Goodbye sweet friend
We'll meet again
Our paths will cross
When i meet my end

Im pretty sure the universe thinks im a *****....
Cause i keep getting ******

He wore a fickle grin
But it seemed there were worms within
Behind those tombstone teeth
He scares me
I dream of him opening that maw
Seeing other world's in the darkness of his cloak
Seeing only gleams where eyes should be
Oh this dark man
That seemed like no man at all*
Empty eyes That nightmare grin
And behind the vale the worms within

Death is a cosmic joke, the punchline.
Something we fear so much,
Yet its the second gift.
We are born into pain and madness,
As a lock fits the key,
Locked in our bodies till the death that sets us free.
With the dying of the light,
Comes another chance to be.

As the lights went up,
And consciousness creeped its way back in.
He found himself in a puddle of filth,
Mud, blood and other unspeakable things.
Trying to move brought a searing lance of agony,
Yet quite disconcertingly only through half his body.
Looking down he saw the shaft of an arrow,
Protruding from just below his navel.
Thats when he realized why he couldn't feel his legs.
Yet the more pressing matter was what seemed to be
A gaping hole in his chest, that slowly but steadily was leaking his life's blood into the earth. A bitter jolt of fear and panic gripped him, so tightly he could scant breathe. he couldn't remember where he was or what he may have done to come to this. He was young and had so much he would have liked to do with his life. A hitching gasp that turned to a sob escaped his chest as he remembered anne, he would never see her again. Yet as the cold of death crept into his body, he remembered.
Sunny days where he spent time on looking at clouds hand in hand with anne. the warm summer nights made all the warmer be their fire, and when the fires ebbed they lay intwined and would watch the stars as they made their slow steady way across the sky.these are the things that he clutched desperately to himself as he stepped into the darkness that comes to all living things. As the sun broke the horizon and sent its gentle rays floating across the meadow. the warm light found cooling skin, and on his face a small smile remained.

The patterns where random
At least at first appearance
On close inspection
seems there is something deeper
Through the tremble of blades
And the fettered veins
The street I'll cross
Throw up dueces
And dip

Looking to the screen
The ****** of the masses
Numbing us
Dehumanizing
Oh to live
*In the age of ice cream

I dreamt of her.
I dream of her name and her eyes.
on waking i feel a vague sense of loss and sorrow.
Perhaps its from a past life.
My heart calls out for her,
As though I've always known her.
Yet my head knows I've never met her.
I dreamt of you,*
And woke with tears on my cheek.

Its kinda disconcerting ,
The hole in the sky.
Darkness seems to slither in,
As beauty withered up and died.
The stars that once lit the night,
Are now just silent prayers.
See the only light in the sky,
Is that scarlet staring eye.
As many as there where once stars.
The monsters begin their waltz.
It scary the holes where demons come,
Within the hearts of men.

It's funny to build a tower
Only to play in the ashes
Three times the picture shattered
I'll gather the shards
And make myself a mosaic

From those vine grew love,light and happiness,
And in those thorns was blood, flesh and death,
Deeply intwined between flesh and soul,
In its leaves where we are born,
As in its root the dying of the light,
As darkness come to all living things,
Yet from the ash the dying of the night,
As cycles through the twining vine,
Creates the circle and the eye of the devine.

Some people believe
That dinosaur bones where put on this earth to
"Test our faith"
I find that highly disconcerting
That your main deity is running around in his spare time ******* with people
How do you sleep at night knowing that
you pray to a prankster god

Im fighting demons on the daily.
Trying to walk out from all this shadow,
Remember where i left the light.
Seems like more than a lifetime,
I am tired of the waiting.
I am tired of being in here.
Seems like the way its always been,
Hope i can make it different.

Clarity
             Touch
        My
                           Dreams
                                           Make
                            Them
                 Real
                                                          Kiss
                                       My
                                               Lips
                           And
     Make
                 Me
                           Feel

I could feel the way
As you pushed away
And away away i went

That moment when someone looks at you and says
" you look like you need a hug "
Not knowing that would only exacerbate my disconnection  
I can feel the beat of your heart
And I still feel so far away

Dog jumps up on bed
Lays beside my head
Mischievously looks at me
As if to say
"I shall **** on you in the night
Wait for it...
the dream stink is coming"

I must go out,
The fogs are rising.
Do you hear the rain?
Do you hear the rain?
Its falling as i am.
I must go out.

In dreams we can be free,
As in life we will never be.
In memory's faded light,
As years pass they fade in the night.
Goodnight goodnight ,
For sweet dreams may be.

Blood flesh dust and bone,
Where i lived no longer home.
Wind tree bird and bee,
Now perhaps the world ill see.
Death death deep in stone,
Where my body turns to bone.
Bones to dust,
Dust to wind.
Life to death,
And back again.

I've been in darkness so long
      *I've forgotten the light

.                                                                                                 .
                       Depression is strangling me
                          loneliness is killing me
                   The further i get the more i regret
                      And fear there is no way back
                     When there is no one to talk to
                                Nowhere to go
                      No one to love i feel so alone
                 Im so tired in body head and heart
                      No one to share myself with
                       Even when I'm with others
                             I feel so far away
                       We could be hand in hand
                And i fear i would still be galaxies away
                         No direction nor volition
                           Even though I'm alive
                              I feel dead inside

~               The light shines in the old window
                           Near the silent meadow
                      A crack runs through one pane
                       And the wood is dry and aged
                 See the motes swirling in the beams
                    That stream through the window
        There is a photograph though nearly faded to blank
                       A dog a boy and his parents
                     No one knows who they where
                            Yet they look happy
                      It seems they found life here
    But it has been many years since this cabin has known
      The sound of creaking as feet move across the floor
                     Or of children playing in the yard
               Its not but grass grown tall and rampant
              Slowly returning the house to the ground
      On the lee side rests a grave that once was carved
    But the wind and the weather has worn it nearly gone
                 A nexus of life grown bereft of man
                       Yet it seems no worse off
               Its going back from whence it began
         Yet still the moonlight fills the window at night
                   And dreams it dreams it dreams
                              Men come and go
                               Yet earth abides

When the sky was torn from the core of velesti ,
Down came the rain that washed us out,
And with that water came life,
From her body came the mountains, valleys and plains,
The oceans where her tears ,
That she shed for the loss of her consciousness,
From energy to earth,
From the clay where once her naval lay,
Grew the life tree that connects heaven to earth,
From earth to energy,
The lush green of the brushing leaves,
Her breath the wind is rushing,
Weaving life into a stone,
And from  the stone then came the blood,
To bathe us in her splendor,
The rain came down and kissed the ground ,
Blessing everyone around us,
And so we to,
will be there soon,
Blood, bone, sand and stone from earth to energy.

Out from the darkness there came a voice,
We where there the day you where conceived,
The day your mother met your father,
Before you where a dream,
The deepest dark that lies in hearts,
The haunting mysteries ,
We made for you of bone and blood,
A body for you to live,
To make your home make it your own,
For you will have to live there ,
I know you feel alone,
But in due time your body dies,
And the lies will be forgotten ,
For we are one the earth and sun,
In soil in tree in everything ,
The coil is what makes it hard to remember ,
Where never alone before and after ,
Its good to know that all things are connected,
So when i go ,
I want you to know,
Ill be with you forever.

There is a dream i dreamt,
A dream of home,
Of happy days and fair skies,
With easy laughs in love.

I saw infinity
In a glass of water

I felt it strange
As it passed

It was a difference
Like night and day

The loss of the feeling
That i am alone

The realization
That i am Connected to all of you

That life is a dream
And death an illusion

All of this hate
And all the confusion

Are the movements of energy
Through our mortal coil

Yet without the body
There would be a unity

We would be everything
And nothing

This is why life exists
To experience ourselves subjectively

Most of us not knowing
That we are drops from the same ocean

With every kindness And crime we commit
We further our understanding

Still with life comes conflict
And another chance to change

We live our lives like falling rain
*Only to pass back to the ocean again

Creeping excitement
As our eyes lock
Across a crowded room

~                               Emily gets this
                                 Emily gets that
                     Emily gets whatever she wants
                           While i get **** in a hat

I feel it
               All of it
                             Everything
   All at once
                                                 Pain and hatred
                         Love and beauty
        War and death
                                                          Peace and prosperity
            It all fills me
                                     Sometimes
                    Its to much
                                                        And i feel
      My mind
                                        Begin to
             Tare at the seams
                                              And the tears
                                                           Roll down my face
         I have to recede
                               From myself
                                                      In hopes
                                    Of keeping
                               my sanity whole

Autumn's body lay cold and beautiful
It's sad she has to pass with the winter

I will get our things for they don't want us here
Now i shall sleep and remember earlier times
Your time will come to cross the shifting sands

Oh Zeus bring the storm
Make it rain on these *******
Make them tremble with thunderous pleasure
Lightning crash to make you gasp clutching ****** closely
Tonight bring the pain and show this earth a couple things

Weathered stone
        Patiently waiting
               Watching seasons
                      Wanting only To return

Its insidious
How it creeps in
****** dreams
There Stealing your children
An entire generation
Crippled and broken

I want to watch the sky with you,
To Watch the brilliant summer light.
the blue fades from the ocean,
As the day turns to the night.
I want to hold you near to me,
And watch the stars alight.
To see the diamonds heliographed,
The reflections in your eyes.

Time is a face that lies still on the water
Zellfain's light burst the barrier clouds
From mayas pool grew there a sapling
Zelmaya the tree of life where we began
The essence of two
coiled in blood and bone
Leaf  sap wind and stone*
The light of sun on darkened ground
In this tree a balance found
*That is why we live and die
Love and cry
Laugh and sigh
All within zelmaya's eye

You've a radiant smile
And gorgeous eyes
It appears your a sweetheart
Saying you love when I'm around
That I'm the life of the party
I'm not sure who your talking about
But if that's what you see
It seems you're flirting with me
I could be wrong
But maybe
I'll never know without action
So eyes closed I dive in

~                             I fell today
                        Skinned my knees
            Before the pain came great malaise
              To fall again after so many days
                   Of keeping things straight
                   And trying for better days
                               I fell again
                         Scraped my knees
        It took me back to where i don't want to be

Clocks winding down.
Things,
They fall apart.
The lights wink out,
One by one;
And spiders spin,
In the halls of men.

~                        I walk this thin white line
                               Between what i am
                                And what you see
                                 For what you see
                                       Is not me
                      In time ill be the flowing wind
               The diamond drops on growing leaves
                   An autumn rain thats comes again
                      The bitter cold of winter winds
                     The first snowfall when it begins
                          Gentle drops on stony skin
                             When i die and go back
                             Back back to everything

****
Everything
And
Run

~                      I stood outside her heaven
                            Hoping for a glimpse
                       Through crystalline window
                     Of multi faceted stained glass
                         It made her look an angel
                       Yet i know a demon resides
                          Beauty from the outside
                            But rotten black inside
                  Sweetest words with dark beneath
                 Even though id like to throw a stone
                     To shatter the silence between
     The rot inside pushed you far away from what is me
                     Ill shed a tear for cold lost years
                         And turn to find my heaven

Feelings shall be heard dear
Passing from heart to head
Whispered gently between souls

Around around i hear the sound ,
Of fear within my veins,
Don't look now ,
Theres a silent cloud that threatens distant pain,
I will take this weakness and shoot it in my veins,
Tie up tie off you start to cough thats death inside your brain ,
The will of words you never heard will never abstain,
And in your heart you feel the start of wounds within your mind,
So listen now they all know how to fix what broke inside,
But there not sure they never where the masks they wear are broken,
Yet blood runs in filled with sin to stop the hearts from pumping,
Now cold as ice your body's life has fled into the open,
To everyone to everywhere we no longer are broken .

~                Peter peter pants aflame
     Danced around while screaming names
               As he stumbled faltered fell
      Went through earth and down to hell
            Now its there he blindly dwells
                            All for a ****
                       that burned to well

It trickles by when life is slow
Yet when its fun how fast time goes

Minutes like decades
Years like seconds

In the space of a blink
Your hair will have turned to gray
And all your friends will have passed away
Left only old photos of bygone days

And in the mirror of youth
You'll hardly recognize  
The lines on your face
live today before its gone away