She found me, but to late,
By then I had lain for hours,
life's warmth had ebbed,
Leaving only cold.  
She couldn't see the streaks,
Where my last tears kissed the earth,
There was a bitter little smile,
That she wore, for seeing me like this,
It had come to her I had finally found peace,
Though she railed against it before I passed.
no more pain nor sorrow, no ache,        
nor tomorrow,
Silent now, her gently creased brow,before the. Storm erupts and washes her away, she stood for me after I had gone away as the wind whispered my love, I was carried gently away

I know it looks shallow
But when your drowning
*You'll realize the depth of your mistake

~                           **** shot shoot first
                              Preemptive strike
                           Ends before beginning
                              for he who hits first
                                    Laughs last

Shes gone,
Shes gone,
Lay dead in my arms,
And tears did streak my face.
Shes lost,
She lost,
All that is left are ghostly thoughts,
Akin to the fading winters breeze,
Goodbye,
Goodbye,
I said goodnight as leaves fell from the tree,
Someday,
Someday,
I will pass and blow with the autumn leaves.

Love
Kiss the tears from my face

Sleep
Bring me sweet relief

Life
Comes with joy and sorrow

Morning
*Bring peace tomorrow

Ten years of pain.
Have i atoned yet?
This cant be living.
Is there hope?
Fractal terror.
Will i find my small death?
Let healing dreams come.

I remember
Though you think id forgot

The times spent laughing
The times of childhood past
Remember the summers we swam in the pool
Pretending we where dolphins or monsters
Man we where fools
But it was ok because i was with you

We would lay our beds on the glass shop at night
And watch the stars wheel slowly through the sky
Feeling astronomical powers collide

A shot of smooth fire as it burnt through the night
Seeing the fire reflected back in both of our eyes
We would send wishes along with that light

So i remember
How could i forget
The day that you died
I lost my best friend

We had some times,
Didn't we.
We saw wonders,
And horrors.
We watched crystal sunrises,
And held hands as the evening devoured the sky.
We shared our lustful moments,
And in the silent times we shared our tears.
I don't know many things,
But i know this,
We danced.
Danced our whole lives long.
Even though where tired now,
We didn't stop until the end of the songs.
I remember how we danced.
if i take anything with me,
I will take our dance.
Smiling gone happily into the dark.

I used to be smart
I used to be strong
But these last few years
Have torn me apart
I lost who i am
Sometimes i think
That I've come to far
*To find my way home

.                                                                                                      .
                            I have no good words to say
                             Ive been lost and misused
                                Im as mad as a hatter
                       As the knife ran off with the spoon
                  The mouse it said they have gone to bed
                         To dream themselves together
               And the mouse skittered under the cupboard
                   Some would scream but i just chuckle
                               For the mouse is me
                             And what right you see
                       Do i have to want him to leave.

Empty night;
    mutters of rain.
                                though the stars...
                         still bright.
        as morning warmly embraces
            The lonely mountain side.

Time is a face that lies still on the water
Zellfain's light burst the barrier clouds
From mayas pool grew there a sapling
Zelmaya the tree of life where we began
The essence of two
coiled in blood and bone
Leaf  sap wind and stone*
The light of sun on darkened ground
In this tree a balance found
*That is why we live and die
Love and cry
Laugh and sigh
All within zelmaya's eye

Expectation
The downfall of humanity

If your ever lost
Just click your heels three times
**** still lost
They ****** lied

I dreamt of her.
I dream of her name and her eyes.
on waking i feel a vague sense of loss and sorrow.
Perhaps its from a past life.
My heart calls out for her,
As though I've always known her.
Yet my head knows I've never met her.
I dreamt of you,*
And woke with tears on my cheek.

~                   The moon is high
                       As children cry
              Away within their slumber
                    On mares of night
                  That bares the blight
                     Of goblins gleam
                   And wicked things
                  That creep through
                    Your cellar door
                    A creak on stairs
                  The wind out there
         Sounds like a thousand hands
                    Of darker things
             The ones you don't let in
      Are watching through the window
     With crimson grin and glowing skin
      They'll scratch upon your window
                 But Their out there
                    As your in here
                  So close your eyes
                    And bundle tight
                     For you my son
                     I say goodnight

The blind lead the deaf in this valley of death,
That we all find ourselves ****** into,
We look to the sky in hopes it will cry,
In this valley of tears where we tread,
And we wait for tomorrow in this veil of sorrows,
I hope that it be a dream,
For if its not ill lose my love for tomorrow,
So i will lay down on this stony ground ,
And dream the beauty around me.

I used to think there was a secret room
In the dead space between
Full of whispered words
And secret things
Words that no one has ever heard
But then i grew
And thought i knew
That pipes filled those spaces
But now and then
I remember the spaces between
Sometimes As i drift to sleep  
I hear the whispered words
Of secret things that lie between

Give me one more shot of whiskey
And one more cigarette
Then i can leave this place
a pretty happy man

.                                                                                                              .
                             Is it in this pocket or that one
                         A quick tap to tell me what I've got
                         It must be here i left it nowhere else
                   One more check and ill see where I've been
                            Not near my chair nor in the car
                   It must have fallen off the edge of the world
                                 It would have been nice
                              To have one more cigarette
                           Before the night closed in on me

~                        To many hours
                            In a single life
            Minutes seconds and years fly by
               What was here is gone today
         Now only the memory inside will stay
              We make our circles in the sand
         What has gone will come round again
          So keep the pace and work the days
                          And all that is lost
                       Will be found some day

In your veins you wear ice,
Fear brought death ,
And death sent sorrow,
Mornings whispers blew on till evening,
The basket brought bitter poison growing black,
And the weeping wounds grew midnight tears,
A thousand diamond shimmering rivers,
The streams that take you home,
There remains the autumn leaves,
A brilliant gift cast out to sea,
As we cascade to everything.

Weathered stone
        Patiently waiting
               Watching seasons
                      Wanting only To return

Rivers like roads,
With a sea of clouds encroaching.
Can you hear the rain?
Its coming across the plains.
*Can you hear the rain?

There are times in life
Times to run
Times to walk
Times to laugh
Times to cry
Times to love
Times to lie
Times to shiver on a winter night
Times to listen
Times to speak
Times when stillness will be achieved
Times for sleep in hope of dreams
Times to watch the falling leaves
Times to feel that summer breeze
Times for you and times for me
There is time to live
And we will all find the time to die
The time for our bodies to return to the light

.                                                                               .
                           I am the forth
                                  The last
                             The unwanted
                               The mistake
           And all of my life it has seemed this way
          My brothers both where my fathers sons
               And i was always more like my mom
              Yet my sister is first in both their hearts
         Its like i had no chance right from the start
                Still I'm alive though no one cares
         They through me out to make room for her
              My sister was always horrible to me
               She left scars burned into my skin
            They never heal though i try to forgive
             My life it seem there's no point to live
   My flickering flame becomes dimmer and dimmer
                   the light fades from my eyes
                         As worlds turns grey
                  And i lay down to pass away.

Goodnight love
The stars are high
In the moonlit sky
The wind brushing branches just outside
Let your eyes grow heavy
Let your mind relax
Do not cry its not the end
When you wake tomorrow
It begins again

Sadly the man said
In a casual tone
"The mind is a funny thing.
It can produce wonders beyond my conception. Yet as with all things the scale slides both ways. If given a knife and a hand to hold, the mind will surely consume the soul."

Fear is for the living
*Only the dead are fearless

So this is me,
This is what I've become?
Of all the turning roads,
This is where I've come?

~                         Where's the me as i am too
                 The red The green The brown The blue
                       Broken clocks the ticking stops
                          All above our chimney tops
                     Mantle brown yet greyed with age
                    On it we keep the lives we've made
                        Earth and ash as dust in bone
                        Where we live we call it home
                      The place we hide inside our lies
                          Reside today its slow decay
                       Tomorrow dreams of yesterday
                       Watch the sun with mystic hues
                 The red the orange the green and blue

I was whole
                        Not broken
                                              Before my soul
                                                                          Took this body
                                                                                                      For its own

It's fear
That makes strength
A weakness

The creator wept
For what he had made
Tears of the desert
Crystalline expanse  
Opening our hidden eye

Cold stone.
we lay in the earth.
To remind me your not around.
As if i needed that,
to remember,
that we laid you in the ground.
For over 40 years,
we laughed.
Yet there are tears now.
Its sad that all my friends,
are in the ground.
Now its only cold stones.
Just remind me,
that their better now,
And soon i to will join them in the ground.

Don't fret over the dross my boy,
Its been there an age.
Cluttered boxes filled with spare time,
yet none of it brought anymore time than was wasted.
all the things that keep the dark at bay,
And the mind quite and safe

Hello darling.
Softly shimmering glow,
A vision to behold.
Rosy cheeks,
Now pale as snow.
Realizing that screaming,
Is me...

Inside time,cold broken love.
Memory knows my face these days.
The ****** years are passing like leaves on the wind.
Today my hearts spring,gentle dream.
Tomorrow feel the light and hope they stay.
The evening circle has fallen.
Whispered poison of fading joy.
Sweet past things gently dying,
I return there where she was buried,
Lay the Lilly on the grave ,
Then turn and walk away.

Life in the dark
Where the heartwood sleeps

That day was bitter cold
As the light fled the sky
The wind left streaks in earth
A depth of silence
So deep
You could hear love die
And the silent tears of the heart
Autumns passing bittersweet
And the gentle dreams of dying things

Clarity
             Touch
        My
                           Dreams
                                           Make
                            Them
                 Real
                                                          Kiss
                                       My
                                               Lips
                           And
     Make
                 Me
                           Feel

Bring up the light , let the birds march in,
Singing tunes i cant understand,
The rain falls down, the clouds blow away,
I take my shoes off, to feel more,
The earth between my toes,
Kneeling on the ground ,
I feel connected, not to other humans,
But to everything with a heartbeat, everything with life force,
Realizing this makes me realize ,
The biggest things that happen to me are minuscule to scale,
Its only when i don't feel grounded that i feel alone,
I know it my body that tricks me into the corner,
I know that someday i will die,
And when that comes there is no need to cry,
I am with the birds that fly, i am my child's eyes,
I am the magic that come with the rain,
I am the cool summer day, i am sun on citrus trees,
I am you as you are me,
And when we die you will see.