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Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I'm hoping you'll eventually
Understand my passive aggressive poetry
About how much I love you
And hate you all the same.
Layla Thurman Nov 2014
I pity those who
will never know
the immense pain
that love will bring
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
You tell me you love me
Do you really?
It's so hard to tell
Sometimes
But maybe
If you could prove it
I might just believe you
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Id stay awake all night
Just to wait for your response
Layla Thurman Oct 2014
Could you take my hand
Just for a moment
So I can have some semblance
of security
Layla Thurman Oct 2014
The way
I'll always remember you
Is the way you look
when sleeping
Your gentle face
with the softness of your cheek
Cupped beneath my hand
Your breathing soft and deep
So relaxed
You look much younger
Your curly hair
Featherlike against your pillow
Your body
feels warm next to mine
When your like this
I see how gentle
How vulnerable
You can really be
It helps to remind me
Of why it is
I love you
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
distance
one ear to the other
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I could never leave you
No matter how hard I try
Because you've wrapped yourself
Like a snake around my heart
Claimed it as your dinner
And I willingly let you
Because your forked tongue
Whispers love into my ear
And I fall for it
Every
****
Time
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Your eyes reflect the stars
In such a way that I
Can almost see the future
And it is so beautiful
Layla Thurman Nov 2014
Have you ever had it
where your heart feels
like it's all swollen up
and it's pressing into your throat
causing you to choke
and your blood
feels more like maple syrup
and you just want to curl up and cry
because your life
is turning into another
Teenage love tragedy.
This is basically my life right now...
Layla Thurman Oct 2014
I want you
to tell me
you love me
Those three words
Would mean everything
To my poor
And ragged heart
Give it life
Restart it's beat
With three words
Short and sweet
I want you
To tell me
You love me
The same way
I love you
Layla Thurman Oct 2014
The devil looks familiar
When I pass him in the streets
Something about his hair and eyes
reminds myself of me
Or you perhaps.
His face is never clear
Always changing.
But the devil is always
Familiar to me
Perhaps because
I am so familiar with him
Layla Thurman Dec 2014
My heart is racing
my fingers continue tracing
waiting for you to speak

My eyes are searching
my stomach lurching
waiting for your reply

Why does this silence seem so long
Layla Thurman Dec 2014
My mouth it did betray me
three words I whispered
softly into your ear
and now my lips do linger
waiting for some reply
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
I wonder if you can find the time to think of me
thoughts crowded with everyone else, anything else
I understand how complicated that must be
yet still, if you could, would you think of me?
Layla Thurman Mar 2015
Never in my life
have I met a boy
who was so indescribable.

Whose nature
was that of the wind
wild, free, independent.

Whose laugh
is like the forest
the sound so rich and pure.

Whose dreams
were of the stars themselves
and nothing less would do.

Only comparable
to those things which
are indescribable.

and yet,
we all try anyway.
Layla Thurman Oct 2014
If you could just tell me
that you love me
the way that I love you
then maybe, we could run away
t o g e t h e r
Layla Thurman Nov 2014
The pressure of your lips
Against mine
In my hair your fingers
Are entwined
And with each passing moment
I love you a little more
Layla Thurman Mar 2015
I lost myself again
wandering through your eyes
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I don't want your money darling
I just want your attention
Layla Thurman Dec 2014
I think of how
I used to smile for you
offer you more and more
until I had nothing else to give.
how empty
how lost and lonely
I always felt
and I believed I had enjoyed it
How easily I lied
to myself and to you
in order to make you feel better
while I still went through hell.
all you can say
is that I didn't see
how much you cared
but really, what was there to see?
other than the tears
and the pain
and the desire
the lust for your love
the love I could never win
even though I laid claim to it.
How unfair you were
though I am not bitter
Because now he makes me smile
and it feels genuine
and best of all,
he smiles back.
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
My head is so full when alone.
my mind races wildly so far from you
I miss the blankness you bring.
Layla Thurman Nov 2014
I wish I knew you
When I was a kid
So maybe you could have
taken me up in your arms
Just the way you do now
and kiss all my troubles away.
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Why do I feel
The need
To kiss you
So violently
As if my life
Depended on it?
Layla Thurman Dec 2014
You can take your spiteful words
and shove them up your ***
when it comes to taking **** from you
Sorry, but I'll pass
because I've accepted hatred
and hurt, pain and depression
and i'm getting sick and tired
of writing poems as confessions.
So *******
I'm tired of your ****
my feelings are a fire
the flame has been lit.
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I was a disaster
Just waiting to happen
Self destructive
lacking morals
My poetry was an
Unwritten suicide
I held smoke in my lungs
And alcohol in my liver
16 and bullet proof
Me against the world

*what a fool I was
Layla Thurman Nov 2014
What is love
Other than pain and despair
With a little bit of happiness
Here and there.
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Im trying to decide
what it is that
I see in you
what it is that
makes me love you
Because really
you just make me tired
all of the time
I'm stressed
depressed
and overall in pain
just being with you
yet I can't help but stay
because theres something
I love about you
Its not so much your eyes
or your voice
though both of those
are wonderful
its not quite your smile
or your laugh
yet both of those
are sweet
I think its something deeper
calling me to you
and it causes me to stay
even though its rough
I believe its love itself.
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Your eyes remind remind me of glaciers
Not because they're cold
But because they are mysterious

Your hair reminds me of a lions mane
Because of it's dark ginger hue
And the softness of the strands.

Your words remind me of poetry
Each phrase flows perfectly
As if they were meant to be together

Your smile reminds me of lightning
So bright, though fleeting
Shocked is my heart to see it

Your skin is perfect ivory
Pale, delicate, and smooth
I crave the feeling of yours against mine

Your heart is made of gold
Generous and kind
I wish that your heart, would beat in tune with mine.

Ever since the first time I looked at you
Looked into you
I could see someone who was beautiful.
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I was born
Pen in hand
Mind torn
Between heaven and land

I wrote of the sky
But dreamed of the grass
Okay was a lie
Days would pass

Indifferent suffering
Words written in ink
Wrists would be bleeding
Alcohol to drink

I was born
Self destructive
Yet despite what I've sworn
I continue to live

Because you make
Me feel better
for loves sweet sake
I write poems like letters

All for you

Because I never knew
How beautiful a lake could be
Until I looked in eyes of blue
Then I knew, you were the key.
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I'd love to write your name here
So you would know
That all these love poems
Are for you

I'd love to write your name here
So maybe you would understand
Just how lonely
You make me feel

Being with you is like floating on air
Wonderful, with you, the clouds beside me
But I am not a part of you
I am simply there

I don't want to be some trophy girlfriend
Sitting, looking pretty
I want you to want me, need me, love me
The same way I do you

*Because you are my everything
But I feel like nothing to you
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I used to believe
you took my breath away
but now I've realized
all you did
was suffocate me
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
Can you find the oxygen to breathe
When your smothering yourself with everyone else
Do you understand the complications
The trepidations I have with just being near you.
I'm so easily stressed, depressed, and scared
and giving up my space isn't something I could do
everything is nice, simple an plain.
Being near you is like being part of a neon sign.
all the colors are too bright, the music too loud.
I'm too dull, too soft. I'm not like you.
I could never be a part of you.
It's not because I don't love you
believe me darling I do
But something about me
can't connect with someone like you
I like to pretend sometimes
that I am a part of that bright neon sign
with all the loud colors and bright sounds
but even then I'm still too pastel.
But a girl can dream, at least I think
But in all my confusion I do know
That if I were braver, I would love you.

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