everytime i look at you, more flowers grow from my heart and the sun shines a little brighter
your eyes are full of galaxies and i just want to sit and stargaze until i discover every last one.
your voice makes me feel so safe and i could talk to you for hours about anything and never get bored of hearing the sound of your voice. and your voice is the only one i want to hear for the rest of my life. so please don't leave.
with all my past relationships, i wanted to go too fast just to get to the end. but with you i want to take it slow just so i can savor every moment of your existence
i have struggled with falling asleep at night but when i imagine you holding me and making me feel safe, i can sleep so easily now.
you warm my heart like a cup of tea
on a cold autumn day
your warmth envelopes me
please don't go anytime soon
stay here within me
you hurt me and i said sorry
you ran away without a word
we're just talking about our future, and i've never wanted to fight for something so much in my life.
i downloaded your songs (i hope you don't mind) and sometimes listening to the sound of your voice is the only way i can fall asleep.
dancing to alternative music
spinning around the room
a pint of ice cream in my hand
what a good moment
You called me your girlfriend and held my hand
You lifted up my spirit and healed a broken piece of me
Then you say we're not together
I knew it all just happened so easily
Why would someone like you want me?
Trust me, I'm fine.
Why did I think you could be different?
Maybe I'm being dramatic
But my heart breaks so easily
And that's why I don't open up so easily
I honestly don't feel like being shattered again
I just put all my pieces back together
Just a few days ago
I was put back together again
and you know what?
I did it.
No one else was around to help
And then you showed up
I was hoping that I wouldn't have to do it alone anymore
I know we just met
But I get my hopes up so easily
And I thought you'd be the one to save me
Why do you think I approached you?
I don't usually do that kind of thing
But it's fine.
I don't mind.
I just have to get used to being hurt again
by everyone in my life
I should just give up on love
And I just have to pretend like I'm okay, right?
I've been told that my fake smiles look so real
I can lie
And pretend I'm fine
Because that's what I'm used to
I don't let anyone see me
The real me
Because they have the ability to hurt me
And almost everyone I let know me had the audacity
to use that against me
I destroy myself when I'm hurt
I can't eat
I can't sleep
I can't freaking breathe
And I'm a crybaby
I cry about everything
Everything I feel goes straight to my heart
and shatters it
And why would you be interested in that?
I'll just have to change my heart into shatter-proof glass
So just lie and say you're alright
Lie and say you're alright
Lie and say you're alright
Lie and -
i'm jealous of the sun because it's the first to see you. i'm jealous of the coffee cup that gets to kiss your lips every morning. one day i'll be in their place.
i am not easy to love
i am broken
you can't just plant kisses on my skin
and expect me to grow
the beginning of us lit up in existence and wow, darling, i've never seen a galaxy so beautiful
you are enough. a thousand times enough.
i love you. i knew it the moment i met you.
you are healing every broken piece of me, one by one. you're filling up the holes in my heart. you're mending all my broken bones. you're suturing all my deep cuts. you're kissing all my scars. you're healing me. you are replacing all my heart ache with love. the battle wounds i obtained from previous relationships are almost gone now. all because of you. i've never trusted my well-being with a person like this. you are my lifeline. and if you left, i would surely die. ten billion bullets right through my chest, leaving me breathless. i trust you not to pull the trigger.
i woke up
and decided i didn't want to go to school today
i need a break
from everyone, and especially him
i do not need to see his face
so i made myself my favorite herbal tea
add two and a half spoonfuls of sugar
not three, three's too much and two is not enough
also you need to add a lot of honey
i'm sitting here in my new yellow room
with my new wildflower bedsheets
and the star-shaped glitter in my lava lamp
reminds me of the way i want to shine
and i immediately though of dance
and how i could prove to people i'm more
every drink i take
fills me with peace
and i close my eyes
just to take it in
i don't get too many moments like this
the orange coffee cup
reminds me of you
you said you liked the color orange
and how come i now like it too?
i think i'm falling for you
if that's wrong, please tell me
i don't want to make you unhappy
in this moment, i felt happy
i actually feel something again
and darling, it's because of you
my soul is drawn to yours and nothing will change that.
the sound of your laughter is my favorite song and it's constantly on repeat in my mind.
i don't care if you love me or not. i'll still love you anyways.
look at you... you are everything.
paint me some wings
so i can fly away
my life instantly gets a little better every time i hear and see you laugh.
it is so much easier to fall asleep when you're the very last thing i see before i close my eyes.
every time i see you, my heart races and i fall and fall and fall. no, i don't fall. i feel like i'm coming home.
losing you is a funeral i don't want to attend.
i never want to stop making memories with you.
page after page after page
these words are always about you
a soulmate isn’t someone who completes you. a soulmate is someone who inspires you to complete yourself. and that's what you did. you inspired me to complete myself. and now i am whole.
one of my favorite songs
is the one where
my heart beats faster
when i make you smile
A final, sad tear whispers
betrayed by the love
i've spent my whole life making other people happy when all they did was leave.
we will be okay. we will survive. we will make it. because we're crazy about each other. i'm crazy about you.
maybe you do
maybe you don't
i don't see you anymore
where did you go?
did you decide to go to college?
you graduated last year
i cheered for you at the ceremony
we didn't get to talk though
you used to work at walmart
maybe you still do
but i'm still in school
i remember waving to you every time i saw you
and you knew i liked you
you always smiled at me to make me blush
and it worked
i remember when we first met
in the back of a school van
on our way to some plastic company for a field trip
you were a senior
i was a freshman
the trip was for seniors only
but the teacher liked me
so he let me go
you knew my sister
and that's how we met
it's crazy how things happen
we would wave to each other every time we passed each other in the halls
and eventually, we had a handshake we would do
there were many times my ex was being an *******
and made me cry right in the middle of school
and you would always be there to comfort me
then my friend told you i liked you
and i was always a coward when it came to this stuff
but i walked up to you in the hallway
asked if you had a girlfriend
you said no
but that you weren't looking for a relationship
i was upset
but it was okay
i wonder where you are now
every time i saw you
my heart would race
i bet if i saw you now
it would do the same thing
i still remember your voice
i wish i could hear it again
i miss you
i can't wait to hear your voice heal all the broken pieces inside of me
i want to write poems on your skin with my lips.
"why would you want to marry me, anyhow?"
"so i can kiss you anytime i want."
sweet home alabama
and if i could, i'd kiss you till my lungs gave out.
i don't love you anymore
i know that for sure
i'm in love with someone else now
but why did my heart hurt a little
when i saw you with someone else?
i never want you back
i never even want to look at you again
i haven't looked at you in days
but our eyes met today
and my heart dropped
you were my first real love
maybe i'm glad i didn't have many relationships in school
because after you break up
you see pieces of what you used to be everywhere
the bleachers in the gym where we first met
sitting with friends in the far right corner
where our eyes met for the first time
walking in gym where we first kissed
and i screamed and ran away
because that was the first time i kissed someone
outside the gym at those tables
where you lifted me on top of you and kissed me
the seats all the way in the back of the auditorium
where i touched you for the first time
the bathrooms downstairs where you took advantage of me
and i'm scared to let anyone see that part of me now
your hands in private places
i never want to feel again because of you
and that's why it takes me so long to give that piece of me
the inside of the gym when the lights were off
where you pulled me in
and pushed me up against the wall
and then lowered me to the ground with you on top
that was the first time i was afraid
the courtyard where you would hold me every morning
and we would fall asleep in each other's arms
the cafeteria would we would talk to our friends every morning
and where i would stand against the wall
waiting for you to remember i existed again
the benches by the front office
where we would meet each morning and hold each other
the hallway downstairs where i ran away from you
after running from the bathroom where you hurt me
the library where you stared at that other girl
right in front of me and admitted it
and where we skipped many classes together
outside that one room where i cried
asking you if you were really breaking up with me
the windows at the front of the school
where you broke up with me and i cried
harder than i've ever cried before
and people were staring
but i was too sad to care
the parking lot where you would walk me to my bus
and you wouldn't even kiss me goodbye
the stairwell where you would pull me close
and kiss me, grabbing me until we heard someone coming
the doors that exit the school where you would wait for me
and i would throw your sweatshirt i was wearing at you
so many places, so many memories
sometimes i see a place where we made memories
and i stop and stare
and every time, i feel like crying
i just want to pretend you never existed
how do i delete all the memories?
all i want to do is come running home to you.
you are my whole existence. and i will love you until my last breath.
just stay. forever and always.
i cannot tell you exactly what happened. all i know is, in the past few days, i fell deeper in love with you and i know for sure i am staying there forever. i can't ever love anyone else again. all i know is, i just want to be as close as i can to you, and i will never let go.
the feeling of the keyboard under my fingertips
the ease of typing
words flow from my heart
into my veins
and escape from my fingertips
i could write anything
anything at all
as long as i hear and feel
the letters forming under my touch
i remember when i was little
i used to go to the public library all the time
in the kids' section
there were these 3 books full of scary stories
i swear i got them every time i went there
i loved them
even though it scared the **** of me as a little kid
i guess i was just getting myself ready
for the demons that would show up in my head
not the best
so am i just nothing to you now?
is that what is happening?
the thought of waking up next to you warms my heart and puts a smile on my face.