There’s no reason i should allow myself to bring children into this world Children with the same problems that I have How selfish of me to think and assume I deserve or am worthy of allowing myself to bring someone into this world with my issues? The anxiety, the depression, the self deprecating thoughts
I wouldn’t be a good mom
How could I look into the eyes of my sons or daughters and know I brought them into this world to feel such immense pain? What would give me the right to bring children into this hell full of negativity, poverty and intense drama?
I couldn’t be a good mom
How insanely asinine of me to think I should be projecting my problems into my spawn? What part of my last twenty seven years of life would prompt me to believe I should feel the happiness and pride the mothers and fathers around me feel?
But what if all my honest, true, real self realization would make me the best mom ever?
I know I am meant to be a mother with all that I am. I close my eyes to see my child’s face and feel their little hands. I open my eyes and the bliss shifts to pain as fear heavier than anything I could explain cuts through my chest like a rip tide. What means the world to me may have been forever taken from me by a man I meant nothing to.
Claire is cleaning fragrant poo off her baby's buttocks and she feels "this experience fulfils my need to have children and makes me happy but it's work!"
Claire's husband arrives home and she asks "How was your day dear?" and he says "I've had a long hard day at work, and I'm tired please give me my my dinner." He does not asks how her day went and Claire feels disappointed and unhappy that her husband thinks that she does not earn money and therefore what she does is not work.
As Claire puts a white plate of steaming steak, peas, carrots, potatoes on the dining table for her husband she says "Would you ask me how my day went? Mothers work too."
My first love child was taken RIP one October sad day by an ignorant butcher abortionist MD My lover jumped off a cliff thought I didn't love him in his absence The butcher said I was the worst Mom of the universe the ignorant lier fool. the first child to an rho-negative Mom like me never has any problem most babies are rho negative like Mom child never has blood incompatibity before or after birth with Mom even if father is rho possitive, A Rhogam vaccine existed immuno globulin given to rho negative Mom prevents body developping antibodies against child's possitive rh blood if child dies inside and c section is needed there's no blood to give Mom One in a hundred people have it, so aborting was dangerous too I was fired from my work for not being married back then. I was sick couldn't retain water I had an infection antibiotic could have save me and unborn child but wasn't given any. so I set lover free because I Ioved him more than Ioved myself I sacrificed my love for him rddjpc I took the blows of his hatred too I roamed the Earth decades seeking his understanding to return and he did but dead silence killed our dream in buried pain too deep for tears I was such a little red ridding hood even wolves got ahold of me as I wanted to die in motherhood.
No child of mine got killed again oh wolves salivated and roamed. My enemies were malignantly jealous sterile fem fatales, who sought my life trashing me for my blood type As their ex was on to me many attempts against me followed what would those Medea's know about saving a life or setting the man of their obsessions free they hunt and lie in wait for my last breath for profit welcome to America the great where the breave free are bate I'm The Charles Mansons advocates The human predator,. the poisoners Greek **** narcissist. I was very protective of my kids my children are amazing beauties my bittersweet rewards we are the RHO negatives rhA- negatives and rh-O possitive and we are alive and well. I am anbE T. hibrid and pfoud. ~~~~~ Mr. and Mrs. Andrews
mother, yelling at her child in the market mother, stranger, how i wish to yell at you a child. so precious, ALIVE! BREATHING! HERE. how i wish i had a child to yell at to take into my arms to love to kiss to hug to yell at, never again.