Once more to far
over the seas
wreckage lays waste
from sunken ships ashore
my guarded heart
treads those waters lightly

Virtual love through screens
what could it be?
expectations left dry
jealously yet again
made broken bonds

Promises left dry
and you went
into another love
goodbye for now

Here I am once more
in a shadow of love

one step foward,
one step back
the never ending cycle
of the unknowing
Like wind
drifting calmly
without direction
yet flowing
accepting the way
only what is,
will be

Past and future just an illusion
Only now is forever
Vivid images in reconstruction
Memories fragmented
Our mind
The bank of riches
Growing in wealth
But robbed by despair

The world is black and white
Until you paint it with colour

So much darkness bestowed upon you, cruel
Wide eyed demons, full of wicked schemes
But you are no fool, nor are you weak
Deviance cannot last
As Darkness becomes light
Look to the leaves and the calmness of the trees
Look to the sun and the beauty that it be
See that nature is you and you are it
Keep strong like the bark, as you have done
See the light deep inside,
Forever has it been
And Never has it left

Bristles brush together,
As wind softly blows
I am jealous of the touch they feel

A wondering mind,
Full of Love, left alone in waiting.
It's hard to let go
But not let go of love.
Missing you is natural to me,
My caring concrete
Cemented into my soul.
Full of anticipation, anxiety
But I've learned to gain control
Tired of this dull feeling
I felt the time to change

So much do I wonder about you
Your feeling, your thoughts
You feel so far, yet so near
Untold adventures left in fog
Wondering if one day it might clear
So much left understood
I feel determined to see you again
But I feel the distance you keep
And I wish it wasn't so

No sadness comes to mind
left with blank expressions

Candid confusion
rattling my cage
aided by momentary anger

I manage my insanity
adjusting the dials
to allow for my sanity

Our words become riddles
how can we hope to understand
did we ever try to?

Calm when I'm alone
but left with ruptures in my head
no light shines in loneliness
just left disguised instead

I still ache for a new beginning
some mutual ground to stand upon
yet I know not how to create it
or even if the chance still exists..

Deep delicate eyes,
as luscious as the forest woodlands
How I long to be lost in them

A desire for your presence
it churns my heart, tenfold.
If only I could swim oceans
at speed..

Our minds deep
woven for hours in words,
Your playful laughter
tugged at my soul.
Vibrations intertwined
How they stopped so abruptly..

My thoughts left in unset futures
looking for ways for us to start anew

reading over the thoughts left behind
now I see my confused state of mind

An imaginary problem
I shoved on you to solve
when it reality,
it's what caused us to dissolve

tormented by the
produce of our age
images seared
I try to leave them backstage

too thirsty for flesh
I am permanently starved
my primitive hunger
my own Jekyll and Hyde

Alone for too long
The radiance of your soul
gave me warmth

A deep bond, torn
back and forth we go,
as if formations of waves

Fearful, as are you
left naive in hope
Reliving memories in dreams

untold futures,
a desire to reconnect
yet a lack of words

A vast distance,
yet such care?
only sincerity lives across oceans..

L O V E ☺                                        ***? (na soz m8)                                      
    H O P E       
                                          fooood
understanding    
  Calm  Chilling       ­                                              too much?
                                         Decisions - not made

                Care ✓                                                            Trus­t  (✕ +✓)
                                     
                 ­                        Overthinking, this one can be a benefit sometimes
but generally it's pretty shiat, I guess it all comes down to what the subject of thinking is.

                                                            ­                              (A N X I E T Y)           
                                                   ­                                                 (F E A R)
                                                              ­                                      (P A I N)



wonder what its like to be in space?

let the pieces fall back together
I'll glue them in place
I'll brace any storm
to hear the calmness of the waves
to see the soft orange sunrise
shards from such terror left behind
can be washed away into the ocean

Deep in eyes of torment
inside lies a cosmic nebula
a battered core, unstable
a flickering mind, disrupted grace
struck by awe inspiring eyes
the paradoxical wave of beauty

into the deep blackness,
we descend with closed eyes.
Yet we dance in delight
as vast worlds tease us in a haze..
snapshots roll through our eyes
as we blast through
deep caverns of the mind.
we watch on,
as our subconscious perform its play.

half the time reality feels like a dream
or maybe I just wish it was.

Laced sunbeams though the
cool breeze and swaying winds..

Kiss me on the cheek once more,
let me take your hand as we
run through dark streets and
bright lights

As we gaze into each others eyes
we know we must part ways
Let us kiss once more..
Let our souls bond into eternity,
overflowing with energy beyond
our existence

wishing we'd connect once again
to forge moments to last.

Caught in a concoction of insanity
on the edge of reality madness jousts with sanity.
On one side taunted with a blackened stare,
Far over forms a light from a whispered prayer.
Isolated entities await the clash of spears,
while both riders rest among their fears.



.

Late night thinking imposed on my mind
confused left bare, completely undefined.
Deep terrors of the mind latching on to me,
fiery feet, fighting to be free, but I'm blind
as I try to see.
The devils persona posses my soul,
I paint my plan as I try to gain control.
A peaceful pilgrimage through hell itself,
the layed out path cursed with false wealth.
Condemned to walk alone down the path
of madness, In hope at the end I can leave
this sadness.

We met by chance
we was happy
then sad
then angry
and confused
distance hindered us
as we lost touch...
But at last we met
with joy in our souls
hand in hand
we lost control..
In awe of each other
and so grateful...
but then we missed
and yearned..
sad again
angry again
lost....
I was misunderstood
you was stressed
I was shattered
you was exhausted
I was confused
you was done
while I looked for answers
to find there was none.

Wondering though the same place
I am reminded of you.
Here you energy lingers,
hand in hand where we locked our fingers.
The photos you took, frozen moments in time
when I was around you everything felt just fine.
The calmest feelings I can't explain,
I miss every moment with you, I just can't refrain.
Enduring torture as I patiently wait
we'll see what's round the corner, I know it'll be great.

Perfect Passion reignited at last,
My heart beats ton fold, so fast.
As I stared into your eyes the world
around us stopped.
Not for a moment was my gaze upon on you
dropped.
Grateful for every moment, I was blessed to
be with you.

be in the soft sands
while the ocean tide gently sways
let the sunset warm your heart
and its beauty calm you mind

Above the surface
glorious souls glisten in star light
no corruption can infect such purity.
Meanwhile in a dark world beneath
innocent minds are suffocated by the black smoke
left in torture without a cure to madness.

It would be easier to not have an identity because then you are not subjected to be judged or labelled by flawed categorizations of society.

A Singularity,
we are irregular anomalies.
Through the black hole,
we create our own dimensions.

The brittle air of night freezes my lungs to solid ice,
I am left with just a gasp of air to hold on to.
I can feel my brain crystallize into thin ice sickles
the numbness forms an impenetrable shell.
I wait silently in darkness for the warmth to return
and free me from my cold pressed shackles.

Space and time ripped,
awe inspired eyes watch on as they accept their impending doom with graceful hearts.
for a moment time stops...
those left in their last moments turn to share love in its purest form
life and death are left as constructs compared to cosmic love.

Clouds at soaring heights,
If only I was as high as them.
Fluffy whiteness in heavenly blue skies,
drifting through the storms of night.
Above the horizon the wind is calm,
peace just inches from desolate space.
The sun's powerful brightness is blinding,
its sweet beams carry a gentle warmth.
How is it I can relate so much,
to this simple sky.

It plays out like a violin,
vibrations back and forth on string,
fragile and thin.
It can rattle the soul in pain,
or soothe it into gentle peace.
Love is like a violin.

Staring
..
..
..
emotionless,
numb,
my thoughts have vacated,
no words are left.

a word to define no words?

   (yranoitcid,
definition : A dictionary with no words.)

Society fails to identify its flaws,
happily leaving those in need behind.
Corrupted madness runs our lives,
we let fools be fools, as we turn a blind eye.
We fail to see past our delusions,
telling ourselves that everything is ok,
but its not ok, nothing is 'fine'.
Censored from our own Emotions,
Don't cry you'll be ok,
everything will work out,
once you meld into the norm.
We are left to wade through ******* while
brave souls are left to fight alone in their minds,
poisoned by the toxic gas of a broken system.
Can we just stop for one ******* second,
to look in the mirror,
and ask why....

Why is nothing changing?

Worlds collide,
the tectonic plates crash in chaos.
Shattered hearts and minds,
left in the deep dark.
Wading through black smoke,
corrupted lungs thick in tar.
Fighting together through madness,
the only hope they have left.

A blank dictionary
I am exhausted of words.
Left with pages bare,
unable to articulate.
But to say it simply,
I miss you.

Cut and bruised,
from the shrapnel I left behind.
Solitary confinement,
alone in a bleak silence.
Trying to break a titanium safe,
wondering of secrets that lay.
Shunned away,
left to rot in my own madness.

Nauseously numb,
in an energetic emptiness.
Broken and unbroken
imperfect in balance.
Sailing in the seas of love
as a relentless storms rages.
Devils dance on deck,
While angels play the harp.
Ancient anchors too rusty,
We sink to the deep blue depths.
Drowning in our own demise,
trying desperately to stay afloat.

Formed in the furnace
of colliding matter,
from colorful dust we arose.
Our journey is timeless
and complex to the core.
Yet we bravely stand bold,
as we venture into the unknown.
Gifted with love and given
strength by connections.
Our Existence in itself,
a miracle to behold.

Frightened to be fractured,
gentle genetic structure,
overwhelmed by emotional power,
rational thoughts seize to exist.

Armor coated armadillo,
left with no love,
crashing over tall spiked hurdles,
left crawling inch by inch.

Faithfully loyal and humble,
innocently in confusion,
Drifting along to find his way,
his love is a vast infinity to explore.

Tapping and typing,
the thoughts in my head.
But nothing compares to words that are said.

Thrown into the the abyss of life,
without no training, no way to suffice.
Were told to go along with the norm,
but we have no patience to be conformed.
But were bold hanging on by thread,
as it passes through us without any dread.
I know that everything is hard to contain
but don't be fooled, just please restrain.
There are many things that will come to pass
but its not these things that are going to last.
Impossible things that seem out of reach,
will leave you wise and left to teach.

Fragile rock left floating through,
it sways to and fro,
among-st the abyss of the universe.
Shimmering dots paint pictures in our sky's,
visionary imaginations of what might lie beyond.
But Before we venture out,
we must repair what we have.
Tilting on the scales of life,
we hang steady in the balance.

No love will be lost,
for love is a gift.
Although love can fade,
it will always exist.
Although pain will be caused,
no love will be lost.
We would gladly risk it all
whatever the cost.
And so the illusion of pain
has no grasp on us.
It will fade into dust
and be left to discuss.
For love is to mighty,
with one hell of a wrath.
For it will come and go,
as it blesses those in its path.

Sweat drips down my face,
as I run and confront my thoughts.
I come to a realization of how I
shouldn't overthink things.
Chasing my own thoughts,
when they should be chasing me.
Creating problems in my mind
when I should be free.
but I'm past it now and have found
a way to deal with it.
So when the time comes I can fix
anything that may be broken.
Because isn't that the purpose
of being the best you.
understanding and helping others
is what everyone needs to do.

False paranoia I must learn to control,
spilting splinters placed within my mind.
Trying to latch on to every postive thought
creating a safe place for me to wonder.
But still smoked in illusion,
persuaded of problems that never existed.
Vicious trickster to myself,
convinced that something has to be wrong.
It made me blind to the problems that burden you,
not thinking twice of the things your going through.
Turning positivity into false negativity,
I can only offer my sincerest apologies.
Hoping my words can be enough,
for you to forgive my madness,
for us to talk again.
I want to be there for you,
For us to understand each other
creating an everlasting pocket of happiness.
For us to be able to talk about anything that troubles us,
to be there for one another when nobody else is around.
I wish not to ask to too much of you,
I wish not to control you,
I just long for your presence,
because I feel empty without it.

Battered bones left scared through battle,
oozing with blood in a painful brutality.
Wondering through limbo,
silent suffering.
Frozen in torture,
an unfathomable loss.
Fingernails disintegrate in dirt,
grasping with an invisible grip.
Pure hatred within his eyes,
seeking a premature revenge.
No intentions of failure,
obsessive determination.
Into the breach once more,
to chase his just cause.

Magnetic feelings with the might of gravity,
visceral caring, deep and unbounded.
My body charged with pulsating energies,
excitement everytime we exchange words.
A brief moment the moon bonds our souls
Far distance between us, yet so connected.
Always learning from one another,
open minds and open hearts in convosation.
A touch not yet felt within the physical realms,
the only feeling that we are yet to share.
I Look beyond your astonishing graceful beauty,
to find a soul of intriguing purity.
I hope that this emotion can last forever,
for I would fade away without it.

wonder down the street
eyes stay fixed
whislt I observe each detail
everyone somewhere to be
can't everything slow down
for just one moment
but I get it I do
were in an unadaptable society
told to go along with the norm
told to conform
it doesnt feel right
we drift through life
with hidden ambition
with hidden dreams
stuck in routines
hoping that life will be differen't
to see a improved world
we have to be patient
it will come in time
change is inevitable

My head in riddles,
poisonous snakes latch onto every thought,
every feeling, leeching out every essense of
purity until I'm left dry in thrist.

I feel the pressure of the acids pulsating through
every nerve of my living body, slowly torturing,
paralyzing me from the inside out.

But I can still feel the dim flicker of light,
the one feeling, the strongest of them all,
hidden the deep in the caverns of my exsistence.
I will crawl with my fingernails, with every
last breath to reach this light.
I will bleed before I allow myself to become
paraslysed into darkness.

These devious creeping shadows will be cast out,
the abundance of light will take over, I will be free.
I am ready to step into self liberation.

Eyes of pure radiance, a universe born within.
A voice of eligiance that soothes the soul.
A laugh that emits happiness in all directions.
Emotions so innocently fragile, but pure.
Strong willed to have endured such pain.
Every common intrest sparked excitement.
Soo much more to discover about you, lost.
Deep, sincre feelings, they won't fade.
I must move on before it consumes me,
move on but not forget, I won't,  I choose
not to.  I am glad you found happiness,
now I must search for mine, wherever it
may lie.