open to you
it's hurting me
where to next
who to trust
vulnerability killed me

this life is not what it seems
we are nothing but flesh and blood
poets and writers and storytellers
liars and cheats and frauds
pick and choose your destiny
redefine your purpose
you are more than you know

everything can change in a fleeting moment
lives lost in seconds
in this moment you are alive
take it not for granted

again i say wait
trust the process
be patient

i miss those times when i didn't have to care
i had no worries
walking around with my head held high
fearless and brave
i could look any in the eye
and smile with the strength i had inside
now i break at the slightest word
a delicate being
so scared
and hurt

i haven't written in so long
i have had so much going on, things have been tough
lots of time spent alone and in silence
i didn't feel like spilling out my emotions i guess
but i'm back now & look forward to sharing my words with this community again
<3

and what a horrible day
to think that the man who gave me life
has somehow taken all the life in me
and hurt me
again and again
what a sad sad day

to all those with loving fathers
never take them for granted

heart is heavy
mind is on you
i miss you boy
i feel so alone
and you always felt like home

head pounding
my mind is on you
that disguised smile
cruel fingertips
leave me alone

crimson blood moon
black night chokes the stars
the forest howls
deathly dreams

fight your way out
kick and scream and punch and yell
loud
ruthlessly
they want to see you fall
and bleed
they have no idea
of the immense strength you hold inside
shock them

the weight of a thousand words
heavy on my heart
slowing me down
dragging me low
i need to break away
i am chained
you hurt me

i'm choking on the words i never said

cold
even colder
ice cold
frozen
melt me again

the fire roars
the flames rise
you set my heart alight
and watched me burn

and to think things were starting to get better around here
all those hours i put into making it all okay again
wasted on your cold heart and stubborn mind

you begin here
in this moment
forget yesterday
just breathe
and live
right now

looking into your eyes
is magical
you feel like home

i'm missing someone
who was never really mine

you survived today
and that is enough

there is so much beauty in letting go
severed from the past
simply moving forward
a weightless soul
utterly free

stuck here alone again
sleep deprived
heavy hearted
out of touch with life

freezing cold silence
teary eyes
no sleep

she draws away from the crowd
wanders off to her kingdom
silent and free
in her own mind

her eyes are deep seas of wonder
always day dreaming
lost in clouds of thought
she's magical

don't let anyone stop you
don't let anything hold you back
as each day goes by
you will grow
closer with yourself
becoming the person
you were meant to be

wear what you want
it's your body
your style
own it

i've given up on you
my heart is broken
and you don't care

the hunger i feel
the emptiness inside me
befriends my broken heart

i guess i stumbled
and now i've fallen
into a heap
trying to pick up the pieces
scattered about
a stupid mess
that i can't clean up

cry
floods of tears
bittersweet release
baby
let them pour

sleepy now
drifting off
to another world
fresh air fills my lungs
sunshine warms me
i am at ease

don't say it's me
this problem
you are holding onto
it cannot be me
don't say it
don't let those words fall out of your mouth

(just so you know)

i am new
i am beautiful
i am irreplaceable

wow
i am me
no one else
can crawl into my head
and know my thoughts
i will grasp control of my life
and go my own way

slightly inspired
but not quite enough
to shake out of this dull routine
and grow into my own
but someday soon
i'll fly freely forward

who's real and who's fake
people make my head ache

being without love
makes me sore
not holding onto life
not moving forward
not thinking clearly
i am a mess

suffocating
i am without good company
all alone
i want to breath fresh air again
feel free
i don't want to be trapped any longer

leaving the house
isn't a common occurrence
once i would do anything
to escape the tense air
these rooms hold
now
i hide away
in my room
with my mind
in complete control
i guess i don't care anymore

the thought of you
makes me shiver
what we once had
is lost forever

mid saturday morning
drowning in coffee
lost in thought
alone again

baby
take it easy
on my heart
i'm not like the other girls

she walks in
everyone turns
and gazes in silence
she has power
and wears it exquisitely

slowly he made his way into her life
he didn't come zooming through
at the speed of light
flying
oh no
he was careful
thoughtful
he didn't want to rush
and ruin
something so precious
and perfect

you have what it takes
already
you don't need to change anything
deep down in your soul
there's a strength so beautiful
just waiting to come out
be brave
be courageous
you will achieve the greatness you desire

wounds heal my darling

she closes her eyes
in her mind she wanders
through a garden of beautifully fragranced flowers
fresh air fills her lungs
birds sing their gentle song
skipping through her garden
oh the sweet escape