I wrote this piece while trying to solve a riddle
different color of emotions like a bag of skittles
feeling yellow, green, purple but then end up feeling blue
they ask me who I am I say I have no clue
so they read my words and find me in my poetry
unpredictable I am, blind to false emotions
and numb to true intention
I choose to see the world with my third vision
love me now or fall victim to my words which leave you guessing
stuck in a maze I am amazed, at the pace my past loved my past
repeated emotions like my love had no intention
in class for 27 years and still haven't learned my lesson
Asking for more but subjected to be less then

Rain drops dropping on your dry soul
Wet hands now clap of laughter
Low in self-steem now flying higher
Weak in imagination
scared to see a future without her
She is deeper than the ocean floor
You shallow as a river filled with rocks
Emotions fueld by your insecurities
Now you are scared to be
who you are supposed to be
Stagnate in progression so you regress
Take a million steps backwards
Scared to move forward
Fearing the future
lacking the idea of growth
That one knee will never see the floor
Because you can't see a future with her
But you hold on to her like ransome
While her next one is dying to find her
Leave her be so she can be
free to find her one true love
Her next one

Bodies sold at a retail price
To hearts which are colder than ice
She sold her soul and pride for money
While inside she was dying alone and empty
Beaten and bruised badly
She took every slap boldly
when it came to scars
She had one too many

She a victim of her insecurity
He an addict addicted to ****** gratification
*** driven with no particular destination
At home he had a wife who lost her passion
So prostitutes became his substitution
Seeking them in the day, seeking them at night
Just so he could fill that empty spot

***** at a young age,
so she fornicated with rage
Anger in her eyes
fear in her heart
pain on her mind
Numb to pleasure
she only smiled when she saw dollars
Wore dog collars
as man acted like they owned her

A property for hire between her legs
Men would love her and touch her, hurt and destroy her, abuse her and mistreat her and no one would defend her

To her love and pain all felt the same

I write poetry
To make sure I still have feelings
Living in a numb world
where all of our emotions are hidden
While being force fed other people’s insecurity
No matter why normal feels like insanity
And real seems fake
I pray that my words save me

I’m addicted to your existence
My love is deeply rooted in your heart
When I die bury me next to your ashes

This way your love could arise and reincarnate
In my soul as my lover who never left me

To live and not have loved is a tragedy
So if you are going to love the best of me
learn to also welcome the worst of me
Because as you fight your insecurities, I fight my dreams to never end

I fight to never wake from this lifelong fantasy

Lately I have been feeling at peace with my emotions
Floating in a deep dark ocean
But still finding complete satisfaction
I found a solution to all of my painful emotions

"You"

loving me with complete satisfaction
regardless of my reaction
taking in all of my rejection
Forcing me to face my lack of emotional affection
Teaching me that to love we must take action
You staying around and showing total devotion
Loving me with no limitation

This peace I owe it to you for loving me regardless of my inability to love you to my best ability

This tranquility has become my reality

Without flaws
perfection would mean nothing
That's why I admire your ability to show me your flaws and insecurity
Letting me in and allowing me to build our loyalty

You are more than                          Enough
Sometimes I think           For          Me you
                           Are too much
First you were my crush now you are my




        Love


It’s scary to love you sometimes
The feeling of uncertainty, forces me to feel insecurity, but your love comforts me
And you gave me pages to write in your book of love               Fantasy

I took the pages and wrote us a Novel, now we read about love and what it means to be lovers

Thanks to you I walked out of my


Comfort zone

And now I don’t feel alone

Thanks to you my heart will never feel


(Alone)

They laughed at the caterpillar
Now they admire the butterfly

Their laughter became their sorrow
Pain and agony, they now swallow
While choking on their own egos

Success and Beauty takes time
laugh now cry later
Cry now laugh later
The story is yours to tell
Like tall tales
All fails if pain doesn’t exist in the mist

I hope
I hope you
I hope you know
I hope you know how
I hope you know how you
I hope you know how you make
I hope you know how you make me
I hope you know how you make me feel

Loved....

My name is _____
I’m addicted to poetry
One word changes me
I’ve been an addict for the last 20 years
When I met poetry
I was lonely
afraid to live life because it was scary
I hid in my misery and found comfort in my insecurity
I cried tears faced fears,
cuddled with nightmares, opened old scars
Then I met poetry
Words so deep it touched my soul
Peace it brought to me
In love I now fall
My past poetry helped me forget it all

Admitting my addiction
gives validation to my feelings
I seek no rehabilitation
For this addiction gives me complete satisfaction

I never thought I would see the day in which I drown in love

I beg of you please don't save me

Let me drown in love
For to drown in your love is to love in your deep ocean to surrender all deep emotions

The price of admission to love is craziness

How crazy are you willing to be in order to prove to me that you love me

If not insanity, then please let me be

Smile in the face of adversity
while inside it takes the best of me
tragedy has become my new reality
Inside its cold, my heart frozen
I sleep on a hundred roses while hanging on a thousand crosses
my past meets my future
beauty and pain all sound the same
they all die together
I vanish along with them
Serenade me with pleasure and sweet harmony
as I die a bitter death
dying to find out who I am supposed to be
Looking in the mirror as I face my worst enemy
Inside its cold and Ice seems warm to me

Oh I get it now
He was your go to
While I was your addiction
You were stuck between two lovers
Pleasing both of us undercovers
A secret agent playing under cover

You comforted our egos
While sharing your heart
No wonder why your heart was torn apart

He cried for her to stay
She left with his heart in her hands
Drowning it in her tears
He slept with his fears
heartless he was
A savage seeking his next victim
Insecure growing up with no father
And an addict for a mother
Motherless Brooklyn
your city lights never sleep
Your heart sold for attention to the next buyer
Left alone on an island called Coney
Summer nights become cold as the heart of winter
Creating a cold killer
Oh Motherless Brooklyn she hopes you heal
But in the meantime she hopes
you spend time in hell
As you in hell
For the pain you caused her
Weak men fall victim to their insecurities
While blaming it on their passionless passion
aggressive nature, leaving prints on past lovers
While tucking Their souls under covers
Motherless Brooklyn you have not seen your sin
A fool to love you are
As you fiddle with old scars
You are a victim of a perfect crime

Razor cuts deep
Blood pours slow
Leaking to fill up spaces
Inside his body it stayed in empty places
In so much pain
looking for something within to replace it

Taking deep breaths as he inhales
The devil smiles
As he welcomes him to hell
More cuts more pain
No substance within
Mind goes insane

As he feeds his body more pain
Cuts on his arm leaving history
Marking himself just to feel alive
While inside his soul is slowly dying

Love is not perfect
But it is worth it

Love is not always beautiful
But it will come to you, if it was meant for you
It will make you reflect on the inner you

Love is not always easy
But it will hold you gently
kiss you softly
touch you deeply
move you emotionally

Free your mind
Let your soul unwind
Smile, remember you are beautiful
Pick up your sorrow
leave that ground
Fly to higher emotions,
feel this glorious sensation

Comfort Me
Hold me, touch me
Restore me, heal me
Fill me to feel me
Don’t leave me feeling empty
Alone and lonely
Comfort me in the storm
Keep me warm
Hold me like the womb I came in from
Comfort me today
so I don’t seek comfort in what pleases the eyes
Let me get lost In your heart
Glue my emotions to yours
And pray that they never get torn apart
Comfort my soul
for it knows nothing but the feeling of your love

I know you know
I know how it feels to know the real you
you know
No one else will ever know
The real you we both know

Black in America
Constantly working on proving their worth
But denied rights based on skin shade
Faced 400 years of slavery
Add 400 hundred more years

Black in America
demoralized belittled
Looked at as difficult riddles
brutally murdered by law enforcement Chocked, shot, slammed, denied access to minimum wages
Locked and preserved in cages
Given life terms and long sentences
Without ever writing a paragraph
Forced to live in ghettos
cold street raise cold killers
Institutionalized drug dealers  

Black in America
Living life to prove that their lives matter
Sad to see a people surfer just to prove their worth
Living in a cold earth
Numbing to human emotions
Black in America is scarier
than the war on terror
Reality is equality is just an illusion
Fighting for peace with no solution

She was drown to superstars
Shiny cars
Fast lives Slow hearts, materialistic worshippers
Loud mouths, voice yelling hand clappers
Just to get a point a across

Attitude filled reality stars
She idolized, visualized and internalized
Their lifestyles

Just to end up losing her own identity

Consumed by what she idolized she forgot to open her eyes

Blinded by perception, while dying to gain acception

The summer breeze seduces my face
Inside I die for your embrace
you asked for space, so I gave you an empty universe
These cold summers leave me with mixed emotions
Afraid of feeling lonely while I hide from your embrace
Depression pumping blood through my anxious heart
Its scared to love, because it fears being torn apart
My nightmares live on an avenue, called I dream of having you
Confused between wanting you and needing you
Staying with you or leaving you
These cold summers have me afraid of losing you
While I have faith in keeping you

She picked wars with words
He fired back with silence
Both injured from the battle
They crawled back into a bed full of ice
Hearts cut in slices
Emotions blown to pieces
Bodies cold and numb

Minds so restless
Loving became pointless
As they worshiped silence
Obeying it as it created more space

My heart grew senses
when it started feeling your pain from within
The way it felt your pain was through empathy
Leaving me to touch your emotions
My love was the cure to heal all of your emotional burdens and emotional expressions
All I could utter when pain became a close enemy
was that my love for you was deeper than the struggle you were drowning in

A thousand lifeboats couldn’t save your sinking soul, too many pieces to hold, Vacancy it found on the shallow floor
Showing too much empathy left us both empty, and silence became the ear we expressed our deepest fears to

Unique heart beat, beats on emotional minds
Who should I trust my soul or my mind
Left isolated, feeling Segregated
Body, mind, heart soul so separated
My emotional home invaded
Anger whispers in my ears
Stress smiles as it pierces my eyes
Looking down the hole of emotions
Sad, lonely, depressed, unimpressed
Heart bruised from being beaten
Abused now less used puking emotional expressions
What is this water leaving my eyes
Migraines knocking on my forehead
Begging me to let them in, mind feeling thin
These are my words and emotions I feel when I think of losing you

Today I wrote a poem about a poem
In that poem
I wrote about my mind going insane
The emotions I poured on them
Leaving me numb to pain
Forcing my mind to go with no direction
Worst fear as a writer is having ideas
That won’t leave your brain
Lacking inspiration
Having feelings that can’t be shown
Mental imprisonment, given 25 to life
Suffering to live
While living to die
Ideas tide in millions of words
Only to be expressed in one emotion
Writers block is the disease I suffer from
It’s destroys my creativity
forcing me to judge me
While making me feel all alone
It’s just me and this pen
that can quickly turn to pain
Today I wrote a poem about a poem

I am not afraid of what I can be
I am afraid of what you could be without me

I held you back, because I felt you needed me
But in reality you were always free to be who you wanted to be
What scared me the most was knowing that You would be ok without me

I don't want to be a place card in your book
I want to be a chapter
That makes you wonder
I want to be a chapter
That makes you go deeper
I want to be a chapter
That makes you feel blessed to be a lover

Be the hope you hope to bring into the world
Love strong love hard
Smile long
Show others what it means to hold on to hope
Trust the universe to pick up your energy
Cast out your enemies
Take out your insecurities
Feed your courage and bravery
Be the hope you hope to see in the world

Hopeless souls dance with pain
while sleeping with depression
seeking sensation while blind to their destination
Death welcomes them with open arms
smiling while showing off its everlasting charm
Running from dreams while walking with nightmares
Regret gives them energy, as they ponder on past enemies
Breathing anger while feasting on bad memories

I tried placing my heart in your hands
But you ran out of space
I started Pressing the Escape Key
For you not to see
that you hurt me
As tears overflow my face
Not enough data in your storage (No space)
So you will probably never get this message
well since you won't get this message
I will admit
When it came to you I lacked the courage
To tell you that I _____ you

Crossing roads with no stop signs
Even danger fears me
Love scares me
Risks bore me
Love confessed to be my enemy
For many years it fought me
Till it won me and now it abuses every part of me
I gave it hope but it’s still wants more from me
With every piece of my being it forces me to be vulnerable, show emotions that are relatable
So now every time I say “I love you” I take risks not knowing if that will be the first or last time I say that to you
It was risks that got me this far
It will be risks that will expose my hearts scars

Written poetry on ***** walls
Cleaned by tears of critics views
who choose to destroy your existence
by breaking down your words
stealing your flow while sleeping with your metaphors
destroying your credibility
while attempting to darken your ability
hungry ego's seeking compliments
starve when you pay them no attention
causing tension due to starvation
power is never in the eyes of the writer
it lives in the imagination of the readers
perception filled minds clouded by emotions
thirsting for your reaction, while choking on your analogies
hungry egos must be fed or else.....

A good cry changes lives
Simply letting out emotions
Instead of holding them in
And dying from within

Don't you know that
Festering souls hold on to solid emotions
While sinking in black holes
Fornacating with anger and birthing depression
Complex thoughts twist our brain cells
Forcing us to never excel out of emotional hell
Hiding behind our perception
We act like showing a sign of weakness is taboo
In a society where pain builds up to hurt you
Confused, misused and abused
we let our emotions stay locked in a room
and Pride is the locksmith

Emotions lay at the end of empty liquor bottles
While Pain sits in the middle of his ****** filled syringe
The struggle of leaving love left a feeling so strenge

She drunk her way out of love
As he drugged his way out of love

Getting over love is painful
don't overdose while getting over something that wasn't meant to be
Forcing you to be who you not supposed to be

Remember that addicts were once lovers looking for a drug more powerful than love

Pain is silence covered in beauty
to comfort the lonely.

His fists loved the comfort of her soft skin
He would pound on her
To unlock an emotion
he could never find within
She would take it over and over again
Trading love for pain
As her ego persuaded her to believe
That she could change him
she stayed around him
As he used her
as an emotional punching bag
He showed his emotions
As he punched hers down
Opened new scars, while closing old ones
She was trapped in a love affair
With him and his feelings
Some how his feelings spoke more than he did

It took laying in her death bed
To realize that she couldn’t trade love for pain

You’ve got to learn to leave the table when love’s no longer being served
Stop force feeding yourself emotions
That don’t exist
Find the love that you deserve
Bravery is not fighting for those who left
Bravery is leaving those who hurt you
Broke you, demoralized you, and abused you
So leave that table with a tip for the next lover
Don’t hold on any longer
Any form of disconnect is a sign that you need to write your next chapter
Leaving might hurt now
but your heart will thank you later

Sad leafs fall
As heavy wind blows
Naked branches get exposed

Beautiful colors aluminate the sky
As they flirt with my eye


So I fall in love with fall
the colors, the smell, the wind

I just love it all