Hands once warm and steady,
are now distant and heavy.
I crave to touch you ever so slight,
But I keep it contained with all my might.
Eyes once curious and brave,
stay dimly lit to soften my graze.
Heart so gentle and true,
now hesitant with loving you.

Dark as night
Blindly you fight.
Bright as day,
light is in your way.
Fragile as glass,
tarnished as brass.
Colder than zero,
trying to be a hero.

They say in love,
when you know you know.
Easier to understand,
If your baby didn't go. . .
How to fix,
what didn't deserve to be broken.
I should be crying or smoking,
Pride tells me I'm joking.
Because,
What's a lover-girl to do?
If she can't be loving.

Leave me alone as I fade away.
I was only visiting, never wanted to stay.
Don't touch me as I grow cold and blue...
I know you cared, this part is true.
Life was a blur,
love was never there.
Allow me to die,
death is only fair.

If I could go back,
there would be no me.
Find me in paradise,
lounging at the beach.
I would laugh,
as my siblings swam towards the sea...
As I float in nothingness,
finally free.

Half blind, I've seen life's darkest days.
Insecure in my direction, dreadful are my ways.
Broken, but still trying to feel.
If I die, I'll know what's real.
Hateful, trying my best at love.
Don't judge me....
I didn't ask for this stuff!

A sweet moment
bring a blush to my face.
I remember the time,
I recall the place.
Open invitation;
you sought my conversation.
My response went deaf,
As I solemnly left...
But I will never forget,
How important you made me felt.

Don't take my vulnerability,
As being weak.
I am a weapon,
I can make you leak.
I will break your heart,
Or make it whole.
I can love you or break your soul.
Not arrogant of the power I hold.
Fire in my eyes,
Cold is my blood.

Invincible,
Yet I left a pool of blood.
Ruthless,
still my tears could flood.
Odd & different,
but I desire to relate.
Alive, but not of this world,
Is a difficult fate.

So what if I'm not your speed.
It's you who I want and I know my needs.
Two the same kind;
You need patience with me;
Blame my mind.
I hope for this union, in time.
For you too see,
Since we met, you were mine.

Had I known our kiss would have been the last. I wouldn't have kissed you, just made you laugh.  Remember my sweetness and my charm. Feel the fire that once kept you warm. Cry from the eyes I would dreamingly gaze into.
Remember our beauty without blaming you.

A shy smile from afar,
may make light for tomorrow.

A half hearted hug,
can be felt as love.

A kind word,
will forever be heard.

The smallest embrace,
can make a mask reveal it's face.

It's okay to be chosen
or not to be.

We all have eyes,
but only a few will see.

It's okay to be bound,
but plan to get free.

Have mercy on you,
grace for me.

I release you, Past.
You have stayed for too long.

Guiding my steps,
to lead me wrong.

Confusion and chaos;
a never ending story.

Your will not hinder my future,
neither my glory.

Baby come back
Where'd you go?
Tell me you're sorry,
and come back home.
Return my dear,
please come near.
Darkness is upon us,
Your safety I fear.
But - - -
If you choose to stay away,
may peace and joy fill your days.

Your eyes told me tales
I promised not to tell.
You taught me to be good,
I learned to be well.
Your smile gave me life,
as I struggled to find meaning.
winter bones caught in fall,
You were my best season.

My first experience,
still makes no sense.
From the intense flirting,
to the awkward first kiss.
You were my target,
Grateful I didn't miss.
A night to remember,
A moment of bliss.

You had me at hello.
My mind wandered places
only bodies would know.
Into your home, next in your bed.
Too close for comfort
as I ran pleasing fingers through your head.
I craved your scent.
Longed for your touch.
If infatuation is a rush,
I need more of this stuff!
It was love at first sight,
A truth, you chose to fight.
Therefore, that hello never turned to goodnight.

I liked to make you mad,
Loved to make you sad.
Anything to convince myself that I didn't LOVE you that **** bad!

Reality was, I was madly in love!
emotions? boundaries? commitment?
I can't process such stuff!

But you loved me.
And in return, I made you cry.
I want to be your baby again,
I'm no longer the bad guy.

Forgive my demeanor,
dare to dig deeper.
There is depth inside,
be brave and ENTER.
As you feel inner, be not afraid.
Rule of my heart:
only losers get played.
Forgive who you perceive,
If not, you should leave...
I am who I am; not who you believe.

My mind is a vessel
That wants me dead.
It ****** me at day,
Rapes me at bed.
Unhinged thoughts,
Has numbed creativity.
Once so optimistic,
Now I doubt my abilities.
This head will bring my end.
A truth, I cannot pretend.
Heavy is the crown,
For a unfortunate man.

Sins of the father
We all become our mother.
Love and acceptance;
We seek in many lovers.
A thousand lifetimes,
Pain knows no number.
Rebirth is good,
But existing is boringly somber.

Black or White.
Wrong or Right.
Dark or Light?

Beauty in both
But is there hope?

For us to undo the past?
If not, we won't last.

Actions have a headstart, but Karma is fast!

I used to be so weak
Only strength I had was to lie and weep.
I cried alone, until the noises collectively made a song.
Melodic lullabies as if I were once a baby.
I never was though,
and that's so crazy.

Woman know your place!
Human know you race.
Object know your space.
Don't show emotion on your face.

Love; reflect your grace.
Forgive our ugliness disguised as mistakes.
Every life will lose the race.
Being born is all it takes.

Versions of me skip tracks like a scratched cd...
Who am? Who do I wanna be?
Memories of myself flash forward as I push them way back...
Youngest person ever; at risk for heart attack.
Cardiac arrest, organs seldom rest.
If God grants me tomorrow,
I will try my best.

Black bodies from the grave will have their day.
Future inheritance and bloodlines,
Their grieved souls will slay.
Visits to evil racist their unrest spirits will pay.
Black ****** is a game racists win and play.
Karma may seem slow,
But she never forgets her way.
When she gets to America,
She's welcome to stay.

Savage start
Gave birth to a savage heart.
Times of cold,
Caused me to carry a heavier load.
Times of abandonment,
Made me question where love was from and if mercy would be sent.
Teenager in the wilderness,
I came of age with bitterness.
Now an adult woman;
I'm a dark merciless tornado and no meteorologist can report which way I'm coming.

You don't know my rage,
Or my age.
My name
does not define my game.
U can't feel my pleasure,
Or know my pain.
Days I'm yin,
Night I'm yang.
Earth inflicts me,
But in space I reign.

It hurts to care,
So, I claim I don't.
It's takes trust to share,
So, I decide I won't.
It takes work to relate,
So instead, I imitate.
Some call it fake,
Still, honest effort it takes.

It use to hurt,
To gain nothing but flirt.
It was simply lust.
Ego, pride & possession all in a rush.
To see, to feel, to experience something real.
With nervous hands,
I would have given my heart.
Glad you didn't take it,
Real F×××ing Smart

Knowing you, was learning myself
I was the healer who wouldn't ask for help.
Knowing you, gave my lonley heart hope.
You; a *** addict, helped me to cope.
Knowing you, reminded to soften.
You made me vulnerable,
And I don't do that often.

Too cool to ask you to warm me up.
My thoughts run free, while my words are stuck.
Too proud to show affection in front of a crowd.
Ego is wild, yet my spirit is bound.
Too angry to feel your point of view,
My ways were wrong, still I passed them for truth.
Too sorry to ask you back again,
Our love was a fight, you deserved to win.

Maybe you were misunderstood,
I would have stayed if I could.
To listen, talk to, feel you out.
But intimacy is something I'm not sure about.
I considered you then, I think of you now.
Cold hearts feel love, don't ask me how.
Just wanted to say; I hope you're fine,
even if you will never be mine.

Fire signs should we press rewind?
You moved too fast:
In competition with time.
You touched my body,
Made love to my mind.
But you burned my heart,
You could never be mine.

Water signs should we start again?
Emotions you play and always win.
Your love is perfect, beauty a ten.
But there is some emotional reason I can't let you in.

Earth signs, you're the king of crossing the line.
It's never your fault; deaf, dumb, and blind.
Greedy, selfish, manipulaters who I bet are just fine.
Of all the bad guys, you're the worst kind!

I am LIBRA, daughter of KARMA
*She said never again shall another one harm her

Ebony skin,
I bet there's paradise within.
Mocha kissed,
Your presence is pure bliss.
Brown sugar scent,
You look like time well spent.
Caramel lover,
I crave you like no other.
Chocolate milk,
You look soft as silk.
Melanin beauty,
I sure hope you choose me.

Cute but anxious,
Not sure how you may take this.
A million moods:
From innocent to crude,
Mental disturbance I allude.
Fun but depressed.
Could you put my soul at rest?
Or would you judge me if I became distressed?
If no to any of the above,
You good citizen, have failed the test.
A for acting,
You gave it your best.