She stares out the window each day
Before the sun sets away
Drinking tea and wondering
What could other people be doing?

There was nothing to see
Just buildings
And hanging clothing
On other people's housing

The wind blows
Her eyes blur
She sips tea
Her mind leaves

The images of yesterday comes
The emotions of today emerges
In her mind she hums
And with the wind she surges

No one could really understand why
This girl would want to fly
All her thoughts are recurring
But only the window knows what she's thinking.

You push my nightmares away
Then change my dreams to reality.

In this particular bed
Some tears were shed
Big enough for two
But too small for you

Secrets were told
Promises were made
Fights were cold
Hugs were great

In this particular bed
I found a friend
Too hard to say goodbye
I wish you good luck tonight

Bed bugs came
Parasites bit
I cannot blame
But we had to leave

In this particular bed
Memories were made
We'll keep them high
We'll remember till we die.

I wonder if you have ever turned around to see me when you entered the airport
I wonder if you have ever thought of turning back to hug me for one last time
I wonder if you have ever thought of me at all while you waited to board the plane
I wonder because I have.

I fell in love with the way you looked at me last night
I searched for the stars but only to find them in your eyes
There were no words spoken
Only music has broken
the silence of the night.

I wish I could've read your mind
What could you possibly be thinking
while listening to my singing?
I wish I could've stared for a while
But you might've noticed the
dilation of my eyes.
I like you, that's why.

Like the cigarette I smoked last night,
My body craves for you
Like the nicotine that entered my blood
My heart pumps blue

The feeling of high on my first light
As to how I am when we are together
But you are like the smoke emitting from the tip
I see you once, then disappear forever.

You're the calm in the sea of chaos
You're the light at the end of a tunnel
You're the first raindrop in a desert
You're the rainbow on a gloomy weather
You're the smile on my face
You're the sparkle in my eyes
You're the song I want to hear
But you're the sand in an oyster
A debris that makes a nacre
You inflict pain, yet produce something beautiful like a pearl

I am no artist
But I paint with my tears
Eyelashes as brushes
Canvass on my bedsheets

Every morning when I remember
The history we've made together
I paint the memories
I recall the stories

My eyes burn
Forgive me
My tears flood
I am sorry
My mind shuts
Please tell me,
*"I'll take you back."

I cannot read
Help me understand
the words
you're putting down
Tell me
the reasons
behind your
actions
I want to
decode
your messages
Are we friends
or are we
something
more than that?
I cannot read
your thoughts
Show me
the underlying
meaning
of your being.

You're the sunshine that peaks through my curtains in the morning
The sound of the birds chirping on my windowpane
The first cold breeze I feel after a long run

You're the star that never leaves the night sky
The sound of the leaves in the wind
The silhouette of the trees at night

You're the voice I want to hear last
The face I want to see in my dreams
The hand I want to hold in my sleep

You're the beauty in every imperfection
The flaw in every decision
The balance in good and bad

You're everything I've ever asked for. ❤️

I think I know why
You're so jealous
I think I know why
You're thinking I still love him

Your thoughts
Are a reflection
Of you heart

You get jealous
Because you are still in love
With your past
But it has locked its doors
And you cannot enter

And so you think
That maybe, maybe
I, too,
Am knocking
On my past's doors.

But I was the one to lock the doors
I can't see why you get jealous
When in all truthfulness,
I don't love him anymore

But maybe, maybe,
Maybe you're the one still knocking
On your past's door.

You could be out with friends when you said you were watching TV
You could be drinking beer when you said you bought a bottled water
You could be out with girls when you said you were staying in just so you could talk to me
You could be doing so many other things and I wouldn't know a single thing
I wouldn't know if it were true or if it were a lie
I wouldn't know if your 'I love yous' meant something
I wouldn't know anything because everything is virtually said and done

I'm in a dimension
Where everything is nothing
And nothing is everything
Like you and me

Like catching wind with your hands
You felt it
Yet you got nothing

Like using chopsticks to scoop water
The sticks got wet
But you scooped nothing

They say,
Prevention is better than cure
But I say,
Experience is a better teacher.

Let me wait
But if it means forever
Then let me wait forever

You are like the ocean
Your personality is a mix of
   turquoise, indigo, and blue.
One minute you are calm
The next you are in rage.
Today you are happy,
Tomorrow you are sad.

I want to be your sunrise,
Each and every day is a new
   beginning
I want to be your sunset,
Each and every night is the ending to
   all your sadness.

If you could just let me enter in your
   life
I could help you catch the stars
Drink them in little cups,
We'll sparkle in the night.

I've been swimming in the sea for so long
Dehydrated. Exhausted. Hopeless.
The waves are eating me alive
While I try and crane my neck higher and higher to breathe air
The rough and angry waters pull me down like the Devil's Snare
And the only way for its defeat is the touch of your hands,
Pulling me out of the waters
For so many times, I've chosen to let it eat me alive
Like how Ronald Weasley kept on moving while the Devil's Snare swallows him faster
But I think, I am calmer now
It's time to go ashore and rinse myself from the salty and sting-y water.

I went out and saw a rose in a field
It was young and fragile
No thorns as shield
Then it looked at me and smiled.

I saw a rose in a field
It needed me
And I needed it
Must I stay or must I flee?

The petals were in full bloom
Scent all over the room
How do you resist such beauty?
I have cared for it deeply.

As I took it by hand
Its thorns pricked my heart
How can something so fragile
Hurt you the most in this life?

I saw my rose in the field
Withered but still beautiful
I hoped of getting it once more
But the wind carried it to the north

I came home and saw a rose in my garden
It was tall and strong
Thorns all around its stem
It will stay with me long.

Your brain
wants you
to believe
but your
heart doesn't.

The lazy waves washed me ashore
An hour before I turn twenty four
The white sand on my feet,
I watched the sun as I fall asleep

A familiar tune I hear,
The songs of the wind in my ear
The party in the island is near
I am awakened by the dancing of the trees

Come birds
Come fishes
Come all creatures of the earth
Come and I'll tell you my wishes
Deliver them to the heavens,
The moon, the stars, and the sun
Fly! Swim! Run!
My party has just begun.

I love you so much,
I'm starting to hate you.

The coldness of my heart
Made avalanche of words
Covering you in cold, hard blocks
Spilling from my mouth,
You almost died inside

The weakness of my mind
Made a landslide of actions
Grounding you in wet, muddy soil
Rolling down from my thumbs
You left me for good that night.

My heart breaks each day
Hoping for you everyday
But I am only:

holding hands with your shadow in the light
hugging what's left of your scent in the wind
kissing your lips on that neatly folded napkin
sitting on the warmth of the couch you've just sat on
walking with your foot prints on a warm sunny afternoon

My heart breaks each day
Knowing that you are within arm's reach
But you already belong to someone else's arms.

Oh!
How wonderful Death is
He receives all those we lost
without force, without bribery

Oh!
How I wish I could be Death
For all those I love long for him
People of all ages look for him

Hmm..
How does Death feel?
If all the sorrow are thrown onto him?
If all the broken dreams are dumped in front of him?

But oh!
Above everything said,
I wish I was Death!
So I can be with you again

Is this possible?
I'm falling for someone I barely know.