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Jan 2016 · 1.0k
Utopia
Ryan Jan 2016
Ocean waves crash in eligant chaos,
the calm fury rattles in my ear.
The hazy beams of the sun bless my face,
my skin retreats to a relaxing sweat.
I feel the mushy sand bond between my feet,
as a refreshing gust of wind passes through.
The wildlife syncronizes in sound,
mother natures conducts her orchestra.
This is the true design of life,
This is my Utopia.
When you have no where else to go, go here.
Jan 2016 · 340
Lost
Ryan Jan 2016
These feelings won't fade,
its too deep and sincre.
It doesn't make sense,
I know this.
Too much do I look to the sky,
wondering if you ever look back.
How I wish things were simpler,
doesn't everyone.
Still confused, convinced I did something
wrong, somehow.
Maybe what I thought never exsisted?
I guess I should focus on my life now,
But I don't know how or where to start.
I have such much passion to give to life,
I just don't know whether I can do it alone.
Don't think iv'e ever been this lost, my feelings are going to consume me soon. trying to be positive but idk feels so fake.
Jan 2016 · 407
Stuck
Ryan Jan 2016
I don't know how to help myself,
where do I even start?
I could write paragraphs of words,
enough to fill miles of the open world.
but these words don't help to change,
they only help to vent out thoughts.
When will the real change happen?
there is so much to see and do...
yet it feels pointless on my own.
I can't seem to grasp it,
repeating routines, how can anyone be satisfied.
I need to meet more people,
I dont know where to start, where to go...
Just completely stuck.
Dec 2015 · 485
Wake Up
Ryan Dec 2015
A haunting envy sparks over my
corpse like solar flares from the sun.
An outburst so deep inside the
cavities of a sleeping soul.
Too long has been kept this feeling
of disconnection and disbelief.
Its time to wake up now.
Dec 2015 · 685
Gazing beauty
Ryan Dec 2015
Gaze up at the sky,
wonders left in solitary.
Yet eyes connect,
sharing a mutual feeling.
A shimmering darkness,
so graceful in existence.
Purity perplexed,
left still in isolation.
sometimes taking time to gaze up into the night sky and console with thoughts can present such blissful beauty.
Dec 2015 · 290
Untitled
Ryan Dec 2015
a constant stress,
depressed.

a inapt feeling,
unhealing.

a unchangable mind,
unkind.

a warped vision,
undriven.

a dampened state,
irate.

a longing for more,
sore.

a wanting to change.
need to make some change from being stuck in a self-created prison...
Dec 2015 · 389
Thyself
Ryan Dec 2015
If gusts should be on a foreboding night,
lay down upon the cremated ground.
Do not be fooled by a world without light,
for these shadows may consume thee.
Check ever corner that shall pass,
for deviance will not be held back here.
Encountered illusions shatter like glass,
do not let these foul creatures consume thee.
Thy heart is strong and filled with courage,
for this will shatter such opressive power.
Belief in ones self is the highest knowlegde,
these creatures cannot consume thee, for thou
can only consume thy self.
Dec 2015 · 292
????
Ryan Dec 2015
Connections laced on a thin fibre of hair, diminishing,
a once felt happiness fades away like waves,
a true passion inside, fire burning, unfinishing.

Honesty buried deep within the dirt of earth,
scarse to find a willing person to bare thier soul,
thier subconscious awareness searches for thier worth.

Mazed thoughts unable to reach the end,
a complex puzzle, an uncrackable safe,
a decadent direction of a willing faith.

A stressful peace unheard off,
like a light to a moth, a frail confused mind.
a seared picture on a glazed eyelense,
Unable to let go of such inadequate thoughts.
doesnt even make sense really
Ryan Nov 2015
In a void of deep depression for too long,
same sad songs on repeat I know my hearts gone.

Stuck inside i'm a prison to myself,
confined to restraints, this invisble strait-jacket
maybe I should just hit the hammer, nail in the casket.

But after all these negative thoughts, you learn one thing,
everyone goes through hard times, its a part of lifes sting.

You have to learn to scale darknesses cutting egded claws,
learn to live with yourself, we all have flaws.

Once you hold a deep trust within your soul,
the universe will move out of your way, you become whole.
And in the grand scheme of things all problems are null.
Nov 2015 · 319
Emotional Disguise
Ryan Nov 2015
Constant debris within my mind,
most of which I cannot seem to define.

Medusa's stare turns my heart to stone,
How long will I have to stay alone.

Emotions locked up within a volcanic core,
It rages with an englufing fire,
It waits to see what I truly desire.

My thoughts collide within the cataclysm of space,
endless blackness I see, should I
hold back, should I embrace.

This questions that bombard my conscious being,
a code that I cannot crack,
or see with my own eyes for this is truly my disguise.

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