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716 · Nov 2014
what is love.
Layla Thurman Nov 2014
What is love
Other than pain and despair
With a little bit of happiness
Here and there.
689 · Oct 2014
Kick me
Layla Thurman Oct 2014
kick me while i'm down
I've always felt like a clown
standing next to you
anyway
645 · Nov 2014
Teenage Love Tradgedy.
Layla Thurman Nov 2014
Have you ever had it
where your heart feels
like it's all swollen up
and it's pressing into your throat
causing you to choke
and your blood
feels more like maple syrup
and you just want to curl up and cry
because your life
is turning into another
Teenage love tragedy.
This is basically my life right now...
641 · Mar 2015
To A Boy
Layla Thurman Mar 2015
Never in my life
have I met a boy
who was so indescribable.

Whose nature
was that of the wind
wild, free, independent.

Whose laugh
is like the forest
the sound so rich and pure.

Whose dreams
were of the stars themselves
and nothing less would do.

Only comparable
to those things which
are indescribable.

and yet,
we all try anyway.
637 · Aug 2014
Think Of Me?
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
I wonder if you can find the time to think of me
thoughts crowded with everyone else, anything else
I understand how complicated that must be
yet still, if you could, would you think of me?
627 · Oct 2014
Mediocre Man
Layla Thurman Oct 2014
Give me a mediocre man
Because a man who is too anything
Too talented
Too handsome
Too smart
Too perfect
Is someone I couldn't live with
Because while I worshipped at their feet
They would begin to forget
Why it is, they would choose
Someone as lame as me
618 · Oct 2014
Tell me you love me.
Layla Thurman Oct 2014
I want you
to tell me
you love me
Those three words
Would mean everything
To my poor
And ragged heart
Give it life
Restart it's beat
With three words
Short and sweet
I want you
To tell me
You love me
The same way
I love you
608 · Dec 2014
untitled.
Layla Thurman Dec 2014
I think of how
I used to smile for you
offer you more and more
until I had nothing else to give.
how empty
how lost and lonely
I always felt
and I believed I had enjoyed it
How easily I lied
to myself and to you
in order to make you feel better
while I still went through hell.
all you can say
is that I didn't see
how much you cared
but really, what was there to see?
other than the tears
and the pain
and the desire
the lust for your love
the love I could never win
even though I laid claim to it.
How unfair you were
though I am not bitter
Because now he makes me smile
and it feels genuine
and best of all,
he smiles back.
594 · Oct 2014
Together
Layla Thurman Oct 2014
If you could just tell me
that you love me
the way that I love you
then maybe, we could run away
t o g e t h e r
570 · Sep 2014
Getting colder.
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Baby hold me tighter
its getting colder
were another day closer
to getting older
and I want to spend it with you
567 · Mar 2015
untitled
Layla Thurman Mar 2015
I lost myself again
wandering through your eyes
551 · Oct 2014
Friends.
Layla Thurman Oct 2014
I look at you
and I can't help
but see all of the
wonderful things
Like the way
your smile
lights up a room
Or the way
you feel so warm
even though
we're barely touching
Often times
I find myself blushing
not mentioning
that I notice
the way your eyes
sometimes glance
Sometimes I think
about how perfect
we'd be together
But then
I return to reality
and remember
that She loves you
and He loves me
and We
must just remain
friends
519 · Oct 2014
Grip
Layla Thurman Oct 2014
The pressure
Weighs on my soul
To do better
Be better
Something or someone I'm not
And I'm starting
To lose
M y G r i p
510 · Sep 2014
No Impact Like You
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Cigarettes will stain
but not as much
as the ones you left on me

Razor blades will cut
but not as deep
as the wounds you've given me

For no pain
or suffering
can have an impact like you
498 · Sep 2014
Goodbye
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Look into my eyes
tell me its not real
I can't bear to cry
not in front of you
so please darling
won't you take me
in your arms
and kiss me
just one more time
so that I know
I'm still yours
and that this is not
*goodbye
490 · Sep 2014
untitled
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I don't want your money darling
I just want your attention
487 · Nov 2014
Just Friends
Layla Thurman Nov 2014
I feel as though
after kissing you
I no longer feel
the desire I once held
for you

The passion isn't there
the way I thought it was
It's almost like kissing
my brother, not lover
so please lets just be friends
479 · Sep 2014
Fall loves you
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
The leaves are floating
sliding off your skin
The orange and reddish colors
perfectly match your hair
your eyes stand out more
their blue color so frail
yet so temptingly wild
I know you hate this season
but oh how it loves you
472 · Sep 2014
Alone
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I cant bear to believe
In anything, anyone
Other than myself
All its done for me
Is cause me pain and misery
So I think ill just
Shut it all out
And always be
A l o n e
456 · Nov 2014
untitled
Layla Thurman Nov 2014
The pressure of your lips
Against mine
In my hair your fingers
Are entwined
And with each passing moment
I love you a little more
439 · Sep 2014
Caged bird
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
And now I spot
At all the hateful words
You've written on my skin
I am but your little caged bird
And am left to rot
In this hell you've put me in.
436 · Oct 2014
Beautiful Little Pieces
Layla Thurman Oct 2014
I fell in love with your words
And the way you described me
I fell in love with the way
You were able to detail everything
I fell in love with the reasons
That you broke my heart in
Beautiful
Little
Pieces
398 · Sep 2014
Boy on the Wall
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
My sad little boy
Out on the wall
Clutching the edge
Hoping not to fall

You probably dont know me
I know we've never spoken
But we have a lot in common
Both of our hearts are broken

May I sit next to you
And talk a little while
I know it sounds strange
But I'd love to see your smile

You're kind to me
and funny too
This laugh feels genuine
And your face doesn't look so blue

Even though we've only met
My heart begins to pour
I think this is friendship
Perhaps something more

Now it's a whole year later
And your still my closest friend
Even though we both have someone else
My feelings for you still have no end

So I'll keep the secret
Of the boy on the wall
Only a friend
Is Mr Dark, Handsome, and Tall.
395 · Nov 2014
Untitled
Layla Thurman Nov 2014
I wish I knew you
When I was a kid
So maybe you could have
taken me up in your arms
Just the way you do now
and kiss all my troubles away.
383 · Sep 2014
Not my Cliche Boy
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
You couldn't be cliche to save your life
Your simply too stubborn for that
You see love as a pastime
Not something to seek out
Even when you're with me
I'm not really there
I can tell
You'll never kiss me in the rain
For fear of getting wet
You'll never talk to me about your day
Or ask me how I am
You could never write me love notes
Or give me a sweet nickname
Or even sing along
Because you'd hate for me to hear your voice
Because all of that
must seem so silly to you.
378 · Aug 2014
9-22 12:38
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
eyes so blue
hair of gold
her actions new
her sadness old

she tries so hard
her pain she hides well
never relaxing her guard
her happiness she sells

little miss perfect
thats what they all think
"my life isn't worth it"
she writes in dark ink

water filled tubs
perforated skin
men in scrubs
they load her in

her mother cries
she grasps her hand
her father tries
desperate to understand

but she was already dead
a second too late
wrists soaked red
9-22 12:38
This is dedicated to my friend Julia who killed herself back in 2012
365 · Oct 2014
Hardly There
Layla Thurman Oct 2014
If you left me now
I wouldn't notice
the absence
Because really
you were hardly there
anyhow.
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
Kiss me to the sound of your favorite band
teach me what it is to feel alive
because I have been living so long
But it's been hard and troublesome
Until I met you

I can breath in the air
Taste the flavors on your tongue
I feel so free, and my heart won't stop pounding
I feel like an open vessel to the world
Oh, the way you make me feel

I've never felt this beautiful before
so emotional and human
So free from the numb
No longer hurting inside
I'm finally feeling, finally dreaming


I'm a born again sinner
except I seek no retribution
I want to delve into the world you occupy
with all its ***, drugs, and rock and roll
******* alive

Put your arms around me
Call me your girl
Kiss my lips, my neck, my hips
Because this is all so new
and I want it all

Call me baby
because I feel new
*All because of you
316 · Sep 2014
Your Name Here
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
I'd love to write your name here
So you would know
That all these love poems
Are for you

I'd love to write your name here
So maybe you would understand
Just how lonely
You make me feel

Being with you is like floating on air
Wonderful, with you, the clouds beside me
But I am not a part of you
I am simply there

I don't want to be some trophy girlfriend
Sitting, looking pretty
I want you to want me, need me, love me
The same way I do you

*Because you are my everything
But I feel like nothing to you
305 · Aug 2014
Untitled
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
My head is so full when alone.
my mind races wildly so far from you
I miss the blankness you bring.
303 · Sep 2014
Loving You Is Easy
Layla Thurman Sep 2014
You act like it's hard to love you
But darling it isn't true
Because loving you is child's play
And I do it myself every single day
281 · Aug 2014
You vs Me
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
Can you find the oxygen to breathe
When your smothering yourself with everyone else
Do you understand the complications
The trepidations I have with just being near you.
I'm so easily stressed, depressed, and scared
and giving up my space isn't something I could do
everything is nice, simple an plain.
Being near you is like being part of a neon sign.
all the colors are too bright, the music too loud.
I'm too dull, too soft. I'm not like you.
I could never be a part of you.
It's not because I don't love you
believe me darling I do
But something about me
can't connect with someone like you
I like to pretend sometimes
that I am a part of that bright neon sign
with all the loud colors and bright sounds
but even then I'm still too pastel.
But a girl can dream, at least I think
But in all my confusion I do know
That if I were braver, I would love you.
277 · Aug 2014
Ghost
Layla Thurman Aug 2014
I reach out to take your hand
but your fingers slip from mine

I kiss you in the hallway
but theres never one in return

I wrap my arms around you
but your hands never find my waist

I tell a joke to make you laugh
but no smile reaches your lips

I sit and pat the seat beside me
but you find somewhere else

I send you notes and messages
but there are never any in return

I run my fingers through your hair
but there is no such caress from you.

I still cling to you my love
but I am just a Ghost

— The End —