leave

if only you knew
you're all i think about
from the moment i wake
to the second i fall asleep
and as i dream of you all through the night
i hope someday i can let you know
just what you mean to me
i'm just afraid
you won't feel the same
and i'll be left
heart broken
again

forget tomorrow
start now
this very moment
you can get better
and you will

it's the little things
waking up extra early to watch the sunrise
staying up late to talk to the stars
road tripping and discovering new towns
talking for hours and hours with those you love most
appreciate these moments

lay with me
forget the world for a minute
look at me
into my eyes
find comfort there

i am sick of not being entirely myself
i think it is time i let go of people's expectations
and do my own thing

home is where the heart is
and how true that is
home is not a house
not an apartment
not a hut
not a caravan
home is where the heart is
houses fall down
get destroyed
your home is inside of you
it goes wherever you go
a place of solitude
comfort
peace
your home is how and where and when you feel love
real love