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679 · Mar 2016
Untitled
Mila Berlioz Mar 2016
I feel uncomfortable with it all
Life's turning out like ****.

Can I scape it?
I really wish I could.
I'm just not brave enough to pull the trigger.

I wish this wasn't my life.
I really wish it was someone else's.
674 · Nov 2015
Yet
Mila Berlioz Nov 2015
Yet
Am I about to lose my mind?
I can't think enough
I can't think too much
I can't think, not even a bit.

I overthink, therefore I do think.
I oversleep, I stay up late at nights though.

I don't feel as if I were living.
It all feels like a dream, as if I were floating,
floating through my life.
Not living my life.

Barely,
Existing.
Maybe, maybe, I haven't lost my mind *YET
669 · Feb 2017
Oscuridad
Mila Berlioz Feb 2017
Querido, sin ti todo se mira oscuro,
nada tiene sentido.
Oh, amado mío, cuanto te extraño.

Al andar por las calles, pareciera que los postes de luz
no existieras, todo lo veo oscuro, sin color, sin matiz.

¿Qué será de mí? ¿Qué haré yo sin ti?

Debo afrontar la realidad:
Tú ya no estás, estoy más sola que nunca.

Oh bien amado, deja tu orgullo, y ven a mí.
Te amo, haz que todo tenga sentido de nuevo.
GAAM
652 · Sep 2015
You look
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
You look...
So delicate, so bright
So untouchable
The thought of my feelings towards you
Become unbearable,
You're so unreachable, impossible to touch,
I want you so bad, so bad it can break my bones,
It makes me weak
But we're so far away and we won't ever meet in flesh.
Don't forget me, because I won't
Always yours..[M.B.]
648 · Jan 2016
Facet
Mila Berlioz Jan 2016
I've creates this facet
I show it to everyone,
The facet of not caring.
It seems to help.
This facet has taken the original "me" away, driven away by obligations.
Obligations that are not even necessary
It has driven myself crazy, to the edge.

This facet, I thought would make me someone,
That it would help me find myself;
But it drove me away from me,
And now I don't even know who I am any more.

It has made of my life a whole mess.
I try to act happy, I try to ignore it.
But nothing goes away, does it?
644 · May 2017
As soon as I wake up
Mila Berlioz May 2017
As soon as I wake up, I want to see your face right beside me.
As soon as I wake up, I want to feel your breath against my neck.
As soon as I wake up I want those lips across my face, oh those lips.
As soon as I wake up, I don't want to fear I won't see you again.
I don't want to be afraid to lose you. Or to not have you by my side anymore.
As soon as I wake up, I want you to be there. Even if it's in a dream.
I wish I could have you by my side again.
637 · Sep 2015
Oceans
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
I can't breathe
I'm tired
I can't sleep
I can't close my eyes
Faces show up everytime I do
I can't turn my music off
I find odd noises everywhere
I feel like I have water in my lungs
This huge ocean that won't let me breathe
624 · Jun 2016
Future
Mila Berlioz Jun 2016
I can't see a future in my life
I can't see a window to get me out of here.
I still don't see a way out.
I don't imagine an adult me,
why's that?
All I can see is failure.
You planted this seed that makes me think I'm not enough.
Your fault CJDR
622 · Sep 2015
My First Cat
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
It was new for me at first
It hurt, the cat hurt me
It was painful at first
I got used to it
As he kept on doing it
I liked it then

People asked me what were those
I answered the cat.
My sweet cat.

I use to hate my cat.
Now I love my cat.
I know he is no good to me
But he distracts me.
If you didn't quite get it, it's about cutting
620 · Oct 2015
Tables Turned
Mila Berlioz Oct 2015
No no darling
You're not the reason I'm crying
No no, don't feel so important.

I want to puke,
The little I had left inside
I rushed on to pour them into you.
Now, I see why wise men say, only fools rush in
But oh well, I've always proved myself as a fool.

I feel like a piece of trash,
For I was stupid on trusting in someone again.
I feel like a joke to you
When it's usually the other way around
Tables were turned, just your way, not mine.
575 · Feb 2016
AER
Mila Berlioz Feb 2016
AER
Pueda que sea algo fuera de la nada, salido de la neblina, rápido pero, ¿por qué siento que esto está bien? Fuera de lo normal, me siento bien, será una aventura, con riesgos como cualquiera de amor, pero una aventura que quiero tener. Espero no solo sea una aventura, quiero que no solo sea una página, pero un libro.
Just thoughts
549 · Sep 2015
Anonymous
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
I'm anonymous
I'm unknown
No one knows me,
No one knows my name,
Not my name, not my story.
No one knows me.

If I take off my anonymous mask,
You'll see my true self
You'll see how I look.
What if you don't like me?
I've built a wall, a mask I should say.

I just need someone, someone who is capable,
Capable of taking my mask off.

Why are you anonymous?
Have you suffered?
Have you been hurt?
May I take your mask off?
532 · Oct 2015
Alexander Supertramp
Mila Berlioz Oct 2015
I think I need some space,
Some kind of freedom.
I know freedom is a state of mind
But, still, our minds are some powerfull *******.

I need some time off, I need to rebel.

I guess that's how I started smoking, maybe why I started drinking.

All I know is that I need my freedom, I need to rebel, I need my nature, my own nature.

Know yourself before you know anyone else,
522 · Jul 2016
Torturous
Mila Berlioz Jul 2016
I can see right through you,
You're not that cold person you want to be.
Your heart is tender, mild; but you just don't want people to know about it.

I get it, your hurt, you're trying not to get hurt. But you've  seen yourself at your worse and you know your worth more than that.

Don't let it bring you down.
Bring that wall you've built down, you'll see you'll find beautiful flowers along the way.

Don't torture yourself, 'cause that's all you do.
It was time for me to post something else than depressive stuff
500 · Feb 2016
Untitled
Mila Berlioz Feb 2016
Siento como si ya no pudiese con esta carga, con todo esto. Pero, ¿qué puedo esperar de una vida en ls cual todo se desvanece fácilmente? No se que hacer ya, mi vida es como si yo y los demás fueran fantasmas y anduviera en una nube.
499 · Jul 2016
Untitled
Mila Berlioz Jul 2016
I woke up, freezing, in the middle of summer, because of the cold beneath these covers.
I miss you, you've changed.
You're not here, where have you been?
With whom?
Come back, don't leave me with these empty covers.
Will you please, please come back?
Will you take care of me?
Will I not be cold at night?
Come back.
496 · Sep 2015
Hurts
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
I swear it hurts
It hurts in my veins
The words that come out of your mouth
They hurt
They hurt as if a knife was stabbing me
Right in the chest

It even hurts more
That I can't even cry
I have no tears left
What is this?
I can just stare at the wall
Hoping to cry
But then my veins hurt,
I can't.

And I don't know how to handle
Your hurting words
477 · Jun 2016
Untitled
Mila Berlioz Jun 2016
I write this with tears on my eyes,
To you, beloved:
Was her enough for you?
Did she give you the best kisses, the best hugs?
Or is she prettier?
I still don't understand how you crawl back to the person who hurt you once. Instead of ataying with the one who gave it all
AERO
475 · Sep 2015
Limbo
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
I've lost it,
I've lost my mind, myself...
The two most important things that shouldn't be lost, I lost.
I could not stop it from happening
Circumstances made it that way.
The lost of his touch, his love, him
Made me who I am now,
A cold manipulative person
A woman who plays with people's feelings
I have a thought, a motto that stipulates not to ever regret something
In fact I don't regret a thing,
But loving you is the only exception.
I got lost.
468 · Sep 2015
THE Poem
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
Is this even normal?
This feeling of missing you like the moon misses the sky every morning?
You're like this breathing poem
The poem that breaks you over and over
The poem that drags you in it every time
The poem that you love the most
The poem that keeps making you cry
But it's still your favorite one
You make me cry,
You make me mad
You make me love you
You make me passionate
468 · Sep 2015
Can't
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
Can anyone stand
Watching how your loved one becomes different?
It's annoying,
It hurts

You hurt me, so much
Every little wrong thing you do
Hurts

People may see me as a strong person
But when it comes to loving someone
I become so weak
So vulnerable

I can't.
I still love you, even if you make me feel like ****
458 · Sep 2015
Considered
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
"It will al be fine one day"
Is that what everyone says whenever you're sad?
What's wrong with people?
Everything gets worse,
Everything turns bad
It all goes wrong

I don't know what is it with life
At least it hates me
I don't know about you
But I've had enough

I'll have to live with
Illnesses, problems, diseases, people I don't like
Basically a ****** life.

But what can I do?
**** myself?
It may be considered.
444 · Sep 2015
Starting Lines of a Book
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
And I watched her, I watched her shine, I watched her sit on the clouds. She was beautiful, gorgeous, she shined so much she could even get you blind. At that moment, I fell in love, she was all I have ever wanted in my whole life, my dream girl, my only wish.
Referring to a star
439 · Sep 2015
Don't Even Know
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
I'm just making this
I'm bored
I want you
I still don't get to un-puzzle you,
Don't even know if that word exists
That's why I'm so attracted to you
Thought you wouldn't know that
You're acting weird, again
Nothing new though, I'm getting used to this.
Love you even if you make me sad
Or mad, or even make me feel so miserable.
I guess this is how love works, not even sure
People say love hurts
And it does, it actually does

I've been through rough times with love
I've been hurt, torn apart.
I'm a walking skeleton
With a weak heart.

I don't think I can take anything else
I'm tired, I'm sick
Literally sick.

I love you,
Please don't destroy the light
You brought out of me.
That's all I'm asking for.
**You know this is for you.**
437 · Jun 2016
Forgiveness
Mila Berlioz Jun 2016
I forgive you, I forgive how you used me. I forgive how rude and how much you destroyed me. Yet I forgive you; because you're someone that I love and that'll never stop being.
JECV
436 · Sep 2015
Miles Away
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
Even when I was away
Even thousands of miles away from you
The only thing in my mind was you
The only thing I could think about
Was your existence,
And how much I love you;
How I would cross the world for you
But I still think you wouldn't appreciate it, even if I crossed
The whole universe
Just for you.
408 · Jan 2017
Used
Mila Berlioz Jan 2017
How dare you say you miss me?
How dare you say you're a man?

Man up!
I gave it all to you.
All those "I love you"s, that night.
That night, as we cuddled,
what were you thinking?

Did you think you would think of me this way?
Did you think you loved me?
What were you thinking

No, I am not your toy.
Thank you for your kind offer, but no.
*******.
397 · Oct 2015
Untitled
Mila Berlioz Oct 2015
I think about love so much that I am not surprised that I don’t remember addresses or phone numbers because there is simply not enough space in my brain. I wonder if the graffiti downtown makes you realize you haven’t spoken to me since your hand waved goodbye like a windshield wiper trying to sweep away a hurricane. I wonder if you look at the moon and think of how excited I get every night when I can guess the number of stars. But then I remember that there are a lot of places that you could be, and with me is not where you are. - Karys aka K.P.K. via Ipoetried
395 · Nov 2015
My Month
Mila Berlioz Nov 2015
My month came with pain,
Problems, oh god, so many.
My month came with love,
Love I should've accepted, but I did not.
Instead I went on loving someone who did not deserve my loving.
My month came with so much,
My month, my month, it's probably just like any other month.
Perhaps, every month's pain piles up, more and more.
Quite birthday month.
387 · Jan 2017
away
Mila Berlioz Jan 2017
Even when I was away
Even thousands of miles away from you
The only thing in my mind was you
The only thing I could think about
Was your existence,
And how much I love you;
How I would cross the world for you
But I still think you wouldn't appreciate it, even if I crossed
The whole universe
Just for you.
366 · Sep 2015
Untitled
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
I hate it
I hate this feeling
As if nothing is worth it
As if the world was black and white

It's currently raining outside
The sky cries with me

It's just not a good day
But I really feel as if I can't
Can't take it anymore
365 · Jun 2016
Back
Mila Berlioz Jun 2016
May I say how much I love you?
How much I desire you?
Or may I say how you make me want to die?
I still don't know how much potential I see in you after everything you've donw.
I miss you, I miss you.
And I implore you to come back, oh please, come back
AERO
365 · Jan 2016
Taken
Mila Berlioz Jan 2016
It seems like you've taken all my motivation away.
I cannot read, write or do anything anymore.
What spell, what curse did you put on me?
What have you done?
I guess you took the last piece that was left
363 · Sep 2015
Left in Darkness
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
You were my first love
You were my last love.
You made me up,
You destroyed me once again.
You made me feel,
You now have made me numb, dull to feelings.
You were like my sun,
My moon and my stars,
The one who lighted my skies.
You've taken my light away.
You've left me in darkness.
357 · Jul 2016
Trouble
Mila Berlioz Jul 2016
I got a problem
I'm in trouble.
I like you, way too much; even more than I should.
Look at your right, I'll be there, waiting.
I love you, and you're my trouble.
It seems I like being troubled.
If there's anything or anyone who should be my trouble, it should be you.
348 · Jul 2016
Ugh
Mila Berlioz Jul 2016
Ugh
How could you leave me?
How could you? While I was in trouble, while I was in pain?
How, oh how will I ever see the day light again? I have no one, and yet you left me.
343 · Nov 2015
JE
Mila Berlioz Nov 2015
JE
I'm done, you're worth it. You're worth so much, but I can't afford being so masochistic. You're beautiful, your soul is. I'd like to have my life complicated by you, but you're just too scared. What a waste. I hope some day you realize what you had in front of you.
JECV
338 · Oct 2015
Stupid
Mila Berlioz Oct 2015
I was shattered into tons of pieces,
You knew that.
I was too stupid, people's hands aren't so big,
Nor strong to hold so many pieces.
And what's broken can't be fixed the way it was before.

I'm stupid, a stupid little girl, who still sees some hope in people's eyes
I'm a simple smart girl whose parents didn't raise her up
I'm a smart girl who doesn't know what the word potential means
I'm a smart girl with a great heart, trying to be ******
But opening up to the wrong people.

I pour myself in people
I pour myself, I fall, I trust,
I'm stupid.

Oh I'm a poor little stupid girl.
Whose feelings got hurt,
Her emotions were taken away
And is ****** up.
333 · Jul 2016
All
Mila Berlioz Jul 2016
All
You wanted me to write about you.
So I am.
I didn't think I'd make such a good thing out of some days.
You're a wonderful person.
We might be miles and miles away,
but you're still special, even more special than many people here.
You're intelligent, gorgeous and fun.
I'll miss you and I'll never forget you.
Allie
324 · Sep 2015
Untitled
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
It stains in the shower
It stains when you wash it
I like how it looks
I don't like when people ask
I hide it with a sweater
It may seem stupid to you
But it makes me feel safe
And if you know what I'm talking about
I'm sorry.
Again, if you get it, I'm terribly sorry
292 · Oct 2015
Untitled
Mila Berlioz Oct 2015
Why do we turn into these hurting creatures out of nowhere?
277 · Sep 2015
You, Yourself, finally
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
Forget it
Throw it all away
At the end it's not worth it
Get over it
Get out some time
Take some air and a deep breath
Enjoy it little girl
You don't have much left
You give life it's meaning,
And it gives you yours
Toss it to the trash
Do what you want
It's your decision
I'll tell you what it's right
But you'll follow what you want

What you want is not what's the best
But it's what teaches you best.
So go on, life will teach you

Be patient
Be who you want to be
Who's going to stop you but
YOURSELF
276 · Jun 2016
Untitled
Mila Berlioz Jun 2016
And again, I'm here, lying...
wanting to die. Thoughts keep on spinning through my head.
Am I not enough? What the **** am I doing here.
Oh well enough said.
I hope someday I can finally find true
happiness.
I'm like a flower, with no petals left.
He loves me , he doesn't love me, he loves me, he doesn't love me.
267 · Sep 2015
Just Thinking
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
It's pretty funny
How situations may ruin everything
How people can destroy something you've built
Something that took time to built
How people can take something away so easily.

It *****,
It ***** to give your all to build something
And being rewarded with a little candy,
As if it meant nothing.
250 · Sep 2015
NOT MINE
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
I want to love you like an open field. A place large enough for you to release the heavy creatures of your heart. A place large enough for you to wander and all you see for miles and miles is me.*
– **Kelsey Danielle
245 · Sep 2015
Untitled
Mila Berlioz Sep 2015
Love is a funny thing.
also confusing
221 · Oct 2015
Untitled
Mila Berlioz Oct 2015
Hardest thing ever*
Having to deal with too much at the same time.
In my case, emotional, mental and physical problems.
A W E S O M E

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