Dream son, dream with delight!
Dream for a future so bright!
One day you'll thank me,
Because one day you'll be me
Telling your son the same thing.

People surround the rain washed evidence
whilst cars pull to the side
People attired with obvious decadence
The culprits smiling with pride
Trash littered the up kept lawn
Liquid seeping out of forgotten containers
Companion’s up until the break of dawn
Neighbors labeled the complainer
The yelling of over protective loved ones
A lesson needs to be learned
to stifle a yell, Air fills your lungs
Until the next day when your returned
Remember what you have done
until next time a decision is made
Otherwise they have won
No more of the games you have played

To see multiple humans acting as one is a refreshing sight,
It's a sight saved for the most historic occasions.

I'm not good enough
I'm not small enough
I'm ugly
I'm untalented
I’m not smart enough
Not happy enough
I’m not enough.

I sit there and stare into his dark gaze, unable to move do to the fear that has latched itself onto my legs.
Lips trembling, face bloodied and bruised.
The only words I am able to form are begs.
He looks at me with a face filled with disgust, hard steps towards me.
I form enough courage to sprint towards my only escape, the door.
I thought he loved me,
I thought I meant something,
It's my fault,
I should have given him what he wanted.
All the thoughts run through my head as I slowly stop running, I take a deep breath and slowly walk back. Thoughts already forming an excuse and an apology. He meets me at the door with a smile.
"I knew you'd be back."
The last sounds I hear are police sirens.

I am what keeps you awake at night,
I am what invades your sleep,
I put your fear into a fake reality.

I'm supposed to wake up like flowers
and grow like vines
I fall asleep with eye-showers
and walk along blurry lines
I'm expected to stand tall like trees
and sprout wings and be free.
But silly old me
Doesn't understand being free.

Step up to a world
Step down to a man
Step over fate
and under love
Step nowhere else
Step somewhere here
or everywhere no one is.

No one tells you they care about you,
and loneliness lingers near,
This awful feeling isn't new,
and I know what you're going through.

I'm a compulsive liar
It's the truth
I use it to mask my anxiety
You say one thing,
I say another
We're the same, you and me
Hello lie, goodbye anxiety
Now I'm better than you,
Until you catch me.
and then it's hello anxiety
and goodbye life.

It is not the time to go away
It is not the time to start to pray
It is not the time to say you care
and not the time to ask to share
It is not the time to say goodbye
It is not the time to try and lie
All I ask is a one week warning..
But that is too hard for you isn't it.

I went to your place last night
I laid in bed willing my conscience to leave
and I saw you crying yourself to sleep
I wish this was something you'd believe
But for now this is a secret I will keep.

If you act so tall
The harder you'll fall
The quicker you die
The easiest lie
Don't be confused
or act amused
Confidence is key
Let your heart bleed

I don't have motivation to move
There aren't many things I have to lose
Maybe that's my issue
I'm too depressed to leave
and have very little to achieve
I'm stuck in bed with the lights off
with no motivation to move

I will forever be stuck with a jar full of couch pennies.
Sitting on a bench, on my own, in my twenties
Begging with a cup for some spare change
Free housing can be arranged
I thank Trump for my life
as I stare sadly at the knife
Thank you Trump for my life
I'll make sure and use this knife

I found a buck on the ground!
i cried.
BUT IT GAVE ME A REASON TO LEAVE
just for twenty minutes
trapped in my brain
*send pleasure

Forgetful rocks slide in my brain.
I can't remember your face
My health spirals like an off track train
Memories gone without a trace.
|•|•|•|•|
You'll have to introduce yourself
Because I have forgotten you
Please don't forget me
as I start to forget you
Because the rocks have filled my brain.

I wish you a future, child
I wish you no pain, child
I wish you innocent love
and a full stomach, child
I wish you blue skies, child
I wish you big dreams, child
I see your eyes begin to fade
I know deep down the life I've made
I tried to refrain from touching the plug
but we all lean down for one last hug
Child of mine,
Dance with the stars
Say hello to the moon
I will see you soon
I wished you no pain
I wished you a future
I wished you blue skies
and dreams as big as your heart
You left this world in pain
Our hearts will forever feel that strain
But knowing you are safe and sound
Will keep you and I forever bound.

I smile when I look at you
Laying fast asleep
I don't think about what I do
This sight I will always keep
•••
Before it's too late to say goodbye
I'll give you my last words
Bye for now, See you later,
Ciao.

Three eyes and a imagination
I am the seer that comes to you
Bad future and darkness ahead
The blind one that sees

Do you honestly care
Or are you just using me for your games?
Your lies left my emotions bare
and I'm constantly put to shame
The sadness lies in me
The hatred lies in you
When will you see
The blood in dangerous hues.

I love the thing that hates me.
Nothing I do matters
So I will just give up.
The truth is
Right in front of you
Until you turn around.
Can you please look at me?
The look in your eyes give me chills
I hope that
One day
No one forgets me.

When I took you,
                  When I took you it stripped away worry.
When I took you,
                  When I took you I finally felt like me.
You were in reach,
                  You were in reach, so easily attainable
and it was crazy,
                   it was crazy to think that you would be
                   the answer to the 19 year old question,
                    "Who am I?"
                    "Who is me?"
I took you and it felt amazing,
                   I took you, and for that short while I felt calm.
But nothing ever lasts and one is never by itself.

I watch the numbers
I worry about the numbers
I don't think I'm good enough if I don't see the numbers
Low numbers- I'm crying
Big numbers- I'm smiling
I'm not good enough
Not good enough
Not good..
enough.

The hardest thing to do is say goodbye
and I know that first hand
It's rough when you feel so close to them
and then are ripped from your life
It makes you feel jealous to the people that are

A breath of air is like a fresh start
No matter how hard life is at the moment
If you step outside and just breathe
All the worries are washed away