watch her eyes
because they're watching you
her eyes are spies
secrets they know to be true

watch her eyes
creep into her head
watch her closely
before she's dead

If I have a kid,

I'd prefer a boy.

Periods and childbirth

is not a joy.

I AM NOT DEEP.

I just think alot
I'm not weak
I just feel alot
I'm not probing
I just see alot

they whisper
oohh "she so deep"
I ain't loud
I just make words
echo when I speak

I am not
deep,
simply because
I utilize
my mind
to think!

Nothing more
far from less
than just another
intellectual
poetry freak

I have always been called
a natural beauty
never seen the purpose
to cover my flaws
here I AM
imperfections and ALL.
I wear it well too........
all except this painted smile
Oh ...............yes................I forgot...........about................you

I desire a love so deep that
even cupid becomes jealous!

I have missed
out on the thrills
of being a soft place
between a rock
and a hard place
which is a bad boy

I was afraid
of becoming a toy
a welcome mat,
stepped on repeatedly
covered in dirt
and worthlessness

because of fear
I found myself
held hostage to boring love
with good guys
who in the end
only proved
to be ugly lies

which led
to my beautiful cries
in the end,
I should have taken my chances
with the handsome devils
who were at least good at dancing!

black ice

cold,

slick,

danger in disguise.


pained,

sick from the rain

clear cries

black eyes

weekends are made of
passion,
pleasure,
and pain.

passion makes us do things
like fall in love with strangers
on a two day binge
doing unspeakable things
to one another
making our bodies cringe
moments of pleasure
we'll both soon forget
but living fast is fun
the best time spent!

Monday always forbids us
introducing the heartbreak game
you used my body
and I forgot your name

weekends are simply a fantasy
with their share of pain
"it was nice knowing you,
glad you came."

whatever you do
dare not to stare
they will take you places
do not be willing
to go there

they are tainted
they will ruin you
right from the start
cover your body
protect your heart

puppy dog eyes
bedroom glares
never fall captive
to scorpio or pisces
no matter who dares

Last night
in my dream...

I kissed
the sweetest thing...

Yesterday,
In church
I prayed.

Because even here
I am not safe.
Even here
lust is in my way.
Protect me father,
with you, I am saved.

Lord forgive me,
for my impure thoughts
on your holy day.

In October I turn 24,

I don't want to feel young anymore.

If I enter as a girl

Could I leave a woman?

promise me this, or I'm not coming!

seldoms rests

rarely is at peace.

my soul hardly ever sleeps.

But...

when it's quiet; I dream.

when it's noisey; I scream!

Freckles dance
      across her face

  Like a southern gal in a
           juke joint place

for you
this is buisness.

for you
I am just a job.

for you
I am just a stranger.

for me
this is personal.

for me
this is pleasure.

for me
you are a friend.

thank you for human contact
I wish your touch would never end.

Love seems so far away.

When lust is available everyday.

not sure if I am cold
like they believe
or simply numb,
from being treated coldly
for so **** long.

a pretty girl whose smile
is always in rare form
spectators judge
others intriqued
with the quiet storm.

"knock knock,
is anybody home?"
I AM HERE,
but my emotions
are long gone.

She thought she was something

until she met a person

who made her something,

feel like nothing.

As a child, I had it figured it out.
Until lust grew within me
Sin gave birth and *** came about.

Like a girl coming on her first menstuation,
blood on white sheets.
Or a boy having his first *******,
White fluid cream on dark sheets.

As an adult, I became impure.
Now, I know nothing.
Now, I am no longer sure.

the darkest depths
and hell lows
we dangerously go
to be noticed
by the one we desire.

Some call it foolish,
or just plain crazy!
I just see it as a route
to the heart of the
one I admire.

There is no worse pain
than seeing babies grow
into kids who hardly ever
call your name.

It's hard to compete with the world,
it's glory, it's beauty, it's fame.

Is my generation to blame?

I've tried
tried, tried
and now
I'm tired.

my heart
is under attack
because no one
seems to love me back.

now I'm left with this
this youthful body
and this pretty sad face
in this empty place.

guess I'm left
to love myself
***** anyone else.

He makes me feel afraid
and protected at the same time.

He makes me feel belittled
and challenges my intellectual mind.

He is my old flame,
but I'd like him to be my new thang.

wait, what?

I'm drunk in love,
and not sure what I'm saying!

bathe me
since you long for intimacy
I'm here baby,
still you do not see

caress this skin
forgive this sin
give me passion
if you can

tell me I'm beautiful
if you dare
"look at me" said the mirror
I know you care!

turn off the lights
relax, don't fight
*and make love to
your body tonight

you were welcoming,
yet rejection clouded my action.

you were kind,
still fear was on my mind.

you wore a smile,
time never stayed a long while.

you left,
and I never formally introduced myself.

you were light shining so beautifully,
I watched from afar so pitifully.

Now you're gone,
and a friend in you I wished I'd known.

Love does
appear at first sight,
our eyes met
in the dark
at midnight.
your piercing window
ignited fire in my frozen soul
now your body,
your mind,
I wish to know.

I looked at you
and fell out of love.
but then you smiled;
and changed my mind.

deeper than the skies
is the mystery of her eyes

deeper than the ocean
is the dance of her walk in motion

deeper than the wild
is her voice so powerful but tenderly mild

deeper than the depths of the universe, falling in love
with such a girl is yet, but a blessing and a curse...

Sharks are feared.
Whales are respected.
the water forever flows
the others do not know
or care where the little one goes.

Alone.
Too far gone,
is a little fish
swimming to a distant place
she can call home.

Big world.
Little me.
2 be the little fish in the great big sea
is the deepest darkest blue
called misery.

maybe we were never meant to be.

maybe you did once love me.

it's that 50% chance

of uncertainity

that fail my relationships

Miserably.

greedy eyes
never see enough
some call it beauty
others call it lust

greedy ego
can never boast enough
so many friends
very few to trust

greedy heart
can never love enough
giving it's goodness to all
even when it's tough

greedy spirit
can never have enough
complains at life, afraid to die;
it has to conquer more stuff!

rihanna and lana del rey
please don't become her
one day

dorothy dandridge
whitney houston
marilyn monroe
anna nicole

their sadness I did know
beautiful and broken
the pain never let go
the men, the drugs,
the heartache followed
they were all a living example:
misery is captivating
and beauty is shallow

somtimes shy.
beautiful people make me weird;
the reasons why.

Have you ever met a person
More broken than a million pieces?

I have, she's my mother.
Whom I love a billion reasons.

daughters need hugs
Or they’ll grow up
To love thugs!

I hate you.
For not protecting me
Yes, you *******!

I kissed him!
Stole his love from within.

A libras spell,
He turned pale.

His soul had left his body.
this wasn't good, I felt naughty.

I wanted to give him back his life, CPR maybe?
His struggle for air drove me crazy!

But a voice told me not to bother,
cuz this was the normal reaction for a fish out of water.

I know magic, wanna see?

undress, come closer to me.

Can you
act out every word
you ever
promised
me?

forgive me father
for I have sinned
sorry once
& again.