Something in the wind tells me
that the flowers will bloom today
but will die tomorrow
because the night feeds it
with grief and sorrow.

I used to think about you a lot
Because you were once my apple pie
The thing that kept me going for days.
I cared and loved you
Even if you didn't feel the same way.

Lately, I'm thinking
Which part of it was lost
Because when you came back
Everything left in awe.

I thought all I ever wanted
Was to get you by my side
And now, that you're here
I just want you to get lost.

What happened before left a wound
I guess time really heals everything.
After three long years of silence
All the words was said, and the feelings had left.

It was but a great story
And 'you and I' was just a theory
Somethig haunted me for so long
I could not even remember when.

I wish I could utter good bye
But was there even a 'hello' to start with?
All that's between us are trashed
It needs no futher elaboration.

Even now, I want to end this
Because you don't even deserve a space.
Maybe in our next life
There'll be a better tale told for us.

he came home one night
soaked with blood,
tears dripping from his eyes,
catching up his breath.

he looked right into my eyes
and I saw the fear
that has long kept him
in imprisonment

he took the blame
and the penalty
is death.

I hate it when the darkness of the night
talks to me in silence
telling me how unimportant I am
and that my existence is unneeded.
It steals every hope that gives me fuel to live each day.
and so every time the sun shines a light upon me,
all I ever recognize is the sadness
that wraps me up to my solitude.

Because we are all beautiful
in our own simple ways,
we don’t have to say:
I’m prettier or uglier.

Why do we even bother, right?
Life is all about difference.
And if your are different,
you are worth looking at.

You are right,
I freed all the butterflies in my stomach
I let them go without your consent.
Silly me,
I thought you're going to chase them
because you said those are the most beautiful.

You asked the wind to take it all away
To lock it in a box in a place far, far away
Because you’ve been tired and you need to rest
It’s been a while and you need to forget


You gnash your teeth each time you remember
The picture of you and him together
Holding a tea cup on a cold winter weather
Sitting like babies wrapped the arms of one another


Things are different now you thought
As you roll your eyes for things you now loath
Which you thought before was cute
But now you just want to puke


Like how much you loved the smell of his minty breath
Pressing against the strand of your nostrils
It felt so good, you wish you could tilt your head up
To steal a million kisses in his forehead


Also, the way his skin touched yours
It felt like burning alive into ashes
But it felt perfect, like your breath is being taken away
Like something big is happening inside your flesh


Also, those times when you’ve gone mad and crazy
Because he just won’t stop being busy
And you wish you could just focus on your study
Or be indulged in book to quit being *****


The most painful part though is that you are hunted
By what could have been and what could have happened
If you were a little bit more patient and understanding
To accept his shortcomings and explanations


But now you know that there is nothing perfect in this world
That you will get happy, sad, mad, and sometimes bored
That it is normal for people to be normal
That there will be winter, summer, spring and fall
And life will be life, take it or leave it


You learned your lessons and now you know
So you ask to trade with the wind all those things you sow
And start to wish for warmer, brighter tomorrow
Maybe, with someone who will wash away the sorrow.

I tried to pursue it.
I kept on waiting.
But I guess it’s all not worth it
because it was not meant to happen anyway.

I cried every morning and every night.
I sat on a couch to witness the transition of time.
But I guess even my aches had forsaken and denied
the thoughts of both of us.

Talk to me the way you talk to her
Look at me with passion and want
Hold me like your favorite pillow that you cuddle at night
Kiss me like you've never tasted anything sweet
Dance with my body
Dance with my mind
Dance with my soul

Fireflies carry a light behind them
as they wander at night
not knowing where to go.
But they are not afraid
because they know
that they are guided by a light
sticked  behind their wings,
permanently.
And so,
they are brave.

Fireflies carry a light behind them
They wander at night not knowing where to go
And they are not afraid
Because they know
They are guided by a light
That flies with them
behind their wings

But it's sad too,
Because they will never be able to see it
That shimmering light
That stayed behind them
All through the years.

Time being, so quick
To steal you
Away from my heart

A beautiful lie
It has all been.
It was amazing while it lasted

It was comforting
The couch, the pillow
Your touch, everything

It's a tragic story,
You and I
Against all odds

I am thankful for your presence
Each time you’re beside me
I feel like nothings gonna be wrong.

When you look straight into my eyes
I feel like I’m being understood

I may hide and deny
But if you’ll look deeper
There is only you.

I try to breath
but I’m loosing my lungs.
and the oxygen is insufficient.
I smell death.
like it has been haunting me.
I screamed
but I'm loosing my voice.
My throat swells,
trying to contain
all the pain that I feel.
My body freezes
slowly turning into a corpse
I watch the shadows in the darkness
as they  pass me by.
I’m dead, I’m dead.
I whisper,
as I close my eyes.

I believe in loving deep and true
I belive that someone out there is fit and is destined to be with us one day
I belive in one love that is magical and true

And I wonder if that kind of love exist.
That kind that is genuine and deep.
That kind that entails forever.

I wonder if anyone could ever love that much.
If anyone could ever love someone so passionately.
That they'd be willing to risk what they have
For the benefit of another person.

Because if that kind of love exist
If its real and pure and golden from within

I want to have that kind of love
I want to be selfish for it,
embrace and grasp it
with all my heart

Then maybe smile and say
"Hey, what took you so long?"

I have a crush on someone I know.
He’s been a friend for 4 years, I guess.
I never thought that I’d ever like him
‘cause he’s bossy and snob,
and is always frowning.
But I’ve seen him smile and I got to like him,
I heard him speak and I think I’m in love. Err.
This actually feels weird, awkward and crazy
but gee, I feel giddy each time that I see him.
He wears a pair of glasses, into his ears,
I think it’s a shade of silver..
He likes to joke, to tickle and cackle.
Oh, how I wish that one day he’ll know
I have a crush on someone like him.

I saw you looking at her
in the midst of festivity,
when everybody else
are shouting and jumping,
joggling and rapping,
all that there is to say.

I saw you looking at her
and your eyes are fixed
as the moment froze
and I know how you’ve felt.
It was exactly how I felt.

I saw you looking at her
and I was crushed in an instant
like a thunderbolt
like a thunderbolt

I saw you this morning.
You were moving so fast.
Can’t seem to loosen my grip
On the past.
And I miss you so much.
There’s no one in sight.
And we’re still making love
In my secret life.

I smile when I’m angry.
I cheat and I lie.
I do what I have to do
To get by.
But I know what is wrong,
And I know what is right.
And I’d die for the truth
In my secret life.

I wish I could open that door right infront of me
and see a shinning sunlight
that will guide me and help me
towards a better light.

I wish I coulp open my eyes
and see clearly how beautiful
the world have been,
and that it has always been.

I wish I could open my mind
and tell myself something inspiring
to stop regreting
all those times of running away.

I wish I could open tommorow and see the future,
so I could reassure myself,
that even if I couldn't turn back time,
everything will be alright.

I wish I could open my heart easily
the way it did when it was you,
so I could take a step forward
and live a leap of faith.

It's not right to pity over you
It's not right to crave for your touch
It's not right to talk, smile or even see you
It's not right to even remember you.

Because you've forgotten
Because you've changed
Because you like somebody else
Because you've moved on.

I creep toward the burrows at night
Trying to ****** a glimpse of light
That sparkled through the creepy, wooden fragments.

I bent to half to hide myself
tryig to fit in within those holes
so I could escape the solace
that has long burried me
in the land of lost and forgotten.

Whenever I look at the sky,
I’m filled with thoughts
of what could have been.

Maybe,
just maybe,
everything that could have been,
have existed,
beyond those clouds.

And I wonder.

One day you will see me again...
But
I won’t be the same person anymore.
I will be a better version of the one you used to know.
I will be stronger, fiercer, bolder.
And I won’t have to feel intimidated to anyone, ever again.
One day you will see me again...
But
Never will it be because of you.
Neither of me trying to get even.
It’s too much for any of us to bear
because we’ve destroyed each other fatally,
and only time will mend our sufferings.
One day you will see me again...
But
Don’t be sorry, don’t be angered.
because the future will change,
drastically.
I swear on earth it will.
One day you will see me again...*
And when that time comes,
we’ll laugh secretly,
questioning ourselves,
What if.
What if it was the two of us?

You didn’t touch the match
but you ignited a flame.
And it burned me severely.
Like I was a thin sheet of paper

How funny things can be,
I said I don’t like you,
and never will I like you.
I didn’t know I could be hilarious.

I’d love to spend an hour with you
or maybe the rest of my life.
We’ll turn grey into colors
and every single single day will be as beautiful.

I know this sounds dreamy
and full of miserable delusions.
For in reality, we are not perfect.
But dear, please lend me your ears and hear this:

Maybe most of the time we quarrel
and even curse each other to death.
But all I want is to be with you,
nobody else but you.

Let's talk about this nurse
who stays at pulmonary unit.
He takes care of patients
who has difficulty
in respiration.
But what I want to say is this:
I feel like I should be admitted too
because he takes my breath away.

You were a Nightmare Last Night.
I was hunted by those awful memories we had,
and it isn’t right.
Everyday, I hate you more and I shouldn’t.
But I cant help myself.

Your image is as vivid as crystal clear in my mind
and I couldn’t find the courage to erase it.
Your fake smiles and stupid lies,
it’s all disgusting.

What I want now is for you to leave my thoughts
so that I could start a brand new life.
I don’t wanna be trapped with bitterness forever.

My life has never been this vapid.

My heart has never felt so much sorrow.

I feel like exploding into dust,

just scattering everything of me

out to the world

so I’d feel less alone.

Maybe this is what I get

for expecting so much

when I deserve less.

She wants to eacape
To run away
To never come back
To set you free
But she couldn't
Because she loves you.
And she wished she didn't.

"Go to sleep"
I say to my tired soul,
but it woldn't,
becuse it is lost,
and it has to find
it's way back home
before the clock
turn 12 midnight,
or else,
she will remain stuck
to broken promises
and solitude.

As I have woken from my deep slumber,
I thought of the times we were together.
Those days in which we enjoyed each other
and the thought that it would last forever.
My eyes blinked and shed a tear,
For days had passed and it is clear
that in reality I’d never hear
the words that echoed in my heart so dear.
I shouldn’t have listened to their silly dare
So I wouldn't have fallen to your sweet stare
Now the pain that I feel,  I couldn’t bear
Everything is just so unfair.