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May 2015 · 551
welcome summer
mk May 2015
I was certain
that I had gotten
over the fact
that we were in the past
until I realized today
that I checked your blog
every single day
in hopes
of knowing what
is going through
your wondrous mind
the last time you posted
was when the leaves had fallen
and the ground was sprinkled with snow
new trees have long grown
and flowers are in full bloom
but I still think of you
and hope you may think of me too
// in honor of may & the summer spirit //
May 2015 · 597
"i love you"
mk May 2015
// more in love
with the idea of love
than I will ever be
with you //
// who am I kidding? i'm in love with love, not with you //
mk May 2015
I thought I could handle this
because I thought I’d seen it all before
I thought I knew the patterns
I thought I’d be okay when you walked through the door

I thought I could manage the fights
and the hate and the anger
because I expected it before it even began
I thought I was prepared for the happy never after

I waited for the bad
I didn’t even bother hoping for the good
momentary bliss
is what I was in it for

but when you told me last night
that I didn’t mean a thing
when you told me last night
that all this was a fling
when you smiled that beautiful smile
and turned me into flames
when you looked me straight in the eyes
and told me it was all a silly game

“oh”
I realized
*“he’s a whole new kind of heartbreak”
// again, based off of a conversation that occurred at 4am last night //
May 2015 · 649
immortal memories
mk May 2015
he looked at me
as the stars shined bright
he looked at me
and held me tight
he whispered in my ear
I won’t ever let you go
but if fate intervenes
I want you to know
the sun may freeze
and the seas may burn
the skies may turn red
but about one thing I am sure
whether you’re besides me
or miles away
whether you decide to leave
or choose to stay
nothing will ever change
when I think of you
no bitterness will stir
when I look at you
I’ll still love you as I did before
the pain, the hurt
the fights, the anger
all of it will be left aside
and be covered with memories of kisses and laughter
for the past will be the past
and not a thing will change it
my love for you
ah well, my heart for you will always be lit
the way you look at me with those adoring eyes
the way you’d rather hear the truth than pretty lies
the way you talk,
the way you walk,
the person you are
and the person you wish to be
never will I forget
what you mean to me
so let them try
let them try to tear us apart
let fate and destiny and luck
gives us their best shot
in the end,
we’ll still be left with
memories of
stolen kisses
and fleeting glances
of long nights
and moonlit dances
so worry not what the future brings
for no matter what happens
we have right now
& it is ours
to keep
*forever
// just a romanticized version of a conversation I had with someone today //
mk May 2015
you swear and you curse
you want to take it all back
spill blood and shed tears
you question the past
but all alone in your bed tonight
you can’t help but appreciate the fight
the pain, the hunger, the terror, the fear
it means that all of it was real
we cared too much and we scarred too fast
we fell too soon and it didn’t last
but late at night you look at the moon
thinking back to the time when it was me and you
remembering the music that never seemed to end
taking on the world as lovers and best friends
bitter tears, dark fears and a broken heart
honestly though, I still would **** to go back to the start
*****, it was worth it
//greenday- good riddance//
May 2015 · 1.2k
young love
mk May 2015
young love is too often undermined and discredited
labeled as “silly” or seen as a waste of time
we pay it no heed; calling it a temporary foolishness
they say we cannot fall in love when we are 16
for we have not yet seen the world or faced its worries
and our heart knows nothing of love or of loss
we are too young, they say over and over again,
we are too young to understand what love is and what love brings
we are too young to know what love stands for
or fathom the pain of lost love and a broken heart
we are too young

no

for centuries now, youthful hearts have been termed incapable of truly comprehending the essence of love
more so, they have been termed inept to ever facing true heartbreak
when the tears of mascara flow down their pink, girlish cheeks
they say
you are too young and this is not real
you do not know what love is and you will grow to understand
one day when you face real heartbreak you will think of all this as silly
you will not remember and you will laugh
cry not; for you have not truly loved nor lost

but

how many of us forget the first sleepless night we stayed up waiting for the call that wasn’t coming
how many of us forget the first time we saw them in someone else’s arms
how many of us forget the first time our heart shattered because of the utterance of a single word
“goodbye”
how many of us forget the silence which was all too loud
the tears
or the cold nights
the feeling of having your world crash and burn before your very own eyes
the vulnerability, the helplessness, knowing your heart is in another’s hands
and you can do nothing about it
tell me; how many of us forget?

cradled in your mother’s arms crying the night away
tearing at your skin, wishing his touch had not stained you
your father pacing up and down the hallway
what has happened to my little girl?
on the phone for hours
crying, yelling, whispering; losing your mind
piece by piece everything falling apart
why does it hurt so much
why does it not end?
have you forgotten? have you forgotten your first heartbreak?

no

young love may be amateur
but it is not false
so vulnerable and so ready to jump into a new life
so willing to give up everything and try to make it work
rushing into it so fast and falling into his arms
ready to give her your heart, your soul, your life
our hearts still untouched by barb wires and guard towers

our first kisses are the most memorable
we can still hear the first song we danced to in our heads
memories of us pop in to say hello every now and then
your first is always your most significant
your first is the one that never leaves you alone
you can forgive, you can accept, you can move on
you cannot disremember

young love-
the very purest
young heartbreak-
the very worst

genuine
vulnerable
& true
Apr 2015 · 764
what I miss about you most
mk Apr 2015
what I miss about you most is the way you kept trying to impress me even though you knew I was head over heels in love with you

what I miss about you most is the way you let my white lies go because you knew it wasn’t worth arguing (no damage done)

what I miss about you most is the way you’d sing to me all night if I asked you to, even if you had a sore throat

what I miss about you most is the way you’d sneak out of the house just to talk to me even though your dad would **** you if he found out

what I miss about you most is the fact that you wanted to introduce me to all the special people in your world as if inviting me into your life to stay

what I miss about you most is how you listened to me night after night and reassured me day after day without a word of complaint

what I miss about you most is the way you’d admire me and look at me with eyes full of acceptance and trust like I was the only star in your sky

**but what I miss the most- truly miss the most- is not needing to write down what I miss about you because you were always there and never in my wildest dreams did I imagine that I’d ever have to narrate the story of us in the past tense rather than present, future or even past continuous and this hollow feeling inside me has driven me to insanity with its bitter longing and sorrowful regret because what I dearly deeply honestly miss the most is everything we were and everything we were to be
Apr 2015 · 2.3k
love the way you lie (haiku)
mk Apr 2015
// I never thought that a relationship
built on lies and deceit
would be the best I ever had //
mk Apr 2015
confined to four blank walls my whole life
my soul untethered, my hands chained to walls
escaping through my own mind time after time
wondering what the outside world must look like
I’ve always been a dreamer, a romantic, a fantasist
I try to escape, I fail, I try again
my legs are ****** and my abdomen scarred
there are marks of defeat on my face
and a fire burning in my eyes
for no life is truly lived if it is not lived free
and no death is truly death, if it sets you free

so burn me to ashes and turn me to flame
then scatter me across the globe
may tulips grow from my empty eye sockets
and roses between my ribs
may apple trees grow from my fingers
and old ferns from my neck
sprinkle me in the deepest river
and toss me in the valleys of snow
empty me into the soil and let me grow
and once that is done, I will finally be able to see
the world I’ve always dreamt of coming to me
in death I will find my living
and in death I will find my peace
*light me on fire
and set me free
Apr 2015 · 522
i'm sorry
mk Apr 2015
it’s hard to explain
to your innocent mind
why even when I’m happy
I can’t be fine

you see the happiness you bring me
the joy and the laughter
it all reminds me of the past
of my happily never after

when I feel inside me a ray of light
seeping through my anxiety and fear
I crawl right back into my dark mind
and pretend like I don’t feel him near

for the only bliss I’ve ever felt before this
was in his arms and in his bed
every reminder of those feelings I once had
makes me wish I were dead

so thank you for the good you’ve brought me
for being wonderful, kind and lovely
I don’t know how to explain it to you
but truly, I’d rather not be happy

for I know how to be sad and angry and dismayed
how to have no hope or expectations
what I truly do not know, yet
is how to be happy without fearful anticipations
// dedicated to all the men who are and will ever be in my life //
Apr 2015 · 759
in hope
mk Apr 2015
she silences herself now
so that one day she may be heard
she chooses to study now
so that one day she may succeed
she chooses to stay home now
so that one day she may go out
she chooses to shy away now
so that one day she may be social
she chooses to not think about love now
so that one day she may find it
she chooses to put away her ambitions now
so that one day she may achieve them

everyday she chooses to put aside her wants and her needs
in the hopes of a brighter future and better life ahead
everyday she dies a little
in the hopes of being able to truly live one day

but who is to guarantee that that day will come?
who may guarantee her a future at all?
who can guarantee that she will wake up the next morning?
is there any guarantee that she will even live to see the days she has spent her whole life working for?

to live in the moment; or not to live in the moment;
that is the real question
Apr 2015 · 402
no questions asked
mk Apr 2015
he asks me to come back to bed
maybe he loves me
or maybe he’s just cold
mk Apr 2015
I am the cuts on your wrist
I am the alcohol on your breath
I am the pills under your tongue
I am the blood on your carpet
I am the circles under your eyes
I am the cries stuck in your throat
I am the voices in your head
I am the stars in front of your eyes
I am the darkness in your thoughts
I am the scars on your bottom lip
I am the suicide note in your drawer
I am the gun under your pillow

I am the misery; I am the grief
I am the pain; I am the screams

If after everything we’ve lost,
this is all I have gained,
the least I can do is
take pleasure in your pain
yes, i'm still bitter. deal with it.
Apr 2015 · 713
you
mk Apr 2015
you
//you’re an echo on a silent night
reminding me with spite
that even after recovery
you’re never fully healed//
Apr 2015 · 1.0k
distractions
mk Apr 2015
maybe it’s music
maybe it’s art
maybe it’s poetry
maybe it’s a joint
maybe it’s the color of your eyes
or maybe it’s the taste of your lips
which act as a frivolous distraction
an attempt to fill the void
to give me the sense of fulfillment I so desperately crave
I will continue to indulge myself in intoxicating heedlessness
until I have found what I am looking for
or fall to my grave in the process
Apr 2015 · 3.9k
it's been a while
mk Apr 2015
just the idea of you loving me
makes me love you
I wonder if that makes me a narcissist
or just someone who’s been lonely for a very very long time

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