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Matthew Jan 2019
It has only been a day or two
since I first joined site
and in that time I have found
why you have this might

When we decide to write
we give up part of us
Then we just leave it there...
for others to discuss

And when I start to
go into my worst state
I read the poems here
and see how you could relate

A poem is for everyone
and here that holds most true
So this is why I ask
to see myself in you

Now when I wake up the next day,
I know for sure to say,
"Hello Poetry."
This poem is for everyone on this site.  Especially the ones that helped me navigate and make my poems better.
Matthew Mar 2019
What a ******* idiot
the fear is dying
Matthew Feb 2019
"I didn't know you were Queer."

What made you think I was straight?
Matthew Jan 2019
Do you ever realize?
That we can never be perfect because we
are individuals.
A world of perfection means a world without individuality.
So we will remain enterally in chaos.
Maybe, maybe not.  Just a random thought
Matthew Feb 2019
Hush little baby, don't run away
Mama's gonna see you another day

And if that time is too much to bear,
Papa's gonna buy you a new blue chair

keep that blue chair close to you
I'll need it for the day you say "I do"

Shh little baby, wipe away those tears
There is something that you need to hear

                                                           ­                         I'll love seeing you again
                                                           ­                                          remember that

                                                           ­                                 It might be too soon
                                                            ­                                    for you to accept,
                                                         ­                                                            but
                                                             ­                                                            ...
                                                             ­                                                              .
                                                               ­                                     She's dead
Final words
Matthew Jan 2019
Love is love
Until
it's
not

or
it
never was
I really don't know what to say about this.   This what I would call modern poetry.  Simple. It's going to be quite ironic is this becomes popular,
Matthew Feb 2019
I guess I love the way
you listen with your lips

I guess I love the way
we live inside our dreams

You take away the tears
With one insignificant laugh

One look at us
in the lazy afternoon hue
I know why I'm with you

Why am I so hesitant to accept your lips and laugh?
To run away in your eyes
full of sunlight

Because my pupils never grow
You might be blinded by the light.
Because I see storm clouds
It is raining,
drops of
my blue
tears.
Something just A thought.
Matthew Feb 2019
I Know
I am just
An Old Shoe
That should be thrown away
But if you tear me to small pieces.
And rearrange my flesh to be with you
It could be the perfect fit for me and you.
Love,
Your Old Shoe
Matthew Mar 2019
just watch me



not like anyone cares
Matthew Jan 2019
Endless Apologies
only bears
Agonizing Pain
Matthew Feb 2019
mistakes make us
human
and as
i
make the same
ones
over
and
over
i
no longer
see mistakes
i see an unalienable personality
that i can never give up
im trying
to climb a mountain
that goes on interminably

don't worry the end is near
all i need to do is stop climbing
and fall...
Matthew Feb 2021
I'm a
robot

My frayed wires
hidden
by my familiar
square head

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Matthew Jan 2019
Troubled, Crying, Red, eyes
The bottle containing
Tablets
The tablets help
Tireless exhaustion knocks the bottle
Tiny white dots
Tick away on a white surface
Transparent to my vision
Too many to count
Try to close my eyelids
To rest interminably
Two, four, eleven,
Twenty is needed.
Matthew Sep 2020
Inspiration moves like the wind
touching the grass
moving the hair.

It waxes and wanes
with or without your
input

Inspiration is the cool breeze during twilight
pointing you toward the moons and the stars
of the universe.
Matthew Aug 2021
I'm gay



- that's gay tho.


Oops I forgot sorry.
Matthew Feb 2019
The Two Poems I won't forget:
You read them warmly as if your lips were butterscotch
Looking just beyond your notebook paper.
Reading with the bittersweetness of siren's song
knowing whoever listens will perish
The sounds gracing our ears to enter our hearts.
Your poems of a velvet sofa left by the street
and a matchstick box waiting to be burned.
I will never forget those poems.
Ever.
Maybe I found the wrong muse.
Matthew Jan 2019
People are rivers.
Rivers that go on.
on to tomorrow.
Tomorrow into dawn.

The way we want to change
change the river's flow
flow through the sky
sky that is never low

Endlessly going in one direction.
direction that can not be easily changed.
changed never by only asking.
asking for a difference in what has been arranged.

We can build a dam.
Dam that changes goals.
Goals are never just.
Just watch out for holes
The way I perceive this poem, people are rivers.  You can't ask someone or a river to change by just asking them.  You have to build a dam, but dams might have holes.
Matthew Feb 2019
The word t
                  u mbling fro
                                      m my mouth.
A Bold Statement
They stop...
A blood red lie, I kept in my pocket
Their body turning towards the fresh noise
Revealing, laughter
Their expression a stern nod of disapproval,
and a shove aside
I am now a clown,
a mockery
I repeated
those stale claims made in contempt

My tears
Sweet chocolate

Their laughter
joined by mine
The words being
I am gay



This poem is about how I was always called "gay" because of my mannerisms and uninterest in women.  When I came out, it was a joke because I always denied it was "the secret I kept in my pocket".  Even though they don't accept me, it doesn't matter.  All their power is taken when you laugh with them.
Matthew Nov 2019
I think I'm gay
for you

Are you straight?
for me???????

Yolo
Put yall seatbelts on
Matthew Feb 2019
"It's okay"
A whisper from your soul
words so
ethereal
because they
come from you
You,
I,
might be wrong,
    but buried in your shirt
the phrase
makes the tears fall
My heavy eyelids
Your blue shirt,
is now the perfect pillow.
Matthew Mar 31
I wish i was valuable to you
I want to be the treasure
You keep safe
I want you to lose yourself
When I have to give myself away
I want to you to love me regardless
I want to see your ugly
I want to see what parts of yourself you hide from others
I want to see your shame
And love you
Regardless
Matthew Jan 2019
When I was young enough to know that I did not fit in.
I proposed that I was an angel
that fell from the heavens and lost their wings.
All I had to do to make friends was find them.

So I spent the next day frantically searching for my wings.
Sobbing with despair when I never found them,
and looking at the sunset only slightly out of reach.

Even now, I never found my wings.
But I did find other fallen angels.
A rare poem of hope.  I really like this one. Do you know what that means? I don't know.
Matthew Apr 2019
I saw it drip
from your cheeks
and to the ground
as everything became clear.
The flashing colors on the highway
so enticing...

but
she
stopped you

should of jumped

f
a
g
g
o
t
Matthew Sep 2021
Jermy sotp
don't **** oold peopel
**** bbaie inseatd
use infitnity ganuelet to destroy the chidlren
the infinity guanlyte you recieved from game stop
do it
emperoro palistine voice Do It!
Matthew Sep 2020
There once was a man named John
He was gay
and wished he wasn't

So he decided to try something new
He married a woman
he raised all the goats, prostitutes, and ******* goats
His face formed a straight toothed smile
covering a shadowed tear
his circuits failed to reach a lightbulb
and no connection was made
now he was in prison
for holding an illegal human trafficking ring
and the ******* goats were allowed to roam free.
sometimes you can still hear them calling out to their owner John.
Such a sad story
based on this old poem
https://hellopoetry.com/poem/3031425/my-name-is-john/
Matthew Mar 2019
I Think I am falling more and more in love
With you
It will just make the heartbreak so much worse.....
.....
....
..
I
Luv
U
Yeety *****
Matthew Feb 2019
Observe how
the grass isn't green.
You are presenting me black weeds
overdue
for mowing.
You can't show me shriveled brown dandelions
and compare them to the ethereal blue roses
that your garden once bore.
Matthew Mar 2019
It seems to
always be
about regrets
about mistakes
about worries
about pains
the knife doesn't
solve those problems
It erases you
for others
to sweep the shavings off their desk.
Matthew Mar 2019
are what my mommy calls
them.
as they disappear down
in her tummy
she
laugh
and smiles
But
Where
has
HER
EYES
GONE
Matthew Mar 2019
Look at me
I have a dream
to see the stars
and hear the trees

Look at me
I'm so naive
to be this far
yet not retrieve

Look at me
I'm in tears;
pain too much
for ****** ears.

Look at me
my spotlight gone
from my heart
another dawn.
UHGHJBU
Matthew Feb 2019
"Look at me.
You mean more than you understand.
I just don't
always show it."
Matthew Jan 2019
A moment she was already starting to repress.
That would never come back again...
Though, she gained weight.
Something she couldn't deny.
It was her boyfriend's
she told
them all.

It was okay.
They threw
her a shower
and gave her
gifts.

She smiled
for her
baby.

To come
in
many
months.

Oblivious
to
the

b
l
o
o
d

spil
lin
n
g

from


her



thighs.
A story of an expecting mother
Matthew Mar 2019
I had a passed your gaze
Stuck in my gray shadow
We crossed paths, but never you never saw me
You can call out my name
but only I can
watch you sob
As I'm called a liar
But I am
standing
right next to you
just
read the epitaph.
Based on a pointless dream
Matthew Feb 2019
It was
Love
that brought
us to be
wasn't it
Matthew May 2019
I'm diselics
Matthew Apr 2021
Straight Culture is sexualizing femboys and invalidating trans women
in the same breath....
Thank you JEEBUS
Matthew Sep 2021
Republicans go mask off
because they are anti mask
and all the homophobia, sexism, and racism
is spread because of
a viral video.
Get your Vaccine kids.
Matthew Apr 2019
There's a missing link you can't find
Matthew Nov 2019
1000 years have gone and went

What was Music to my ears
Is now

aids to my eyes.
Matthew Jun 2019
It thicccc
Matthew Sep 2021
I don't want to be her.
I want her power.
Her power to be pretty enough for any guy she wants.
The guy I thought about once or twice.
She's talked to him with her grace and twisted jokes
Charmed the pants off him
O' the Envy I FEEL
It fuels a burning rage
Unwarranted rage
I love her to death
She's to die for.
She faces problems I don't face everyday.
Her life is hard and she doesn't deserve the Rotten apples that follow her.
Yet my mind focuses on her power.
She has it and I don't
The one thing she has
And I want it for myself.
She deserves her power most of all
I'm happy for her
and I should be
Til death do us part
Matthew Mar 2019
Will you listen to my favorite song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Qr2T1az1Ck
Matthew Mar 2019
Remember the Poems I gave to you
in the afternoon haze of those Autumn days.
The golden hour was in between us
as the birds sang their nightly Lullabies.
Yet, I know the dark lies
spoken as the sun set her sleepy head.
I put more faith in my tattered lies
than you did.
I've seen your body
move,
slower,
an
d
******>wer.
toward the
cold reflections in the moonlight.
moonlight in the cold reflections.
Matthew Mar 2019
My name is John
And I am gay
I look outside
Every single frickin day

I wish I was straight
So that I could own a goat
And a *******
And ******* goats
Matthew Feb 2019
I wasn't taught to have my own opinion
Only taught to follow the "correct" one.
Matthew Jan 2019
Child like innocence
and strange infatuations
Limbo

Limited days spent thinking of the
love of my life
soon to change
the next week.

Hiding furtive crushes from the ones you love.
Until they realize it
ten seconds later

Acting as if these trivial days
will matter years later.

But somehow, still wanting those days to never go away.
And never going to end it.
Matthew Mar 2019
It's NANA B's STASH.
DON'T TELL ANYONE
link here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e2MJe81fyRw/
Matthew Jan 2019
I have talent, I suppose
But what I truly fear is
not r
        e
          aching
f  a  r
enough.
I really despise this poem.
Matthew Jan 2019
Just because I was forced to make myself appear normal to everyone else.
Doesn't mean I am normal.
Matthew Jan 2019
Till Death, do Us part
A joke at my expense?
Trivial
BR oKen Hearts
Never wanting to shatter
Though, we never did leave

Now I smile, but only when
Looking
Backward.
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