i've worn glasses for as long as i can remember
i can't remember the day i got my first pair
hell i don't even remember what having normal vision is like
if i even had it
depression is a lot like that
once you have it
you don't really remember what its like to not have it
i may not have had it my whole life
yet it sure feels like forever
but thats a thing i've adjusted to
like my eyesight
with a new pair of lenses

time seems to go by slow when you wish it wouldn't, and races when you want the moment to last

-breathe in
-breathe out
-don't try so hard to prove yourself to others
-don't be so ******* yourself
-breathe
-just keep breathing even when it hurts
-don't forget how much you're loved

when you're with them take a step back and ask yourself "is there absolutely anywhere else i would want to be right now?"

tell me everything you were
where you are now
where you wanna be
and i'll try to complete you
help you become
that masterpiece
you always knew you could be

why is it some people will try so **** hard to drag you down to their level of happiness, when they could be working on getting on your level of happiness

i don't know what the future holds, all i know is that i want to hold you in the future

-eat
-drink
-sleep
-try not to think

the only thing i'm following to tomorrow is the involuntary beat of my heart

there's so many beautiful things in the world
works of art in fact
yet with all of that stuff out there
i think i'd just rather look at you

i want to take away your pain
but then you won't be you anymore
because every part of you
even the bad parts
is all that i love about you

we ditched the dance at the high school
and went to have our own fun
while everyone was dancing like a fool
you had me grinning like one

if you truly love someone, let them know, and never let them go.

take me back to those days at the fairground
where it was like our own playground
where your smile seemed to wrap around me
and in your arms i felt safe and sound
take me back to when we weren't so stressed
when we didn't have to worry about time
when we knew we would see each other the next day
and i didn't have a reason to say i miss you

i hate receiving gifts
because i never seem to know
quite how to say thank you
but this year i've decided
the greatest gift i could ever receive
is your love

i have a good feeling that if you put two pieces of paper in front of me and asked me to list negatives and positives about myself, not only would the negatives list be longer than the positives, i'd need more than one piece of paper

i feel like most days i'm just watching my life play out like a tv show or video game i used to like as a kid, but something about it just isn't that great anymore

it used to be
the nights i couldn't remember
were the nights i couldn't forget
but you have changed that
because while i was trying to drown myself
and cover the problems in my head
they were still underneath
i had no hope
until you came along
i was lost
until you found me
and now with you
i'm slowly
finding myself

honey if you don't love yourself, who the hell will?

i look around this town
and see the places i've spent hours with you
it all started at that fairground
in our own little world
laughing until the sun goes down

and as i see these places
i find myself smiling
because there is nothing to do in this town
but we always manage
to make something out of nothing

and as long as i have you
i have everything
in this boring old town

time doesn't stop for anyone, it only moves forward, so to dread on the past is a pointless thing, yet we still find ourselves doing just that

it is the worst feeling
people still having faith in you
when you've given up on yourself
people believing in you
when you don't believe in yourself
it is the worst feeling
people still caring about you
when you couldn't care less about yourself
people asking for help
when most nights you can't even help yourself

tell me you want me
tell me you need me
and promise me
you'll never leave me

i can't imagine my life without you
actually
i'm imagining that right now
and there's tears running down my face

i cannot quite explain the fears inside my head
but they express themselves
in the broken skinned lips i have
and the gnawing on dead skin
they express themselves
in the chewed on fingernails
they express themselves
from the sores from picking at hangnails and scabs
and they express themselves
from popping my joints as much as they will allow
do i look as anxious as i feel
half of this **** i don't even realize i'm doing

i wasn't looking for love
in fact i was drowning in self-hate
i thought i was too much to handle
like a hot pan
but then you crossed my path
and the moment i set eyes on you
i knew there was something about you
i knew i had to talk to you
and now here we are
i'm deeply in love with you
and that's not something
i thought i would be saying
anytime soon

the thing about me
is i will push you out the door
slam it
yet look back
and hope you open it again

you've opened my eyes
to a bright new world that is so much clearer
you've opened my heart
and made myself feel welcome in my own body finally
you've opened my arms
and your body just fits so right

the only promise i can keep
is that i'll love you unconditionally
no matter how hard it gets
no matter what gets in the way
i'll find my way
back in to the arms
i call home

i could be the poorest person on earth
i could be homeless under a bridge
but dear as long as you're by my side
so long as my heart is fuller than my bank account
i may as well have won the lottery

i may not have it all together, but together, we have it all

i never did fully appreciate the stars until i met you. but that's just the thing, they were always there. just like you. i just didn't look hard enough. you're something i didn't know i needed. now that i have you, i've learned to find the beauty every little thing. like the stars. they're beautiful, and they're always there once the sun falls, a lot like how i've fallen for you.

instead of watching the clock, wishing for time to pass, make the most of that time, you never know how long it will last

don't fret about **** you can't change
it will only tear you apart
you are who you are for a reason
perfectly imperfect from the start

wait too long for a sign, and not only will time pass you by, but so will the moment you were searching for.

i wish you loved yourself half as much as i love you

you are a work of art
that words cannot begin
to lend appreciation to
so i just stare at you in awe

you're beautiful
and theres no one
quite like you out there

i am aware
that bad days exist
and will never cease to exist
so it seems
but i know
that there will be good days
or at least days slightly better
than the bad
to give comparison
and yes it's a tiring rollercoaster
i don't like too wild of rides
but so long as you're next to me
for this head-whirling ride
i'll never stop smiling

this love
it may not be conventional
but it is my love
it is your love
it is our love
and baby
so long as you're mine
and so long as i'm yours
this love
our love
is more than i could ever
have wanted
or believed
i deserve

she is afraid she is not enough, yet too much, all at once

i took my shot
though it was blind
i fell so hard
didn't fear the fall
i fell in love
with your beautiful mind
you've made me feel everything
when i didn't feel anything at all

treat me well
or treat me badly
either way
i'm still a *******

as i look at the stars, which i have found more and more attractive everyday, just like you, i see how they align. how they form patterns called constellations, that i have come to find as a constant in my life. they're mysterious and beautiful, just like you. and i want to learn more and more about them, just like you. you see, i haven't always been this obsessed with stars, but i also just haven't got out of my own head enough to see the beauty of such a simple yet complex thing, thanks to you i do so. no matter how far away they are, no matter how hard you have to look, stars are always there, just like you.

your heart lies in the hands of the one you think about when you first wake up, and when you're laying down to go to sleep

when i say i love you
i mean thank you
thank you for loving me
even knowing my past
thank you for treating me
like i never knew i deserved
and thank you for being with me
for i know it's not easy

you are worth way more than their initial appraisal

i must've been homeless for quite some time
because now in your arms i feel like home
because when she gave me a cardboard box
that i gratefully took in as i needed the shelter
you've given me a castle
and have made me feel like a **** queen
how could i even begin
to thank you

i can tell you're hurting
i can tell behind that forced smile
behind that phone screen
behind the poetry you're writing
i've been reading in between the lines
and i want you to know
you can lay it all on me
it makes my stomach churn
knowing you're still hurting
that there are wounds still healing
and i wonder
if i'll be enough to help
or is time the only healer

nothing lasts forever, good or bad, so take in all the good, and don't sweat the bad

sometimes you have to be weak in order to be strong