I was the amber sun that lit your world so deeply
I wonder if the life we live can ever be the same
I hear your cry in the distance
I see your hurt as you falter to the foundation that crumbles so fragilely beneath you
I want to cement the pieces of your heart together again
I was the amber sun that lit your world so deeply

I pretend this ******* up world was pure and peaceful
I feel hurt by words of stone you threw, but I still know you were hurt too
I touch the faint glass of your picture
I worry I will never get through this…
I cry until I fall asleep at night
I was the amber sun that lit your world so deeply

I understand you say this can and will never be
I say maybe some day
I dream that love is still real
I try to let you go but my heart is still attached
I hope you can still see me in that beautiful light because…
I was the amber sun that lit you world so deeply

I break down in the intensity of your eyes.
Your smile allows my heart to fly.
Take me away.
Mean what you say.
I'm not in this for the game...

If you want me here,
Please tell me dear
Or I will be gone soon...

If you gave your word away,
I can not stay

My pain won't subside
So please allow these tears to dry...

Hiding away from the world behind a mask
Masking her untouched porcelain face
Face of pain face of hurt
Hurt by the scars and secrets of the past
Past stabbings of her fragile heart
Heart aches at her sacred fate
Fate that kisses her sweet skin and brushes her glossed eyes
Eyes dulled with lost love so beautiful yet disguised
Disguised with her compromise
Compromising her feelings under a blanket of fear
Fear of love fear of hate
Hating you
You in your disgrace

Dear Heart.
Please take your time to love fall in love again, don’t bail.
Your time will come.
There are those who would **** to see you fail.

Dear Heart.
You are so frail,
Let it go to Jesus.
And he’ll provide you your wings to sail.

Dear Heart.
You are too swift to fall for lies.
Relax assured in the rested truth.
I know you are incredibly wise.

Dear Heart.
I can only do so much for you.
Be strong.
I’m sorry for what I put you through.

Dear Heart.
I can’t promise you won’t hurt anymore,
But one thing I can guarantee
I’ll give you what you need to soar.

Don’t give up on me yet.

What I feel like when thoughts I have of you wander through mind.
Day by day the sensation that lurks through the ever so deep and long cold halls.
The deep consciousness that strikes the failing heart going to rest

The aroma of trickling juice running down a peachy child’s chin.
The thick humid air you smell on a raw day when the rain just stopped

The fuzzy velvet impressions between your fingers as you hold your lover close.
Flavor of soft lips flushed and longing, waiting for that special someone to touch.

The creeping behind you making you look around,
The sound of the piano being hardly played,
The wishing you could get away,
The surprise waiting around the corner…

Deep and purple…

You've stolen my heart.
It's no longer mine.

Where have you been all of this time..?

As our lives begin to change, I hope our hearts remain the same.

Until our lips can touch,
Please remember that I love you this much.

Distance isn't forever.
But will my soul forget?
For you love,
The answer is, never...

My dream is quietly sleeping on the white beach dreaming of you
I’ve seen you there a thousand times
I’ve hoped you’d approach by me, sweeping me away into the distance
I’ve tried to run to you but you get farther and farther away
I’ve wished things were different as the sun makes my surrounding unclear
I’d like to be that girl you adore in your arms
Because you seem to love more than the others
I’ve waited in this dream forever, but the love is washed with the waves
I’ve lived this more than words can say, but my feelings never change
I’d be happy if I could only touch your face, but you are always so far away
I’d help you in your bashful ways to open to the world a whole other way
My dream is quietly sleeping on the white beach dreaming of you

As I lay in my bed
I feel you curled in the arch of my knees
Sighing softly
Waiting for me to awake
Once I make the slightest move you’re up and ready
Ready to start the day

I still hear the click clicking of paws on the kitchen tiles
Running to make sure you didn’t miss anything
I still feel the dewy kisses you used to leave on my face

I imagine and remember your fur intertwining my fingers,
The weight of you in my arms

It’s hard to get the others to sing without your whining to start the chain

I can’t look at the stone with your name on it without picturing you becoming the earth
I miss you to the coming of my voice
“Cookies” and “let’s go bye bye”
It’s not the same without you here
“Go get him, Elie” I hope you are watching down on me

She's restless...

She beats only for the sake of her lungs..

Yet again, it comes to this...
Defeat.
A battle she knew she'd lose.
Another memory to bury

Each thought escaping
Lingers just enough to get her to sink.

When will his drug leave her veins.
How long this time til she's clean of this..

Yet again..

Relax upon this chilled rock.
Gaze between sun-touched forget-me-knots
Simple complexity routinely ignored.
Just as the sounds of surrounding spring breeze is looked over.
The yellow buttery center melts into sky colored petals, spiked with sassy white.
Small and insignificant standing alone, nonetheless confidence takes a hold in its’ bunches.
Beauty strikes the eye of imagination
In simplicity the smiles of appreciation break free.
These little things that break our reddening madness are the little things that move us to skip a beat.

I couldn't stop tomorrow
believe me I gave it a try
turns out all those moments, are what made time go by.

As I took it all in
the voice inside
fell silenced, content, but extremely alive.

I didn't get enough time within those deep blue eyes
engaging me to want the pleasure of calling them mine.

I'd walk all those miles if it meant I were to see you tonight.
It may aid this determined desire just to stand by your side.

In your arms, my heart must have stayed
because in your arms is where I wish to lay.

I still feel the permanence of your kiss on my lips
I beg that I feel that kiss until the next one I get.

If all I feel is real, can I ask you this one time...?
To keep me within your heart, within your mind
Until our goodbyes turn into only goodnights...

Don't get me to fall
When you're not there to catch me
The fall is cruel

I am one with them
My soul within these mountains
Don't take me away

I wish I could be
Someone new, to forget you
Too good to be true?

I do not understand
Why hearts can be broken
Why it hurts so much when it is
Why I can’t take the feeling

But most of all
I do not understand,
Why I get blamed for all the problems
Why I can’t love anyone else
I try so hard to keep it together
But I fail so terribly I almost don’t make it
Because I can’t ever take you back

What I understand the most is time
If you don’t get enough
Things will never be solved
You can never have your love back
I wish you were mine
All I wanted was time
I do not understand

All I ever said was no, no, no, you would say you got to choose!
But what I just couldn’t really reveal
Was that I want you...

Now it’s just too late
And I wonder if you hide your heart

All my tears are falling
Wishing I had it my way
You were my reason to live once upon a time
And I feel I was made for loving you and you alone
I’m a million to one when the people you know around me stay silent

I’ll fight hell to hold you
And forever love it loud
Maybe just maybe some day you’ll ask me
Do you love me?
Then I’ll know I stole your love again

But when your walls come down for me
If they ever do…
Just make sure that’s where you heart is
Cause if and when you do, I may not want you…

So tired of the back and fourth
To many thoughts I need to sort.
I stray here wandering lost.
My heart won't let go no matter what the cost.
I love your presence.
Hate your lies.
This is the last time.
Last chance.
Prove my doubts are truly taking a wrong glance.
I won't let you play me for a fool.
I no longer can stand being so confused.
Be real.
Be you.
But at the end of the day don't let me say we are through.

When we're apart once the sun goes to sleep
Take a look up at the moon with me

Whisper under your breath "I love you"
As I long of saying "I love you too"

Look up at the moon with me
Alone we won't be
See what I see
To be with me.

Taking my heart when we glance up to the moon at the same moment in time
Ungluing parts of my life I can no longer call mine

Look up at the moon with me so we can fall asleep...

they
say when
it rains, it pours
yet these streets look
pretty dry to me. is this a
mask? or is this really me i see?

My mind is a maze
Confused and dazed
I turn one way and end up in another direction
Walls so tall enclosing all
Never to show the world
Dark and dreary
Vines capturing my words
Running inside twirling around
Unorganized and lost
My mind is a maze
Confused and dazed

I can't help but be me...
The hearts I take & break. The pain will never go away.

Losing them in the choices I make.

Me, is not a word unknown
Me, is what I am,
Me is what I will always be…
I love
I cry,
I hurt,
I try….
So many things I wish I could say
So many things that cant be given all away…
I’m me, I can, I’ll try, but might not achieve
Accept me for me, and them for them
I just search and fail to find
What’s really deep inside…
My true identity


Me…. Miraculous, Extravagant
              ~Bri~

Mirror, mirror on this wall, I’ll remember you as you fall.

In slow motion you crumble, you stood so strong.
Keeping all records of their wrongs, but why?
Your burden was what you reflected, what you surround.
You fell in the open, but no one heard a sound.

Discouraged and misplaced, you shattered
All of your pieces scattered.

Broke apart to create a work of art

Her heart only has so much room
So many moved in and moved on through

Leaving stains that bruised.

She does her best to clean the rooms
But feels ashamed she had to move on too.

She's afraid to re-open the wounds
What if they can't handle what she's been through?

What can her poor heart do?

I walk down the snow covered way
Only hearing the snow screech under each stride
I close my eyes and think of what it used to be like….

The flames of the sizzling fire crackling to each kindle thrown on,
I was happy then
Cocoa & cookies always warmed me up
Life was so easy no worry no cares
I can feel the sun blind me while I sled down the hill
Life’s little pleasures were always so sweet….

I open my eyes to reality again
My world now that is masked with a dull light
I sit down and cry for a while,
I take a deep breath
Walking back home my breath puffed before me
Tears steaming off my face as I wipe them away with my mitten
I get inside & retire for the evening
I look out the window my face wet from weeping
Sigh one last time and close the curtain to call it a night

Bye sweet world you are still quite a sight

This reoccurring nightmare overrules me deep in sleep
Won’t wake me from my slumber,
Imprisons me in this keep


I try to run, I try to scream.
This is my certainty
Stuck in this bad dream


There, all about me are these stone cold walls
Over-protecting, so suspicious, untrusting …
They guard my soul.
Asking why are they so **** tall.


Restricting my heart I’m bound.
Powerless, I trail this authority
What hope is there now?


I pray in this frigid nightmare for the strength that I won’t break
Eager to be released from this lonely place
I’ll lie right here. My sanity they can’t take.

Perplexed in the days that fly,
In time, washing the cuts of the past clean.
Staring into the cracks of unopened doors waiting for my senses to explore.
Turning the lights to a dim and forgetting what you’ve ever learned.
Dissolved into your mind, your own world takes fight.
Sense of yourself, gone, past those cracked weathered doors.
Bathed in diamonds reality only dirt compared to what is real, it never really matters masked in your own world.
You sneak past what you’ve known to enter what the heart truly desires.
What your life is and where you are going, disappear and are forgotten when you explore the unknown world of your lost flowing mind.
Dotted with reality your enclosed barred thoughts prevent anyone to ****** your lost soul back safe on the other side of those sacred doors.
Flirting with desires you are stuck with imagination til your senses return to what is real.
The hardness of departure from what you want could be rewarding with those whom love you.

Green eyed beauty
Love to dance,
Have 5 dogs but I want one more.
Music is my life
Nothing held back!
You wanna go?
Then bring it,
I’ll bring it right back.
Love to live
High school rocks!!
Rock hard with friends,
Wish we could stay out all night.
Poetry flows through me,
My thoughts on paper
My mind could get scary
So don’t try to pry
I don’t mind to cry
Why should I be scared to die?
Boyfriend? Who needs one?
Just stick to being friends
Picture perfect
Model to be,
Head in the clouds
Wants to sleep!
Bright future will be me!
Don’t have a car
But yes the license I do!
I’m fragile
Please don’t break me!
***!! I’M ALMOST A SENIOR!!
Why not leave for the heck of it?
Sounds good to me!
I hate
Raisins
Olives
AND JELLO!! Eww!!
Love to shop! SHOP SHOP SHOP!
Clothes and shoes!!
But don’t forget the purses!! Hehehe
Now you know,
Just the gist of me!

I gaze up at these stars
Are you looking too?
They make me think of you...

I remember the warmness of you playing against the coolness of the grass dewed

Air so cooled, I watched your puffs of breath get taken away by me

I swear I felt your heart beat shake the ground we layed upon

Was it your scent that intoxicated me?
Or that crisp air spinning my head around

Or was it my thoughts.... Of you?

Those stars scarred the inward parts of me
Burned the memory on me...

                                                           Of you...

the leaves fall as they die
the rain when the clouds cry

rose petals fall as the color fades
tears when her heart breaks

stars fall to make her wishes come true
her hair when she undresses you

all of these fall,
just like she falls
for you...