We met in
A simple land
In a simple time
The people shunned
Us because your were a senior Lama
And I was young woman
We were both broken souls
Who fell in forbidden love

Now things are not
As simple
I am still a broken soul
A loner
Who turned tough
Until I had visions of you
And our love
But was in denial
Until I realized you loved
Me.
Still.

As I look in
The mirror
I don’t see a 30 year old
Curvy woman
Instead
I see the 13 year old
Mad coroner
Who was skinny
No use
But to **** friendships.
What should I do.

The curse won't let up, it won't let me out, (im in hell)
The curse won't ley up, it won’t let me out, (im in damnation)
They curse won’t let up, it won't let me out, (im in gitmo )
The curse won’t let up, it won't let me out

Trying to find love
Only getting hurt by *******
Hoping to find a ride or die
Only finding a *******
Climbing mountains
To teach stop the ignorance.  
To stop the stigma.  


The curse won't let up, it won't let me out, (im in hell)
The curse won't ley up, it won’t let me out, (im in damnation)
They curse won’t let up, it won't let me out, (im in gitmo )
The curse won’t let up, it won't let me out

Trying to find enlightenment
Only seeing blood drinkers
Hoping to find a meaning in life
Only finding a pile of ****
Being mutt
A freak
What the hell should I do.  

The curse won't let up, it won't let me out, (im in the hellfire)
The curse won't ley up, it won’t let me out, (im in hades)
They curse won’t let up, it won't let me out, (im in SAN Quentin)
The curse won’t let up, it won't let me out


The curse won’t let up, it won’t let me out.

Yeshe
My darling
I haven’t forgotten you
Nor have I given up
I just stopped
So I can delvope compassion
So I can delvope happiness
So I can find my self.  
Kayrangla gawpo yo
And I will always.

As I walk through the Bush
Behind my house
I see galaxies
On the ground
And constellations hanging in
The trees
Shining bright
Day or night.

My heart is not
A strong heart
It has to much
Scar tissue
Or unwanted tattoos
Of complex trauma
And of heart ache
How do I get rid of these
Tattoos

Revenge is dish best served cold.

After their morning love making
Boris go out of bed to start studying
Taking that time
Claudia satisfies her
Body with more sleep
And used her new knowledge
Of the alphabet
To write lover letters
To both Boris
And the lower monk
She left one for her punk husband
And to her lover.
He never knew
Until one day
Boris saw the two practicing
She was more gentle to the youngster
How they go group with eachother.
He let it go and kept up on his buddhist studies
When he found ****** drawings
Of her and the younger monk
Being together
He felt a sting
He talked to Claudia
Not accusing her
Just saying
As a Lama he had the youngster out casted.
He said that he was her husband
And not a *******.
While Lama Boris
As she lovingly called him
Was ranting raving
Claudia couldn’t help
But think that her secret pet
Was now a beggar.
She lost it
Telling her punk punk husband that
There will be no coupling
Unless he kept to his study
And start to control himself
She banned him from the lessons
At night she for
The first refused to let
Boris to touch her.  
The next morning she
Found some love poems and love
Letters
More less apologizing for his anger.
She forgive but not forget
And tried to light the flame
Of her passion.

What attracted you too me
Or why you were attracted by me

Was it my personality
My poems or that we
Share same interests
Not my charm because I have a ***** mouth.

The is something fun flirting you.

Have
You
Ever
Cried
Because
Hated
Whites
And undeamed
Unattractive
By your own
Because
Of your
Background

I have been many times.

As the young woman
Goes to eat a rotten
Appracot
She thinks back to
Her encounter
With the
6th Dalai Lama
She thinks
Me princess.

Things I hate with a passion
Being told to fit in
I just want to be me

Things I hate with a passion
Being told to grow up ; man up
I just want to be me

Things I hate with a passion
Being told to be white
I want to be tibetan.

Things I hate with a passion
Is people converting me to Christianity
I like being Buddhist.

Things I hate with a passion
Being told that I am theatrical
For my mental illness.

Things I hate with a passion
Being told that
Goths are evil
That’s Bull.

The love that we shared
Was forbidden
Yet authentic
You taught me how love
And
And to walk a spiritual path
We were gentle lovers
We kissed and coupled
Tantrically
In the hope for love
And enlightenment
My forbidden flower blossomed.
Until you changed
And you called me
Demeaning names
And had your way with me
Agresssively
Never gentle.
The lotus turned into wolvesbine

There once was a woman
Who came back
From beyond
The grave
As a shape shifter
Though she
Can only shift into
A peacock
Whenever she wants to find love

I have no past no present and no future.
I am a ghost.
I am the walking dead.
I pray to god for my own death.
End this mental prison that
I am cursed.

‪I am a Buddhist ‬
Who struggles with self esteem

I am a Buddhist
Who has been abandoned many times for another.

I am Buddhist
Who thinks of death and dying

I am a Buddhist
Who is struggling

I am a Buddhist who
Needs intervention.

Do you ever feel
So lonely
That you find yourself  
Talking to your
Baoding *****
In the middle of the night
Sad, huh??!!

I sure have
Felt lonely enough
That I was talking to
My Baoding *****
In the middle of the night
Sad, huh?!!

To any
Angry
Women
To any
Heartbroken
Women
To any traumatized
Women
Out there
There is an outlet
Art
And writing.
Do these to things
They shall take
The edge of the emotions
They shall heal you.

So i am wondering what makes people
abandon me so quickly.
It’s not like I am
garbage or ****.
But why is it when I
Try to find
My other half
They ghost me.  

So I am wondering
How do I scare
People off
When it comes to
Romance
Is it the
Fact that I
Am mixed
Or is it
That I ain’t causasoid.  
Am I a freak.

So I am wondering
Why the only
People who love
Me are family
Why do I have no game
It’s not like
I got
Ebola
Or
Lepersy.

Soblang
I just wanted to say
That you looked and acted
As sweet as vanilla
Then I saw the truth
You ***** others
Deny your heritage
And is morally corrupt
As Donald Trump

Some people
Take to
The bottle
To deal with their loss

Some people
Take to opioids
To relieve themselves
From life’s
Emotional
And physical pain


Some people
Take their lives
To free themselves
From suffering

I don’t do those
Things
For I have Buddha.

As I practice my
Tibetan and calligraphy
I felt lonely
For my love
Is not around
To lovingly teach me.

“A lot of people ask me, stupid ******' questions
A lot of people think that, what I say on record
Or what I talk about on a record
That I actually do in real life or that I believe in it
Or if I say that I wanna **** somebody
That I'm actually gonna do it or that I believe in it”
Said my music
After I have
A bad day
These words float in my
As function through
The day
Barely functional
A dream hanging
On a string
And my integrity
****** up
**** I hate Perverts.

If I died in a riot
I will not be afraid of it
***** death
I will be able to be my lover
Again
In another life.
I don’t fear the reaper!
I would want to be remembered as
Someone is intelligent.

If I died in a school shooting
I will not be afraid of it
***** death
I will be able to be with my lover
Again
In the next life.
I don’t fear the reaper!
I want to be remembered as compassionate

If I died in an outbreak
I will not be afraid of it
***** death
I will be with my lover
Again
In the next life
I don’t fear the reaper!
I want to be remembered as a fighter....tough girl

If I died as a victim skyjacking
I will not be afraid of it
***** death
I will be with my lover
Again
In the next life
I don’t fear the reaper!
I want to be remembered as anti terrorism

If I got hit by a bus
I will not be afraid of it
***** death
I will be with my lover
Again
In the next life
I don’t fear the reaper.
I want to be remembered as
Someone who zero tolerance.

I was the full moon
Lighting up
The dark night sky
Bring the night
To life
You were the sun
Who was enlightened
And bright light
To the world
Being the source of
Knowledge
And life
Only at dawn
And at dusk
We will couple as
Forbidden lovers

At conflict
I don’t know
If I should pursue love or
Not
I’ll go with the flow.

It’s raining heavily
And the water
Fills out a
Red, blue, yellow, and white
Wheelbarrow
It overflows.
The water is the teardrops
Of my people.  
Wanting to be treated like a human
And to be free.

We the Himalayan’s
And Tibetans

We are human too
23 from mom and 23 from dad

We are human too
With emotions, goals and dreams
And feeling

We are human too
Deserving of love
And happiness.

As I hear the
Prayer flags outside the window
Flapping in the breeze
I feel your stubbles head
Between me
as you kiss my flesh
As you kiss my womanhood
My sweetheart.

‪My mouth is a BSL4 agent‬
Because men think about ***

My mouth is a BSL4 agent
Because of General ignorance

My mouth is a BSL4 agent
Becausethe drama and *******.

My mouth is a BSL4 agent
Of human rights violations

These are why I swear.

After seeing her beloved
Cry during his meditation and studies
Claudia decoded that her art and her marriage where important
She forgot about her secret lover
The only lover she actually
Had was Lama Boris
Her punk lover.
And Karate
She concentrated on her martial arts and then Boris
At night
While they made wierd love
In the moonlit room
To the song diamonds and guns
Not only was the passion and attraction back
Her Boris muttered something in tibetan
that She could not understand
“My love what did you say?”
Claudia asked curiously
Then it got creepy
When he said what he muttered
Was I am a Buddha
She got freaked out
He kissed her
And explained that he had an enlightening experience
Will he saw her beautiful
Face in the moonlight
“ you were so beautiful my rose,” Boris said.
As she saw his piercings close in the moonlight
She didn’t blame him
For saying that
Claudia tried to say “kayrangla gawpo yo,”
Studdering it.
He took her close to him
And the made out in the moonlight
She couldn’t believe she was
Making out with who was a punk Buddha
She never kissed a Buddha.

As I put
My iPod away
For the night
I see a face
Of a Tibetan Lama
Trying to kiss me
I get freaked out
Then I realized
It was you
My love
But you had
Sadness in your eyes
Rejoice
I will always love you
Always had

Then you
Visited me in my dream
We were kissing
Our tounges danced
As we coupled.
I was heighten
In love
And in pleasure.

In the middle of the night
A girl
Wakes up to a gold orb
With cherubs swimming in it
With out touching it
The orb floats
Eerily
In her hands.

As I run away
From your murderers
I hide for few days
Then I return to your
Lifeless body
I am saddened
With the loss of my lover and master
I wanted kiss you fair well
But I couldn’t bare
The sight of it
I slowly climb a mountain
To slowly end my life
With the cold
My last breath had your name in it
Yeshe.

Romance is
Criminal
Romance is
dead
Romance is
Evil

For romance is
Is weapon against women.

I know you’re desperate for love
I am not
You have no career
Except to find enlightenment
The only thing we share
Is religion
But I am trying to heal
I am trying to have a career
I am trying to live my life
The drama
That our relationship had caused
Many a thing.
Causes headaches
And heart ache.
Sleepless nights
I cant take it anymore.  
This is a
Dear John to a monk.

You
Showed me
Side of me
That I did not
Know existed
When we bind with
Each other

When i
Feel a tantric rush
Our beings
Souls
And minds
Becoming one
And
Become one with
The universe.

Every fall this happens
As I leave the house
On all hallos eve
The moon
Does something wonderful

It displays such a show
It stops all trick or treaters
Better the the Dipper
The moon is full
And it changes colour of the rainbow

Red
Orange
Yellow
Green
Blue
Violet
And...
Pink

The colours
Of the moon
Gets more intense
As the evening progresses

I am relaxed
By this
It’s special
For I had a bad day and
Yet
It happens every fall

Then the moon flickers
Like a flame
And changes to white
It’s usuall colour
What a night.

The cheetah runs
To the food
And to the future

I do the same but I run
Away from something
To catch my food
And to my goals.

As I watch the news
And witness the hate
I enter the death zone
My being
And
My body
Slowly die
As if I am in an
Extreme environment.

The wolf runs
To the edge of the cliff
To greet
The full moon
After it’s meal.
The howling
A thank you to the moon
For its food.

I cherish
One of the first times
That we coupled
We kissed
Ever so gently
Ever so tenderly
Our tounges
Doing their forbidden dance
Then you kissed
Each of my chakras
When you came to my root chakra
You gently kissed my womanhood
My body was awash of love
And awash of pleasure.

As I watch the
Planes take off
With my worker
At the airport
I hope that my soul
Also goes to
The friendly skies.

People said
That I was your slave
But I wasn’t.
I was In
Love with you.


But we were lovers
In love with eachother
Won’t they understand.
That you are human too.  


The love we shared
Was rife wisdom
And creativity
And the creation of life
It was not just coupling.

I shall never
Know a person
Until I Autopsy
Them
Taking them apart
Only then and only then will
I truely know them.

When the jack o lanterns
Are lit up
Like a demonic
Christmas tree
My undead heart
Sores
Like a dove
For this is My night.  
Every day
Is Halloween
So
Happy halloweeen!

Even in defeat
I rose to my feet
Like a pheanox raising
From the ashes
I reinvent myself
Inside and out
You have mutilated
My heart
I shall put romance
Aside
Knowing that it isn’t
Dead
It just not the new me.
The stronger me.

I am Lizzie Borden
Hacking and chasing
My love interest
With an ice axe.

I hate men!!!!!

I am Oren ishi
A human mutt
That
Is a **** happy
Yakuza
Seeking revenge

I hate men!!!!

I am Jodi Arais
Who won’t take no
For an answer
Nor
While I put up with your ****

I hate men!!!!

I am Stella Nickle
Trying rid myself
Of love
But ended up poisoning
Innocent people.  
My weapon cyanide.

I hate men!!!!

I probably want to be a robot
So I cannot be a ****** being
That is just not me.

I probably want to be a robot
Then I would be flawless
And be able to be happy.  

I probably want to be a robot
So I don’t have to be on this demented planet
Space instead.

I probably want to be a robot
Because I am too intelligent to
Be human.  

I probably want to be a robot
Because I can save the world
And not get killed

I probably want to be a robot
But
I probably want to Batman

I don’t know
How much
A of delecate snow flake you
Are
But I hope you
I hope putting your
Love letters
In my screen shots
And Dropbox
Doesn’t freak you out.