I would say I love you
to the moon and back
But that would be a lie
For my love cannot be measured
by miles or metrics of any kind

My love for you crosses oceans
My affection spans galaxy's
My adoration does not end at
a point decided by a ruler

My love for you is endless

A butterfly kiss like a smile in the wind

Sometimes life gives you no's
there may not be a reasonable explanation
Not even a justification
Just a no
And you have to know how to deal with that

I wish I could explain how much I love you
but those emotions can not be put into words
so I will never be able to let you know how much you mean to me
not even a sliver of what I feel you will understand

I'm sorry I hurt you in the past
It's the biggest mistake I ever made
you cared about me
and I threw it away
I threw you away
but I was the one who was a piece of trash
I regret that I didn't take in your love
I regret that I pushed you away

You are the only guy
who has loved me
and cared for me
and treated me like a lady
what else did I want from you?
I don't even remember.

I know that I am mean to you sometimes
sometimes I hope you will say something mean back
but you never do
you roll with the punches
and I'm sorry that I keep hitting
I just want a reaction
something, anything
but your face is a stone
and I don't know what you are thinking
I hope it's about me though

I wish I could let you know how much I care and I wish you would just care too.

I wish I was bitter about you.
Then maybe I wouldn't cry so much.
Because right now I still love you. And sometimes you act like you still love me, but I am not sure if you actually do. Your late night phone calls but lack of effort in person has got me all confused. My emotions range from hurt, sad, depressed, annoyed, angry, all the way back to hopeful. It always lands on hopeful in the end. But wouldn't it be so much easier if i just felt bitterness. All of that confusion gone, just a little bit of bitterness in my heart. I think that would be easier.
But the problem is you haven't hurt me enough for me not to love you. So I care about you in ways that you don't even know. And that doesn't just go away.

With Love even now,
Lost Girl

The stars and the moon light my way
but you asked about those hazy days,
when you look up and there's nothing but darkness
Well those days have caught me in the most dreaded loneliness
Those are the days that hurt everywhere
The days that I can't bare to walk without each step feeling like a loss
those are the days I miss having someone

I miss your embrace more than anything

We are all lost
Wandering through the maze of life
No compass to guide us
Only our thoughts to accompany us

We are all scared of the monsters
The noises in the dark
But we never ask other for help
Even though they might know the way out

We wander for years
Maybe even our whole lives
Getting deeper and deeper into the maze
Most never find the way out

I don't think you know what love is
Not the way I do
Each time you find someone new
You say
Oh this time it's real
but it never really is
you just fall in the same trap
of lust and delight
captured by their looks
or cunning wit
but as time moves on
so do you

I watched as cars rushed past the large windows
Each one bouncing sunlight back in at us

I listened to every word you said
Even if I didn't understand what you meant
Even if I didn't care for the topic
I cared about you

I looked back into your eyes
gleaming in the ever present sunlight
I swear I've never seen a shade of green so beautiful

every word they speak
leaves an impression
on her heart

every idea explained
leaves an unspeakable expression
on her face

every whisper with her name
leaves a tear
on her cheek

they will never understand
what they are capable of,
how much they can hurt her

how they can make her feel
like she has no one
like she is worthless

how they can make her feel
like she is ugly
like she is dumb

Maybe it's my fault
but
Maybe it's not

Maybe I care too much
but
Maybe you don't care enough

Maybe I trust too much
but
Maybe I don't trust enough

I have such disdain for the words "I Love You"
these words have been said a billion times to me
by some who mean it
but by more who don't

they were the words used
by the boy who ***** me
to explain why he had put himself inside me

they were the words muttered
at the end of my parents phone calls
hoping to convince themselves
or maybe others
that they cared for one another

I have said these words to acquaintances
family members I barely know
and even passerby's

But for some reason they are still the only words
that come to mind
when trying to let you know
how you brighten my days
how your smile warms my heart
and how every time I think of you my eyes light up

I love you
but there's so much more than that
I want you to know
there is meaning behind the words

I got lost in her eyes
But I found the world there
I got taken by her brain
Stolen to a galaxy far away

The morning I awake
To your arms around me

I am reminded
of how much I am loved
and how much I love you

I am reminded
of how safe I feel with you
and how I never want to be with out you

I am reminded
of what you mean to me,
*everything

I found my greatest fault
It wasn't my laugh
It wasn't the way I stuttered when I talked
It wasn't the shape of my body
It was never any of those things

It was that I let people like you
Make me believe that I was less
Because of those things

My laugh
Is unique and beautiful

My speech pattern
Doesn't matter

My body
Is perfect for me

My greatest fault
Was letting people knock me down
Was believing the nasty things they said
Was letting people push me around
Was not realizing my beauty within


And I
I
Am stronger than that

I tuck pens under cushions
Use receipts like paper
Then stash them away quickly
So no one will see
What I write

No one thinks of me as that type
The one that writes
But I do

But if they knew
Then curiosity would strike
And I can't bare the thought
Of their judging eyes
Viewing my art

I knew a boy, who was beautiful in every way
But never felt that way
He always offered to take the smaller half
Not because he wanted less
but because he knew he wasn't good enough
to have more

I could write a million poems to you
but it would never be enough

Everything I have to say to you
is too much to ever put in words
I keep telling myself
you will fade out
I will forget about you
you won't matter anymore
I will cease to love you

But I don't think it works that way
all these years
even when we didn't talk
the ember in my heart stayed hot
just saying hi to you can bring it to a full blaze
and light my heart on fire once again

I don't believe there will ever not be a spot for you in my heart
the fire will never completely go out

The rain pelted the glass, door in the small poorly lit room
his fingers danced across the table searching for somewhere to go
                                                              ­ They jumped
d
o
w
n
to his pocket
where they slid down the smooth edging
of the paper box
containing little rolled up cylinders of his future
his fingers gently pulled at the top of the container
until it opened
and the smell of sweet tobacco escaped
                                                         ­                      clunk
a noise from outside stopped him
letting the box fall closed
his fingers idle at his sides

saving (if only for a minute)
his future from the flame
threatening to engulf his life

We are always the victim of our own story
We fashion wings of innocence for ourselves
accessorized by a halo of compassion and charity
Then we paint a mask on others
using colors such as greed and hatefulness
to show how truly evil they were
never wanting to admit our own fault
for fear of realizing our lingering evil inside

You made something
that was so comfortable
so mine, so safe
into a place I am scared of
it doesn't feel like home anymore
I find shelter in other places

some days I hate you for it
I know it wasn't your intention
but the outcome is the same either way

I've found that my balance
is dependent on light
at night
I begin to waiver
to and fro
Not knowing which way is right
I tend to fall
on the nights
when the moon has no presence
the stars
never seem to be enough
to keep me up
and there I wait till morning light
small tears gliding over my cheeks
my mind running in circles

I only write in red
I wield a pen full of blood
the pain giving meaning
to the careless actions of my wrist

I feel so ******* pathetic
Laying in this bed
Crying my heart out

It hurts me to know
That you aren't hurt
That you don't care
That you don't love me

And I can't do anything about it

Except lay here and cry

I told you I would do anything for you, love
I would climb mountains
I would cross oceans
just to see a smile on your face
Because isn't that what love is

So you asked me for one thing
to be patient
oh how it would be easier to climb a mountain
patience is key
but patience is not something I have the key to

I will do my best to be what you need me to be
please just remember
I am human too
I make mistakes
that sometimes hurt you

What she saw in him was
eyes brighter than the stars
a smile longer than any river
love bigger than the earth
and all the cliches in the world

But all he saw in her was
a pitiful little girl

I didn't realize what I was doing
It was all just fun and games
But I went in too deep
And now I can't back out

Not without hurting you
Oh how I hate hurting you
I thought that I was doing what was best
For both of us
But when I stepped away
I saw that i was hurting us

Now we are stuck
Either being unhappy together
Or being unhappy apart

There are pieces of you scattered throughout my room

   a pair of socks
                                                                  The stuffed animal you bought me
                                         your favorite food in my cabinet
a jacket you never took back
                                                                a pen of yours

I wonder if you will ever come retrieve them
I hope if you do, you bring back
The piece of my heart I left with you

someone planted a seed of sadness inside of him along time ago
it took root and began to bloom before he even knew
at first he fought it, trying to trim it down, choke it out
but it was tougher than he expected
so he learned to live with it
but each day it grew, its roots reaching to the tips of his toes
it poisoned any joy that tried to reclaim him
he started watering it and caring for it
more than he even did himself
It became so apart of him that he could not separate the two
he no longer wanted it to die
for fear that its death
might **** him

I'm so scared
not because I have never been through it
there are more knives in my back than I can count
my heart is in such small pieces I don't know how to put it back together anymore

I'm scared because I think I might actually like you
I'm scared because I've heard what happens when you really like someone
and its never good

please don't break my heart

I love you
And that's the problem
I will eventually hurt you
I will disappoint you
I will make you cry
It's not that I mean to
It's truly an accident
Love causes pain
That's why I wanted to tell you
I'm Sorry
Even if I haven't hurt you yet
I eventually will

She's treated like a princess
and I the troll
But they've got it all wrong
the evil she possesses is beyond compare
and once it's realized
they will beg
and beg
but I will say no
because she will give them
the hell they all deserve