another lonely friday night
a night of lost thoughts
craving someone's company
somebody to talk to
i don't want every night to be like this

we had a spark
i swear it
how
how come these days
we are as strangers
never once sharing secrets
doing things that lovers do
truth is
we will continue to drift
apart
you may forget me
completely
but i will always think of you
always

somebody please
grasp my failing heart
make it beat again
in a way that goes on and on forever
make me believe
that this is not the end
give me love
enough love to keep me alive

baby
take it easy
on my heart
i'm not like the other girls

grab your guitar
play me a song
pour out your heart's delicate feelings
melt me with your warm lyric
spark the fire within my wearied soul
enchant me
with your love song

cold nights
hot tea
sad thoughts
happy dreams
quiet chatter
loud laughter
small steps
huge leaps

okay okay okay
i am not who you wanted me to be
let's face it
i never will be
but i made a promise
to start being true to myself
and if you can't respect that
i don't need you around

stop
take a breath
relax
take another breath
picture an open field
vibrant green grass
warm sun
pretty scented flowers
fresh air
you feel peaceful
free
you wander
barefoot through the soft grass
your mind clears
you are safe
content
breathe

wow
i am me
no one else
can crawl into my head
and know my thoughts
i will grasp control of my life
and go my own way

she hates her reflection
hates her chubby arms
her chunky thighs
she wants a thin waist
perfectly slim legs
she craves perfection
not seeing what everyone else sees
absolute beauty

i want a long night
spent with the moon
maybe he'll listen
to my twisted thoughts
give me kind words
to carry with me
'til the morning breaks
and for the days to come

are we all too far away from each other
to notice those in need of extra love
there are many quietly hurting
silently dying
take more thought
give more love

i may be ugly
but my music taste is
better than yours

sitting here tonight
all i think of is you
i hear your voice
your laugh
i miss you
my darling
i miss you so much

i wish to find
more of my kind
a group of humans
in which i confide

oh you flew by
before i could say hi
you existed
only for a fleeting moment
what if i had stopped time
and made you mine

waiting
waiting for that new beginning
when everything comes together
and i feel alive again
and my worries have drifted away
i feel free and i'm truly my best self

she slowly escapes the pain she was trapped in
rises up like an eagle
soars above the rotting lies that once weighed her down  
and lets go of her past

throw your broken hearts away
you don't need them
go find new ones
fill them with real love
from within
begin again

i don't take any of it back
it's all part of the being i am
why should i apologise
this is me

i used to see in color
life used to be bright
now
everything is black and white
the colors have seeped out
everything is bland
it all looks the same to me

slightly inspired
but not quite enough
to shake out of this dull routine
and grow into my own
but someday soon
i'll fly freely forward

i am sick of not being entirely myself
i think it is time i let go of people's expectations
and do my own thing

the hunger i feel
the emptiness inside me
befriends my broken heart

she draws away from the crowd
wanders off to her kingdom
silent and free
in her own mind

you made my days brighter
like really
things were so much better
when i was yours

one of these days you'll realize
what you mean to me
every now and then
i see a part of you
i've never seen

don't let anyone stop you
don't let anything hold you back
as each day goes by
you will grow
closer with yourself
becoming the person
you were meant to be

i miss those times when i didn't have to care
i had no worries
walking around with my head held high
fearless and brave
i could look any in the eye
and smile with the strength i had inside
now i break at the slightest word
a delicate being
so scared
and hurt

you begin here
in this moment
forget yesterday
just breathe
and live
right now

smile
through your pain
be glad the sun is still shining
the birds are still whistling
you are still going
you will prosper

the fire roars
the flames rise
you set my heart alight
and watched me burn

the rain is pouring tonight
it's clearing my mind
calming me
soothing me
it's cold so i wear a blanket
so cosy
so content

a storm is brewing
i hear the thunder rumbling
it's been drizzling all day
wet and damp
cold outside
the fire's on in the living room
it's warm and cosy
oh how i love rainy nights

who am i to say
love isn't real
maybe i have never known of love
real love
am i a stranger to the beautiful sweet thing
that everyone speaks of
is it too far out of reach
they say i'm too young to understand
they say it won't come until i grow
what if i find the one
the one that changes my mind
changes everything
makes me believe
believe completely in this beautiful thing
called love

hey
if you want to be in my life
because you connect with me
my thoughts
emotions
interests
values
just let me know
i don't want fake friends
i want connections that set my soul on fire
thank you

the last ten texts were with your ex
and all of them were sent by you
but you keep staring at your phone like something's coming through

she grew up in a cab in new york city
always wishing for a home
we made plans to meet in kansas
as i landed, she’d already gone

she’s been somewhere ‘round the bend
somewhere only god knows when
i made this bed i’m laying in
she falls in and out of love
i was born to chase the sun
i guess i'll burn myself again

i can't stand how you laugh
snigger at those less fortunate than you
you selfish cruel man
i wish you and your ***** ****** kind
would just change
no one should be mocked
for things they can't control

stolen hearts
broken minds
twisted words
painful truth

leaving the house
isn't a common occurrence
once i would do anything
to escape the tense air
these rooms hold
now
i hide away
in my room
with my mind
in complete control
i guess i don't care anymore

are you ever just tired
of doing the same old thing
you crave more diversity and excitement in your life
you want new experiences
with new people
because your stuck
in your same old ways
and it's time for change

you're screaming words at me
i try to make them out
give them meaning
my hearts beating
pulse rushing
stop
just stop
let me be please
i can't take any more
i am not like you
i am not a screamer
more or less a dreamer
you cannot make me into you
please
let me go

trying to learn self love
i want to be so easy going again
carefree
happy with just being me
i don't always feel good enough
in fact most days i feel horrible
it's hard because
all i want
is to fall in love
but before i can love anyone else
i have to fall in love
with myself

i am so sick and tired
of feeling so sick and tired
my anxiety controls me
most days aren't good days
i just want to do what i love again

don't you get sick of it all
all the disapproving gazes
all the awkward conversations
all the sad news on t.v
all the tears shed over ex lovers
all the pain in your stupid mind
i am so sick of it all

i am beginning to learn
the power
in saying nothing

head pounding
my mind is on you
that disguised smile
cruel fingertips
leave me alone