Silence overcomes your mind as you sit in tranquility
Breathing every breath as if it is your first and last
flashbacks of memories pasts
History's ghosts come to comfort your broken heart
Every voice in your mind racing to be heard
As your heartbeat fights to be felt
numb you become
feeling as if life is just an illusion    
to your problems you find no solution
but rest easy, this day will pass too
somewhere light is shinning waiting for your long-awaited arrival
stories you will tell of your survival
a pain you feel today will be a love you give tomorrow
so rest easy because at the end of the tunnel rest becomes easy

His biggest mistake is that he loved
his greatest choice is that he loved

Sometime love feels like...
uncomfortable feelings sitting in your stomach
Uneasy thoughts in your mind
Forcing you to hold on to painful thoughts
Of what it would be like to not be loved
Just sometimes love doesn't feel like love
It feels like darkness swarming your soul
Needles pearsing your heart
As your lovers fingertips squeeze out all emotions
Leaving you drained of all feelings
Sometimes just sometimes love does not feel like love

Looking at these stars
Wondering where you are

You woke me in my dreams
and invited me to the moon

You took my mind far
but I feared showing you these tears
I bandaged my own scars
but you opened them and bandaged them again
Hoping I healed to the sound of your heartbeat  

5 a.m. on the moon we dance with our struggles
While hiding from our sorrows
You told me to be quite so I don't wake the sun
because you feared that my soul would burn
and this dream would end  

You bought my heart with your attention and exposed me to the moonlight
Took my sight, and made my love blind

On this moon I float my hope your way
hoping it changes my nightmares to happy tears

When it comes to love...
One day we are running away from it
The next day we are running to it

Sometimes it kills us
Other times it heals us

But no matter where we go
love will always find us

Hiding behind our busy lives
We tell tomorrow to hold on to our sorrows
While we sleep with our pasts
In hidden valleys full of truths
Discovering that we are all insure
Masking our deficiencies with violence
Anger flows through our veins
Hugging our hearts as it hurts
Anxiety knocks on our numb minds
As breathing becomes a hard task

To avoid being vulnerable we blame being busy
We replaced love with fiction
Time with fantasy, Pain with drugs
All sleep walking in our nightmares
The only alarm clock left is reality

No ending, no begining
Just a bottle of emotions shaken up
missing hearts
Lacking location
Was this love or lust
Losing signal, no sense of connection
Seeking validation in order to get satisfaction
Finding it at the end of empty bottles
Sometimes in a needle
Hoping for an end while crying for a sequel

As my words connected to this paper
my thoughts got heavier
feeling the pressure to impress you  
I tried to describe your beauty
but my heart felt jealous and didn't let me
it held that feeling captive close to my soul
and placed my mind as the warden
captured in an emotionless planet

I slept with my feelings
and birthed depression
the pain of knowing that I love you
but fear to tell you
afraid of your reaction

I hold on to pieces of you
through this perfect lens is the image I have of you
your beauty and personal view
When I find the courage, I fear it will be too late
you will have left and found another lover  
Now I write these words to my thoughts of you
From my hearts point of view
I tried moving on but my soul still points at you

Let's
Make
Love
With
These
Words
Open Our hearts
And fly High like birds
But ground our emotions
Like the roots in which Mother Earth planted
Take a chance and make an alpha(bet)
It will take more than 26 letters
to show that we are lovers
Of all the words I could use to describe our love
I pick (serendipity)
because clearly we were meant to be
and it happened (unexpectedly)

How can you look for love
when Christ like love overwhelms your heart
Heals what tore you apart
Touches your soul, loves you more and more

Today and forever no one will ever fill the void like he does

He gives a love that materialism can never replace

He gives a love that heals,
a love that renews your spirit
You need to be in it to feel it
Read of it, pray for it, cry for it, live for it

Some look for it in wealth, and fame
But die never finding the peace to their existence

Sad to see a world full of young Kings and Queens, committing suicide just to feel loved

At the bottom of bridges lays bodies with empty souls, empty pill bottles, empty bullet shells
Crack and ****** needles

Bodies that searched for a Christ like love in the wrong places, fell in love with worldly addiction

Seek him and find salvation, his love knows no ending, his love runs on infinity, his love spells unity

Alive in your hands I am
Dead in flesh but woken in spirit
Struggling to face my burdens
This love of yours I want to inherit
Your love I will fight to earn
Trails and tribulations won't keep me away
Although I struggle to walk your way
You never put me away
You messiah
are a God who will always be higher
Becuase your love is like none other

Love is a mistake a lot of us are willing to make
Risking our hearts for heartbreaks
Falling in it like an ocean filled with emotions
Drowning and hoping no one saves us

Church bells ring
the lord calling you to bring your unclean soul
he that forgives all
is ready to wash you clean
take away all of your flaws
Sunday morning love is in the air
He that loves you is ready to fill your void
Protect you so you won't be destroyed
take away your emptiness
and fill you with holiness
clean your mess
while you say your grace
pray for forgiveness
he even listens to the smallest requests

I was you
and you were me
together we fought our greatest enemy
pain and misery
Got high on love and fantasy
and low on reality
We were two lovers
we couldn't live without one another
I wished we would never lose two letters in the word lovers
The (L and S)
Without those two letters it would be (over)
Hoping this love would grow old like rust
Placing a (T) in front of the word rust
and building (Trust)
we were just two lovers
who couldn't see life without each other

I remember cold nights
Crazy fights
Deep thoughts
Scary moments
I remember speaking to deaf ears
Expressing my deepest fears
Shading these cold tears
Just to be told I wasn’t enough
I was just a moment
I was just someone to occupy your space
Something to embrace your presence
It’s evident that now that you are writing a new chapter, my name won’t be mentioned
But please remember to give me credit for at least taking your class on love
Even though I failed it
I learned a lot from it
I grew from it
If I was to take it again I.....

Twisted tales
Slow summers
ugly snales
Fast winters
Thin bodies so frail
Stay covered under thick covers
Dream of nightmares comfort old lovers
Telling tales underneath bed covers
In those covers they become deeper lovers
9 months later birth another

We love to sleep
But hate to sleep forever
Death is an everlasting reality
In which we pray doesn’t take over
we fear overdosing on sleep
Because we know not where we wake

17 dead, school colored red
President parades hateful speeches
Gun control he says
Crowd yells impeachment
Mass murders roam school halls
Teachers lock shut doors
Please don’t shoot one yells
As the bullet penetrates her skull  
Bullied he yells
Mask on his face hiding his guilty conscious
Gun shot after gun shot
Bodies drop like dead birds flying in polluted air
Mothers outside cry tears
Afraid standing waiting for their child to run into their empty hands, comforted by emptiness
Clinching fists while raging in fear
Gun shot after gun shot
Cops come to the scene cause a scene
Victims rushed to empty hospital beds  
Now covered red
Mothers and fathers hold hands as they prayed
Faith becomes relevant when pain becomes evident
Gun shot after gun shot

Late at night when my eyes can’t close
I lay awake thinking of you
Wondering if you are awake too
The price I would pay to see you
Is beyond limitless
Time is supposed to be the healer to old wounds
but this one is Permanent
It even has a dent in it

This one is deep
You left me with a hole in my chest
Now I stare at an empty soul
Looking at these empty walls
Flirting with empty thoughts
While memories creep into my mind
Just to stop and remind me
That my heart is now empty
and drowns in flaws

I had something to write
But my mind couldn't let me write
It took away my right to write
It held me in prison
the guards were 26 letters I couldn’t put into words  
So in silence I sat, looking at these words with no meaning
My heart dying to define them
But my mind lacking the courage to write them
This writer’s block is a cancer
To which I can’t find an answer
As it happens just before I need to write these words
Stuck in an empty mind of a dead author
Want to advance but can’t go further    
I am a slave to these words and they are my master
Controlling me and forcing me to face my disaster
Until I find the words to write,
silence is what I will feed the minds of my readers

She scared him when she told him to unplug his heart from hers
She touched and played with her open scars
Bleeding, while she visited her past
He tried to repair her
But she was not willing to let him touch her scars
So her heart went far
He ran after her
Only to find her hiding behind her insecurity
Changing her character
seeking a different identity  
It was easier to run away from love
than face her reality
She overdosed on fantasy
And died to the sound of misery

Her love was nothing but a mystery

The past knocks on my broken heart
Let me in it shouts
Seeking to be a part of this life
I am Moving on to Christ
Is my response
Silence is the devil that once manipulated me
Seeking to guide me in a dark path
Broken I was not knowing where I stood
As the storm came I moved like weak leafs  
At the end of autumn
Nothing within to sustain
Empty I was, following trends
Society had me as a consumer
Buy this, wear that, say this, do that
I agreed to everything as if no was never in my vocabulary
Christ had a plan but I was too blind to see
Christianity become a chore
when it should of been my life line
The enemy never attacked me
Because I was fighting in his army
Weakened I was, to a point where prayer
was never a part of my lifestyle
posting statuses, fishing for compliments just to boost my confidence
Young and wild I thought I had it figured out
Living in a fast world
While slowly dying inside
until grace and mercy saved me
Sight restored and now I see

Love seems a bit more frightening in anticipation

Sometimes overwhelming with a million expectations

When in reality all it wants is total appreciation

It sends all of your emotions to one destination
Hoping your soul is ready for a lifetime of altercations that potentially lead to satisfaction

It pulls you out of your comfort zone
Just to make you it’s own

Aching hearts speak louder than healed hearts
They tell stories of being torn apart
Paint pictures of painful art
Images of struggle, hidden below empty bottles
Empty needles which entered numb veins
Just to sustain feeling sane
Love is a drug addicting
Contradicting, controlling,
laced with emotional healing,
mastered by emotional killing,
secrets of the naked soul it’s forced to start revealing
Vulnerable minds exposed
hearts beating at the speed of light
While crying in darkness
Love is a mess cleaned by emotional struggles
Painful but yet appealing
Vengeful but yet caring
Hateful but always loving
Aching hearts trust in pain
to validate their feelings

She wore a mask to hide her personality
It took her lovers heart to unlock her true beauty
Behind the mask, she was who she thought she wanted to be
Running away from her reality
Just so she could feel free
Behind the mask she cropped and edited herself
Only to end up losing her true self
Her value laid in the mouths of insecure men
Calling her names with no substance
Social pages full of likes and compliments
They desired the image she painted of herself  
Never acknowledging that she had a personality  
But He loved her so much
that he took away her mask
Now she smiles a smile so beautiful it can make pain leave the broken heart
She is her and she is you when you found you

A product of change
I morph into shapes as my heart and mind exchange
Harmonic flows electrify my broken bones
Unfinished I am
as the author rewrites my identity
over and over again, with every year given breathing, I find a new me
From the ashes of tragedy I rise
This power I gain was created to help me sustain what’s within
Only these four walls
keep my deepest secrets in
To be complete is to not compete
With a polished exterior hiding my flaws
I know that perfection is an attainable
I sit and meditate, on invisible hate for self
Loving doubt, as if faith was not programmed in my soul
Unfinished I am,
Unfinished I will stay until my birth date meets its final destination

Tranquility equality
I pray this becomes my reality

Wind blows deep
Giving heart beats

Twisted leafs fall
Onto Cold grounds

Love whispered in insecure ears
Quickly turns into fear
Flowing deep enough to awaken heavy tears
Drowning in pain she floats her emotions to a loveless soul
Seeking skies but sleeping on empty floors
Staring at the mirror
Reflecting on the fact that she is insecure
Secured by depression and anxiety
Which comfort her with worrying
She sees no tomorrow
as she is comforted by sorrow

Eventually all wounds heal
Look deep down and see that you will prevail  
find the power to stand still
In the mean time face that fact that

Soulless pits of emotions burn of worthless passion

I love you’s said with no validation
Just words no action
No love, love is a verb not just a word
Confusing your past to your future
Like solving a puzzle with 3 pieces missing
That’s why you can’t see the picture

Please don’t Love me prematurely
Love me when you are ready
Because this love is too broken to be broken again and again and again

Me and my poetry make love
And birth metaphors
We flirt with words and make new alphabets
Gambling on emotional expressions
While reaching written aspirations
we share sensation, desperation, dedication
While searching for deep emotional satisfaction  
sometimes we cry together
Other times we smile together
when it's all said and done we know we will die together
just me and my poetry....

Love costs a fee
When it comes to love nothing is free
We are all incarcerated by emotions we can’t control
Tears that always want to pour
Hearts that skip beats like a child hopping over puddles
Stuck in a love riddle
we can never solve
Eventually we become free
But the price of freedom with love
Leads to lonely hearts
Sleepless nights
Nervousness fornicates with the mind
As it births doubt, pain and emotional torture
Regretting why you over drafted on love
by loving longer, hurting longer
What you fought for you have no longer

Love me as bad as you want to breath
When I am weak I pray you keep me strong
Correct me when I am wrong
Real love is not perfect
It is broken pieces of glass molded together to make a vessel full of promises and wishes
My greatest wish is for you to never stop breathing

For as long as you breath
I know you will always love me

Yellow green cross
Cross yellow green
Green cross yellow

These words jell like melo
I knew an old fellow
Heart cold like ice
Dark inside and shallow

People are quick to send your family condolences
Quick to say “sorry for your loss”

Feeling bad for you
but smile as long as it wasn’t their loss

Hold off on sending you roses while you are alive
But quickly stuff them in your casket
When you pass

The love they fail to express while you are alive
Becomes the regret that inspires the tears In their eyes

The devil lied
when he told your heart
that it will never find love again
You found me and now you are my everything

I crave all of you
Your beauty
Your ugly
Your insecurity
Your thoughts
Your body

most importantly your longevity...

She was perfect
when she allowed herself to make mistakes
In her fall she found comfort in her mess
He was perfect when he allowed his insecurity to show
As she loved him gently and slow
She grew to love him for his flaws
and he grew to love her for letting her pain go
Together they consumed the stars
And watched their love glow