yellow turned into black
your blue eyes turned to dark
colors turned into fog

innocence, joy, hope
of a little girl
lost in a white room
a heart that beats wildly
in my ears
the only sound remained

a lonely tear in my eyes
locked inside
I can't get rid it
I hold it tight
like I hold you close

you're gone
all words
have turned to ash with you

no reason
just lies
but
my heart is waiting for you
my eyes are looking for you
my dreams live you

Sometimes
I only need
Someone saying
I'm here for you
No questions
No judgment

I opened
a beautiful mysterious closed vase
A deep  punch
Crashed me into darkness

you showed me love
you taught me the beauty of forgiveness
you taught me to laugh
but your eyes don't smile at me anymore
they're enveloped in a suffocating fog
this emptiness weighs
I can't find words
That can cover the silence you left

Your eyes don't see me
I talk to you and you don't hear me
I can't reach you
A layer of rubber covers you
I would like to tear it up
and yell at you
All my love
All the love you gave me
My pain feeds on
your unwitting words
Fragments of you lost
One tear at a time
Fragments of me torn
Thrown into your oblivion
A crumbling rock
I fight with a sword of nothing
I can't win
I can't save you
I can only love you

ask me if I'm happy
don't stop at the smile
ask me if I'm happy
go beyond the appearance
ask yourself if you're happy
the real smile is not seen
it's tattooed on the heart

black, like the sound of silence.
heavy, like the emptiness of your absence.
salty, like guilt.
impervious, like the road to reach you.
long, like the echo of your memory.
every single night,
colorless.

at the end
i gave up

bored
restless
drugged with thoughts
overwhelmed by contradictions
there's no peace for me
spiritually entangled
from your distance
looking for an ancestral relief
or maybe .. carnal?

made of clouds
evanescent
vagabond  into the sky
waiting for you to look up
before the wind
dissolves me

it’s
like in spring
the gems
on the trees

i got up this morning
a faded light into my room
i turn my face
you were there
next to me
it wasn'a dream
you are finally my reality

mistakes
give you the chance
to be.
Be!

your voice whispers
a cry of light
splits the silence

I didn't think it was possible
so intensely
inside me
so painfully
away from me
every morning
like drops of blood from my  eyes
but yet
this morning
I don't feel pain
finally I’m smiling

I don’t know why
I don’t know how
I don’t know when
but it all comes down to three words
I love you

your slow steps
move you away from me
they stole the music
all that's left  is the rain

your slow steps
move you away from me
they stole the music
all that's left  is the rain

yes
no
no
yes
i love you
i can't love you
i'm here for you
absence
please
please
be strong
say yes or no
be a man
decide.
i know what i want
is just you
what is your choice?

I’m no daughter
I’m no mother
born under a cabbage
only worms
as my fellow cradle
I crawled
on barren land
my ***** and scratched  skin
covered with calluses

I’m no daughter
I’m no mother
born under a cabbage
I fell
the icy water took me
but I was colder than it
the current  carried me away
I climb on the bank
I was clean

I am mother
I became  daughter
I palpated
happiness

it's forbidden to write about you
it's impossible don't write about you
i need to write about you
getting out words
is like getting out pain...
to write about you is my pain
it's forbidden to write about you
it's forbidden to think about you
you are forbidden to me

fake stars
in the sky
fake you
in my mind
fake all around me

the beginning ...
is the end of something
the end ...
is the beginning of something
a thin line
painted by our mind
between fear and hope
nothing is defined
a confused beginning
of an endless end
shaded shadows
of the same moon

when the heart
decides to speak
it yells out
and the truth lights  the sky
when your heart
decides to speak
it scares
it can hurt
just another heart
can answer
and the truth will be light or dark
the time of truth
changes all things

like a red leaf
slipped on the street
beautiful and melancholy
apart from you
beautiful and melancholy
doomed to dry up

the only way to survive
it's letting you go
let you go
it's like dying
denying  the thought of you
it's like living in the dark
I’ll become blind
I’ll become dry
but I'll be alive ...
will I ?

write me
seek me
call me
love me
today
right now
I
I can only wait

you are the thousand facets of my soul
you paint me with all the colors of love
you are heart and pain
you are hope and despair
you are sweetness and passion
you are the red of the fire that burns me
you are the white of the light that reassures me
you are the whole  thing
that wipes out my nothing

you are pure emotion
you are more than what I dreamed of
you are like the infinite that holds me tight
a breath that accompanies me
sliping  through my hair
immense and intense
you are the deepest part of me
you are the love that smiles
caressing my soul
and when you left me
you are a tear that comes from the heart

golden waves
wind slow
the leaden sky
smells like summer
the fine rain
smells of land and of you
the great willow
is our alcove
our moans
invade the air
your heat fills me
and satisfies me
your eyes invade me
interweaving of legs
and sweaty bodies
smell of rain
smell of  land
smell of you
panting hearts
heavy breaths
under the great willow
two souls  touched each other
and defeated

your hot body
your slow breath
your smell
being intertwined with you
you
my nostalgia
and my need

when you are not here
nothing is
it's waiting for you
it's muffled sounds
it is blurred shapes behind a veil
when you are not here
I am
not here

you said I'm gonna *******
I heard I love you
you said you're hot
I understand you're beautiful
you slapped my ***
I felt a caress
you said it’s over
I opened my eyes
you said get away from me
I felt cold

This is the day
I knew
My limits
This is the day
You broke my heart

I found you
I lost myself

a huge moment
a thrill under the lashes
the explosion of a thousand fragments
an exchange of souls
nothing has been the same
you and I belong to each other

a dream
that's you are
just a dream
nothing else

the hooded man
came in without knocking
nobody
kept it away
frozen terror
flows in my veins
I'm cold
I'm so cold

again
I’m crashed
against the wall of solitude
again
the flight of waiting
inexorably went down
again
I'm not even worth a no to you
only silence
absence
[ ]
I’m alone in my lonelyness

sometimes
somewhere
could I
.... finally be?

red shoes
cracked heel
a woman
folded in the shade
broken
or roughly interrupted


it was a caress
it was a kiss
it was a hug
it was love
it's a punch
it's a grin
it's scary
it’s infected love
my blind love
your sick love
it was air and light
it's metal flavor in my mouth
kicks in my belly
vomited words
our guilty love
hypnotic poison


yes
you can!  
**** me.
**** me !  
but  
before  
my eyes close
in the eternal darkness!  
please!
line to me  
I need the darkness in your eyes  
please !  
give me  
a last beautiful oblivion!



I lie
motionless
cold dirt  above me
badly thrown with the ****
wet  
by tears of those who loved me
your tears
your guilty love
there’s no more light
for me cold corpse
a flower into my hand
withered
food for worms
my end
your          END

                                       you, interrupted
                                          interrupted.
                                            your skin
                                            your eyes
                                           your heart
                                                off.
                                             un-love
                                          your tyrant
                                        too much love
                                          your mate
                                          closed eyes
                                            my fault
                                              hush
                                           my useless
                                             silent cry

a red sky
over me
iced blood
inside me

sometimes
loving you is so hard
sometimes
the right way is no way
but
just now
and ever
i know
the right way
is ..
loving you

singing your name
dreaming  your scent
smiling at nothing
just
loving you

it was a caress
it was a kiss
it was a hug
it was hope
it was love

it's a punch
it's a grin
it’s a chain
it's scary
it’s infected love

my blind love
your sick love
it was air and light
it’s smoke in my eyes
it's metal flavor in my mouth
kicks in my belly
vomited words
our love is guilty
us
just addicted
by our hypnotic poison