home is where the heart is
and how true that is
home is not a house
not an apartment
not a hut
not a caravan
home is where the heart is
houses fall down
get destroyed
your home is inside of you
it goes wherever you go
a place of solitude
comfort
peace
your home is how and where and when you feel love
real love

feel the fresh morning dew
breathe in the crisp air
smell the blooming flowers
feel the peeling tree trunks
spring is here

wake up
get out of bed
get up
you will be late
hurry up
what is going on
get up

crying
tears of helplessness
i am glued to my bed
not because i want to be
i do not plan on having a bad day

i wish to be stronger
free from the anxiety
the stress
the worry

i hate living like this

i wish things were better
if only i could change it all

take me away from here
out of this sad sad place
let's see new sights
let's run free
you and me

soft words
falling from your mouth like rose petals
surrounding me with a sweet fragrance
you make me believe in love

you'd never know
we were once lovers
it doesn't show
we are merely strangers

another lonely friday night
a night of lost thoughts
craving someone's company
somebody to talk to
i don't want every night to be like this

she is fire
undoubtedly strong
fierce
wild
her stare burns
her heart roars
her flames rise high

i hate feeling this down
every single day
i feel trapped within myself
stuck
i want to break the cage
run free
it's just hard for me

do not
for one moment
think
that i
no longer
love you
i will always
love you

let's go to the markets
thrifting
star gazing
road tripping
wandering through forests
staying in motels
music festivals
travel to new towns
i long for those things
with you

there's freedom in your eyes
sweet escape in your smile
warmth in your touch
comfort in your voice

are we all too far away from each other
to notice those in need of extra love
there are many quietly hurting
silently dying
take more thought
give more love

let's travel
visit little french cafes
find old bookshops
wander through countryside
explore beautiful towns
you and me

create art
write poetry
love unconditionally
be you

i wanna end up nowhere on a map
a little cabin sittin’ so far back
out in the country
just the moon and stars
are gonna know where we are

who am i to say
love isn't real
maybe i have never known of love
real love
am i a stranger to the beautiful sweet thing
that everyone speaks of
is it too far out of reach
they say i'm too young to understand
they say it won't come until i grow
what if i find the one
the one that changes my mind
changes everything
makes me believe
believe completely in this beautiful thing
called love

hi
remember me
the pretty red head girl
full of love
and fun
and laughter
and hope
i'm back now
and i hope to stay

i smile through my pain
laugh through my hurt
i don't feel real happiness anymore
and i hate feeling
like i'm putting on a show
a performance for the world to see
i was the authentic one
the genuinely joyous one
now i'm the fake
the phony
but i'm trying

let's get out of here
run away
escape to the country
forget our worries for a while
put our problems on hold
and just let go
fall into freedom
and love
and stargaze at night
and explore old towns
you and me

something about a hot shower
steaming droplets running down your skin
so firey
soothing
like a big warm hug
after a long day

don't push aside your desires
don't ignore the feelings screaming inside you
there is a reason for everything that happens in your life
nothing is just chance
or not meant to be
follow your heart
always

trying to mend myself
i have been told i must love myself
before i can love anybody else
i believe it, it's true
it is also very painful
being so alone
i try and take it day by day
sometimes even that's too much
at times i have some hope
at others i have none at all
but i do try

i want to leave this world
start over again
somewhere else
with you

he may come looking for you
he may move on
find another
leave you in his past
but don't you worry
you are on your own journey
with or without him

i'm losing grip
you're slipping
through my fingertips
but you're all i have
irreplaceable

trying to learn self love
i want to be so easy going again
carefree
happy with just being me
i don't always feel good enough
in fact most days i feel horrible
it's hard because
all i want
is to fall in love
but before i can love anyone else
i have to fall in love
with myself

you are one of a kind
a beautiful authentic creation
full of fire and passion
strength and zeal
own it

there's something in the air
something that wasn't there before
something damp
cold
unwelcoming
it follows me
wherever i go
i wish it would just leave

who cares
who cares if they criticize
sure
it hurts
cuts deep into you
makes you bleed out
who cares
stitch up your wounds
keep going

i don't care
how or when or why
we fall in love
i just can't wait
until we do

i am so sick and tired
of feeling so sick and tired
my anxiety controls me
most days aren't good days
i just want to do what i love again

are you ever just tired
of doing the same old thing
you crave more diversity and excitement in your life
you want new experiences
with new people
because your stuck
in your same old ways
and it's time for change

i have lost her
the girl i once was
that knew herself
every single inch of herself
and i miss her

i am beginning to learn
the power
in saying nothing

hey
it's me
let's kiss
like real people do

each time i let go
you pull me closer
inescapable love

throw your broken hearts away
you don't need them
go find new ones
fill them with real love
from within
begin again

i may be ugly
but my music taste is
better than yours

i can't make you love me
if you don't